And that, after hours of discussion, was where they ended. Anna must go at once. Peter must keep the apartment, having Jimmy to look after and to hide. What was a frightful dilemma to him and to Harmony Anna took rather lightly.
"You"ll find some one else to take my place," she said. "If I had a day I could find a dozen."
"And in the interval?" Harmony asked, without looking at Peter.
"The interval! Tut! Peter is your brother, to all intents and purposes.
And if you are thinking of scandal-mongers, who will know?"
Having determined to go, no arguments moved Anna, nor could either of the two think of anything to urge beyond a situation she refused to see, or rather a situation she refused to acknowledge. She was not as comfortable as she pretended. During all that long night, while snow sifted down into the ugly yard and made it beautiful, while Jimmy slept and the white mice played, while Harmony tossed and tried to sleep and Peter sat in his cold room and smoked his pipe, Anna packed her untidy belongings and added a name now and then to a list that was meant for Peter, a list of possible subst.i.tutes for herself in the little household.
She left early the next morning, a grim little person who bent over the sleeping boy hungrily, and insisted on carrying her own bag down the stairs. Harmony did not go to the station, but stayed at home, pale and silent, hovering around against Jimmy"s awakening and struggling against a feeling of panic. Not that she feared Peter or herself. But she was conventional; shielded girls are accustomed to lean for a certain support on the proprieties, as bridgeplayers depend on rules.
Peter came back to breakfast, but ate little. Harmony did not even sit down, but drank her cup of coffee standing, looking down at the snow below. Jimmy still slept.
"Won"t you sit down?" said Peter.
"I"m not hungry, thank you."
"You can sit down without eating."
Peter was nervous. To cover his uneasiness he was distinctly gruff. He pulled a chair out for her and she sat down. Now that they were face to face the tension was lessened. Peter laid Anna"s list on the table between them and bent over it toward her.
"You are hurting me very much, Harry," he said. "Do you know why?"
"I? I am only sorry about Anna. I miss her. I--I was fond of her."
"So was I. But that isn"t it, Harry. It"s something else."
"I"m uncomfortable, Peter."
"So am I. I"m sorry you don"t trust me. For that"s it."
"Not at all. But, Peter, what will people say?"
"A great deal, if they know. Who is to know? How many people know about us? A handful, at the most, McLean and Mrs. Boyer and one or two others.
Of course I can go away until we get some one to take Anna"s place, but you"d be here alone at night, and if the youngster had an attack--"
"Oh, no, don"t leave him!"
"It"s holiday time. There are no clinics until next week. If you"ll put up with me--"
"Put up with you, when it is your apartment I use, your food I eat!" She almost choked. "Peter, I must talk about money."
"I"m coming to that. Don"t you suppose you more than earn everything?
Doesn"t it humiliate me hourly to see you working here?"
"Peter! Would you rob me of my last vestige of self-respect?"
This being unanswerable, Peter fell back on his major premise.
"If you"ll put up with me for a day or so I"ll take this list of Anna"s and hunt up some body. Just describe the person you desire and I"ll find her." He a.s.sumed a certainty he was far from feeling, but it rea.s.sured the girl. "A woman, of course?"
"Of course. And not young."
""Not young,"" wrote Peter. "Fat?"
Harmony recalled Mrs. Boyer"s ample figure and shook her head.
"Not too stout. And agreeable. That"s most important."
""Agreeable,"" wrote Peter. "Although Anna was hardly agreeable, in the strict sense of the word, was she?"
"She was interesting, and--and human."
""Human!"" wrote Peter. "Wanted, a woman, not young, not too stout, agreeable and human. Shall I advertise?"
The strain was quite gone by that time. Harmony was smiling. Jimmy, waking, called for food, and the morning of the first day was under way.
Peter was well content that morning, in spite of an undercurrent of uneasiness. Before this Anna had shared his proprietorship with him. Now the little household was his. His vicarious domesticity pleased him. He strutted about, taking a new view of his domain; he tightened a doork.n.o.b and fastened a noisy window. He inspected the coal-supply and grumbled over its quality. He filled the copper kettle on the stove, carried in the water for Jimmy"s morning bath, cleaned the mouse cage. He even insisted on peeling the little German potatoes, until Harmony cried aloud at his wastefulness and took the knife from him.
And afterward, while Harmony in the sickroom read aloud and Jimmy put the wooden sentry into the cage to keep order, he got out his books and tried to study. But he did little work. His book lay on his knee, his pipe died beside him. The strangeness of the situation came over him, sitting there, and left him rather frightened. He tried to see it from the viewpoint of an outsider, and found himself incredulous and doubting. McLean would resent the situation. Even the Portier was a person to reckon with. The skepticism of the American colony was a thing to fear and avoid.
And over all hung the incessant worry about money; he could just manage alone. He could not, by any method he knew of, stretch his resources to cover a separate arrangement for himself. But he had undertaken to shield a girl-woman and a child, and shield them he would and could.
Brave thoughts were Peter"s that snowy morning in the great salon of Maria Theresa, with the cat of the Portier purring before the fire; brave thoughts, cool reason, with Harmony practicing scales very softly while Jimmy slept, and with Anna speeding through a white world, to the accompaniment of bitter meditation.
Peter had meant to go to Semmering that day, but even the urgency of Marie"s need faded before his own situation. He wired Stewart that he would come as soon as he could, and immediately after lunch departed for the club, Anna"s list in his pocket, Harmony"s requirements in mind. He paused at Jimmy"s door on his way out.
"What shall it be to-day?" he inquired. "A postcard or a crayon?"
"I wish I could have a dog."
"We"ll have a dog when you are better and can take him walking. Wait until spring, son."
"Some more mice?"
"You will have them--but not to-day."
"What holiday comes next?"
"New Year"s Day. Suppose I bring you a New Year"s card."
"That"s right," agreed Jimmy. "One I can send to Dad. Do you think he will come back this year?" wistfully.
Peter dropped on his baggy knees beside the bed and drew the little wasted figure to him.
"I think you"ll surely see him this year, old man," he said huskily.
Peter walked to the Doctors" Club. On the way he happened on little Georgiev, the Bulgarian, and they went on together. Peter managed to make out that Georgiev was studying English, and that he desired to know the state of health and the abode of the Fraulein Wells. Peter evaded the latter by the simple expedient of pretending not to understand. The little Bulgarian watched him earnestly, his smouldering eyes not without suspicion. There had been much talk in the Pension Schwarz about the departure together of the three Americans. The Jew from Galicia still raved over Harmony"s beauty.