"I--I don"t mind it."
"Yes, you do. To-night we"ll go out and make a night of it, shall we?
Supper at the Grand, the theater, and then the Tabarin, eh?"
She loosened herself from his arms.
"What shall I wear? Those horrible things the children bought me--"
"Throw "em away."
"They"re not worn at all."
"Throw them out. Get rid of the things the children got you. Go out to-morrow and buy something you like--not that I don"t like you in anything or without--"
"Frank!"
"Be happy, that"s the thing. It"s the first Christmas without the family, and I miss them too. But we"re together, dear. That"s the big thing. Merry Christmas."
An auspicious opening, that, to Christmas-Day. And they had carried out the program as outlined. Mrs. Boyer had enjoyed it, albeit a bit horrified at the Christmas gayety at the Tabarin.
The next morning, however, she awakened with a keen reaction. Her head ached. She had a sense of taint over her. She was virtue rampant again, as on the day she had first visited the old lodge in the Siebensternstra.s.se.
It is hardly astonishing that by a.s.sociation of ideas Harmony came into her mind again, a brand that might even yet be s.n.a.t.c.hed from the burning. She had been a bit hasty before, she admitted to herself. There was a woman doctor named Gates, although her address at the club was given as Pension Schwarz. She determined to do her shopping early and then to visit the house in the Siebensternstra.s.se. She was not a hard woman, for all her inflexible morality, and more than once she had had an uneasy memory of Harmony"s bewildered, almost stricken face the afternoon of her visit. She had been a watchful mother over a not particularly handsome family of daughters. This lovely young girl needed mothering and she had refused it. She would go back, and if she found she had been wrong and the girl was deserving and honest, she would see what could be done.
The day was wretched. The snow had turned to rain. Mrs. Boyer, shopping, dragged wet skirts and damp feet from store to store. She found nothing that she cared for after all. The garments that looked chic in the windows or on manikins in the shops, were absurd on her. Her insistent bosom bulged, straight lines became curves or tortuous zigzags, plackets gaped, collars choked her or shocked her by their absence. In the mirror of Marie Jedlicka, clad in familiar garments that had accommodated themselves to the idiosyncrasies of her figure, Mrs. Boyer was a plump, rather comely matron. Here before the plate gla.s.s of the modiste, under the glare of a hundred lights, side by side with a slim Austrian girl who looked like a willow wand, Mrs. Boyer was grotesque, ridiculous, monstrous. She shuddered. She almost wept.
It was bad preparation for a visit to the Siebensternstra.s.se. Mrs.
Boyer, finding her vanity gone, convinced that she was an absurdity physically, fell back for comfort on her soul. She had been a good wife and mother; she was chaste, righteous. G.o.d had been cruel to her in the flesh, but He had given her the spirit.
"Madame wishes not the gown? It is beautiful--see the embroidery! And the neck may be filled with chiffon."
"Young woman," she said grimly, "I see the embroidery; and the neck may be filled with chiffon, but not for me! And when you have had five children, you will not buy clothes like that either."
All the kindliness was gone from the visit to the Siebensternstra.s.se; only the determination remained. Wounded to the heart of her self-esteem, her pride in tatters, she took her way to the old lodge and climbed the stairs.
She found a condition of mild excitement. Jimmy had slept long after his bath. Harmony practiced, cut up a chicken for broth, aired blankets for the chair into which Peter on his return was to lift the boy.
She was called to inspect the mouse-cage, which, according to Jimmy, had strawberries in it.
"Far back," he explained. "There in the cotton, Harry."
But it was not strawberries. Harmony opened the cage and very tenderly took out the cotton nest. Eight tiny pink baby mice, clean washed by the mother, lay curled in a heap.
It was a stupendous moment. The joy of vicarious parentage was Jimmy"s.
He named them all immediately and demanded food for them. On Harmony"s delicate explanation that this was unnecessary, life took on a new meaning for Jimmy. He watched the mother lest she slight one. His responsibility weighed on him. Also his inquiring mind was very busy.
"But how did they get there?" he demanded.
"G.o.d sent them, just as he sends babies of all sorts."
"Did he send me?"
"Of course."
"That"s a good one on you, Harry. My father found me in a hollow tree."
"But don"t you think G.o.d had something to do with it?"
Jimmy pondered this.
"I suppose," he reflected, "G.o.d sent Daddy to find me so that I would be his little boy. You never happened to see any babies when you were out walking, did you, Harry?"
"Not in stumps--but I probably wasn"t looking."
Jimmy eyed her with sympathy.
"You may some day. Would you like to have one?"
"Very much," said Harmony, and flushed delightfully.
Jimmy was disposed to press the matter, to urge immediate maternity on her.
"You could lay it here on the bed," he offered, "and I"d watch it. When they yell you let "em suck your finger. I knew a woman once that had a baby and she did that. And it could watch Isabella." Isabella was the mother mouse. "And when I"m better I could take it walking."
"That," said Harmony gravely, "is mighty fine of you, Jimmy boy. I--I"ll think about it." She never denied Jimmy anything, so now she temporized.
"I"ll ask Peter."
Harmony had a half-hysterical moment; then:
"Wouldn"t it be better," she asked, "to keep anything of that sort a secret? And to surprise Peter?"
The boy loved a secret. He played with it in lieu of other occupation.
His uncertain future was sown thick with secrets that would never flower into reality. Thus Peter had shamelessly promised him a visit to the circus when he was able to go, Harmony not to be told until the tickets were bought. Anna had similarly promised to send him from America a pitcher"s glove and a baseball bat. To this list of futurities he now added Harmony"s baby.
Harmony brought in her violin and played softly to him, not to disturb the sleeping mice. She sang, too, a verse that the Big Soprano had been fond of and that Jimmy loved. Not much of a voice was Harmony"s, but sweet and low and very true, as became her violinist"s ear.
"Ah, well! For us all some sweet hope lies Deeply buried from human eyes,"
she sang, her clear eyes luminous.
"And in the hereafter, angels may Roll the stone from its grave away!"
Mrs. Boyer mounted the stairs. She was in a very bad humor. She had snagged her skirt on a nail in the old gate, and although that very morning she had detested the suit, her round of shopping had again endeared it to her. She told the Portier in English what she thought of him, and climbed ponderously, pausing at each landing to examine the damage.
Harmony, having sung Jimmy to sleep, was in the throes of an experiment.
She was trying to smoke.
A very human young person was Harmony, apt to be exceedingly wretched if her hat were of last year"s fashion, anxious to be inconspicuous by doing what every one else was doing, conventional as are the very young, fearful of being an exception.