"It"s too late to say that to me----"
"It is too early to say more."
"Let"s don"t talk about myself, please."
"It has become the only subject in the world that interests me----"
"Please, Mr. Quarren! Are you actually attempting to be silly at this hour of the day? The wise inanities of midnight sound perilously flat in the sunshine--flatter than the flattest champagne, which no bread-crumbs can galvanise into a single bubble. Tell me, why did you wish to see me this morning. I mean the real reason? Was it merely to find out whether I was weak-minded enough to receive you?"
He looked at her, smiling:
"I wanted to see whether you were as real and genuine and wholesome and unspoiled and--and friendly as I thought you were last night."
"Am I?"
"More so."
"Are you so sure about my friendliness?"
"I want to believe in it," he said. "It means a lot to me already."
"Believe in it then, you very badly spoiled young man," she said, stretching out her hand to him impulsively. "I do like you.... And now I think you had better go--unless you want to see Mrs. Lannis."
Retaining her hand for a second he said:
"Before you leave town will you let me ask you a question?"
"I am leaving to-morrow. You"ll have to ask it now."
Their hands fell apart; he seemed doubtful, and she awaited his question, smilingly. And as he made no sign of asking she said:
"You have my permission to ask it. Is it a very impertinent question?"
"Very."
"How impertinent is it?" she inquired curiously.
"Unpardonably personal."
After a silence she laughed.
"Last night," she said, "you told me that I would probably forget you unless I had something unpardonable to forgive you. Isn"t this a good opportunity to leave your unpardonable imprint upon my insulted memory?"
"Excellent," he said. "This is my outrageous question: are you engaged to be married?"
For a full minute she remained silent in her intense displeasure. After the first swift glance of surprise her gray eyes had dropped, and she sat on the gilded arm of the sofa, studying the floor covering--an ancient Saraband rug, with the inevitable and monotonous river-loop symbol covering its old-rose ground in uninteresting repet.i.tion. After a while she lifted her head and met his gaze, quietly.
"I am trying to believe that you did not mean to be offensive," she said. "And now that I have a shadow of a reason to pardon you, I shall probably do so, ultimately."
"But you won"t answer me?" he said, reddening.
"Of course not. Are we on any such footing of intimacy--even of friendship, Mr. Quarren?"
"No. But you are going away--and my reason for speaking--" He checked himself; his reasons were impossible; there was no extenuation to be found in them, no adequate explanation for them, or for his att.i.tude toward this young girl which had crystallised over night--over a sleepless, thrilling night--dazzling him with its wonder and its truth and its purity in the clean rays of the morning sun.
She watched his expression as it changed, troubled, uncertain how to regard him, now.
"It isn"t very much like you, to ask me such a question," she said.
"Before I met you, you thought me one kind of a man; after I met you, you thought me another. Have I turned out to be a third kind?"
"N-no."
"Would I turn into the first kind if I ask you again to answer my question?"
She gave him a swift, expressionless glance:
"I want to like you; I"m trying to, Mr. Quarren. Won"t you let me?"
"I want to have the right to like _you_, too--perhaps more than you will care to have me----"
"Please don"t speak that way--I don"t know what you mean, anyway----"
"That is why I asked you the question--to find out whether I had a right to----"
"Right!" she repeated. "What right? What do you mean? What have you misinterpreted in me that has given you any rights as far as I am concerned? Did you misunderstand our few hours of masked acquaintance--a few moments of perfectly innocent imprudence?--my overlooking certain conventions and listening to you at the telephone this morning--my receiving you here at this silly hour? What has given you any right to say anything to me, Mr. Quarren--to hint of the possibility of anything serious--for the future--or at any time whatever?"
"I have no right," he said, wincing.
"Indeed you have not!" she rejoined warmly, flushed and affronted. "I am glad that is perfectly clear to you."
"No right at all," he repeated--"except the personal privilege of recognising what is cleanest and sweetest and most admirable and most unspoiled in life; the right to care for it without knowing exactly why--the desire to be part of it--as have all men who are awakened out of trivial dreams when such a woman as you crosses their limited and foolish horizon."
She sat staring at him, struggling to comprehend what he was saying, perfectly unable to believe, nor even wishing to, yet painfully attentive to his every word.
"Mr. Quarren," she said, "I was hurt. I imagined presumption where there was none. But I am afraid you are romantic and impulsive to an amazing degree. Yet, both romance and impulse have a place and a reason, not undignified, in human intercourse."--She felt rather superior in turning this phrase, and looked on him a little more kindly----
"If the compliment which you have left me to infer is purely a romantic one, it is nevertheless unwarranted--and, forgive me, unacceptable. The trouble is----"
She paused to recover her wits and her breath; but he took the latter away again as he said:
"I am in love with you; that is the trouble, Mrs. Leeds. And I really have no business to say so until I amount to something."
"You have no business to say so anyway after one single evening"s acquaintance!" she retorted hotly.
"Oh, that! If love were a matter of time and convention--like five o"clock tea!--but it isn"t, you know. It isn"t the brevity of our acquaintance that worries me; it"s what _I_ am--and what _you_ are--and--and the long, long road I have to travel before I am worth your lightest consideration--I never was in love before. Forgive my crudeness. I"m only conscious of the--hopelessness of it all."
Breathless, confused, incredulous, she sat there staring at him--listening to and watching this tall, quiet, cool young fellow who was telling her such incomprehensible things in a manner that began to fascinate her. With an effort she collected herself, shook off the almost eerie interest that was already beginning to obsess her, and stood up, flushed but composed.