"It"s true," she admitted meekly. "I know very little."
Joan looked very lovely as she stood nervously drumming with her gloved fingers on a little table which stood between them, all her a.s.surance gone.
Mario Escobar lived always on the whirling edge of pa.s.sion. The least extra leap of the water caught him and drew him in. He gazed at Joan, and the computing look which cast up her charms made her suddenly hot from head to foot. The good-looking, pretentious fool whom it had been amusing to exhibit amidst the black frowns of her circle had suddenly become exquisitely desirable for herself as a prize, with her beauty, her dainty care to tend it, and her delicious clothes. She would now be a real credit! Escobar took a step towards her.
"After all," he said, "we were such good friends. We had little private interests which we did not share with other people. Surely it was natural that I should wish to see you again."
Mario was speaking smoothly enough now. His voice, his eyes actually caressed her. She was at pains to repress a shiver of physical repulsion. But she remembered his letter very clearly. It had expressed no mere wish to see her. It had claimed a right with a vague threat of making trouble if the right were not conceded. She had recognised the right, not out of the fear of the threat so much--although that weighed with her, as out of a longing to have done with him for good and all.
Instinct had told her that this was the last type of man to find favour in Harry Luttrell"s eyes, that she herself would be lowered from her high pedestal in his heart, if he knew of the false friendship.
"Well, I agreed to see you," she replied. "But I have to go back to the ball. Will you please to be quick?"
"The time and the place were of your own choice."
"My choice!" Joan answered. "I had no choice. A girl amongst visitors in a country house--when is she free? When is she alone? She can keep to her room--yes! But that"s all her liberty. Let her go out, there will be some one at her side."
"If she is like you--no doubt," said Escobar, and again he smiled at her covetously. Joan shook the compliment off her with a hitch of her shoulders.
"We could have met in a hundred places," Mario continued.
"I could have come to call on you as we arranged."
"No!" cried Joan with more vigour than wisdom in her voice. She had a picture of him, of the embarra.s.sment of the Splays and her friends, of the disapproval of Harry Luttrell.
Escobar was quick when he dealt with women, quick and sensitive. The pa.s.sionate denial did not escape him. He began to divine the true cause of this swift upheaval and revolution in her.
"You could have sent me a card for the Willoughbys" dance. It would have been easy enough for us to meet there."
Again she replied, "No!" A note of obstinacy was audible.
"Why?"
Joan did not answer at all.
"I"ll tell you," Escobar flashed out at her angrily. "You wouldn"t be seen with me any more! Suddenly, you would not be seen with me--no, not for the world! That"s the truth, isn"t it? That"s why you come secretly back and bid me meet you in an empty house."
"Hush!" pleaded Joan.
Mario Escobar"s voice had risen as his own words flogged him to a keener indignation.
"Why should I care if all the world hears me?" he replied roughly. "Why should I consider you, who turn me down the moment it suits you, without a reason? It"s fairly galling to me, I a.s.sure you."
Joan nodded her head. Mario Escobar had some right upon his side, she was ready to acknowledge.
"I beg your pardon," she said simply. "Won"t you please be content with that and leave things as they are?"
"When you are a little older you will know that you can never leave things as they are," answered Mario. "I was looking forward to a week of happiness. I have had a week of torment. For lesser insults than yours, men kill in my country."
There were other differences, too, between her country and his. Joan did not cry out, or burst into tears or flinch in any way. She was alone in this room; there was no one, as far as she knew, within the reach of her voice. She had chosen this meeting-place, not altogether because the house would be empty, but because in this first serious difficulty of her life she would be amongst familiar things and draw from them confidence and strength, and a sense of security. With Mario Escobar in front of her, his face ablaze with pa.s.sion, the security vanished altogether. Yet all the more she was raised to the top of her courage.
"Then I shall tell you the truth," she answered gently. "You speak to me of our friendship. It was never anything serious to me. It was a taunt--a foolish taunt to other people."
Mario Escobar flinched, as if she had struck him in the face.
"Yes, I hurt you," she went on in the same gentle voice, which was not the least element in Escobar"s humiliation. "I am very sorry. I tried not to hurt you. I am very ignorant, as you have told me, but I wouldn"t believe it till a week ago. I made it my pride to be different from anybody else. I believed that I was different. I was a fool. I wouldn"t listen. Even during the war. I have shut myself up away from it, trying not to share in the effort, not to feel the pride and the sorrow, pretending that it was just a horrible, sordid business altogether beneath lofty minds! That"s one of the reasons why I chose you for my friend! I was flinging my glove in the face of the little world I knew.
I had _got_ to be different. It"s all very shameful to tell, and I am sorry. Oh, how I am sorry!"
Her sorrow was most evident. She had sunk down upon a couch, her fair head drooping and the tears now running down her cheeks in the bitterness of her shame. But Mario Escobar was untouched by any pity. If any thought occurred to him outside his burning humiliation, it was prompted by the economy of the Spaniard.
"She"ll spoil that frock if she goes on crying," he said to himself, "and it was very expensive."
"I have nothing but remorse to offer in atonement," she went on. "But that remorse is very sincere----"
Mario Escobar swept her plea aside with a furious gesture.
"So that"s it!" he cried. "You were just making a fool of me!" That she, this pretty pink and white girl, should have been making a show of him, parading him before her friends, exhibiting him, using him as a challenge--just as in fact he had been using her, and with more success!
Only to think of it hurt him like a knife. "Your remorse!" he cried scornfully. "There"s some one else, of course!"
Joan sat up straight and stiff. Escobar might have laid a lash across her delicate shoulders.
"Yes," she said defiantly.
"Some one who was not here a week ago?"
"Yes."
To Escobar"s humiliation was now added a sudden fire of jealousy. For the first time to-night, as woman, as flesh and blood, she was adorable, and she owed this transformation, not to him, no, not in the tiniest fraction of a degree to him, but to some one else, some dull boor without niceties or deftness, who had stormed into her life within the week. Who was it? He had got to know. But Joan was hardly thinking of Escobar. Her eyes were turned from him.
"He has set me free from many vanities and follies. If I am grieved and ashamed now, I owe it thankfully to him. If my remorse is bitter, it is because through him I have a gleam of light which helps me to understand."
"And you have told him what you have told me?"
"No, but I shall to-night when all this is over, when I go back to Harrel."
Mario Escobar moved closer to her.
"Are you so sure that you are going back to Harrel to-night?" he asked in a low voice.
"Yes," she replied, and only after she had spoken did the menace of his voice force itself into her mind as something which she must take into account. She looked up at him startled, and as she looked her wonderment turned into stark fear. The cry that in his country men killed had left her unmoved. But she was afraid now, desperately afraid, all the more afraid because she thought of the man searching for her through the reception-rooms at Harrel.
"We are alone here in an empty quarter of the house. So you arranged it," he continued. "Good! Women do not amuse themselves at my expense without being paid for it."
Joan started up in a panic, but Escobar seized her shoulders and forced her down again.
"Sit still," he cried savagely. Then his face changed. For the first time for many minutes his lips parted in a smile of pleasure.
"You are very lovely, Joan. I love to see you like that--afraid--trembling. It is the beginning of recompense."
Joan had tumbled into a deeper pit than any she had dreamed of. In desperation she cast about for means to climb out of it. The secrecy of this meeting--that must go. But, even so, was there escape? The bell?