And from the moment Pendel recognised Ana he knew exactly what she was telling him despite the fact that, like all good storytellers, she kept the best bit till last. Which was why he didn"t pa.s.s the telephone to Marta but kept it to himself, taking the beating on his own body instead of letting her take it on hers which was what had happened of necessity when the Digbats wouldn"t allow him to stop them smashing her to pieces.
All the same, Ana"s monologue had many paths and Pendel practically needed a map to get through it.
"It"s not even my father"s house, my father only lent it to me reluctantly because I lied to him, I told him I would be here with my girlfriend Estella and n.o.body else, Estella who me and Marta went to convent school with, which was a lie, certainly not Mickie, it belongs to a foreman at the fireworks factory called la Negra Vieja, Guarare is where the fireworks are made for all the festivals in Panama, but this is Guarare"s own festival for itself, and my father is a friend of the foreman and was best man at his wedding, and the foreman said have my house for the festival while I go on my honeymoon to Aruba, but my father doesn"t like fireworks so he said I could have it instead of him as long as I don"t bring that slob Mickie so I lied, I said I wouldn"t, I would bring my friend Estella, who was my friend at convent school and is currently the chiquilla of a timber merchant in David, because in Guarare for five days you see bullfights and dancing and fireworks like you don"t see them anywhere else in Panama or anywhere else in the world. But I didn"t bring Estella, I brought Mickie and Mickie really needed me, he was so frightened and depressed and hilarious all at once, saying the police were fools, threatening him and calling him a British spy just like in the days of Noriega, all because he had got drunk at Oxford for a couple of terms and allowed himself to be talked into running some British club in Panama."
And here Ana began laughing so loud that Pendel could only piece the story together patchily and with great patience, but the nub of it was clear enough, namely that she had never seen Mickie so high and low at once, one minute weeping and the next wild and full of fun, and G.o.d in Heaven, what made him do it? And G.o.d in Heaven again, what was she going to tell her father? Who was going to clear up the walls, the ceiling? Thank G.o.d it was a tiled floor, not floorboards, at least he"d had the decency to do it in the kitchen, a thousand dollars for a repaint was conservative, and her father a strict Catholic with views about suicide and heretics, all right he"d been drinking, they all had, what do you do at a festival except drink and dance and f.u.c.k and watch the fireworks which was what she was doing when she heard the bang behind her, where did he ever get it from, he never carried a pistol even though he talked a lot about blowing his brains out, he must have bought it after the police called on him and accused him of being this great spy and reminding him what had happened last time he went to gaol, and promising to make it happen again, never mind he wasn"t a pretty boy any more, the old convicts weren"t picky, she just screamed and laughed and ducked her head and closed her eyes and it wasn"t till she turned round to see who"d thrown the rocket or whatever it was, that she saw the mess, some of it on her new dress, and Mickie himself upside down on the floor.
All of which left Pendel wondering strenuously which was the right side up for the exploded corpse of his friend, fellow prisoner and leader elect of Panama"s now forever Silent Opposition.
He replaced the receiver and the invasion ended, the victims stopped complaining. Only mopping up remained. He had written down the address in Guarare with a 2H pencil from his pocket. A thin hard line but legible. Next he worried about money for Marta. Then he remembered the wad of Osnard"s fifties in the right-hand b.u.t.ton-down hip pocket of his trousers. So he handed it to her and she took it, probably without knowing what she was doing.
"That was Ana," he said. "Mickie"s killed himself."
But of course she knew that. She"d had her face pressed against his face while they listened with the same ear, she"d recognised her friend"s voice from the first moment and it was only the strength of Pendel"s friendship with Mickie that had prevented her from s.n.a.t.c.hing the receiver from his hand.
"It"s not your fault," she said fervently. She repeated it several times in order to drive it into his thick skull. "He"d have done it anyway, whether you told him off or not, d"you hear? He didn"t need an excuse. He was killing himself every day. Listen to me."
"I am. I am."
But he didn"t say: yes, it is my fault, because there seemed no point.
Then she began shivering like a malaria victim and if he hadn"t held her she"d have been on the floor like Mickie who was upside down.
"I want you to go to Miami tomorrow," he said. He remembered a hotel that Rafi Domingo had told him about. "Stay at the Grand Bay. It"s in Coconut Grove. They do a marvellous buffet lunch," he added idiotically. And the fallback, the way Osnard had taught him: "If you can"t get in, ask the concierge if you can collect messages there. They"re nice people. Mention Rafi"s name."
"It"s not your fault," she repeated, weeping now. "They beat him too hard in prison. He was a child. Adults you can beat. Not children. He was fat. He had sensitive skin."
"I know," Pendel agreed. "We all have. We shouldn"t do it to each other. No one should."
But his concentration had wandered to the row of suits awaiting the finishing hand, because the biggest and most prominent of them was Mickie"s houndstooth alpaca with a second pair of trousers, the ones he said made him look old before his time.
"I"ll come with you," she said. "I can help you. I"ll look after Ana."
He shook his head. Vehemently. He grabbed her arms and shook his head again. I betrayed him. You didn"t. I made him leader when you told me not to. He tried to say some of this, but his face must have been saying it already because she was recoiling from him, shaking herself free of him as if she didn"t care for what she saw.
"Marta, are you listening? Listen and stop staring at me like that."
"Yes," she said.
"Thanks for the students and everything," he insisted. "Thanks for everything. Thanks. I"m sorry."
"You"ll need petrol," she said and gave him a hundred dollars back.
After which they stood there, two people swapping banknotes while their world was ending.
"It was not necessary to thank me," she told him, slipping into a stern, retrospective tone. "I love you. Very little else is of consequence to me. Even Mickie."
She seemed to have thought it through, for her body eased and the love had come back to her eyes.
It is the same night and the same hour exactly in the British Emba.s.sy in Calle 53 in Marbella, Panama City. The urgently convened meeting of the augmented Buchaneers has been running for an hour, though in Osnard"s cheerless, airless, windowless barrack in the east wing Francesca Deane has constantly to remind herself that nothing has changed in the ordinary procedures of the world, it is the same time outside the room as it is in here, whether or not, in the calmest and most reasonable way, we are plotting the arming and financing of a group of super-secret ruling-cla.s.s Panamanian dissidents known as the Silent Opposition, and the raising and recruitment of militant students, and the overthrow of the legitimate government of Panama and the installation of a Provisional Committee of Administration pledged to wrest the Ca.n.a.l from the scheming dutches of an East-South conspiracy.
Men in secret conclave enter an altered state, thought Fran, as the only woman present, discreetly examining the faces squeezed round the too-small table. It"s in the shoulders, how they stiffen against the neck. It"s in the muscles round the jaw and the dirty shadows round the faster, l.u.s.tful eyes. I"m the only black in a roomful of whites. Her eyes skimmed past Osnard without seeing him and she remembered the look in the face of the woman croupier in the third casino: So you"re his girl, it said. Well I"ll tell you something, darling. Your man and I get up to things you wouldn"t know about in your dirtiest dreams.
Men in secret conclave treat you like the woman they"re saving from the flames, she thought. Whatever they"ve done to you, they expect you to think they"re perfect. I should be standing on the doorstep of their croft. I should be wearing a long white dress and clutching their babies to my bosom as I wave them off to war. I should be saying: hullo, I"m Fran, I"m the first prize when you come home victorious. Men in secret conclave have a waxy guilt imparted by low white lighting and a weird grey steel cabinet on Meccano legs that hums like a tuneless house-painter up a ladder in order to protect our words from prying ears. Men in secret conclave give off a different smell. They are men on heat.
And Fran was as excited as they were, though her excitement made her sceptical, whereas the men"s excitement made them erect and pointed them towards a fiercer G.o.d, even if the G.o.d of the moment was bearded little Mr Mellors who perched like a nervous lonely diner at the far end of the table from her and kept calling the meeting "juntiemun" in a ripe Scottish brogue - as if, for tonight only, Fran had been upgraded to man"s estate. He could not believe, juntlemun, he said, that he hadn"t closed his eyes for twenty hours! Yet he swore he was game for twenty more.
"I cannot sufficiently emphasise, juntlemun, the immense national and dare I say geopolitical importance that is being accorded to this operation by the highest echelons of Her Majesty"s Government," he kept a.s.suring them, between discussions of such divers matters as whether the rainforests of the Darien would provide an appropriate hideaway for a couple of thousand semi-automatic rifles, or should we be thinking of something a little more central for the home and office? And the men drinking it in. Swallowing it whole because it is monstrous but secret, therefore not monstrous at all. Shave off his stupid little Scottish beard, she advises them. Take him outside. De-bag him. Make him say it all again on the bus to Paitilla. Then see if you agree with a word of it.
But they didn"t take him outside and they didn"t de-bag him. They believed him. Admired him. Doted on him. Just look at Maltby, for instance! Her Maltby! - her louche, funny, pedantic, clever, married, unhappy Amba.s.s, not safe in taxis, not safe in corridors, a sceptic to end all sceptics, he would have her think, yet he had yelled Christ, she"s beautiful! when she dived into his pool: Maltby, sitting like an obedient schoolboy at Mellors" right hand, smirking unctuous encouragement, bucking his long crooked head back and forth like those pub birds that drink water out of dirty plastic mugs and urging a sulky Nigel Stormont to agree with him.
"You"d go along with that, wouldn"t you, Nigel?" Maltby cried. "Yes, he would. Done, Mellors."
Or: "We give "em the gold, they buy the guns through Gully. Far simpler than supplying them direct. And more deniable - agreed, Nigel? - yes, Gully? - done, Mellors."
Or: "No, no, Mr Mellors, thank you, no need for an extra body at all. Nigel and I are perfectly equal to a little skulduggery, aren"t we, Nigel? And Gully here knows the ropes of old. What"s a few hundred anti-personnel mines between friends, eh Gully? Made in Birmingham. You can"t beat "em."
And Gully simpering and hammering his moustache with his handkerchief and jotting greedily in his order book while Mellors pushes what looks like a shopping list across the table at him, turning his eyes to Heaven so that he doesn"t see himself do it.
"With the Minister"s most enthusiastic approval," he breathes, meaning: don"t blame me.
"Our only problem here, Mellors, is keeping the circle of knowledge to an absolute minimum," Maltby is saying keenly. "That means corralling everybody who"s likely to find out by mistake, like young Simon here" - a leer at Simon Pitt, who sits in a state of sh.e.l.lshock at Gully"s side - "and threatening them with penal servitude in the galleys for life if they blabber one indiscreet word. Right, Simon? Right? Right?"
"Right," Simon agrees under torture.
A different Maltby, one Fran hasn"t met before but always guessed at because he was so under-used and under-appreciated. A different Stormont too, who frowns into a void every time he speaks, and endorses whatever Maltby says.
And a different Andy? Or is he the same model as before, only I never knew till now?
Covertly, she allows her eyes to focus on him.
A changed man. Not larger or fatter or thinner. Just further away. So far away in fact that she hardly recognised him across the table. His departure had begun in the casino, she now realised, and gathered speed with the dramatic news of Mellors" imminent arrival.
"Who needs the little s.h.i.t?" he had demanded of her furiously, as if he held her responsible for summoning the wretched man. "BUCHAN won"t see him. BUCHAN TWO won"t see him. She won"t even see me. None o" them will see him. I"ve told him that already."
"Then tell him again."
"This is my f.u.c.king patch. Not his. My f.u.c.king operation. f.u.c.k"s it got to do with him?"
"Do you mind not swearing at me? He"s your boss, Andy. He posted you here. I didn"t. Regional heads have a right to drop in on their flock. Even in your Service, I presume."
"Bulls.h.i.t," he retorted and the next thing she knew she was calmly packing up her possessions and Andy was telling her to make sure there were no nasty little hairs in the bath.
"What are you so afraid of him finding?" she demanded, ice cold. "He"s not your lover, is he? You"re not sworn to chast.i.ty, are you? Are you? So you had a woman here. What"s wrong with that? It doesn"t have to have been me."
"No. It doesn"t."
"Andy!"
He made a brief and graceless show of penitence.
"Don"t like being spied on, that"s all," he said sulkily.
But when she broke out in relieved laughter at this good joke, he grabbed her car key from the sideboard, forced it into her palm and marched her with her luggage to the lift. All day long they had succeeded in avoiding each other until now, when they were obliged to sit across a table in this gloomy white jail with Andy glowering and Fran tightlipped, keeping her smiles for the stranger - who to her secret indignation was flattering Andy and deferring to him in the most nauseating way imaginable: "But do these proposals make sense to you, now, Andrew?" Mellors insists, with a suck of his teeth. "Speak up, now, young Mr Osnard. It"s your achievement, good Heavens! You"re the man at the controls here, the star - saving His Excellency"s presence. Is it not better for the man in the field - at the front line, my G.o.d - to be unfettered by wearisome administration, Andrew, tell us frankly now? n.o.body round this table wishes to impair your exemplary performance."
To which sentiment Maltby then lends his enthusiastic support, seconded some moments later and with less enthusiasm by Stormont - the point at issue being the two-key system for controlling the Silent Opposition"s finances, a task which, it is generally agreed, is best entrusted to senior officers.
So why is Andy down in the mouth at having such a heavy load lifted from his shoulders? Why isn"t he grateful that Maltby and Stormont are falling over themselves to take the job off his hands?
"Up to you people," he mumbles churlishly, with a sideways glower at Maltby. And goes back into deep sulk.
And when the question arises of how Abraxas and Domingo and the other Silent Opponents can be persuaded to deal directly with Stormont on matters of finance and logistics, Andy comes close to losing his temper altogether.
"Why don"t you take over the whole b.l.o.o.d.y network while you"re about it?" he flares, flushing crimson. "Run it from Chancery in office hours, five days a week, be done with it. Help yourselves."
"Andrew, Andrew, come, no hard words here please!" cries Mellors, tutting like an old Scottish hen. "We are a team, Andrew, are we not? All that is being offered here is a helping hand - the counsel of wise heads - a steadying influence upon a brilliantly managed operation. Is it not, Amba.s.sador?" Suck of the teeth, sad frown of troubled father, the placatory tone raised to entreaty. "These Opposition fellows, they"ll be driving a hard bargain, Andrew. Binding a.s.surances will have to be given from the hip. Snap decisions of immense consequence will abound. Deep waters, Andrew, for a fellow of your tender years. Better to leave such matters in the capable hands of men of the world."
Andy sulks. Stormont stares into his void. But dear, kind Maltby feels constrained to add a few comforting words of his own.
"My dear chap, you can"t possibly hang on to the whole game, can he, Nigel? It"s share and share alike in my Emba.s.sy - isn"t it, Nigel? n.o.body"s taking your spies away from you. You"ll still have your network to look after - brief, debrief, pay and so forth. All we want is your Opposition. What could be fairer than that?"
But still, to Fran"s embarra.s.sment, Andy refuses to accept the hand that is so courteously outstretched to him. His glittery little eyes switch to Maltby, then Stormont, then go back to Maltby. He mutters something n.o.body catches, which is probably as well. He pulls a bitter grin and nods to himself like a man cruelly cheated.
A last symbolic ceremony remains. Mellors stands, ducks beneath the table and reappears with two black leather shoulder bags of the sort Queen"s Messengers cart about, one to each shoulder.
"Andrew, kindly open up the strongroom for us," he commands.
Now everyone is standing. Fran stands too. Shepherd advances on the strongroom, unlocks the grille with a long bra.s.s key and pulls it back, exposing a solid steel door with a black dial at its centre. On Mellors" nod Andy steps forward and, with an expression of such pent-up venom that she is heartily glad she never saw it until now, swivels the dial this way and that until the lock yields. Even then, it takes an encouraging word from Maltby before Andy draws back the door and, with a mocking bow, invites his Amba.s.sador and Head of Chancery to enter ahead of him. Still standing at the table, Fran makes out, beside an oversized red telephone attached to a kind of reconstructed vacuum cleaner, a steel safe with two keyholes. Her father the judge has one like it in his dressing room.
"One each now," she hears Mellors pipe skittishly.
For a moment Fran is in her old school chapel, kneeling in the front pew and watching a huddle of handsome young priests as they chastely turn their backs to her and busy themselves with exciting things in preparation for her First Communion. Gradually her field of view clears and she sees Andy, under Mellors" parental eye, presenting Maltby and Stormont with one long-stemmed silver-plated key apiece. There is English amus.e.m.e.nt, which Andy does not share, while each man tries the other"s keyhole before Maltby lets out a jolly "Gotcha" and the safe door clunks open.
But Fran by now is no longer looking at the safe. Her gaze is all upon Andy as he stares and stares at the gold bars that Mellors is taking one by one from his black shoulder bags and handing to Shepherd to be stacked criss-cross like spillikins. And it is Andy"s sagging face that for the last time holds her in its spell because it tells her everything she ever did or didn"t want to know about him. She knows he"s been caught and she has a shrewd notion of what he"s been caught at, though she has no idea at all whether those who have caught him know what they have done. She knows he is a liar, with or without the licence of his profession. She knows the source of the fifty thousand dollars he put on red. It is standing before her with its door open. She entirely understands why he is so angry that he has been forced to give away the keys. And after that Fran can"t watch any more, partly because her eyes have misted over in humiliation and self-disgust and partly because the ungainly frame of Maltby is bearing down on her with a pirate"s grin, asking whether she would regard it as an offence against Creation if he took her to the Pavo Real for a boiled egg.
"Phoebe has decided to leave me," he explains with pride. "We"re getting a divorce immediately. Nigel"s plucking up his courage to break it to her. She"ll never believe it if it comes from me."
Fran took a moment to reply because her first instinct was to shudder and say no thank you very much. It was only when she kept thinking that she realised a number of things she might have realised earlier. Namely that for months she had been touched by Maltby"s devotion to her, and grateful for the presence in her life of a man who longed for her so hopelessly. And that Maltby"s sheepish adoration of her had become a source of priceless support as she wrestled with the knowledge that she was sharing her life with an amoralist whose lack of shame or scruple had at first attracted and now repelled her; whose interest in her had never been more than expedient and carnal; and whose net effect on her had been to instil a craving for the shambling devotion of her Amba.s.sador.
And having thus rationally thought her way to this conclusion, Fran decided that it had been a long time since she had been so grateful for an invitation.
Marta sat hunched on the finishing hands" workbench looking down at the wad of money he had pressed on her and thinking: his friend Mickie is dead, he believes he killed him, and perhaps he did, the police are spying on him but he wants me to sit on a beach in Miami and eat the buffet lunch at the Grand Bay and buy clothes and wait until he comes. And be happy and believe in him and get a tan and have my face mended. And get a boy as well if I can, because he would like me to have a handsome boy, a proxy Harry Pendel, doing his loving for him while he stays faithful to Louisa. That"s who he is and you may call it complicated or you may call it very simple. Harry has a dream for everyone. Harry dreams all our lives for us, and gets them wrong every time. Because number one I don"t want to leave Panama. I want to stay here and lie to the police for him and sit at his bedside the way he sat at mine and find out what"s gone wrong for him and cure it. I want to tell him to get up and hobble round the room because for as long as you stay lying down all you can think of is getting another beating. But when you stand up you start to be a mensch again, which is his word for dignity. And number two I can"t leave Panama because the police have taken my pa.s.sport by way of encouragement to spy on him.
Seven thousand dollars.
She had counted them onto the worktable by the glow from the skylight above her. Seven thousand dollars from his back pocket, pressed on her like guilt money the moment he heard of Mickie"s death - here, take this, it"s Osnard"s money, Judas money, Mickie money, now it"s yours. You"d think a man setting out to do what Harry had to do would keep his money in his pocket for eventualities. Undertaker money. Police money. Chiquilla money. But Harry had scarcely put the receiver down before he was pulling the wad out of his back pocket, wanting to be shot of every dirty dollar. Where had he got it from? the police had asked her.
"You"re not stupid, Marta. You can read, study, make bombs, make trouble, lead marches. Who gives him his money? Does Abraxas give it to him? Is he working for Abraxas and Abraxas is working for the British? What does he give Abraxas in return?"
"I don"t know. My employer tells me nothing. Get out of my flat."
"He f.u.c.ks you, doesn"t he?"
"No, he doesn"t f.u.c.k me. He comes to see me because I have headaches and vomiting attacks and he is my employer and he was with me when I was beaten. He is a caring man and happily married."
No, he doesn"t f.u.c.k me, that at least was true, though it cost her more to tell them this precious truth than any number of easy lies. No, officer, he doesn"t f.u.c.k me. No, officer, I don"t ask him to. We lie on my bed, I put my hand in the heat of his crotch but only outside, he puts his hand inside my blouse, but one breast is all that he allows himself though he knows he can have the whole of me any time he wants, because he has the whole of me already, but the guilt owns him, he has more guilt than sins. And I tell him stories of who we might be if we were young and brave again in the days before they took my face off with their clubs. And that is love.
Marta"s head was throbbing again and she felt sick. She stood up, clutching the money in both hands. She couldn"t stand another minute in the Cuna work room. She walked down the corridor as far as the door to her office and, like a guided tourist a hundred years from now, stood at the threshold and looked in while she gave herself the commentary: This is where the halfbreed Marta sat and did her accounts for the tailor Pendel. Over there in the shelves you see the books on sociology and history that Marta used to read in her spare time in an effort to raise herself in society and fulfil the dreams of her dead father the carpenter. As a self-educated man the tailor Pendel was concerned that all his staff but particularly the halfbreed Marta develop themselves to their maximum potential. This is the kitchen area where Marta made her famous sandwiches, all the prominent men of Panama would speak in bated breath of Marta"s sandwiches, including Mickie Abraxas the famous suicidal spy, tuna was her speciality but in her heart she wished she could poison the whole pack of them except for Mickie and her employer Pendel. And over there in the corner behind the desk we have the very spot where in 1989 the tailor Pendel, having first closed the door, was sufficiently overcome to take Marta in his arms and protest his undying love for her. The tailor Pendel proposed they visit a pushb.u.t.ton but Marta preferred to take him to her own apartment, and it was on the drive there that Marta incurred the facial injuries that left her permanently scarred, and it was the fellow student Abraxas who suborned the cowardly doctor into leaving his indelible imprint upon her - that doctor was so terrified of losing his rich practice that he couldn"t keep his hands still. The same doctor afterwards had the wisdom to inform on Abraxas, an act that led effectively to his destruction.
Closing the door on her dead self, Marta continued down the corridor to Pendel"s cutting room. I"ll leave the money in his top left drawer. The door was ajar. Lights were burning inside the room. Marta was not surprised. Not long ago, her Harry had been a man of unearthly discipline but in recent weeks the st.i.tching of his too-many lives had been too much for him. She pushed the door. Now we are in the tailor Pendel"s cutting room, known to customers and employees alike as the Holy of Holies. n.o.body was permitted to enter without knocking, or during his absence - except apparently for his wife Louisa, who was seated at her husband"s desk with her spectacles on and a pile of his old notebooks at her elbow, and a lot of pencils and an order book, and a tin of fly spray in front of her, opened at the base while she played with the ornate cigarette lighter that Harry said a rich Arab had given him though P&B had no rich Arabs on its books.
She was dressed in a thin red cotton housecoat and apparently nothing else, because as she leaned forward she revealed her b.r.e.a.s.t.s in their entirety. She was clicking the lighter on and off and smiling at Marta through the flame.
"Where"s my husband?" Louisa asked.
Click.
"He"s gone to Guarare," Marta replied. "Mickie Abraxas killed himself at the fireworks."
"I"m sorry."
"So am I. So is your husband."
"However it was not unexpected. We have had about five years" warning of the event," Louisa pointed out quite reasonably.
Click.
"He was appalled," Marta said.
"Mickie?"
"Your husband," Marta said.
"Why does my husband keep a special invoice book for Mr Osnard"s suits?"
Click.
"I don"t know. It puzzles me too," Marta said.
"Are you his mistress?"
"No."
"Does he have one?"
Click.
"No."