"I wish you would let me try his paces some morning, Pulvertoft," struck in a Colonel c.o.c.kshott, who was riding with them, and whom I knew slightly: "I"ve a notion he would go better on the curb."
"I shall be very happy," I began, when, just in time, I noticed a warning depression in Brutus"s ears. The Colonel rode about sixteen stone, and with spurs! "I mean," I added hastily, "I should have been--only, to tell you the truth, I couldn"t conscientiously trust any one on him but myself."
"My dear fellow!" said the Colonel, who I could see was offended, "I"ve not met many horses in my time that I couldn"t get upon terms with."
"I think Mr. Pulvertoft is _quite_ right," said Diana. "When a horse gets accustomed to one he does so resent a strange hand: it spoils his temper for days. I never will lend Wild Rose to anybody for that very reason!"
The Colonel fell back in the rear in a decided sulk. "Poor dear Colonel c.o.c.kshott!" said Diana, "he is so proud of his riding, but _I_ think he dragoons a horse. I don"t call that _riding_, do you?"
"Well--hardly," I agreed, with easy disparagement. "I never believe in ruling a horse by fear."
"I suppose you are very fond of yours?" she said.
"Fond is not the word!" I exclaimed--and it certainly was not.
"I am not sure that what I said about lending Wild Rose would apply to _you_," she said. "I think you would be gentle with her."
I was certain that I should treat her with all consideration; but as I doubted whether she would wholly reciprocate it, I said with much presence of mind, that I should regard riding her as akin to profanation.
As Brutus and I were going home, he observed that it was a good thing I had not agreed to lend him to the Colonel.
"Yes," I said, determined to improve the occasion, "you might not have found him as considerate as--well, as some people!"
"I meant it was a good thing for _you_!" he hinted darkly, and I did not care to ask for an explanation. "What did you mean," he resumed, "by saying that I should not admire Wild Rose? Why, she is charming--charming!"
"In that case," I said, "I don"t mind riding with her mistress occasionally--to oblige you."
"You don"t mind!" he said; "you will _have_ to, my boy,--and every afternoon!"
I suppressed a chuckle: after all, man _is_ the n.o.bler animal. I could manage a horse--in my own way. My little _ruse_ had succeeded: I should have no more forced introductions to mystified strangers.
And now for some weeks my life pa.s.sed in a happy dream. I only lived for those hours in the Row, where Brutus turned as naturally to Wild Rose as the sunflower to the sun, and Diana and I grew more intimate every day.
Happiness and security made me almost witty. I was merciless in my raillery of the eccentric exhibitions of horsemanship which were to be met with, and Diana was provoked by my comments to the sweetest silvery laughter. As for Colonel c.o.c.kshott, whom I had once suspected of a desire to be my rival, he had long become a "negligible quant.i.ty;" and if I delayed in asking Diana to trust me with her sweet self, it was only because I found an epicurean pleasure in prolonging a suspense that was so little uncertain.
And then, without warning, my riding was interrupted for a while. Brutus was discovered, much to his annoyance, to have a saddle-raw, and was even so unjust as to lay the blame on me, though, for my own part, I thought it a mark of apt, though tardy, retribution. I was not disposed to tempt Fortune upon any other mount, but I could not keep away from the Row, nevertheless, and appeared there on foot. I saw Diana riding with the Colonel, who seemed to think his opportunity had come at last; but whenever she pa.s.sed the railings on which I leaned, she would raise her eyebrows and draw her mouth down into a little curve of resigned boredom, which completely rea.s.sured me. Still, I was very glad when Brutus was well again, and we were cantering down the Row once more, both in the highest spirits.
"I never heard the horses here _whinny_ so much as they do this season,"
I said, by way of making conversation. "Can you account for it at all?"
For he sometimes gave me pieces of information which enabled me to impress Diana afterwards by my intimate knowledge of horses.
"Whinnying?" he said. "They"re _laughing_, that"s what they"re doing--and no wonder!"
"Oh!" said I, "and what"s the joke?"
"Why, _you_ are!" he replied. "You don"t suppose you take _them_ in, do you? They know all about you, bless your heart!"
"Oh, do they?" I said blankly. This brute took a positive pleasure, I believe, in reducing my self-esteem.
"I dare say it has got about through Wild Rose," he continued. "She was immensely tickled when I told her. I"m afraid she must have been feeling rather dull all these days, by the bye."
I felt an unworthy impulse to take his conceit down as he had lowered mine.
"Not so very, I think," I said. "She seemed to me to find that brown hunter of Colonel c.o.c.kshott"s a very agreeable subst.i.tute."
Late as it is for reparation, I must acknowledge with shame that in uttering this insinuation, I did that poor little mare (for whom I entertained the highest respect) a shameful injustice; and I should like to state here, in the most solemn and emphatic manner, my sincere belief that, from first to last, she conducted herself in a manner that should have shielded her from all calumny.
It was only a mean desire to retaliate, a petty and ign.o.ble spite, that prompted me thus to poison Brutus"s confidence, and I regretted the words as soon as I had uttered them.
"That beast!" he said, starting as if I had touched him with a whip--a thing I never used--"why, he hasn"t two ideas in his great fiddle-head.
The only sort of officer _he_ ought to carry is a Salvationist!"
"I grant he has not your personal advantages and charm of manner," I said. "No doubt I was wrong to say anything about it."
"No," he said, "you--you have done me a service," and he relapsed into a sombre silence.
I was riding with Diana as usual, and was about to express my delight at being able to resume our companionship, when her mare drew slightly ahead and lashed out suddenly, catching me on the left leg, and causing intense agony for the moment.
Diana showed the sweetest concern, imploring me to go home in a cab at once, while her groom took charge of Brutus. I declined the cab; but, as my leg was really painful, and Brutus was showing an impatience I dared not disregard, I had to leave her side.
On our way home, Brutus said moodily, "It is all over between us--you saw that?"
"I felt it!" I replied. "She nearly broke my leg."
"It was intended for me," he said. "It was her way of signifying that we had better be strangers for the future. I taxed her with her faithlessness; she denied it, of course--every mare does; we had an explanation, and everything is at an end!"
I did not ride him again for some days, and when I did, I found him steeped in Byronic gloom. He even wanted at first to keep entirely on the Bayswater side of the Park, though I succeeded in arguing him out of such weakness. "Be a horse!" I said. "Show her you don"t care. You only flatter her by betraying your feelings."
This was a subtlety that had evidently not occurred to him, but he was intelligent enough to feel the force of what I said. "You are right," he admitted; "you are not quite a fool in some respects. She shall see how little I care!"
Naturally, after this, I expected to accompany Diana as usual, and it was a bitter disappointment to me to find that Brutus would not hear of doing so. He had an old acquaintance in the Park, a dapple-grey, who, probably from some early disappointment was a confirmed cynic, and whose society he thought would be congenial just then. The grey was ridden regularly by a certain Miss Gittens, whose appearance as she t.i.tupped laboriously up and down had often furnished Diana and myself with amus.e.m.e.nt.
And now, in spite of all my efforts, Brutus made straight to the grey. I was not in such difficulties as might have been expected, for I happened to know Miss Gittens slightly, as a lady no longer in the bloom of youth, who still retained a wiry form of girlishness. Though rather disliking her than not, I found it necessary just then to throw some slight effusion into my greeting. She, not unnaturally perhaps, was flattered by my preference, and begged me to give her a little instruction in riding, which--Heaven forgive me for it!--I took upon myself to do.
Even now I scarcely see how I could have acted otherwise: I could not leave her side until Brutus had exhausted the pleasures of cynicism with his grey friend, and the time had to be filled up somehow. But, oh, the torture of seeing Diana at a distance, and knowing that only a miserable misunderstanding between our respective steeds kept us apart, feeling constrained even to avoid looking in her direction, lest she should summon me to her side!
One day, as I was riding with Miss Gittens, she glanced coyly at me over her sharp right shoulder, and said, "Do you know, only such a little while ago, I never even dreamed that we should ever become as intimate as we are now; it seems almost incredible, does it not?"
"You must not say so," I replied. "Surely there is nothing singular in my helping you a little with your riding?" Though it struck me that it would have been very singular if I had.
"Perhaps not singular," she murmured, looking modestly down her nose; "but will you think me very unmaidenly if I confess that, to me, those lessons have developed a dawning danger?"
"You are perfectly safe on the grey," I said.
"I--I was not thinking of the grey," she returned. "Dear Mr. Pulvertoft, I must speak frankly--a girl has so many things to consider, and I am afraid you have made me forget how wrongly and thoughtlessly I have been behaving of late. I cannot help suspecting that you must have some motive in seeking my society in so--so marked a manner."
"Miss Gittens," said I, "I can disguise nothing: I have."
"And you have not been merely amusing yourself all this time?"