In the evening, Lin Wenxi received a call from Zhang An"an whom he had barely contacted.
"The autumn breeze is cool, and stars fill the sky, but I have a lot of doubts. I want to ask you to help me figure them out. Don"t refuse me." Zhang An"an said.
On that night, Zhao Yuan was supposed to go to Wanxin"s residence. Although Lin Wenxi was quite upset, he could not bear to refuse her, so he went to the playground alone.
In the chilling night, Zhang An"an and Gu Xi sat side by side on the stairs beside the court, looking at Lin Wenxi with a smile.
"Can you forgive him?" Zhang An"an asked.
Lin Wenxi frowned, glanced at Gu Xi and asked, "Who?"
"Zhang Dong!" Zhang An"an said affirmatively.
Lin Wenxi turned around and walked away.
"Wenxi, in this school and even the world, besides you and brother Kai, I trust An"an the most. Please trust me in the way I trust you!" Gu Xi said loudly from behind.
Lin Wenxi stopped, looked up at the sky, and came back to sit down again with a frosty face.
"No matter how angry you are, please get mad at us after we finish talking tonight. But now, please answer my question." Zhang An"an said sternly, "Have you forgiven him?"
Lin Wenxi had thought about this question countless times. He had thought about it when Zhang Dong almost rushed to the road to get himself killed for a word of his. He had thought about it when pa.s.sing through the black alley, which seemed to be possessed by nightmare, alone on the snowy night during Spring Festival. He had thought about it when revisiting the hills where he had experienced cross-country training. Now he was also thinking about it. Lin Wenxi shook his head. It was not that he didn"t feel pain any more, but he buried it. Burying it didn"t mean letting it go.
"The most intolerable thing for a person is being betrayed and hurt by someone who has the closest relationship with him." Zhang An"an suddenly said.
Lin Wenxi suddenly felt a shock.
"Until the military training was over, you have already regarded him as a very close person in your heart. Maybe he was not even less important in your heart than Zhao Yuan! Otherwise, why do you remember all the details with him? Thus, you keep thinking why it"s him." Zhang An"an said calmly, and his eyes were as bright as the stars on the blue sky without being stained by dust.
"If it is someone else, I believe that when he held a knife and asked you for forgiveness, you will have stabbed him for revenge or forgiven him directly and stopped thinking and asking about it, because you don"t care about his life or death at all. But it is Zhang Dong, a debt that you cannot avoid." Zhang An"an said heartily.
Lin Wenxi thought about Zhang An"an"s words silently.
"This a hurdle that Zhang Dong and you can"t cross. If you want to undo the knot in your mind, you must make it clear in a face-to-face talk. Otherwise, After Zhao Yuan was picked up by Wanxin because he drank too much tonight, there will be the second time and the third time. We all know that Zhao Yuan doesn"t like Wanxin. Nevertheless, don"t make him owe her so much that he has to pay it back with his life!" Zhang An"an said.
"While Zhao Yuan is in trouble, you are duty-bound to help him as if you have turned into someone else. However, it seems to us that in normal times, he has always been the one who takes the initiative and leaves nothing untried. Have you ever thought that Chen Wanxin might be the hurdle between you and Zhao Yuan, but Zhang Dong is actually the hurdle between Zhao Yuan and you? Hasn"t he seen how Zhang Dong treats you? Hasn"t he seen how you treat Zhang Dong with such an experience? Zhao Yuan is the first-cla.s.s smart person I have ever seen, but sometimes he acts like a rogue and as stupid as a child in front of you. He may not be able to deal with this knot in his mind, so you should take the initiative." Zhang An"an grabbed Lin Wenxi"s hand and held it tightly.
"Why do you want to help me?" asked Lin Wenxi.
"I"ll tell you a story." Zhang An"an said and looked up. No one had noticed when Shu Xiaoman came over.
"I have a brother called brother Xi. When he was in high school, there was a boy who was very nice to him, but he didn"t realize anything and treated the boy badly. He was very ignorant, but the boy was very mature. He once hurt that the boy so terribly that the boy wanted to leave school, but when the boy left, he realized that he was in love with the boy."
Brother Xi who had never left his hometown went to the provincial capital to look for the boy. After enduring numerous hardships, maybe it was destined that he finally found the boy. They lived a very happy and sweet life, studying hard and facing difficulties with a smile together. The boys even lived in brother Xi"s home for a period during which he helped brother Xi with housework and dirty and rough jobs. They enjoyed every minute that they were together. Unexpectedly, in a basketball game, after winning the game painstakingly, the boy firmly held brother Xi in his arms, and they almost kissed each other. However, a boy who was jealous of brother Xi made their relationship known to the public by writing it on the blackboard. As a result, brother Xi couldn"t bear the prejudice of others. He became more and more reticent, even fighting with others, drinking and skipping cla.s.ses, and finally suffered from nervous breakdown. He had to rest at home. Brother Xi took the opportunity to escape from his home under the strict guard of his father, and eloped with the boy. The boy drove him all the way to the urban area on his motorcycle. They stayed together happily in the urban area for two days. They had bought the tickets and decided to go to Guangzhou the next day. "
Zhang An"an was slightly sobbing, while Lin Wenxi was speechless, listening very carefully.
"They were going to Guangzhou the next day, but when brother Xi got up early and happily and opened the door, he saw his parents. Brother Xi must be heartbroken at that time, so he kept arguing, crying and even attempting suicide. Finally, he calmed down and returned to school, but he failed to restrain his feeling at the first sight of the boy."
"He frantically hurt and tortured himself. Finally, the boy didn"t want to see him in pain and chose to leave school. The last time they met, brother Xi wanted to give everything to the boy, but the boy was too tired because of everything on his shoulder. After a lot of things happened, he was doubted by brother Xi"s parents and even beaten by brother Xi"s father. - But he was an orphan.
"He eventually knew that he might never be able to meet brother Xi and chose to leave the town. On the day he left the town, brother Xi took his schoolbag to return to school. Brother Xi only gradually learned about these after graduation. "
"Afterwards, the boy has always considered that brother Xi already has a girlfriend and maybe is going to get married. However, brother Xi has waited for him for seven years during which they failed to contact each other because of the obstruction of the boy"s friends. Finally, brother Xi attended his wedding after graduation."
"After the boy graduated, no, I should have called him a man, he went to Guangzhou where he planned to go with brother Xi. He met his wife there, and they went to another city to work hard."
"The man said that his the most regretful thing for him is leaving his hometown, but the least regretful thing for him is meeting his current wife. The man"s wife is very beautiful and pregnant now."
"Wenxi, do you know that they haven"t contacted each other until now!"
"I once hoped that bother Xi could be brave enough to look for him, but brother Xi refused to do that. Later I gradually understood brother Xi"s thoughts. If they meet, maybe the man could not be with brother Xi because of his family responsibilities, the relationship between brother Xi and him will be doomed. Maybe the man decides to be with brother Xi, but he will carry the shame of abandoning his wife and child and can never live the previous happy life with brother Xi. Some things pa.s.sed, and they are gone forever. You missed someone, and you miss him forever. As brother Xi said, he would rather live in the memory forever than let their story ended by time in reality."
"They are not together indeed, but I can understand the pain and regrets they used to have, and they have to accept it. If they were braver, a little braver, how would the story end..." Zhang An"an said and couldn"t help but burst into tears.
"How is your brother Xi now?" Lin Wenxi asked with tears in his eyes.
"He?" Zhang An"an looked at the south and said after thinking for a moment, "Now he has been living alone in the city where they planned to go."
"Go, Wenxi, go find him." Zhang An"an said, "Don"t ruin your present life because of the past."