"You have heard my story, Kenneth," said Crispin.
"I have heard, Sir Crispin, and G.o.d knows I pity you."
That was all, and Galliard felt that it was not enough. He had lacerated his soul with those grim memories to earn a yet kinder word. He had looked even to hear the lad suing for pardon for the harsh opinions wherein he had held him. Strange was this yearning of his for the boy"s sympathy. He who for twenty years had gone unloving and unloved, sought now in his extremity affection from a fellow-man.
And so in the gloom he waited for a kinder word that came not; then--so urgent was his need--he set himself to beg it.
"Can you not understand now, Kenneth, how I came to fall so low? Can you not understand this dissoluteness of mine, which led them to dub me the Tavern Knight after the King conferred upon me the honour of knighthood for that stand of mine in Fifeshire? You must understand, Kenneth,"
he insisted almost piteously, "and knowing all, you must judge me more mercifully than hitherto."
"It is not mine to judge, Sir Crispin. I pity you with all my heart,"
the lad replied, not ungently.
Still the knight was dissatisfied. "Yours it is to judge as every man may judge his fellowman. You mean it is not yours to sentence. But if yours it were, Kenneth, what then?"
The lad paused a moment ere he answered. His bigoted Presbyterian training was strong within him, and although, as he said, he pitied Galliard, yet to him whose mind was stuffed with life"s precepts, and who knew naught of the trials it brings to some and the temptations to which they were not human did they not succ.u.mb--it seemed that vice was not to be excused by misfortune. Out of mercy then he paused, and for a moment he had it even in his mind to cheer his fellow-captive with a lie. Then, remembering that he was to die upon the morrow, and that at such a time it was not well to risk the perdition of his soul by an untruth, however merciful, he answered slowly:
"Were I to judge you, since you ask me, sir, I should be merciful because of your misfortunes. And yet, Sir Crispin, your profligacy and the evil you have wrought in life must weigh heavily against you." Had this immaculate bigot, this churlish milksop been as candid with himself as he was with Crispin, he must have recognized that it was mainly Crispin"s offences towards himself that his mind now dwelt on in deeper rancour than became one so well acquainted with the Lord"s Prayer.
"You had not cause enough," he added impressively, "to defile your soul and risk its eternal d.a.m.nation because the evil of others had wrecked your life."
Crispin drew breath with the sharp hiss of one in pain, and for a moment after all was still. Then a bitter laugh broke from him.
"Bravely answered, reverend sir," he cried with biting scorn. "I marvel only that you left your pulpit to gird on a sword; that you doffed your ca.s.sock to don a cuira.s.s. Here is a text for you who deal in texts, my brave Jack Presbyter--"Judge you your neighbour as you would yourself be judged; be merciful as you would hope for mercy." Chew you the cud of that until the hangman"s coming in the morning. Good night to you."
And throwing himself back upon the bed, Crispin sought comfort in sleep.
His limbs were heavy and his heart was sick.
"You misapprehend me, Sir Crispin," cried the lad, stung almost to shame by Galliard"s reproach, and also mayhap into some fear that hereafter he should find little mercy for his own lack of it towards a poor fellow-sinner. "I spoke not as I would judge, but as the Church teaches."
"If the Church teaches no better I rejoice that I was no churchman,"
grunted Crispin.
"For myself," the lad pursued, heeding not the irreverent interruption, "as I have said, I pity you with all my heart. More than that, so deeply do I feel, so great a loathing and indignation has your story sown in my heart, that were our liberty now restored us I would willingly join hands with you in wreaking vengeance on these evildoers."
Sir Crispin laughed. He judged the tone rather than the words, and it rang hollow.
"Where are your wits, O casuist?" he cried mockingly. "Where are your doctrines? "Vengeance is mine, saith the Lord!" Pah!"
And with that final e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.i.o.n, pregnant with contempt and bitterness, he composed himself to sleep.
He was accursed he told himself. He must die alone, as he had lived.
CHAPTER VIII. THE TWISTED BAR
Nature a.s.serted herself, and, despite his condition, Crispin slept.
Kenneth sat huddled on his chair, and in awe and amazement he listened to his companion"s regular breathing. He had not Galliard"s nerves nor Galliard"s indifference to death, so that neither could he follow his example, nor yet so much as realize how one should slumber upon the very brink of eternity.
For a moment his wonder stood perilously near to admiration; then his religious training swayed him, and his righteousness almost drew from him a contempt of this man"s apathy. There was much of the Pharisee"s att.i.tude towards the publican in his mood.
Anon that regular breathing grew irritating to him; it drew so marked a contrast "twixt Crispin"s frame of mind and his own. Whilst Crispin had related his story, the interest it awakened had served to banish the spectre of fear which the thought of the morrow conjured up. Now that Crispin was silent and asleep, that spectre returned, and the lad grew numb and sick with the horror of his position.
Thought followed thought as he sat huddled there with sunken head and hands clasped tight between his knees, and they were mostly of his dull uneventful days in Scotland, and ever and anon of Cynthia, his beloved.
Would she hear of his end? Would she weep for him?--as though it mattered! And every train of thought that he embarked upon brought him to the same issue--to-morrow! Shuddering he would clench his hands still tighter, and the perspiration would stand" out in beads upon his callow brow.
At length he flung himself upon his knees to address not so much a prayer as a maudlin grievance to his Creator. He felt himself a craven--doubly so by virtue of the peaceful breathing of that sinner he despised--and he told himself that it was not in fear a gentleman should meet his end.
"But I shall be brave to-morrow. I shall be brave," he muttered, and knew not that it was vanity begat the thought, and vanity that might uphold him on the morrow when there were others by, however broken might be his spirit now.
Meanwhile Crispin slept. When he awakened the light of a lanthorn was on his face, and holding it stood beside him a tall black figure in a cloak and a slouched hat whose broad brim left the features unrevealed.
Still half asleep, and blinking like an owl, he sat up.
"I have always held burnt sack to be well enough, but--"
He stopped short, fully awake at last, and, suddenly remembering his condition and thinking they were come for him, he drew a sharp breath and in a voice as indifferent as he could make it:
"What"s o"clock?" he asked.
"Past midnight, miserable wretch," was the answer delivered in a deep droning voice. "Hast entered upon thy last day of life--a day whose sun thou"lt never see. But five hours more are left thee."
"And it is to tell me this that you have awakened me?" demanded Galliard in such a voice that he of the cloak recoiled a step, as if he thought a blow must follow. "Out on you for an unmannerly cur to break upon a gentleman"s repose."
"I come," returned the other in his droning voice, "to call upon thee to repent."
"Plague me not," answered Crispin, with a yawn. "I would sleep."
"Soundly enough shalt thou sleep in a few hours" time. Bethink thee, miserable sinner, of thy soul."
"Sir," cried the Tavern Knight, "I am a man of marvellous short endurance. But mark you this your ways to heaven are not my ways.
Indeed, if heaven be peopled by such croaking things as you, I shall be thankful to escape it. So go, my friend, ere I become discourteous."
The minister stood in silence for a moment; then setting his lanthorn upon the table, he raised his hands and eyes towards the low ceiling of the chamber.
"Vouchsafe, O Lord," he prayed, "to touch yet the callous heart of this obdurate, incorrigible sinner, this wicked, perjured and blasphemous malignant, whose--"
He got no further. Crispin was upon his feet, his harsh countenance thrust into the very face of the minister; his eyes ablaze.
"Out!" he thundered, pointing to the door. "Out! Begone! I would not be guilty at the end of my life of striking a man in petticoats. But go whilst I can bethink me of it! Go--take your prayers to h.e.l.l."
The minister fell back before that blaze of pa.s.sion. For a second he appeared to hesitate, then he turned towards Kenneth, who stood behind in silence. But the lad"s Presbyterian rearing had taught him to hate a sectarian as he would a papist or as he would the devil, and he did no more than echo Galliard"s words--though in a gentler key.
"I pray you go," he said. "But if you would perform an act of charity, leave your lanthorn. It will be dark enough hereafter."
The minister looked keenly at the boy, and won over by the humility of his tone, he set the lanthorn on the table. Then moving towards the door, he stopped and addressed himself to Crispin.