"A little longer--another wait; wait patiently. Oh! G.o.d, how slowly years and months go over!"
"May I see you to the door, ma"am?" asked Tom Sedley, prosaically. The old lady, thinking, I dare say, of other things, made him no answer--a silence which he accepted as permission, and walked on beside her, not knowing what to say next, and terribly anxious to hit upon something, and try to found an acquaintance. The open door supplied him.
"Charming place this Cardyllian, ma"am. I believe no one ever was robbed in it. They leave their doors open half the night, just like that."
"Do they, indeed?" said she. I think she had forgotten her companion altogether in the interval. "I don"t remember. It"s fifteen years and upwards since I was there. I live here, at Malory." She nodded, and raised her eyes to his face as she spoke.
Suddenly she stopped, and looked at him more earnestly in silence for some seconds, and then said she--
"Sir, will you forgive me? Are you related to the Verneys?"
"No, I haven"t that honour," said he, smiling. "I _know_ Cleve Verney very well, and a very good fellow he is; but we"re not connected; my name is Sedley--Thomas Sedley."
"Sedley!" she repeated once or twice, still looking at him, "I recollect the name. No--no connection, I dare say, Cleve; and how _is_ Cleve?"
"Very well; he"s at Ware, now, for a few days."
"Ah! I dare say, and very well; a pretty boy--very pretty; but not like--no, not the least."
"I"ve heard people say he"s very like what his father was," said Tom.
"Oh! _yes_, I think so; there _is_ a likeness," acquiesced she.
"His father"s been dead a long time, you know?"
"I know; yes. Cleve is at Oxford or Cambridge by this time?" she continued.
Tom Sedley shook his head and smiled a little.
"Cleve has done with all that ever so long. He"s in the House of Commons now, and likely to be a swell there, making speeches, and all that."
"I know--I know. I had forgot how long it is since; he was a clever boy, wild, and talkative; yes, yes, he"ll do for Parliament, I suppose, and be a great man, some day, there. There was no resemblance though; and you, sir, are like him, he was so handsome--no one so handsome."
Tom Sedley smiled. He fancied he was only amused. But I am sure he was also pleased.
"And I don"t know. I can make out nothing. No one can. There"s a picture. I think they"d burn it, if they knew. It is drawn in chalks by a French artist; they colour so beautifully. It hangs in my room. I pray before it, every morning, for him."
The old lady moaned, with her hands folded together, and still looking steadfastly in his face.
"They"d burn it, I think, if they knew there was a picture. I was always told they were a cruel family. Well, I don"t know, I forgive him; I"ve forgiven him long ago. You are very like the picture, and even more like what I remember him. The picture was taken just when he came of age. He was twenty-seven when I first saw him; he was brilliant, a beautiful creature, and when I looked in his face I saw the sorrow that has never left me. You are wonderfully like, sir; but there"s a difference.
You"re not so handsome." Here was a blow to honest Tom Sedley, who again thought he was only amused, but was really chagrined.
"There is goodness and kindness in your face; his had little of that, nothing soft in it, but everything brilliant and interesting; and yet you are wonderfully like."
She pressed her hand on her thin bosom.
"The wind grows cold. A pain shoots through me while I look at you, sir.
I feel as if I were speaking to a spirit, G.o.d help me! I have said more to you to-night, than I have spoken for ten years before; forgive me, sir, and thank you, very much."
She turned from him again, took one long look at the distant headland, and then, with a deep sigh, almost a sob, she hastened towards the door.
He followed her.
"Will you permit me to see you to the house?" he pleaded, with a benevolence I fear not quite disinterested. She was by this time at the door, from which with a gesture, declining his offer, she gently waved him back, and disappeared within it, without another word. He heard the key turned in the lock, and remained without, as wise with respect to his particular quest as he had arrived.
CHAPTER VII.
A VIEW FROM THE REFECTORY WINDOW.
THE old discoloured wall of Malory, that runs along the sh.o.r.e overshadowed by grand old timber, that looks to me darker than any other grove, is seven feet high, and as he could see neither through nor over it, and could not think of climbing it, after a few seconds spent in staring at the gray door, Tom Sedley turned about and walked down to the little hillock that stands by the roadside, next the strand, and from the top of this he gazed, during an entire cigar, upon the mullioned windows of Malory, and was gratified by one faint gleam of a pa.s.sing candle from a gallery window.
"That"s a nice old woman, odd as she is; she looks quite like a lady; she"s certainly not the woman we saw in church to-day; how well she looked; what a nice figure, that time, as she stood looking from the sh.o.r.e; that cloak thing is loose to be sure; but, by Jove, she might have been a girl almost; and what large eyes she has got, and a well-shaped face. She must have been quite charming, about a hundred years ago; she"s not the mother: she"s too old; a grand-aunt, perhaps; what a long talk we had, and I such a fool, listening to all that rubbish, and never getting in a word about the people, that peerless creature!"
His walk home to Cardyllian was desultory and interrupted. I should not like to risk my credit by relating how often he halted on his way, and how long, to refresh his eyes with the dim outlines of the trees and chimneys of Malory; and how, very late and melancholy, and abstracted, he reached his crib in the Verney Arms.
Early next morning, in pursuance of a clever idea, Tom Sedley made, I admit, his most picturesque and becoming toilet. It consisted of his black velvet knickerbocker suit, with those refined jack-boots of shining leather, and the most charming jerry that had ever appeared in Cardyllian, and away he marched over the hill, while the good people of the town were champing their m.u.f.fins and sipping their tea, to the back gate of Malory.
It stood half open, and with as careless a boldness as he could a.s.sume, in he went and walked confidently up the straight farmyard lane, girt with high thorn hedges. Here, bribing a rustic who showed symptoms of churlishness, with half-a-crown, he was admitted into a sort of farmyard, under pretext of examining the old monastic chapel and refectory, now used as a barn, and some other relics of the friary, which tourists were wont to admire.
From the front of the refectory there is a fine view of the distant mountains. Also, as Tom Sedley recollected, a foreground view, under the trees, in front of the hall-door, and there, with a sudden bound at his heart, he beheld the two ladies who had yesterday occupied the Malory pew, the old and the young, busy about the flower-bed, with garden gauntlets on, and trowel in hand.
They were chatting together cheerily enough, but he could not hear what they said. The young lady now stood up from her work, in a dress which looked to him like plain holland.
The young lady had pushed her hat a little back, and stood on the gra.s.s, at the edge of the flowers, with her trowel glittering in the early sun, in her slender right hand, which rested upon her left; her pretty right foot was advanced a little on the short gra.s.s, and showed just its tip, over the edge of the flower-bed. A homely dress and rustic appliances.
But, oh! that oval, beautiful face!
Tom Sedley--the "peeping Tom" of this story--from his deep monastic window, between the parting of the tall trees, looked down upon this scene in a breathless rapture. From the palmy days of the Roman Pantheon down, was ever Flora so adored?
From under his Gothic arch, in his monkish shade, Tom could have stood, he fancied, for ever, gazing as friar has seldom gazed upon his pictured saint, on the supernatural portrait which his enthusiasm worshipped.
The young lady, as I have described her, looking down upon her old companion, said something with a little nod, and smiled; then she looked up at the tree tops from where the birds were chirping; so Tom had a fair view of her wonderful face, and though he felt himself in imminent danger of detection, he could not move. Then her eyes with a sidelong glance, dropped on the window where he stood, and pa.s.sed on instantly.
With the instinct which never deceives us, he felt her glance touch him, and knew that he was detected. The young lady turned quietly, and looked seaward for a few moments. Tom relieved his suspense with a sigh; he hoped he might pa.s.s muster for a tourist, and that the privileges of such visitors had not been abridged by the recluses.
The young lady then quietly turned and resumed her work, as if nothing had happened; but, I think, she said something to her elderly companion, for that slim lady, in a Tweed shawl, closely brooched across her breast, stood up, walked a step or two backward upon the gra.s.s, and looked straight up at the window, with the inquisitive frown of a person a little dazzled or near-sighted.
Honest Tom Sedley, who was in a rather morbid state all this morning, felt his heart throb again, and drum against his ribs, as he affected to gaze in a picturesque absorption upon the distant headlands.
The old lady, on the other hand, having distinctly seen in the deep-carved panel of that antique wall, the full-length portrait of our handsome young friend, Tom Sedley, in his killing knickerbocker suit of black velvet, with his ivory-headed cane in his hand, and that "stunning" jerry which so exactly suited his countenance, and of which he believed no hatter but his own possessed the pattern, or could produce a similar masterpiece.
The old lady with her hand raised to fend off the morning sun that came flickering through the branches on her wrinkled forehead, and her light gray eyes peering on him, had no notion of the awful power of her gaze upon that "impudent young man."
With all his might Tom Sedley gazed at the Welsh headlands, without even winking, while he felt the basilisk eye of the old spinster in gray Tweed upon him. So intense was his stare, that old Pendillion at last seemed to nod his mighty head, and finally to submerge himself in the sea. When he ventured a glance downward, he saw Miss Anne Sheckleton with quick steps entering the house, while the young lady had recommenced working at a more distant flower-bed, with the same quiet diligence.
It was to be feared that the old lady was taking steps for his expulsion. He preferred antic.i.p.ating her measures, and not caring to be caught in the window, left the refectory, and walked down the stone stairs, whistling and tapping the wall with the tip of his cane.