Tom remained there standing, his hat in his hand, looking out of the window--longing to speak, his heart being full, yet not knowing how to begin, or how to go on if he had begun.
Agnes worked on diligently, and looked out from the window at her side over the shorn gra.s.s and flower-beds, through the old trees in the foreground--over the tops of the sloping forest, with the back-ground of the grand Welsh mountains, and a glimpse of the estuary, here and there, seen through the leaves, stretching far off, in dim gold and gray.
"You like that particular window," said Tom, making a wonderful effort; "I mean, why do you like always to sit there?" He spoke in as careless a way as he could, looking still out of his window, which commanded a different view.
"This window! oh, my frame stands here always, and when one is accustomed to a particular place, it puts one out to change."
Then Agnes dropped her pretty eyes again to her worsted, and worked and hummed very faintly a little air, and Tom"s heart swelled within him, and he hummed as faintly the same gay air.
"I thought perhaps you liked that view?" said Tom Sedley, arresting the music.
She looked out again.
"Well, it"s very pretty."
"The best from these windows; some people think, I believe, the prettiest view you have," said Tom, gathering force, "the water is always so pretty."
"Yes, the water," she a.s.sented listlessly.
"Quite a romantic view," continued Sedley, a little bitterly.
"Yes, every pretty view _is_ romantic," she acquiesced, looking out for a moment again. "If one knew exactly what _romantic_ means--it"s a word we use so often, and so vaguely."
"And can"t you define it, Agnes?"
"Define it? I really don"t think I could."
"Well, that does surprise me."
"You are so much more clever than I, of course it does."
"No, quite the contrary; you are clever--I"m serious, I a.s.sure you--and I"m a dull fellow, and I know it quite well--_I_ can"t define it; but _that_ doesn"t surprise me."
"Then we are both in the same case; but I won"t allow it"s stupidity--the idea is quite undefinable, and that is the real difficulty. You can"t describe the perfume of a violet, but you know it quite well, and I really think flowers a more interesting subject than romance."
"Oh, really! not, surely, than the romance of _that_ view. It _is_ so romantic!"
"You seem quite in love with it," said she, with a little laugh, and began again with a grave face to st.i.tch in the glory of her saint in celestial yellow worsted.
"The water--yes--and the old trees of Ware, and just that tower, at the angle of the house."
Agnes just glanced through her window, but said nothing.
"I think," said Sedley, "if _I_ were peopling this scene, you know, I should put my hero in that Castle of Ware--that is, if I could invent a romance, which, of course, I couldn"t." He spoke with a meaning, I think.
"Why should there be heroes in romances?" asked Miss Agnes, looking nevertheless toward Ware, with her hand and the needle resting idly upon the frame. "Don"t you think a romance ought to resemble reality a little; and do you ever find such a monster as a hero in the world?
_I_ don"t expect to see one, I know," and she laughed again, but Tom thought, a little bitterly, and applied once more diligently to her work, and hummed a few bars of her little air again.
And Tom, standing now in the middle of the room, leaning on the back of a chair, by way of looking still upon the landscape which they had been discussing, was really looking, un.o.bserved, on her, and thinking that there was not in all the world so pretty a creature.
Charity opened the door, equipped for the walk, and bearing an alpaca umbrella, such as few gentlemen would like to walk with in May Fair.
"Well, you won"t come, I see. I think you are very obstinate. Come, Thomas Sedley. Good-bye, Agnes;" and with these words the worthy girl led forth my friend Tom, and as they pa.s.sed the corner of the house, he saw Agnes standing in the window, looking out sadly, with her fingertips against the pane.
"She"s lonely, poor little thing!" thought he, with a pang. "Why wouldn"t she come? Listlessness--apathy, I suppose. How selfish and odious any trifling with a girl"s affections is;" and then aloud to Charity, walking by her side, he continued, "You have not seen Cleve since the great day of Lord Verney"s visit, I suppose?"
"No, nothing of him, and don"t desire to see him. He has been the cause of a great deal of suffering, as you see, and I think he has behaved _odiously_. She"s very odd; she doesn"t choose to confide in me. I don"t think it"s nice or kind of her, but, of course, it"s her own affair; only this is plain to me, that she"ll never think of any one else now but Cleve Verney."
"It"s an awful pity," said Tom Sedley, quite sincerely.
They were walking down that steep and solitary road, by which Vane Etherage had made his memorable descent a few months since, now in deep shadow under the airy canopy of transparent leaves, and in total silence, except for the sounds, far below, of the little mill-stream struggling among the rocks.
"Don"t you know Mr. Cleve Verney pretty well?"
"Intimately--that is, I _did_. I have not lately seen so much of him."
"And do you think, Thomas Sedley, that he will ever come forward?"
said blunt Miss Charity.
"Well, I happen to know that Cleve Verney has no idea of anything of the kind. In fact, I should be deceiving you, if I did not say distinctly that I know he won"t."
Tom was going to say he _can"t_, but checked himself. However, I think he was not sorry to have an opportunity of testifying to this fact, and putting Cleve Verney quite out of the field of conjecture as a possible candidate.
"Then I must say," said Miss Charity, flushing brightly, "that Mr.
Verney is a villain."
From this strong position Tom could not dislodge her, and finding that expostulation involved him in a risk of a similar cla.s.sification, he abandoned Cleve to his fate.
Up and down the Green they walked until Miss Flood espied and arrested Charity Etherage, and carried her off upon a visit of philanthropy in her pony-carriage, and Tom Sedley transferred his charge to fussy, imperious Miss Flood; and he felt strangely incensed with her, and walked the Green, disappointed and bereft. Was not Charity Agnes"s sister? While he walked with her, he could talk of Agnes. He was still in the halo of Hazelden, and near Agnes. But now he was adrift, in the dark. He sat down, looking toward the upland woods that indicate Hazelden, and sighed with a much more real pain than he had ever sighed toward Malory; and he thought evil of meddling Miss Flood, who had carried away his companion. After a time he walked away toward Malory, intending a visit to his old friend Rebecca Mervyn, and thinking all the way of Agnes Etherage.
CHAPTER V.
MRS. MERVYN"S DREAM.
HE found himself, in a little time, under the windows of the steward"s house. Old Rebecca Mervyn was seated on the bench beside the door, plying her knitting-needles; she raised her eyes on hearing his step.
"Ha, he"s come!" she said, lowering her hands to her knees, and fixing her dark wild gaze upon him, "I ought to have known it--so strange a dream must have had a meaning."
"They sometimes have, ma"am, I believe. I hope you are pretty well, Mrs. Mervyn."
"No, sir, I am not well."
"Very sorry, very sorry indeed, ma"am," said Tom Sedley. "I"ve often thought this must be a very damp, unhealthy place--too much crowded up with trees; they say nothing is more trying to health. You"d be much better, I"m sure, anywhere else."
"Nowhere else; my next move shall be my last. I care not how soon, sir."