She walked on thinking.
It wouldn"t end with Ally. They were all three exposed and persecuted.
For supposing--it wasn"t likely, but supposing--that this Rowcliffe man was the sort of man she liked, supposing--what was still more unlikely--that he was the sort of man who would like her, where would be the good of it? Her father would spoil it all. He spoiled everything.
Well, no, to be perfectly accurate, not everything. There was one thing he had not spoiled, because he had never suspected its existence--her singular pa.s.sion for the place. Of course, if he had suspected it, he would have stamped on it. It was his business to stamp on other people"s pa.s.sions. Luckily, it wasn"t in him to conceive a pa.s.sion for a place.
It had come upon her at first sight as they drove between twilight and night from Reyburn through Rathdale into Garthdale. It was when they had left the wooded land behind them and the moors lifted up their naked shoulders, one after another, darker than dark, into a sky already whitening above the hidden moon. And she saw Morfe, gray as iron, on its hill, bearing the square crown and the triple pendants of its lights; she saw the long straight line of Greffington Edge, hiding the secret moon, and Karva with the ashen west behind it. There was something in their form and in their gesture that called to her as if they knew her, as if they waited for her; they struck her with the shock of recognition, as if she had known them and had waited too.
And close beside her own wonder and excitement she had felt the deep and sullen repulsion of her companions. The Vicar sat huddled in his overcoat. His nostrils, pinched with repugnance, sniffed as they drank in the cold, clean air. From time to time he shuddered, and a hoa.r.s.e muttering came from under the gray woolen scarf he had wound round his mouth and beard. He was the righteous man, sent into uttermost abominable exile for his daughter"s sin. Behind him, on the back seat of the trap, Alice and Mary cowed under their capes and rugs. They had turned their shoulders to each other, hostile in their misery. Gwenda was sorry for them.
The gray road dipped and turned and plunged them to the bottom of Garthdale. The small, scattering lights of the village waited for her in the hollow, with something humble and sad and familiar in their setting. They too stung her with that poignant and secret sense of recognition.
"This is the place," the Vicar had said. He had addressed himself to Alice; and it had been as if he had said, This the place, the infernal, the d.a.m.nable place, you"ve brought us to with your behavior.
Their hatred of it had made Gwenda love it. "You can have your old Garthdale all to yourself," Alice had said. "n.o.body else wants it."
That, to Gwenda, was the charm of it. The adorable place was her own.
n.o.body else wanted it. She loved it for itself. It had nothing but itself to offer her. And that was enough. It was almost, as she had said, too much. Her questing youth conceived no more rapturous adventure than to follow the sheep over Karva, to set out at twilight and see the immense night come down on the high moors above Upthorne; to get up when Alice was asleep and slip out and watch the dawn turning from gray to rose, and from rose to gold above Greffington Edge.
As it happened you saw sunrise and moonrise best from the platform of Morfe Green. There Greffington Edge breaks and falls away, and lets slip the dawn like a rosy scarf from its shoulder, and sets the moon free of her earth and gives her to the open sky.
But, just as the Vicar had spoiled Rowcliffe, so Rowcliffe had spoiled Morfe for Gwenda. Therefore her fear of him was mingled with resentment. It was as if he had had no business to be living there, in that house of his looking over the Green.
Incredible that she should have wanted to see and to know this person.
But now, that she didn"t want to, of course she was going to see him.
At the bend of the road, within a mile of Morfe, Mary came riding on Gwenda"s bicycle. Large parcels were slung from her handle bars. She had been shopping in the village.
Mary, bowed forward as she struggled with an upward slope, was not aware of Gwenda. But Gwenda was aware of Mary, and, not being in the mood for her, she struck off the road on to the moor and descended upon Morfe by the steep lane that leads from Karva into Rathdale.
It never occurred to her to wonder what Mary had been doing in Morfe, so evident was it that she had been shopping.
XVI
The doctor was at home, but he was engaged, at the moment, in the surgery.
The maid-servant asked if she would wait.
She waited in the little cold and formal dining-room that looked through two windows on to the Green. So formal and so cold, so utterly impersonal was the air of the doctor"s mahogany furniture that her fear left her. It was as if the furniture a.s.sured her that she would not really _see_ Rowcliffe; as for knowing him, she needn"t worry.
She had sent in her card, printed for convenience with the names of the three sisters:
Miss Cartaret.
Miss Gwendolen Cartaret.
Miss Alice Cartaret.
She felt somehow that it protected her. She said to herself, "He won"t know which of us it is."
Rowcliffe was washing his hands in the surgery when the card was brought to him. He frowned at the card.
"But--You"ve brought this before," he said. "I"ve seen the lady."
"No, sir. It"s another lady."
"Another? Are you certain?"
"Yes, sir. Quite certain."
"Did she come on a bicycle?"
"No, sir, that was the lady you"ve seen. I think this"ll be her sister."
Rowcliffe was still frowning as he dried his hands with fastidious care.
"She"s different, sir. Taller like."
"Taller?"
"Yes, sir."
Rowcliffe turned to the table and picked up a probe and a lancet and dropped them into a sterilising solution.
The maid waited. Rowcliffe"s absorption was complete.
"Shall I ask her to call again, sir?"
"No. I"ll see her. Where is she?"
"In the dining-room, sir."
"Show her into the study."
Nothing could have been more distant and reserved than Rowcliffe"s dining-room. But, to a young woman who had made up her mind that she didn"t want to know anything about him, Rowcliffe"s study said too much. It told her that he was a ferocious and solitary reader; for in the long rows of book shelves the books leaned slantwise across the gaps where his hands had rummaged and ransacked. It told her that his G.o.ds were masculine and many--Darwin and Spencer and Haeckel, Pasteur, Curie and Lord Lister, Thomas Hardy, Walt Whitman and Bernard Shaw. Their photogravure portraits hung above the bookcase. He was indifferent to mere visible luxury, or how could he have endured the shabby drugget, the cheap, country wall-paper with its design of dreadful roses on a white watered ground? But the fire in the grate and the deep arm-chair drawn close to it showed that he loved warmth and comfort. That his tastes made him solitary she gathered from the chair"s comparatively unused and unworn companion, lurking and sulking in the corner where it had been thrust aside.
The one window of this room looked to the west upon a little orchard, gray trunks of apple trees and plum trees against green gra.s.s, green branches against gray stone, gray that was softened in the liquid autumn air, green that was subtle, exquisite, charmingly austere.
He could see his little orchard as he sat by his fire. She thought she rather liked him for keeping his window so wide open.
She was standing by it looking at the orchard as he came in.