"You _are_ good and virtuous," he defended with boyish loyalty.
"Of course I am," she agreed. "I"ve driven one man to drink by marrying him, and more than I can count by not. I"m an angel, truly. But it"s so hard to tell just what to do. I am my brother"s keeper, and yet I go through life adding each year to the army of the besotted."
It was not at all the trend that young Andrews had foreseen in bringing Nina Darling to this shadowy corner of the terrace. Every fresh lead made the situation more uncomfortable. He had been br.i.m.m.i.n.g over with pa.s.sion and sentiment, and here they had strayed away into a field rife with some of life"s hardest facts.
"Promise me," she begged, "that you won"t desert the civil service for the army--this army, my army!"
"G.o.d knows what I shall do, Nina!" he flung back desperately. "I banked everything on you. I didn"t think you"d fail me."
"I"ve failed every one that ever came into my life," was her candid rejoinder. "Every time I crave and take a little pa.s.sing pleasure some one suffers, and I haven"t a drop of vicious blood in my veins. I believe I was cursed in my cradle."
He started to protest, but she shook her golden head dispiritedly. The blues--rare visitors--had settled down upon her.
"If I had only met you first!" he cried. "If you had married me I would have saved you."
"Don"t!" she supplicated. "Please, please don"t! I hate the word--marriage. Who was it said: "Love is a souffle that marriage changes to a bread-and-b.u.t.ter pudding?" I"ve seen it borne out scores of times. Soggy, indigestible stuff, without spice or flavor."
The melody of the dance music which all along had seeped to them in harmonic murmur from the distant ballroom was now hushed.
In the distance, at the opposite end of the terrace, figures--single and grouped--moved in silhouette across the glare from the lighted windows.
Along the garden paths there pa.s.sed at intervals sentinel Ghurkas from the viceroy"s guard of honor.
Young Andrews"s thoughts were long, long thoughts. He was sorry for the woman, but he was still more sorry for himself. He had turned a little away from her. His head was bowed, and his gaze was lowered to the pavement at his feet.
Nina had risen before he was conscious of her movement. Then belatedly he sprang up.
"It is late," she said. "The Ramsays are probably looking everywhere for me. I mustn"t keep them waiting."
But he scarcely heeded. He stepped very close to her and gripped her by either arm.
"Tell me," he begged, low-voiced, earnest, "is there nothing in your heart for me?"
"Oh, yes!" she answered quite casually. "Sympathy--oh, ever so much sympathy!"
"And there can never be anything else?"
"There never can be anything else--except--"
She paused, and his hopes fluttered.
"Except--" he repeated.
"Grat.i.tude. I am grateful. I was so afraid you were going to weep. And you didn"t."
CHAPTER II
A Psychological Contretemps
Young Andrews was a sensitive soul, but he was not unmanly. He fought off the tears as long as he was conscious, but his pillow was wet in the morning.
His station was "on the Bombay side," as they say in India. To be exact, it was at Junnar. And he started down the next day, after sending Nina a bouquet of Annandale"s loveliest roses. But when he alighted from the little branch railway line at Umballa, he halted.
The cantonment here was the home of the Darlings. But it was also the home of Dinghal, a deputy commissioner, who was a friend of young Andrews. So young Andrews lingered, and the deputy commissioner made him welcome.
Hitherto he had regarded Dinghal as rather a bore. And in this he was thoroughly justified. But since his two months at Simla the deputy commissioner had acquired for him a distinct interest.
Dinghal knew the Darlings intimately, and his pa.s.sion for gathering and disseminating minor gossip, which had once been a fault, became now, in the changed tastes of his visitor, an enviable virtue, especially as the visitor found it the easiest thing in the world to direct the flow into the one desired channel.
As a rule there was nothing vicious about Dinghal"s gossip. It was so pitifully tame and pointless that it wearied the listener to extinction; for Dinghal was a kindly man, inclined to gloss over faults and failings and to "play up" the good points of even the most unworthy.
This was another reason why young Andrews was so vastly entertained by all the little talks they had about Colonel and Mrs. Darling. He had heard enough of the other sort of thing in the club at Simla, and had relished it then, in that Nina"s husband was the chief victim, and at that time his sympathies were all with Nina.
What he craved most now was unbiased truth. Which is sometimes a panacea--and sometimes not.
"They"re not happy, to be sure," Dinghal admitted with evident reluctance. "But I don"t know that either is to blame. Just a case of mutual inadaptability that neither discovered until it was too late. I knew Darling long before he married her, and I know people who knew little Nina Calthrop when she was crowing in swaddling clothes.
"There"s not a better family in England. Good people all of them. The men have rather run to the army. You know how that goes in families.
She"s a grand-daughter of old General Buddicomb, who distinguished himself in Egypt in 1882.
"The general"s sister, Nina"s great-aunt, married the Duke of Pemberwell. Fine people, I tell you. Then there was Kneedrock; a husky young giant--viscount, you know--son of the Earl of Dumphreys, who went to South Africa and never came back."
"Never came back?" echoed young Andrews questioningly.
"Reported killed at Spion Kop, I think it was. Body never brought home, though. May have been Bloemfontein, I"m not sure. At any rate, they say he was Nina"s favorite cousin. She certainly took his loss very keenly.
"After her first wild grief she developed a mania for particulars. When peace was arranged and the rank and file were coming home by the shipload she lost no chance of getting every fact she could from every officer she met.
"At the Pemberwell seat--Puddleford--she encountered Colonel Darling. It was he, they say, who identified poor Kneedrock"s remains, what there was of them, and, of course, he held for her at that vital moment more interest than any other man, woman, or child in the United Kingdom.
"She annexed him--body, soul, and breeches, as the saying is. And it wasn"t Darling"s fault that he was flattered and fascinated, for Nina was then barely twenty, and the rarest, flowerlike slip of a girl you can imagine.
"You know what she is now. Beautiful, you think, eh? Everybody agrees that Nina is beautiful; and she is. But five years in India, and--well, let us say, the life of the mismated--haven"t failed to rub some of the bloom off the peach."
Mixed metaphors had no terrors for Dinghal, who evidently inherited from somewhere a strain of Irish blood, despite his name, and treated "bulls"
as if they were pets.
"Was this fellow, Kneedrock, ever heard of afterward?" his listener questioned. "Reported alive, I mean. It seems to me--"
"Oh, yes," Dinghal answered. "Every now and then a story crops up from somewhere that he"s been seen. But n.o.body believes it. If he"s alive there"s no reason why he shouldn"t go home, is there? The whole thing is ridiculous on its face. Besides Darling saw him. Says he was practically shot to pieces."
"I thought I"d heard it," returned young Andrews casually. And to himself he said: "Kneedrock is the man she meant. Her cousin, her match, and her mate--all in one."
"Yes," Dinghal went on, calmly filling his pipe, "Nina Calthrop was something to covet; and, naturally enough, Darling coveted her.