Her head went up. "I am a good nurse. But I am more than a nurse, I am a woman. Oh, I know you are blaming me for what you think I have done. But if you stood under a tree and a great ripe peach hung just out of your reach, could you be blamed for shaking the tree? Well, I shook the tree."
She was very handsome as she gave her defense with flashing eyes.
"The General asked me to marry him, and that"s more than you would ever have done. You liked to think that I was half in love with you. You liked to pretend that you were half in love with me. But would you ever have offered me ease and rest from hard work? Would you ever have thought that I might some day be your daughter"s equal in your home?
Oh, I have wanted good times. I used to sit night after night alone in the office while you and Jean went out and did the things I was dying to do. I wanted to go to dances and to the theater and to supper with a gay crowd. But you never seemed to think of it. I am young and I want pretty clothes--yet you thought I was satisfied to have you come home and say a few careless pleasant words, and to tease me a little.
That was all you ever did for me--all you ever wanted.
"But the General wants more than that. He wants me here in the big house, to be his wife, and to meet his friends. He had a man come up the other day with a lot of rings, and he bought me this." She showed the great diamonds flashing on her third finger. "I have always wanted a ring like this, and now I can have as many as I want. Do you blame me for shaking the tree?"
He sat, listening, spellbound to her sophistry. But was it sophistry?
Wasn"t some of it true? He saw her for the first time as a woman wanting things like other women.
She swept out her hand to include the contents of the little room. "I have always longed for a place like this. I don"t know a thing about china. But I know that all that stuff in the cabinet cost a fortune.
And it"s a pretty room, and some day when I am the General"s wife, I"ll ask you here to take tea with me, and I"ll wear a silver gown like your daughter wears, and I think you"ll be surprised to see that I can do it well."
He flung up his hand. "I can"t argue it, Hilda. I can"t a.n.a.lyze it.
But it is all wrong. In all the years that you worked for me, while I laughed at you, I respected you. But I don"t respect you now."
She shrugged. "Do you think I care? And a man"s respect after all is rather a cold thing, isn"t it? But I am sorry you feel as you do about it. I should have been glad to have you wish me happiness."
"Happiness--" His anger seemed to die suddenly. "You won"t find happiness, Hilda, if you separate a son from his father."
"Did he tell you that? I had nothing to do with it. His father was angry at his--interference."
He stood up. "We won"t discuss it. But you may tell him this. That I am glad his son is poor, for my daughter will marry now the man and not his money."
"Then he will marry her?"
"Yes. On Christmas Day."
She wished that she might tell him the date of her own wedding, but she did not know it. The General seemed in no hurry. He had carefully observed the conventions; had hired a housekeeper and a maid, and there was, of course, the day nurse. Having thus surrounded his betrothed with a sort of feminine bodyguard, he spoke of the wedding as happening in the spring. And he was hard to move. As has been said, the General had once commanded a brigade. He was immensely entertained and fascinated by the lady who was to be his wife. But he was not to be managed by her. She found herself, as he grew stronger, quite strangely deferring to his wishes. She found herself, indeed, rather unexpectedly dominated.
She came back to the Doctor. "Aren"t you going to wish me happiness?"
"No. How can I, Hilda?"
After he had left her, she stood very still in the middle of the room.
She could still see him as he had towered above her--his crinkled hair waving back from his handsome head. She had always liked the youth of him and his laughter and his boyish fun.
The rich man upstairs was--old--.
CHAPTER XX
THE VISION OF BRAVE WOMEN
And now the Tin Soldier was to go to the wars!
Derry, swinging downtown, found himself gazing squarely into the eyes of the khaki-clad men whom he met. He was one of them at last!
He was on his way to meet Jean. The day before they had gone to church together. They had heard burning words from a fearless pulpit. The old man who had preached had set no limits on his patriotism. The cause of the Allies was the cause of humanity, the cause of humanity was the cause of Christ. He would have had the marching hymn of the Americans "Onward, Christian Soldiers." His Master was not a shrinking idealist, but a prophet unafraid. "Woe unto thee, Chorazin! Woe unto thee, Bethsaida! ... It shall be more tolerable for Tyre and Sidon in the day of Judgment than for you. And thou, Capernaum, which art exalted unto Heaven, shall be brought down to h.e.l.l ..."
"I am too old to go myself," the old man had said, "but I have sent my sons. In the face of the world"s need, no man has a right to hold another back. Personal considerations which might once have seemed sufficient must now be set aside. Things are at stake which involve not only the honor of a nation but the honor of the individual. To call a man a coward in the old days was to challenge his physical courage. To know him as a slacker in these modern times is to doubt the quality of his mind and spirit. "I pray thee have me excused" is the word of one lost to the high meanings of justice--of love and loyalty and liberty--"
Stirring words. The lovers had thrilled to them. Derry"s hand had gone out to Jean and her own hand clasped it. Together they saw the vision of his going forth, a shining knight, girded for the battle by a beloved woman--saw it through the glamour of high hopes and youthful ardor!
A troop of cavalry on the Avenue! Jackies in saucer caps, infantry, artillery, aviation! Blue and red and green cords about wide-brimmed hats. Husky young Westerners, slim young Southerners, square-chinned young Northerners--a great brotherhood, their faces set one way--and he was to share their hardships, to be cold and hungry with the best of them, wet and dirty with the worst. It would be a sort of glorified penance for his delay in doing the thing which too long he had left undone.
He was to have lunch with Jean in the House restaurant--he was a little early, and as he loitered through the Capitol grounds, in his ears there was the echo of fairy trumpets--"_trutter-a-trutt, trutter-a-trutt--_"
The old Capitol had always been for Derry a place of dreams. He loved every inch of it. The sunset view of the city from the west front; the bronze doors on the east, the labyrinthine maze of the corridors; the tesselated floors, the mottled marble of the bal.u.s.trades; the hushed approach to the Supreme Court; the precipitous descent into the galleries of House and Senate, the rap of the Speaker"s gavel--the rattle of argument as political foes contended in the legislative arena; the more subdued squabbles on the Senate floor; the savory smell of food rising from the restaurants in the lower regions; the climb to the dome, the look of the sky when one came out at the top; Statuary Hall and its awesome echoes; the Rotunda with its fringe of tired tourists, its frescoed frieze--Columbus, Cortez, Penn, Pizarro--; the mammoth paintings--Pocahontas, and the Pilgrims, De Soto, and the Surrender of Cornwallis, the Signing of the Declaration, and Washington"s Resignation as Commander-in-Chief--Indian and Quaker, Puritan and Cavalier--these were some of the things which had ravished the eyes of the boy Derry in the days when his father had come to the Capitol to hobn.o.b with old cronies, and his son had been allowed to roam at will.
But above and beyond everything else, there were the great mural paintings on the west wall of the House side, above the grand marble staircase.
"_Westward the Course of Empire takes its way--!_"
Oh, those pioneers with their faces turned towards the Golden West!
The tired women and the bronzed men! Not one of them without that eager look of hope, of a dream realized as the land of Promise looms ahead!
Derry had often talked that picture over with his mother. "It was such men, Derry, who made our country--men unafraid--North, South, East and West, it was these who helped to shape the Nation"s destiny, as we must help to shape it for those who come after us."
It was in front of this picture that he was to meet Jean. He had wanted to share with her the inspiration of it.
She was late, and he waited, leaning on the marble rail which overlooked the stairway. People were going up and down pa.s.sing the picture, but not seeing it, their pulses calm, their blood cold. The doors of the elevators opened and shut, women came and went in velvet and fur, laughing. Men followed them, laughing, and the picture was not for them.
Derry wondered if it were symbolic, this indifference of the crowd.
Was the world"s pageant of horrors and of heroism thus unseen by the eyes of the unthinking?
And now Jean ascended, the top of her hat first--a blur of gray, then the red of the rose that he had sent her, a wave of her gray m.u.f.f as she saw him. He went down to meet her, and stood with her on the landing. Beneath the painting, on one side, ran the inscription, "No pent up Utica confines our powers, but the boundless Continent is ours," on the other side, "The Spirit moves in its allotted s.p.a.ce; the mind is narrow in a narrow sphere."
Thousands of men and women came and went and never read those words.
But boys read them, sitting on the stairs or leaning over the rail--and their minds were carried on and on. Old men, coming back after years to read them again, could testify what the words had meant to them in the field of high endeavor.
Jean had seen the painting many times, but now, standing on the upper gallery floor with Derry, it took on new meanings. She saw a girl with hope in her eyes, a young mother with a babe at her breast; homely middle-aged women redeemed from the commonplace by that long gaze ahead of them; old women straining towards that sunset glow. She saw, indeed, the Vision of Brave Women. "If it could only be like that for me, Derry. Do you see--they go with their husbands, those women, and I must stay behind."
"You will go with me, beloved, in spirit--"
They fell into silence before the limitless vista.
And now more people were coming up the stairs, a drawling, familiar voice--Alma Drew on the landing below. With her a tall young man. She was turning on him all her batteries of charm.
Alma pa.s.sed the picture and did not look at it, she pa.s.sed the lovers and did not see them. And she was saying as she pa.s.sed, "I don"t know why any man should be expected to fight. I shouldn"t if I were a man."
Jean drew a long breath. "There, but for the grace of G.o.d, goes Jean McKenzie."
Derry laughed. "You were never like that. Not for the least minute.