"Something happened. Something"s been done to me. Somebody"s been taking a hand in my life. At breakfast-time I almost knew what it was. Do _you_ know what it was?"
There was only one possible answer to this. I made it, in a broken voice.
"No, old man, I don"t."
"Except of course that I"ve slipped back again."
"Except that, I suppose."
He pa.s.sed his hand wearily over his brow, and, much as I hated that insolent vainglorious book of his, the gesture with which he wiped it away went strangely to my heart.
"Then what"s that make the year now? 1903 or 4 I suppose; all blind guessing though; how can you tell your age to a year or two simply by how you feel?... But that would be about it. I was in the Adriatic in 1903; Venice, and across to Genoa and Ma.r.s.eilles. I"d been in Ma.r.s.eilles a few years before and thought I"d like another look at it. Gay place.
There was a little cafe on the Vieux Port with a little stage where a woman used to dance. Andalusian; very dark-eyed; pretty sort of wild animal. She had a little sloping mirror at the top of the stage so she could see who was in front when she was behind. Wicked show; I wasn"t having any; knives come out too easily there. But of course she"d gone when I went again in 1904."
I made one more appeal. "Derry, can"t you stay here a little longer?"
But it had now resumed its possession of him. He was almost cheerful again.
"Sorry, George. It"s good of you to ask me, but it"s quite impossible.
Glad Julia was able to take a run down with me; she"s a rattling good sort. I feel rather beastly about shaking her at Waterloo, but I really must get up to Cambridge Circus to-night. And if you"ll see about selling those things, George--any time will do--I"ve got nearly a hundred pounds, so there"s really no hurry--I"ll let you know where to send the money to----"
I drove them to the station. As the car turned out of the drive Julia"s eyes took a last look at my balconied house. His spirits were now high; he was on the eve of a holiday. They got into an empty third-cla.s.s carriage.
"Well, thanks most awfully, George," he said.
We waved hands.
Both their heads were framed in the window as the train glided out of the station.
That night I once more roamed restlessly from room to room of my house.
The place seemed extraordinarily and insistently empty, and I could not have told you whether I was glad or sorry for it. For this thing was getting altogether too much for me. Remember that I am merely a commercially successful English novelist, not a person accustomed to the contemplation of the mysteries of life and death in terms of electric torches and bamboo tables. Also a man of my years does not spend a night at the Devil"s Punch Bowl without knowing something about it afterwards.
In this connection, going into my dressing-room, I found that after all my suit of clothes had not been brushed. I summoned Mrs Moxon and told her to take them away. She stiffened a little, and some part of her clothing creaked.
"It"s made a good deal of extra work for the week-end," she reminded me.
"I"m sorry for that, but you were consulted beforehand," I said.
"It was more than I reckoned for," she announced with dignity.
A little of this was enough.
"Very well, Mrs Moxon. Take the clothes away, please, and let me have them to-morrow. By the way, I shall be going up to town by the midday train."
"In that case, sir," she said, "if you"re seeing Mr Rose perhaps you"d give him this. I suppose it"s his. I found it in his room."
She put into my hand a small book covered with shiny black cloth. I opened it to see what it was.
A single glance told me. It was Derwent Rose"s diary.
PART V
THE PIVOT
I
"George, you haven"t brought your Beautiful Bear round to see me yet,"
said Madge Aird. And I jumped a little as she added, "By the way, does he happen to have a brother?"
"No. At least I never heard of one. Why?"
"I wondered. I"ve seen somebody most remarkably like him, only younger.
In this neighbourhood too. I thought Nature made him and then lost the recipe, or whatever the saying is."
I a.s.sumed a lightness I hardly felt. "Did you "fall for" this other paragon as you did for Mr Rose?"
She laughed. "Oh, I don"t know. I dare say beauty of that sort would be ill to live with. Better a dinner of herbs all to yourself than a stalled ox every woman you knew would be running after. Or words to that effect. So you and Alec needn"t be too downhearted. But really he was most astonishingly like. Where does Mr Rose live?"
"Mr Rose is at present abroad."
"Oh, I don"t mean that it was he! I couldn"t make a mistake like that--I"d far too good a look at him the other time, the dazzling creature! But you might find out if the family"s seriously addicted to monogamy, unless he turns out to have a brother after all. Well, when are you coming to see us? Better hurry, as we"re off very soon."
"Where are you going?"
"Dinard. The three of us. Johnnie"s taken a villa. Have you settled what you"re going to do yet?"
"Not yet."
"Then why not come over to us for a few weeks? When you get tired of me, Jennie"s getting most take-about-able. She"s seventeen. And--George----"
"Yes?"
"When a woman tells you she"s got a daughter of seventeen there are quite a number of pretty things to be said----"
We continued to talk and walk aimlessly side by side. I had met her in Queen"s Gate, and I intended to retrace my steps to Queen"s Gate the moment I had got rid of her. She chattered on.
"And by the way, has Hastings mentioned Mr Rose to you lately?"
"No. Why?" I said. Hastings is my literary agent, the man beside whose labours on my behalf my own seem puny.
"Because I"ve got a feeling that this creature of all the talents really is coming off this time," she went on. "Hastings has found a publisher who"s going to see that Derwent Rose is "It" or die in the attempt. So if you want to do the Bear a good turn send him to Hastings. When is he coming back?"
"I don"t quite know."