"Mamma"s confessions have to be tremendous to correspond with her crimes," said Miriam. "She asked Miss Dormer to come and see us, suggested even that you might bring her some Sunday. I don"t like the way mamma does such things--too much humility, too many _simagrees_, after all; but I also said what I could to be nice to her. Your sister _is_ charming--awfully pretty and modest. If you were to press me I should tell you frankly that it seems to me rather a social muddle, this rubbing shoulders of "nice girls" and _filles de theatre_: I shouldn"t think it would do your poor young things much good. However, it"s their own affair, and no doubt there"s no more need of their thinking we"re worse than we are than of their thinking we"re better. The people they live with don"t seem to know the difference--I sometimes make my reflexions about the public one works for."
"Ah if you go in for the public"s knowing differences you"re far too particular," Nick laughed. "_D"ou tombez-vous_? as you affected French people say. If you"ve anything at stake on that you had simply better not play."
"Dear Mr. Dormer, don"t encourage her to be so dreadful; for it _is_ dreadful, the way she talks," Mrs. Rooth broke in. "One would think we weren"t respectable--one would think I had never known what I"ve known and been what I"ve been."
"What one would think, beloved mother, is that you"re a still greater humbug than you are. It"s you, on the contrary, who go down on your knees, who pour forth apologies about our being vagabonds."
"Vagabonds--listen to her!--after the education I"ve given her and our magnificent prospects!" wailed Mrs. Rooth, sinking with clasped hands upon the nearest ottoman.
"Not after our prospects, if prospects they be: a good deal before them.
Yes, you"ve taught me tongues and I"m greatly obliged to you--they no doubt give variety as well as incoherency to my conversation; and that of people in our line is for the most part notoriously monotonous and shoppy. The gift of tongues is in general the sign of your true adventurer. Dear mamma, I"ve no low standard--that"s the last thing,"
Miriam went on. "My weakness is my exalted conception of respectability.
Ah _parlez-moi de ca_ and of the way I understand it! If I were to go in for being respectable you"d see something fine. I"m awfully conservative and I know what respectability is, even when I meet people of society on the accidental middle ground of either glowering or smirking. I know also what it isn"t--it isn"t the sweet union of well-bred little girls ("carefully-nurtured," don"t they call them?) and painted she-mummers. I should carry it much further than any of these people: I should never look at the likes of us! Every hour I live I see that the wisdom of the ages was in the experience of dear old Madame Carre--was in a hundred things she told me. She"s founded on a rock. After that," Miriam went on to her host, "I can a.s.sure you that if you were so good as to bring Miss Dormer to see us we should be angelically careful of her and surround her with every attention and precaution."
"The likes of us--the likes of us!" Mrs. Rooth repeated plaintively and with a resentment as vain as a failure to sneeze. "I don"t know what you"re talking about and I decline to be turned upside down, I"ve my ideas as well as you, and I repudiate the charge of false humility. I"ve been through too many troubles to be proud, and a pleasant, polite manner was the rule of my life even in the days when, G.o.d knows, I had everything. I"ve never changed and if with G.o.d"s help I had a civil tongue then, I"ve a civil tongue now. It"s more than you always have, my poor, perverse, pa.s.sionate child. Once a lady always a lady--all the footlights in the world, turn them up as high as you will, make no difference there. And I think people know it, people who know anything--if I may use such an expression--and it"s because they know it that I"m not afraid to address them in a pleasant way. So I must say--and I call Mr. Dormer to witness, for if he could reason with you a bit about it he might render several people a service--your conduct to Mr. Sherringham simply breaks my heart," Mrs. Rooth concluded, taking a jump of several steps in the fine modern avenue of her argument.
Nick was appealed to, but he hung back, drawing with a free hand, and while he forbore Miriam took it up. "Mother"s good--mother"s very good; but it"s only little by little that you discover how good she is." This seemed to leave him at ease to ask their companion, with the preliminary intimation that what she had just said was very striking, what she meant by her daughter"s conduct to old Peter. Before Mrs. Rooth could answer this question, however, Miriam broke across with one of her own. "Do you mind telling me if you made your sister go off with Mr.
Sherringham because you knew it was about time for me to turn up? Poor Mr. Dormer, I get you into trouble, don"t I?" she added quite with tenderness.
"Into trouble?" echoed Nick, looking at her head but not at her eyes.
"Well, we won"t talk about that!" she returned with a rich laugh.
He now hastened to say that he had nothing to do with his sister"s leaving the studio--she had only come, as it happened, for a moment. She had walked away with Peter Sherringham because they were cousins and old friends: he was to leave England immediately, for a long time, and he had offered her his company going home. Mrs. Rooth shook her head very knowingly over the "long time" Mr. Sherringham would be absent--she plainly had her ideas about that; and she conscientiously related that in the course of the short conversation they had all had at the door of the house her daughter had reminded Miss Dormer of something that had pa.s.sed between them in Paris on the question of the charming young lady"s modelling her head.
"I did it to make the idea of our meeting less absurd--to put it on the footing of our both being artists. I don"t ask you if she has talent,"
said Miriam.
"Then I needn"t tell you," laughed Nick.
"I"m sure she has talent and a very refined inspiration. I see something in that corner, covered with a mysterious veil," Mrs. Rooth insinuated; which led Miriam to go on immediately:
"Has she been trying her hand at Mr. Sherringham?"
"When should she try her hand, poor dear young lady? He"s always sitting with us," said Mrs. Rooth.
"Dear mamma, you exaggerate. He has his moments--when he seems to say his prayers to me; but we"ve had some success in cutting them down. _Il s"est bien detache ces jours-ci_, and I"m very happy for him. Of course it"s an impertinent allusion for me to make; but I should be so delighted if I could think of him as a little in love with Miss Dormer,"
the girl pursued, addressing Nick.
"He is, I think, just a little--just a tiny bit," her artist allowed, working away; while Mrs. Rooth e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.ed to her daughter simultaneously:
"How can you ask such fantastic questions when you know he"s dying for _you_?"
"Oh dying!--he"s dying very hard!" cried Miriam. "Mr. Sherringham"s a man of whom I can"t speak with too much esteem and affection and who may be destined to perish by some horrid fever (which G.o.d forbid!) in the unpleasant country he"s going to. But he won"t have caught his fever from your humble servant."
"You may kill him even while you remain in perfect health yourself,"
said Nick; "and since we"re talking of the matter I don"t see the harm of my confessing that he strikes me as far gone--oh as very bad indeed."
"And yet he"s in love with your sister?--_je n"y suis plus_."
"He tries to be, for he sees that as regards you there are difficulties.
He"d like to put his hand on some nice girl who"d be an antidote to his poison."
"Difficulties are a mild name for them; poison even is a mild name for the ill he suffers from. The princ.i.p.al difficulty is that he doesn"t know what the devil he wants. The next is that I don"t either--or what the devil I want myself. I only know what I don"t want," Miriam kept on brightly and as if uttering some happy, beneficent truth. "I don"t want a person who takes things even less simply than I do myself. Mr.
Sherringham, poor man, must be very uncomfortable, for one side of him"s in a perpetual row with the other side. He"s trying to serve G.o.d and Mammon, and I don"t know how G.o.d will come off. What I like in you is that you"ve definitely let Mammon go--it"s the only decent way. That"s my earnest conviction, and yet they call us people light. Dear Mr.
Sherringham has tremendous ambitions--tremendous _riguardi_, as we used to say in Italy. He wants to enjoy every comfort and to save every appearance, and all without making a sc.r.a.p of a sacrifice. He expects others--me, for instance--to make all the sacrifices. _Merci_, much as I esteem him and much as I owe him! I don"t know how he ever came to stray at all into our bold, bad, downright Bohemia: it was a cruel trick for fortune to play him. He can"t keep out of it, he"s perpetually making dashes across the border, and yet as soon as he gets here he"s on pins and needles. There"s another in whose position--if I were in it--I wouldn"t look at the likes of us!"
"I don"t know much about the matter," Nick brought out after some intent smudging, "but I"ve an idea Peter thinks he has made or at least is making sacrifices."
"So much the better--you must encourage him, you must help him."
"I don"t know what my daughter"s talking about," Mrs. Rooth contributed--"she"s much too paradoxical for my plain mind. But there"s one way to encourage Mr. Sherringham--there"s one way to help him; and perhaps it won"t be a worse way for a gentleman of your good nature that it will help me at the same time. Can"t I look to you, dear Mr. Dormer, to see that he does come to the theatre to-night--that he doesn"t feel himself obliged to stay away?"
"What danger is there of his staying away?" Nick asked.
"If he"s bent on sacrifices that"s a very good one to begin with,"
Miriam observed.
"That"s the mad, bad way she talks to him--she has forbidden the dear unhappy gentleman the house!" her mother cried. "She brought it up to him just now at the door--before Miss Dormer: such very odd form! She pretends to impose her commands upon him."
"Oh he"ll be there--we"re going to dine together," said Nick. And when Miriam asked him what that had to do with it he went on: "Why we"ve arranged it; I"m going, and he won"t let me go alone."
"You"re going? I sent you no places," his sitter objected.
"Yes, but I"ve got one. Why didn"t you, after all I"ve done for you?"
She beautifully thought of it. "Because I"m so good. No matter," she added, "if Mr. Sherringham comes I won"t act."
"Won"t you act for me?"
"She"ll act like an angel," Mrs. Rooth protested. "She might do, she might be, anything in all the world; but she won"t take common pains."
"Of one thing there"s no doubt," said Miriam: "that compared with the rest of us--poor pa.s.sionless creatures--mamma does know what she wants."
"And what"s that?" Nick inquired, chalking on.
"She wants everything."
"Never, never--I"m much more humble," retorted the old woman; upon which her daughter requested her to give then to Mr. Dormer, who was a reasonable man and an excellent judge, a general idea of the scope of her desires.
As, however, Mrs. Rooth, sighing and deprecating, was not quick to acquit herself, the girl tried a short cut to the truth with the abrupt demand: "Do you believe for a single moment he"d marry me?"
"Why he has proposed to you--you"ve told me yourself--a dozen times."
"Proposed what to me?" Miriam rang out. "I"ve told you _that_ neither a dozen times nor once, because I"ve never understood. He has made wonderful speeches, but has never been serious."
"You told me he had been in the seventh heaven of devotion, especially that night we went to the foyer of the Francais," Mrs. Rooth insisted.