"I might have kept him. He"s the nicest kitten Jane ever had."
"I know," said Nicky. "It _was_ nice of you."
"I might want him back again."
"I--know."
Nicky was quiet and serious, almost humble, as if he went in the fear of losing Jerry. n.o.body but Jerry and Dorothy saw Nicky in that mood.
Not that he was really afraid. Nothing could take Jerry from him. If Dorothy could have taken him back again she wouldn"t have, not even if she had really wanted him. Dorothy wasn"t cruel, and she was only ragging.
But certainly he was Jane"s nicest kitten. Jane was half-Persian, white with untidy tabby patterns on her. Jerry was black all over. Whatever att.i.tude he took, his tight, short fur kept the outlines of his figure firm and clear, whether he arched his back and jumped sideways, or rolled himself into a cushion, or squatted with haunches spread and paws doubled in under his breast, or sat bolt upright with his four legs straight like pillars, and his tail curled about his feet. Jerry"s coat shone like black looking-gla.s.s, and the top of his head smelt sweet, like a dove"s breast.
And he had yellow eyes. Mary-Nanna said they would turn green some day.
But Nicky didn"t believe it. Mary-Nanna was only ragging. Jerry"s eyes would always be yellow.
Mr. Parsons declared that Nicky sat for whole hours meditating on Jerry, as if in this way he could make him last longer.
Jerry"s life was wonderful to Nicky. Once he was so small that his body covered hardly the palm of your hand; you could see his skin; it felt soft and weak through the thin fur, sleeked flat and wet where Jane had licked it. His eyes were b.u.t.toned up tight. Then they opened. He crawled feebly on the floor after Jane, or hung on to her little b.r.e.a.s.t.s, pressing out the milk with his clever paws. Then Jerry got older.
Sometimes he went mad and became a bat or a bird, and flew up the drawing-room curtains as if his legs were wings.
Nicky said that Jerry could turn himself into anything he pleased; a hawk, an owl, a dove, a Himalayan bear, a snake, a flying squirrel, a monkey, a rabbit, a panther, and a little black lamb of G.o.d.
Jerry was a cat now; he was two years old.
Jerry"s fixed idea seemed to be that he was a very young cat, and that he must be nursed continually, and that n.o.body but Nicky must nurse him.
Mr. Parsons found that Nicky made surprising progress in his Latin and Greek that year. What had baffled Mr. Parsons up till now had been Nicky"s incapacity for sitting still. But he would sit still enough when Jerry was on his knee, pressed tight between the edge of the desk and Nicky"s stomach, so that knowledge entered into Nicky through Jerry when there was no other way.
Nicky would even sit still in the open air to watch Jerry as he stalked bees in the gra.s.s, or played by himself, over and over again, his own enchanted game. He always played it in the same way. He started from the same clump in the border, to run in one long careening curve across the gra.s.s; at the same spot in the lawn he bounded sideways and gave the same little barking grunt and dashed off into the bushes. When you tried to catch him midway he stood on his hind legs and bowed to you slantwise, waving his forepaws, or rushed like lightning up the tree of Heaven, and climbed into the highest branches and clung there, looking down at you. His yellow eyes shone through the green leaves; they quivered; they played; they mocked you with some challenge, some charm, secret and divine and savage.
"The soul of Nicky is in that cat," Frances said.
Jerry knew that he was Nicky"s cat. When other people caught him he scrabbled over their shoulders with his claws and got away from them.
When Nicky caught him he lay quiet and heavy in his arms, pressing down and spreading his soft body. Nicky"s sense of touch had been hardened by violent impacts and collisions, by experiments with jack-knives and saws and chisels and gouges, and by struggling with the material of his everlasting inventions. Through communion with Jerry it became tender and sensitive again. It delighted in the cat"s throbbing purr and the thrill of his feet, as Jerry, serious and earnest, padded down his bed on Nicky"s knee.
"I like him best, though," said Nicky, "when he"s sleepy and at the same time bitesome."
"You mustn"t let him bite you," Frances said.
"I don"t mind," said Nicky. "He wouldn"t do it if he didn"t like me."
Jerry had dropped off to sleep with his jaws closing drowsily on Nicky"s arm. When it moved his hind legs kicked at it and tore.
"He"s dreaming when he does that," said Nicky. "He thinks he"s a panther and I"m buffaloes."
Mr. Parsons laughed at him. "Nicky and his cat!" he said. Nicky didn"t care. Mr. Parsons was always ragging him.
The tutor preferred dogs himself. He couldn"t afford any of the expensive breeds; but that summer he was taking care of a Russian wolfhound for a friend of his. When Mr. Parsons ran with Michael and Nicky round the Heath, the great borzoi ran before them with long leaps, head downwards, setting an impossible pace. Michael and Dorothy adored Boris openly. Nicky, out of loyalty to Jerry, stifled a secret admiration. For Mr. Parsons held that a devotion to a cat was incompatible with a proper feeling for a dog, whence Nicky had inferred that any feeling for a dog must do violence to the n.o.bler pa.s.sion.
Mr. Parsons tried to wean Nicky from what he pretended to regard as his unmanly weakness. "Wait, Nicky," he said, "till you"ve got a dog of your own."
"I don"t want a dog of my own," said Nicky. "I don"t want anything but Jerry." Boris, he said, was not clever, like Jerry. He had a silly face.
"Think so?" said Mr. Parsons. "Look at his jaws. They could break Jerry"s back with one snap."
"_Could_ he, Daddy?"
They were at tea on the lawn, and Boris had gone to sleep under Mr.
Parsons" legs with his long muzzle on his forepaws.
"He could," said Anthony, "if he caught him."
"But he couldn"t catch him. Jerry"d be up a tree before Boris could look at him."
"If you want Jerry to shin up trees you must keep his weight down."
Nicky laughed. He knew that Boris could never catch Jerry. His father was only ragging him.
Nicky was in the schoolroom, bowed over his desk. He was doing an imposition, the second aorist of the abominable verb [Greek: erchomai], written out five and twenty times. (Luckily he could do the last fifteen times from memory.)
Nicky had been arguing with Mr. Parsons. Mr. Parsons had said that the second aorist of [Greek: erchomai] was not [Greek: erchon].
Nicky had said, "I can"t help it. If it"s not [Greek: erchon] it ought to be."
Mr. Parsons had replied: "The verb [Greek: erchomai] is irregular." And Nicky had retorted, in effect, that no verb had any business to be as irregular as all that. Mr. Parsons had then suggested that Nicky might know more about the business of irregular verbs if he wrote out the second aorist of [Greek: erchomai] five and twenty times after tea. As it was a particularly fine afternoon, an imposition was, Nicky admitted, a score for Mr. Parsons and a jolly good sell for _him_.
Mr. Parsons had not allowed him to have Jerry on his knee, or even in the room; and this, Nicky owned further, was but just. It wouldn"t have been nearly so good a punishment if he had had Jerry with him.
Nicky, bowed over his desk, struggled for the perfect legibility which Mr. Parsons had insisted on, as otherwise the imposition would do him more harm than good. He was in for it, and the thing must be done honourably if it was done at all. He had only looked out of the windows twice to make sure that Boris was asleep under Mr. Parsons" legs. And once he had left the room to see where Jerry was. He had found him in the kitchen garden, sitting on a bed of fresh-grown mustard and cress, ruining it. He sat like a lamb, his forepaws crossed, his head tilted slightly backwards. His yellow eyes gazed at Nicky with a sweet and mournful innocence.
Nicky did not hear the voices in the garden.
"I"m awfully sorry, sir," Mr. Parsons was saying. "I can"t think how it could have happened." Mr. Parsons" voice was thick and his face was very red. "I could have sworn the door was shut."
"Johnnie opened it," said Anthony. He seemed to have caught, suddenly, one of his bad colds and to be giving it to Mr. Parsons. They were both in their shirtsleeves, and Anthony carried something in his arms which he had covered with his coat.
The borzoi stood in front of them. His face had a look of foolish ecstasy. He stared at Mr. Parsons, and as he stared he panted. There was a red smear on his white breast; his open jaws still dripped a pink slaver. It sprayed the ground in front of them, jerked out with his panting.
"Get away, you d.a.m.ned brute," said Mr. Parsons.
Boris abashed himself; he stretched out his fore legs towards Mr.
Parsons, shook his raised haunches, lifted up his great saw-like muzzle, and rolled into one monstrous cry a bark, a howl, a yawn.
Nicky heard it, and he looked out of the schoolroom window. He saw the red smear on the white curly breast. He saw his father in his shirt sleeves, carrying something in his arms that he had covered with his coat.
Under the tree of Heaven Dorothy and Michael, crouching close against their mother, cried quietly. Frances was crying, too; for it was she who would have to tell Nicky.