"It"s for you to decide," he answered.
She was dead tired by now, but she did not dare to stop.
"All right," she said; "we"ll go."
It was a harlequin crowd at Maxim"s--a noisier, tenser, more hectic crowd than at the Riche. The room was gray with smoke, and everywhere she looked were gold-tipped wine bottles. Though it was still early, there was much hysterical laughter and much tossing about of long streamers of colored paper and confetti. As they entered she instinctively shrank away from it. Had the waiter delayed another second before leading them to a table, she would have gone out.
Monte ordered the wine he was expected to order, but Marjory scarcely touched it to her lips, while he was content to watch it bubble in his gla.s.s. He did not like to have her here, and yet it was almost worth the visit to watch her eyes grow big, to watch her sensitive mouth express the disgust she felt for the mad crowd, to have her unconsciously hitch her chair nearer his.
"The worst of it is," he explained to her, "it"s the outsiders who are doing all this--Americans, most of them."
Suddenly, from behind them, a clear tenor voice made itself heard through the din. The first notes were indistinct; but in a few seconds the singer had the room to himself. Turning quickly, Marjory saw the slender figure of Hamilton, swaying slightly, standing by a table, his eyes leveled upon hers. He was singing "The Rosary"--singing it as only he, when half mad, could sing it.
She clutched Monte"s hand as he half rose from his seat.
"Please," she whispered, "it"s best to sit still."
Stronger and stronger the plaintive melody fell from his lips, until finally the orchestra itself joined. Women strained forward, and half-dazed men sat back and listened with bated breath. Even Monte forgot for a moment the boldness that inspired Hamilton, and became conscious only of Marjory"s warm fingers within his. So, had the singer been any one else, he would have been content to sit to the end.
But he knew the danger there. His only alternative, however, was to rise and press through the enraptured crowd, which certainly would have resented the interruption. It seemed better to wait, and go out during the noisy applause that was sure to follow.
At the second verse Hamilton, still singing, came nearer. A path opened before him, as before an inspired prophet. It was only Monte who moved his chair slightly and made ready. Still there was nothing he could do until the man committed some overt act. When Hamilton concluded his song, he was less than two feet away. By then Monte was on his feet. As the applause swept from every corner of the room, Hamilton seized from a near-by table a gla.s.s of wine, and, raising it, shouted a toast:--
"To the bride."
The crowd followed his eyes to the shrinking girl behind Monte. In good humor they rose, to a man, and joined in, draining their gla.s.ses.
It was Monte"s opportunity. Taking Marjory"s arm, he started for the door.
But Hamilton was madder than he had ever been. He ran forward, laughing hysterically.
"Kiss the bride," he called.
This he actually attempted. Monte had only his left arm, and it was not his strongest; but back of it he felt a new power. He took Hamilton beneath the chin, and with a lurch the man fell sprawling over a table among the gla.s.ses. In the screaming confusion that followed, Monte fought his way to the door, using his shoulders and a straight arm to clear a path. In another second he had lifted Marjory into a cab.
Leaning forward, she clutched his arm as the cab jumped ahead.
"I"m sorry I had to make a scene," he apologized. "I should n"t have hit him, but--I saw red for a second."
She would never forget that picture of Monte standing by her side, his head erect, his arm drawn back for the second blow which had proved unnecessary. All the other faces surrounding her had faded into a smoky background. She had been conscious of him alone, and of his great strength. She had felt that moment as if his strength had literally been hers also. She could have struck out, had it been necessary.
"You did n"t hurt your shoulder, did you?" she asked anxiously.
He did not know--it did not much matter. Had Hamilton actually succeeded in reaching her lips, he would have torn his wounded arm from the bandages and struck with that too. He had never realized until then what sacred things her lips were. He had known them only as beautiful. They were beautiful now as he looked down at them.
Slightly parted, they held his eyes with a strange, new fascination.
They were alive, those lips. They were warm and pulsating. He found himself breathing faster because of them. He seemed, against his will, to be bending toward them. Then, with a wrench, he tore himself free from the spell, not daring to look at her again.
Leaving her to Marie at the door of her room, Monte went into his own apartment. He threw open a window, and stood there in the dark with the cool night breeze blowing in upon him. After Maxim"s, the more clean air the better; after what had followed in the cab, the more cool air the better.
He was still confused by it; still frightened by it. For a moment he had felt himself caught in the clutch of some power over which he had no control. That was the startling truth that stood out most prominently. He had been like one intoxicated--he who never before in his life had lost a grip upon himself. That fact struck at the very heart of his whole philosophy of life. Always normal--that had been his boast; never losing his head over this thing or that. It was the only way a man could keep from worrying. It was the only way a man could keep sane. The moment you wanted anything like the devil, then the devil was to pay. This evening he had proved that.
He went back to the affair at Maxim"s. He should have known better than to take her there, anyway. She did not belong in such a place.
She did not belong anywhere he had taken her to-day. To-morrow--but all this was beside the point.
The question that he would most like to answer at this moment was whether this last wild episode of Hamilton"s was due to absinthe or to that same weird pa.s.sion which a few weeks before had led the man to shoot. It had been beastly of Hamilton to try to reach her lips.
That, doubtless, was the absinthe. It robbed him of his senses. But the look in the man"s eyes when he sang, the awful hunger that burned in them when he gave his mad toast--those things seemed to spring from a different source. The man, in a room full of strangers, had seen only her, had sung only to her. Monte doubted if the crazed fellow saw even him. He saw no one but this one woman. That was madness--but it did not come of absinthe. The absinthe may have caused the final utter breakdown of Hamilton"s self-control here and at Madame Courcy"s--but that the desire could be there without it Monte had twice proved to himself that evening.
Once was when he had struck Hamilton. He alone knew that when he hit that time it was with the l.u.s.t to kill--even as Hamilton had shot to kill. The feeling lasted only the fraction of a second--merely while his fist was plunging toward Hamilton"s chin. But, however brief, it had sprung from within him--a blood-red, frenzied desire to beat down the other man. At the moment he was not so much conscious of trying to protect her as to rid himself of Hamilton.
The second mad moment had come in the cab, when he had looked down at her lips. As the pa.s.sion to kill left him, another equally strong pa.s.sion had taken its place. He had hungered for her lips--the very lips Hamilton, a moment before, had attempted to violate. He who all his life had looked as indifferently upon living lips as upon sculptured lips had suddenly found himself in the clutch of a mighty desire. For a second he had swayed under the temptation. He had been ready to risk everything, because for a heart-beat or two nothing else seemed to matter. In his madness, he had even dared think that delicate, sensitive mouth trembled a like desire.
Even here in the dark, alone, something of the same desire returned.
He began to pace the room.
How she would have hated him had he yielded to that impulse! He shuddered as he pictured the look of horror that would have leaped into her dark eyes. Then she would have shrunk away frightened, and her eyes would have grown cold--those eyes that had only so lately warmed at all. Her face would have turned to marble--the face that only so lately had relaxed.
She trusted him--trusted him to the extent of being willing to marry him to save herself from the very danger with which he had threatened her. Except that at the last moment he had resisted, he was no better than Hamilton.
In her despair she had cried, "Why won"t they let me alone?" And he had urged her to come with him, so that she might be let alone. He was to be merely her _camarade de voyage_--her big brother. Then, in less than twelve hours, he had become like the others. He felt unfit to remain in the next room to her--unfit to greet her in the morning. In an agony of remorse, he clenched his fists.
He drew himself up shortly. A new question leaped to his brain. Was this, then, love? The thought brought both solace and fresh terror.
It gave him at least some justification for his moment of temptation; but it also brought vividly before him countless new dangers. If this were love, then he must face day after day of this sort of thing. Then he would be at the mercy of a pa.s.sion that must inevitably lead him either to Hamilton"s plight or to Chic Warren"s equally unenviable position. Each man, in his own way, paid the cost: Hamilton, mad at Maxim"s; Chic pacing the floor, with beaded brow, at night. With these two examples before him, surely he should have learned his lesson.
Against them he could place his own normal life--ten years of it without a single hour such as these hours through which he was now living.
That was because he had kept steady. Ambition, love, drunkenness, gluttony--these were all excesses. His own father had desired mightily to be governor of a State, and it had killed him; his grandfather had died ama.s.sing the Covington fortune; he had friends who had died of love, and others who had overdrunk and overeaten. The secret of happiness was not to want anything you did not have. If you went beyond that, you paid the cost in new sacrifices, leading again to sacrifices growing out of those.
Monte lighted a cigarette and inhaled a deep puff. The thing for him to do was fairly clear: to pack his bag and leave while he still retained the use of his reasoning faculties. He had been swept off his feet for an instant, that was all. Let him go on with his schedule for a month, and he would recover his balance.
The suggestion was considerably simplified by the fact that it was not necessary to consider Marjory in any way. He would be in no sense deserting her, because she was in no way dependent upon him. She had ample funds of her own, and Marie for company. He had not married her because of any need she had for him along those lines. The protection of his name she would still have. As Mrs. Covington she could travel as safely without him as with him. Even Hamilton was eliminated. He had received his lesson. Anyway, she would probably leave Paris at once for etois, and so be out of reach of Hamilton.
Monte wondered if she would miss him. Perhaps, for a day or so; but, after all, she would have without him the same wider freedom she craved. She would have all the advantages of a widow without the necessity of admitting that her husband was dead. He would always be in the background--an invisible guard. It was odd that neither she nor he had considered that as an attractive possibility. It was decidedly more practical than the present arrangement.
As for himself, he was ready to admit frankly that after to-day golf on an English course would for a time be a bore. From the first sight of her this morning until now, he had not had a dull moment. She had taken him back to the days when his emotions had been quick to respond to each day as a new adventure in life.
It was last winter in Davos that he had first begun to note the keen edge of pleasure becoming the least bit dulled. He had followed the routine of his amus.e.m.e.nts almost mechanically. He had been conscious of a younger element there who seemed to crowd in just ahead of him.
Some of them were young ladies he remembered having seen with pig-tails. They smiled saucily at him--with a confidence that suggested he was no longer to be greatly feared. He could remember when they blushed shyly if he as much as glanced in their direction.
His schedule had become a little too much of a schedule. It suggested the annual tour of the middle-aged gentlemen who follow the spas and drink of the waters.
He felt all those things now even more keenly than he had at the time.
Looking back at them, he gained a new perspective that emphasized each disagreeable detail. But he had only to think of Marjory as there with him and--presto, they vanished. Had she been with him at Davos--better still, were she able to go to Davos with him next winter--he knew with what joy she would sit in front of him on the bob-sled and take the breathless dip of the Long Run. He knew how she would meet him in the morning with her cheeks stung into a deep red by the clean cold of the mountain air. She would climb the heights with him, laughing. She would skate with him and ski with him, and there would be no one younger than they.
Monte again began to pace his room. She must go to Davos with him next winter. He must take her around the whole schedule with him. She must go to England and golf with him, and from there to his camp. She would love it there. He could picture her in the woods, on the lake, and before the camp-fire, beneath the stars.
From there they would go on to Cambridge for the football season. She would like that. As a girl she had been cheated of all the big games, and he would make up for it. So they would go on to New York for the holidays. He had had rather a stupid time of it last year. He had gone down to Chic"s for Christmas, but had been oppressed by an uncomfortable feeling that he did not belong there. Mrs. Chic had been busy with so many presents for others that he had felt like old Scrooge. He had made his usual gifts to relatives, but only as a matter of habit. With Marjory with him, he would be glad to go shopping as Chic and Mrs. Chic did. He might even go on to Philadelphia with her and look up some of the relatives he had lately been avoiding.
Where in thunder had his thoughts taken him again? He put his head in his hands. He had carried her around his whole schedule with him just as if this were some honest-to-G.o.d marriage. He had done this while she lay in the next room peacefully sleeping in perfect trust.
She must never know this danger, nor be further subjected to it. There was only one safe way--to take the early train for Calais without even seeing her again.
Monte sat down at the writing-desk and seized a pen.