"Love," the aunt repeated firmly.
Dolly rocked for a time; tears again were dropping fast from the end of her eye-lashes. "But he _doesn"t_ love me," she wailed at length. "And he _isn"t_ a, a--that horrid Chinesy word you call him, and he is gone, gone!"
"Oh, my dear, of course," said Aunt Hester; "of course, things are not quite as simple as I have been describing them. A woman has to use some sense about it these days. This clinging business has become more complicated with civilization. You may have erred in the details. Now, tell me what has happened, all that has happened."
And Dolly, in a rush of words, told the lamentable story of her domestic woe, of her struggle with the wings of Charles-Norton.
Aunt Hester was silent for a time; then she nodded her head affirmatively. "Yes, that"s it, my dear," she said. "It is as I suspected. You have been clinging with your eyes shut. And in these perilous times it is necessary to cling with eyes open. You----"
But Dolly had risen to her feet, vibrant. "Do you mean to say," she began, and her voice was very low and tense; "do you mean to say that I should be subjected to living with a man--with a man"--her voice rose--"with a man, Auntie, who has _Wings_?"
"Oh, my dear!" exclaimed Aunt Hester, hastily, "you mistake me. Of _course_, I am not asking _that_ of you. But that is not necessary either. The essential--it is to let Charles-Norton _believe_ that he has his wings, not that he should have them. And then, my dear, to be frank, to be just, I must say that this seems to me a case for compromise. Yes, dear, you should allow Charles-Norton part of his wings; oh yes, you should really let him have a bit of these wings. And _that_ bit, Dolly, if you are the wise and capable little girl I think you can be, you should turn to the advantage, to the preservation, to the prosperity--hem--of the home!"
Dolly sat down, weak and trembling. She was silent for a long time. When she spoke again, it was in a tired voice. "Auntie," she said, "you mean well. I know that you are trying to help me and am very thankful to you.
But we have differing views of Life. I am willing to do much for Charles-Norton--Oh, so much! I am willing to meet him half-way, three-quarters of the way, the whole way, on ever so many things, and I have done so. But when it comes to a question, Auntie, of self-respect, of morality, of _Decency_, then, Auntie, never! On that, there can be no compromise. Charles-Norton cannot have wings."
"Oh, very well," said Aunt Hester, plainly nettled; "very well, very well. Then, what are you going to do?"
"Nothing," said Dolly, decidedly. "I will give him up," she said very firmly. "I will give him up," she repeated grandiloquently. "I will give him up," she said a third time--and broke out weeping.
"That," said Aunt Hester, "is what is known as the _grand stunt_, and is rather popular these days. I"ve seen many try it, and mighty few achieve it. And you, Dolly"--she rose and stood with a hand upon the shaking shoulders beneath her--"and you, you little soft Dolly, why, you are about the last----"
"I shall not lift a finger," interrupted Dolly. "If he, he, he does not love me, I, I shall, not stoop to hold him!"
"Well," said Aunt Hester, briskly, "I am going now. I----"
"Going!" cried Dolly, desolately.
"I am going," repeated Aunt Hester, firmly. "There is nothing I can do here. And there"re Earl"s socks to be looked after (he is just entering Cambridge, you know), and Ethel"s frocks (she"s at the High School), and then there is your uncle--suppose he gets it into _his_ head to sprout feathers! No, no--I"m going home. _I"m_ willing to be what Nature said I had to be. _I_ don"t take any chances with those new-fangled grand-stunts.
Besides, if you are just going to do nothing, why, then, you can do that without me."
And setting her bonnet upon her nice gray hair, Aunt Hester picked up her grip and marched out into the hall.
"Auntie! Auntie!" cried Dolly, running after her.
Aunt Hester stopped at the opened door and turned. She confronted Dolly, and the will-o"-the-wisp was dancing in the profundities of her deep-set eyes. A tenderness came into them; she dropped her grip, seized Dolly, and drew her close.
"Dear little Dolly," she whispered; "you"ll do it, don"t you fear. You"ll bring back your Charles-Norton, you soft little woman, you; you"ll get him! And now, kiss me good-by. Write to me--when you decide."
The door closed, and leaning against it, Dolly wept a long time. Then she went within and in a more comfortable position, wept more. She wept for a whole week. And then, suddenly, one afternoon, she stood up in the center of the room and began stamping her foot.
"I won"t," she said, with each stamp of the little foot. "I won"t, I won"t, I won"t!"
And saying "I won"t," she did. She sat down at the table and on her pale blue letter paper, wrote:
"DEAR AUNTIE:--Yes, you were right, I guess. I _am_ a cling-to. I want him. I don"t care: he"s mine and I _won"t_ give him up. Tell me how to do it, Auntie, oh, tell me how! Quick, Auntie, quick!"
The answer was not long in coming. "Dearest Little Dolly," wrote Aunt Hester; "of course, I knew you would, and I am glad. As to telling you how--well, that is very simple. Just go to him, Dolly. Go to him (not too soon; wait a while) and just stick around. Your instincts will tell you the rest. Rely on your instincts, Dolly," went on this incorrigible Darwinian. "They are better than your reason, for they are the reason of your mother and grandmother, and all the line of mothers that came before you. _They_ had to be right, Dolly, or they wouldn"t have been, and then _you_ wouldn"t be. Go to him, and stick around, and do as you feel like doing. In all probability you"ll be nice, and humble, and snuggledy, and warm. And then, make--your arrangements. _He_ can"t help himself. Nature is on your side. His dice are loaded. Cling, Dolly, cling."
Dolly blushed. "Auntie is horrid," she said. And then, after a while, "But right," she said.
CHAPTER IX
Meanwhile, unaware of this discussion and of this decision, Charles-Norton, inflated with fancied freedom, captain of his soul and master of his Fate, was having a beautiful time.
Tableau:
A meadow by a lake, on the western slope of a high Sierra.
Below, and far to the west, lies a great plain, liquid with distance as though it were a sea of gold. From its nearer edge, the land comes leaping up in wide smooth waves of serried pines, to the meadow. There the pines stop abruptly, in the leaning immobility of a man who has almost trodden upon a flower. From their feet the meadow spreads, fresh and lush, susurrant with the hidden flow of a brook, and jeweled here and there with flowers that are like b.u.t.terflies. It stops, in its turn, before a chute of smooth granite in the form of a bowl. In the curve of the bowl lies a lake--a silvery lake in the depths of which dark blue hues pulse, and over the face of which light zephyrs pa.s.s, like painted shivers.
On the other side of the lake, to the east, the land continues to rise, in accelerated a.s.sault, first in long l.u.s.trous leaps of glacier-polished granite, then in a chaos of dome and spire, and finally breaks up against the sky in a serrated edge like the top-crest of a great wind-flagellated wave which, attacking Heaven, should have been suddenly petrified by a Word.
On the border of the pine-forest, its one door upon the meadow and facing the lake, is a log-cabin.
It is early morning, and the air is crisp and cold. To the left of the cabin, in the dusk of the trees, a fuzzy little donkey stands immobile as if still frozen by the night.
The sun, still behind the high crest to the east, aureoles it with rose; its light pa.s.ses in a broad sheet athwart the sky, leaving the meadow in a lower darkish plane, as if in the still half-light of a profound sea; it strikes here and there, among the pinnacles, a glacier that scintillates frigidly. To the west, above the plain, which is as yet but an opalescent gray shift, the last star hangs humidly, like a tear at the end of a lash.
The rose halo deepens along the mountain top; the dark-blue dome of the sky fills with a lighter azure; the star swoons, and the sun peers over the crest. It ascends. Its rays plunge into the pool of darkness still upon the meadow; they pierce it, at first separately as with rapier thrusts, and then finally billow down into it in a cascade of molten gold. The shadows flee; the sunlight strikes the cabin; and Charles-Norton Sims appears at the door.
Immediately, the little donkey, rousing to life, comes braying to him across the green. Charles-Norton gives him a handful of salt, and with a slap sends him off again.
And then he stands in the door-way with arms folded, facing the sun. He is nude--except for the abbreviated swimming-trunks which were his last buy in New York--and to the light his skin, polished like ivory, takes on a warm and subtle glow. From his shoulders there hangs behind him, to his heels, something that might be a cloak, except that it does not cloak him. It does not envelop him; rather does it stand behind him in ornamental background, with a certain sculptural effect. And it is white, a wondrous gleaming white, against which the whiteness of his skin seems rosy. Starting from his shoulders, it goes out and up in gentle undulation to either side, and then descends in two swift slight curves that meet in a gothic tip at his heels. It is in shape like a Greek urn, but has with it a flowing quality--and the whiteness. It is like a Greek urn of pure alabaster that would have turned liquid, and would be pouring down behind him in l.u.s.trous cascade.
Charles-Norton steps forward--and suddenly this background, this mantle, this singular ornament, parts in two glistening sections which rise horizontally to either side of him. By Jove, they are wings! The wings of Charles-Norton. They have been growing, since that _coup-de-tete_ of his.
He raises them horizontally, and with a dry rustling sound they open out like fans. He waves them gently, up and down; his chest fills, his head goes back; and from his open mouth, as from a clarion, there goes out a great clear cry which, striking the mountain, rebounds along from rock to rock in golden echoes. He rises into the air.
He goes up slowly, in wide, negligent circles, with slow, strong flap of wings, his body, with pointed feet close together, hanging lithe, a warm ivory white between the colder and more radiant whiteness of the wings.
He turns and floats above the lake, then, folding his wings, like a white arrow shoots down into the water. A fountain of foaming drops springs toward the sky. Charles-Norton Sims is having his morning bath.
He swims with smooth breast-stroke, his feet and hands below the water, but his wings raised above. Their roots, at his shoulders, cleave the glazed surface like a prow, leaving, behind, a slender wake; they follow above, swinging a bit from side to side, like glorious becalmed sails.
And thus, like a large Nautilus, he drifts to the sh.o.r.e. He emerges, glistening, upon a little beach which curves there like a little moon dropped by a careless Creator; he takes a hop, a skip, and a jump, and lands headlong upon the yellow sand.
He stretches himself taut, his hands, straight above him, clutching the sand, his toes digging into it, and spreads his wings in fans at his sides. The earth is there beneath him, in his embrace; he feels her strength flowing into his veins. The sun is up there, above him; he feels pouring upon him, penetratingly, its hot life. Content croons in his heart.
But after a while, an uneasiness stirs him. He moves vaguely several times, he finally rises to his knees. Oh yes, of course, it is his stomach--the old tyranny. He walks to the cabin, kicks into incandescence the heap of coals in front of the door, and throws a handful of dry brush upon them. He seizes a long pole which is leaning against the facade of the cabin, goes back to the lake, climbs a large bowlder, and sitting himself comfortably in a hollow of it, extends the pole, and drops into the crystalline waters at his feet a bit of red flannel. Immediately there is a small convulsion and he whisks out of the lake a vibrant little object that looks like a fragment of rainbow. He whisks out another, another--twelve in succession. He goes back to the fire with his rainbows.
There, he--fries them; and--eats them.
Upon which he squats contentedly upon the gra.s.s, and fills and lights his pipe. He sits there very quietly, his feet drawn up, his wings behind him like a resplendent mantle; he smokes gravely his little black pipe. His eyes are half-closed, watching the hazy blue puffs of the bowl rise toward the turquoise-blue dome of the sky. Far above him, a hawk is circling; to the sight, after a while, a vague melancholy enters his heart, a subtle and inexplicable yearning. He rises slowly to it, his pipe dropping from his loosened lips. He tucks the pipe into his trunks (that is why he wears the trunks); his wings spread out to both sides. He gives a little spring--and is up in the air.
He hovers above the meadow a while, a bit aimlessly, as though waiting for an inspiration, rising, falling, rising with slow strong flap of wing--then suddenly he is off, like a streak, in a whirring diagonal for the high crests. He dwindles, higher and higher, farther and farther, smaller and smaller, till finally he is among the tip-top pinnacles, a mere white palpitation, a snow-flake in the whirl of a capricious wind, a little glistening moth flitting from glacier to glacier as from lily to lily.