"You think that now. But in twenty years you will sigh for a--feather bed----"
"You don"t believe that."
There had come a lighting of the somber eyes. "My dear fellow, if you, by the grace of G.o.d, have it in you to write, what I believe won"t have anything to do with it. You will crucify yourself for the sake of a line--starve for the love of a rhythm."
Randy had not yet starved for love of a rhythm, but he had lost sleep during those nights in France, trying to put into words the things that gripped his soul. There had been beauty as well as horror in those days. What a world it had been, a world of men--a striving, eager group, raised for the moment above sordidness, above self----
He had not found verse his medium, although he had drunk eagerly of the golden cups which others had to offer him. But his prose had gained because of his belief in beauty of structure and of singing lovely words. As yet he had nothing to show for his pains, but practice had given strength to his pen--he felt that some day with the right theme he might do--wonders----
The trees had again closed in about him. A shadow flitted by--a fox, unafraid and in search of a belated meal. Randy remembered the days when he and Becky had thought that there might be wolves in the forest.
He laughed a little, recalling Becky"s words. "Sister Loretto has the feeling that the world is a dark forest, and that I am Red Riding Hood." Was it that which had brought him back? Was there, indeed, a Wolf?
When he reached Huntersfield, and the dogs barked, he had feared for the moment discovery. He was saved, however, by the friendly silence which followed that first note of alarm. The dogs knew him and followed him with wagging tails as he skirted the lawn and came at last to the gate which had closed a few minutes before on Dalton"s car. He saw the Judge go in. Aunt Claudia, Becky--shadowy figures between the white pillars.
Then, after a moment, a room on the second floor was illumined. The shade was up and he saw the interior as one sees the scene of a play.
There was the outline of a rose-colored canopy, the gleam of a mirror, the shine of polished wood, and in the center, Becky in pale blue, with a candle in her hand.
And as he saw her there, Randolph knew why he had come. To worship at a shrine. That was where Becky belonged--high above him. The flame of the candle was a sacred fire.
CHAPTER IV
RAIN AND RANDY"S SOUL
I
Madge came down the next morning dressed for her journey. "Oscar and Flora are going to take me as far as Washington in their car. They want you to make a fourth, Georgie."
Dalton was eating alone. Breakfast was served at small tables on the west terrace. There was a flagged stone s.p.a.ce with wide awnings overhead. Except that it overlooked a formal garden instead of streets, one might have been in a Parisian cafe. The idea was Oscar"s.
Dalton had laughed at him. "You"ll be a _boulevardier_, Oscar, until you die."
Oscar had been sulky. "Well, how do you want me to do it?"
"Breakfast in bed--or in a breakfast room with things hot on the sideboard, luncheon, out here on the terrace when the weather permits, tea in the garden, dinner in great state in the big dining-room."
"I suppose you think you know all about it. But the thing that I am always asking myself is, were you born to it, Dalton?"
"I"ve been around a lot," Dalton evaded. "Of course if you don"t want me to be perfectly frank with you, I won"t."
"Be as frank as you please," Oscar had said, "but it"s your air of knowing everything that gets me."
Dalton"s breakfast was a hearty one--bacon and two eggs, and a pile of b.u.t.tered toast. There had been a melon to begin with, and there was a pot of coffee. He was eating with an appet.i.te when Madge came down.
"I had mine in bed," Madge said, as George rose and pulled out a chair for her. "Isn"t this the beastliest fashion, having little tables?"
"That"s what I told Oscar."
"Oscar and Flora will never have too much of restaurants. They belong to the cla.s.s which finds all that it wants in a jazz band and scrambled eggs at Jack"s at one o"clock in the morning. Georgie, in my next incarnation, I hope there won"t be any dansants or night frolics. I"d like a May-pole in the sunshine and a lot of plump and rosy women and bluff and hearty men for my friends--with a fine old farmhouse and myself in the dairy making b.u.t.ter----"
George smiled at her. "I should have fancied you an Egyptian princess, with twin serpents above your forehead instead of that turban."
"Heavens, no. I want no ardours and no Anthonys. Tell me about the new little girl, Georgie."
"How do you know there is a--new little girl?"
"I know your tricks and your manners, and the way you managed to meet her at the Horse Show. And you saw her last night."
"How do you know?"
"By the light in your eyes."
"Do I show it like that? Well, she"s rather--not to be talked about, Madge----"
She was not in the least affronted. "So that"s it? You always begin that way--putting them on a pedestal---- If you"d only keep one of us there it might do you good."
"Which one--you?" he leaned a little forward.
"No." Indignation stirred within her. How easy it was for him to play the game. And last night she had lain long awake, listening for the sound of his motor. She had seen the moon set, and spectral dawn steal into the garden. "No, I"m running away. I am tired of drifting always on the tides of other people"s inclination. We have stayed down here where it is hot because Oscar and Flora like it, yet there"s all the coolness of the North Sh.o.r.e waiting for us----"
She rose and walked to the edge of the terrace. The garden was splashed now with clear color, purple and rose and gold. The air was oppressive, with a gathering haze back of the hills.
"I"m tired of it. Some day I"m going to flap my wings and fly away where you won"t be able to find me, Georgie. I"d rather be a wild gull to the wind-swept sky, than a tame pigeon--to eat from your hand----"
She said it lightly; this was not a moment for plaintiveness.
There was a dancing light in his eyes. "You"re a golden pheasant--and you"ll never fly so far that I shan"t find you."
Oscar arriving at this moment saved a retort. "Flora"s not well. We can"t motor up, Madge."
"I am sorry but I can take a train."
"There"s one at three. I don"t see why you are going," irritably; "Flora won"t stay here long after you leave."
"I am not as necessary as you think, Oscar. There are plenty of others, and I must go----"
"Oh, very well. Andrews will drive you down."
"I"ll drive her myself," said Dalton.
II
Aunt Claudia was going to Washington also on the three o"clock train.
She had had a wireless from Truxton who had sailed from Brest and would arrive at New York within the week.
"Of course you"ll go and meet him, Aunt Claudia," Becky had said; "I"ll help you to get your things ready."
Aunt Claudia, quite white and inwardly shaken by the thought of the happiness which was on its way to her, murmured her thanks.