"Yes they would, if...."
She did not turn up her nose, but she favoured his dirt and rags with a look of disapprobation he could not mistake.
"Go on," he half-shouted. "Shoot it into me. If I was washed--if I wore good clothes--if I was respectable--if I had a job and worked regular--if I wasn"t what I am."
To each statement she nodded.
"Well, I ain"t that kind," he rushed on.
"I"m no good. I"m a tramp. I don"t want to work, that"s what. And I like dirt."
Her face was eloquent with reproach as she said, "Then you were only making believe when you wished you had a little girl like me?"
This left him speechless, for he knew, in all the deeps of his new-found pa.s.sion, that that was just what he did want.
With ready tact, noting his discomfort, she sought to change the subject.
"What do you think of G.o.d?" she asked.
"I ain"t never met him. What do you think about him?"
His reply was evidently angry, and she was frank in her disapproval.
"You are very strange," she said. "You get angry so easily. I never saw anybody before that got angry about G.o.d, or work, or being clean."
"He never done anything for me," he muttered resentfully. He cast back in quick review of the long years of toil in the convict camps and mines. "And work never done anything for me neither."
An embarra.s.sing silence fell.
He looked at her, numb and hungry with the stir of the father-love, sorry for his ill temper, puzzling his brain for something to say. She was looking off and away at the clouds, and he devoured her with his eyes. He reached out stealthily and rested one grimy hand on the very edge of her little dress. It seemed to him that she was the most wonderful thing in the world. The quail still called from the coverts, and the harvest sounds seemed abruptly to become very loud. A great loneliness oppressed him.
"I"m ... I"m no good," he murmured huskily and repentantly.
But, beyond a glance from her blue eyes, she took no notice. The silence was more embarra.s.sing than ever. He felt that he could give the world just to touch with his lips that hem of her dress where his hand rested.
But he was afraid of frightening her. He fought to find something to say, licking his parched lips and vainly attempting to articulate something, anything.
"This ain"t Sonoma Valley," he declared finally. "This is fairy land, and you"re a fairy. Mebbe I"m asleep and dreaming. I don"t know. You and me don"t know how to talk together, because, you see, you"re a fairy and don"t know nothing but good things, and I"m a man from the bad, wicked world."
Having achieved this much, he was left gasping for ideas like a stranded fish.
"And you"re going to tell me about the bad, wicked world," she cried, clapping her hands. "I"m just dying to know."
He looked at her, startled, remembering the wreckage of womanhood he had encountered on the sunken ways of life. She was no fairy. She was flesh and blood, and the possibilities of wreckage were in her as they had been in him even when he lay at his mother"s breast. And there was in her eagerness to know.
"Nope," he said lightly, "this man from the bad, wicked world ain"t going to tell you nothing of the kind. He"s going to tell you of the good things in that world. He"s going to tell you how he loved hosses when he was a shaver, and about the first hoss he straddled, and the first hoss he owned. Hosses ain"t like men. They"re better. They"re clean--clean all the way through and back again. And, little fairy, I want to tell you one thing--there sure ain"t nothing in the world like when you"re settin" a tired hoss at the end of a long day, and when you just speak, and that tired animal lifts under you willing and hustles along. Hosses! They"re my long suit. I sure dote on hosses. Yep. I used to be a cowboy once."
She clapped her hands in the way that tore so delightfully to his heart, and her eyes were dancing, as she exclaimed:
"A Texas cowboy! I always wanted to see one! I heard papa say once that cowboys are bow-legged. Are you?"
"I sure was a Texas cowboy," he answered. "But it was a long time ago.
And I"m sure bow-legged. You see, you can"t ride much when you"re young and soft without getting the legs bent some. Why, I was only a three-year-old when I begun. He was a three-year-old, too, fresh-broken.
I led him up alongside the fence, clumb to the top rail, and dropped on. He was a pinto, and a real devil at bucking, but I could do anything with him. I reckon he knowed I was only a little shaver. Some hosses knows lots more "n" you think."
For half an hour Ross Shanklin rambled on with his horse reminiscences, never unconscious for a moment of the supreme joy that was his through the touch of his hand on the hem of her dress. The sun dropped slowly into the cloud bank, the quail called more insistently, and empty wagon after empty wagon rumbled back across the bridge. Then came a woman"s voice.
"Joan! Joan!" it called. "Where are you, dear?"
The little girl answered, and Ross Shanklin saw a woman, clad in a soft, clinging gown, come through the gate from the bungalow. She was a slender, graceful woman, and to his charmed eyes she seemed rather to float along than walk like ordinary flesh and blood.
"What have you been doing all afternoon?" the woman asked, as she came up.
"Talking, mamma," the little girl replied "I"ve had a very interesting time."
Ross Shanklin scrambled to his feet and stood watchfully and awkwardly.
The little girl took the mother"s hand, and she, in turn, looked at him frankly and pleasantly, with a recognition of his humanness that was a new thing to him. In his mind ran the thought: _the woman who ain"t afraid_. Not a hint was there of the timidity he was accustomed to seeing in women"s eyes. And he was quite aware, and never more so, of his bleary-eyed, forbidding appearance.
"How do you do?" she greeted him sweetly and naturally.
"How do you do, ma"am," he responded, unpleasantly conscious of the huskiness and rawness of his voice.
"And did you have an interesting time, too?" she smiled.
"Yes, ma"am. I sure did. I was just telling your little girl about hosses."
"He was a cowboy, once, mamma," she cried.
The mother smiled her acknowledgment to him, and looked fondly down at the little girl. The thought that came into Ross Shanklin"s mind was the awfulness of the crime if any one should harm either of the wonderful pair. This was followed by the wish that some terrible danger should threaten, so that he could fight, as he well knew how, with all his strength and life, to defend them.
"You"ll have to come along, dear," the mother said. "It"s growing late."
She looked at Ross Shanklin hesitantly. "Would you care to have something to eat?"
"No, ma"am, thanking you kindly just the same. I ... I ain"t hungry."
"Then say good-bye, Joan," she counselled.
"Good-bye." The little girl held out her hand, and her eyes lighted roguishly. "Good-bye, Mr. Man from the bad, wicked world."
To him, the touch of her hand as he pressed it in his was the capstone of the whole adventure.
"Good-bye, little fairy," he mumbled. "I reckon I got to be pullin"
along."
But he did not pull along. He stood staring after his vision until it vanished through the gate. The day seemed suddenly empty. He looked about him irresolutely, then climbed the fence, crossed the bridge, and slouched along the road. He was in a dream. He did not note his feet nor the way they led him. At times he stumbled in the dust-filled ruts.
A mile farther on, he aroused at the crossroads. Before him stood the saloon. He came to a stop and stared at it, licking his lips. He sank his hand into his pants pocket and fumbled a solitary dime. "G.o.d!" he muttered. "G.o.d!" Then, with dragging, reluctant feet, went on along the road.
He came to a big farm. He knew it must be big, because of the bigness of the house and the size and number of the barns and outbuildings. On the porch, in shirt sleeves, smoking a cigar, keen-eyed and middle-aged, was the farmer.