Where did he go wrong? Didn"t he try to get always the best for her?
The best to eat, the best to wear and the best to have.....
Where did he go wrong!
He got her the best man in the whole country. She could be the most significant women in the elites in the country. He knew she felt out of place. She could not only blend in but even rule the upper society. But all she ever did was want to elope with some caveman!
Love..... d.a.m.n that love! Isn"t that what ruined him!
d.a.m.n he just wanted to save her. Like always! He always wanted the best for her!
Not bothering to pour in the gla.s.s, Lu Jiong gulped from the century old wine bottle, and with a "THUMP" placed the bottle back on the table with the other bottles rolling on the floor or placed on the table. It was bitter but nothing could be more bitter than life.....
He picked with trembling hands the photo on the table and looked at it with longing in his bloodshot eyes and with wobbling lips he said, "Zhaozhao where did I go wrong? I made her into a proper lady, I brought her all the best things and then I engaged her with one of the most desired young man in the country, I made sure she was never out of line..."
He looked with his most raw emotions of longing at the smiling woman in the picture who left
smiling but left him crying after her.
He paused with a tear sliding down his cheek, ".....I made sure she was never like you, you were fearless, daring and full of life in my dull world and look where it got you... Where it got us,.... you are dead and I am just frozen in time, in the time you left me...."
With tears now consecutively raining on his cheek he said with a trembling voice, "She looked just too much like you, I did everything to make sure she was nothing like you, I lost you, I couldn"t lose her. She was my only attached string to sanity, I just didn"t know what to do!"
"Whenever she was around I could see you in her." With a bitter laugh he continued, "She doesn"t even like sea food..... Just like you. I just couldn"t lose my heart once again, I just wanted to stay away from your memories. I was just a little selfish. Was it that much of a sin..."
He took a shaky breath, "That much of a sin that she left me too."
Then it was like barrage was broken he started sobbing out loud with his both hands covering his face, leaving the picture, he whispered in a broken voice "G.o.d! just once more get her to me, I will do everything I should have, everything we would have done together for our daughter..."
"...Just once more." He sobbed like a broken man he was under the hard sh.e.l.l he carried, nothing like the pride he carried he was just too broken, that he thought himself beyond repair.
Outside the door Madam Lu was standing with her clenched fist, She has been standing since he went inside. To mourn his dead lover.
Just like he did all these years, in happiness and sorrow, and just like all those years she would stand there all night. She couldn"t even have him from that Lei"s b.i.t.c.h..... even when she was dead.
Without discriminating she did wrong and right for him and even today all he whispers in his sleep is her name, even when he sleeps with her he repeatedly calls that b.i.t.c.h"s name and pour all his pain too to that that dead witch.
She was more beautiful than that witch, more talented and even more richer but why can"t he see her. Like all these years she is here but only he wasn"t here for her.
A tear went rolling down her cheek. That"s all that b.i.t.c.h"s daughter fault. She has to leave, if she doesn"t now. She will make sure she will later. She is a reminder, that b.i.t.c.h"s reminder!