Neil placed his hands on her hands which were clenched tightly around him and softly stroked them.His bowed head showed that she had hit the mark with her words.Mi Rae was now crying softly and he could feel the wetness on his naked back.His hands which were soft on her suddenly tightened painfully and he pulled at them harshly.Mi Rae winced and before he could unlock her hands,he pulled her by the wrist and once again his arm was around her.But this time his grip was tight instead of the gentle one..His other hand made it"s way to her head and winding her locks around his hand he pulled up her face.Though the gesture was aggressive and threatening,his movements were unconsciously gentle so as not to hurt her.Once she stared into his cold eyes she could see and feel the ice around her.Calmly in his baritone voice he asked,"Mi Rae..do you really see my darkness?I don"t think so..You want me to let go of my darkness?But what I have done in the past does npt necessarily mean that I will be able to purge my guilt..Do you want to really help me?I don"t think so.What you have heard from Alicia and Ah Hai is all about what Ning Ning did..If I tell you what I did to her and what I did to Ah Hai...the people I "love",you would most definitely run for the hills.Mi Rae,I don"t think Mi Reu is dead..but I want him to be..What you see in my eyes is a glimpse of the darkness that Mi Reu has.Would you love me if I told you that I really am responsible for Ning Ning"s suicide.Oh I was blindly in love with her.There were always warning signals in my head that something was not right but I ignored all that in favor of having her way with me.And it was only I discovered Ah Hai"s addiction did I finally accept the truth and went to confront her.Do you know she actually tried to refute it!But now my eyes had opened to her.But I did not leave her!Oh no..I tightened my hold on her.The more she tried to get out of my grasp the more I tightened the leash.I tortured her mentally.Whenever she missed her lover and felt insecurities arise,I added fuel to the flames until she was depressed beyond measure!I am a vengeful man and one who holds grudges."
"Do you know the biggest reason for my success is not because I am a good lawyer but because I can easily read a person and hone on his weakness.Take Ah Hai as an example.Once I realized that he was taking drugs to manage his feelings,did I do anything to help him?I knew he was feeling guilty even though it was not his fault I did nothing to stop it..in deed I was happier seeing him suffer!Do you know that I am the man behing Elder Hu"s killing.I was the one who forced Hu Ge"s hand.I am no less than a monster in a s.h.i.+ny suit Mi Rae.The only reason my reputation is pristine white is because I am very careful!Now tell me Mi Rae,can you still love me with my darkness?"
"Neil,your reputation may be pristine but that does not mean that you are not human!If you really forced Ning Ning to commit suicide then let me tell you Good for you!If half the things she has done are true then she deserved it!And Ah Hai..he had betrayed you and even though you have not cleared him of guilt,you have forgiven him!You could have betrayed him back by not protecting him when he was exposed to the media.Or you could have let him suffer the effects of drugs!So no one is going to judge you even if you are not always doing the right thing!And regarding Elder Hu,he too deserved it!But you are not almighty!If Hu ge did it so quickly,that meant he was already considering it!And loving your darkness?I love all of you Neil..but I am your suns.h.i.+ne and with me by your side there is no place for your darkness.I will dispell it until all you see is the light within you."
The hand in her hair tightened painfully and this time Neil fused his mouth to hers.This kiss was different from their previous ones. Neil had laid himself bare emotionally in front of MI Rae and his aggression was at the forefront.He sucked on her tongue and attacked her ferociously.He pulled her body into his and there was no gentleness.. Like a conquering knight of the past, he was focused on making her his. His hands left marks on her soft skin and ignited the fire of pa.s.sion within her. She wound her arms around him and her nails dug themselves into his back..which fanned his desire to conquer even more...Moving his head back a bit, he picked her up and threw her onto the bed behind them Before she could a.s.similate what was happening he was once again kissing her senseless.Her legs had spread with the fall and his hips were now comfortable settled against her most sensitive area. His hands explored her body and then stopped to knead the soft globes of her a** making her moan loudly and thrust against him to get closer.
Satisfied with her reaction, he moved back and said aggressively, "Suns.h.i.+ne.. This is your last chance to escape me.."
His wild eyes stared into her dewy ones.Though he asked her and offered her an escape, his hands only tightened on her as if wanting to prevent her from escape.