"That bad?"
"He thinks so."
"Come on, I"ve got to have some ammunition."
"No way, he"d kill me."
I laugh and let it drop as we reach the admin building"s doors. "You guys seem close," I say as he holds them open for me.
"We are," says Cash with a kind of simple certainty that makes my stomach hurt.
With Wes haunting the Coronado halls all summer, I just a.s.sumed that he lived the way I did: at a distance. But he has a life. Friends. Good friends. I have Lyndsey, but we"re close because she doesn"t make me lie. She never asks questions. But I should have asked Wes. I should have wondered.
"We grew up together," explains Cash as we make our way toward the gla.s.s lobby. "Met him at Hartford. That"s the K-through-eight that leads into Hyde. Saf and I showed up in the fourth grade-third for her-and Wes just kind of took us in. When things started going south with his parents a few years back, we tried to return the favor. He"s not very good at taking help, though."
I nod. "He always bounces it back."
"Exactly," he says, sounding genuinely frustrated. "But then his mom left and things went from bad to worse."
"What happened?" I press.
The question jars him, and he seems to realize he shouldn"t be sharing this much. He hesitates, then says, "He went to stay with his aunt Joan."
"Great-aunt," I correct absently.
"He told you about her?"
"A little," I say. Joan was the woman who pa.s.sed her key and her job on to Wesley. The one the Archive cut full of holes when she retired just to make sure its secrets were safe. The fact that I"ve heard of Joan seems to satisfy something in Cash, and his reluctance dissolves.
"Yeah, well, he was supposed to go stay with her for the summer," he says, "to get away from the divorce-it was brutal-but Hyde started back up in the fall, and he wasn"t here. Our whole soph.o.m.ore year, it was like he didn"t exist. You have to understand-he didn"t call, didn"t write. There was just this void." Cash shakes his head. "He"s loud in that way you don"t really notice till he"s gone. Anyway, soph.o.m.ore year comes and goes without him. And then summer break comes and goes without him. And finally junior year comes around, and there he is at lunch, leaning up against the Alchemist like he never left."
"Was he different?" I ask as we reach the office door at the mouth of the gla.s.s lobby. That was the year he became a Keeper.
Cash stops with his fingers on the handle. "Apart from the black eye I gave him? Not really. If anything, he seemed...happier. And I was just glad to have him back, so I didn"t pry. Wait here, I"ll grab you some prospective student pamphlets."
He vanishes into the office, and I glance absently around the hall. It"s covered in photographs-though covered suggests chaos, and these are all immaculately hung, each frame perfectly level and perfectly equidistant from the others. Each one has a small, elegant date etched into the top. In every picture, a group of students stands, shoulders touching, in several even rows. Senior cla.s.ses, judging by the gold stripes in the more recent color photos. The years count backward along both walls, with the most recent years here by the mouth of the lobby and the older ones trailing away down the hall. Like most of the posh private schools, Hyde hasn"t always been coed. As I backtrack through the years, the girls vanish from the group photos, appearing in their own set and then disappearing altogether, along with the reds and blues and golds, leaving only boys in black and white. I let my eyes wander the walls, not knowing what I"m looking for until I find it. When I do, everything in me tenses.
He could have gone to any of the schools in the city, but he didn"t. He went here.
In the frame marked 1952, several dozen boys stand in rigid rows, stern, well-groomed, elegant. And there, one row down and several students in, is Owen Chris Clarke.
His silver-blond hair registers as white in the colorless photo, and that, plus the shocking paleness of his eyes, makes him look like a flare of light in the wash of black uniforms. The ghost of a smile brushes his lips, like he knows a secret. And maybe he does. This would have been before-before he graduated, before he was made Crew, before Regina was murdered, before he brought her back, before he killed the Coronado residents and jumped from the roof. But at the time of the photo, he was already a Keeper. It shows in his eyes, in his taunting smile, and in the hint of a ring on the hand resting on another student"s shoulder...
"You ready?"
I pull away from the photograph to find Cash standing there, holding a short stack of pamphlets.
"Yeah," I say, my voice a little shakier than I"d like, as I cast another glance at the photo.
You and I are not so different.
I frown. So what if Owen went here? He"s gone. This is nothing more than a faded photograph, a glimpse of the past-a perfectly reasonable place for a dead boy to be.
"Let"s go," I say as I take the papers.
Cash walks me out.
"Where"s your car?" he asks, surveying the parking lot, which has already emptied out quite a bit.
I cross to the bike rack and give Dante a sweeping gesture. "My ride."
He blushes. "I didn"t mean to a.s.sume-"
I wave him off. "It"s like a convertible, really. Wind through my hair. Leather seats...well, seat." I dig my workout pants out of my bag and tug them on under my skirt.
He smiles, gold eyes drifting down to the sidewalk. "Maybe we could do this again tomorrow."
"You mean school?" I ask, unlocking the bike and swinging my leg over. "I think that"s the idea. Doesn"t work very well if you only go once." I try to say it straight-faced, but the smile slips through.
Cash breaks into a warm laugh as he turns to go. "Welcome to Hyde, Mackenzie Bishop."
His easy joy is contagious, and I feel myself still grinning as I watch him retreat through the gates. Then I look back out over the parking lot and all the warmth goes cold.
The man from this morning, the one with gold hair and gold skin, is leaning back against a tree at the edge of the lot, sipping coffee out of a to-go cup, and he"s looking at me. This time he doesn"t even try to hide it. The sight of him is like a brick through a gla.s.s window, shattering the mundane. It"s a reminder that life couldn"t be further from normal. Normal is a thing I might dream about, if I weren"t too busy having nightmares.
There"s one thing scarier than the fact I"m being followed. And that"s who is following me. Because there"s only one possible answer: the Archive. The thought makes my blood run cold. I can"t imagine it"s a good thing, being tailed by Crew. And that"s exactly what he is. What he has to be.
The way he sips his coffee and shifts his weight and his unguarded body language create an illusion of boredom that"s dampened only by his gaze, which is sharp, alert. But that"s not what gives him away. It"s the confidence. A very specific and dangerous kind of confidence. The same kind Owen had.
The confidence exuded by someone who knows they can hurt you before you hurt them.
The golden man"s eyes meet mine, and he smiles with half his mouth. He takes another sip of his coffee, and I take a step toward him just as a horn goes off in the parking lot. The sound steals my attention for a second, even less, but by the time I look back at the man, he"s gone.
Great.
I wait a second to see if he"ll reappear, but he doesn"t, and I"m left with only a sinking feeling in my stomach and the nagging question: why is the Archive having me followed?
The worry eats at the last of my energy as I pedal home. By the time I get there, my vision is starting to blur from fatigue. When I dismount, the world rocks a little. I have to stand still a moment, wait for the dizziness to pa.s.s before I drag myself through the doors and up the stairs.
I want sleep.
I need sleep.
Instead, I go hunting.
SIX.
I STIFLE ANOTHER yawn as I step out of the stairwell and into the third floor hall, grateful that Harker"s still the only name on my list. After stashing my skirt in my schoolbag and shoving that behind a table halfway down the hall, I straighten my ponytail in the mirror above the table and fetch the key out from under my collar. The transformation is complete: student to Keeper in under a minute.
Across from the mirror is a painting of the sea, and just beside that is a crack in the wall. A seam where the worlds don"t quite line up. No one else sees it, but I do, and when I tug off my ring, the crack becomes clearer, the keyhole tucked into the fold. I slot my key, and the Narrows door blossoms like a stain, the faded wallpaper darkening as the frame presses against the surface. A thread of light carves the outline of the door, and I turn the key, hear the hollow click, and step through into the dark. I"m lifting my fingers to the nearest wall, about to read the surface for signs of Harker, when I think I hear it.
Humming.
My heart starts to race as I pull away from the wall and turn toward the noise, panic flooding through me. And then between one pulse-one step-and the next, the world disappears.
Everything goes away.
Goes black.
And then, just as suddenly, it comes back-I come back-and the humming is gone and my head is killing me and I"m running. Sprinting. Chasing. A boy sprints several yards ahead of me.
"Harker, stop!" The words tumble out before I even realize they"re mine. "There"s nowhere to run!" I add, which isn"t strictly true, since we"re both covering plenty of ground. There"s just nowhere to run to.
My lungs are burning and my legs ache and I don"t have enough sleep in my bones for this, but adrenaline fills in the place where sleep should be as the Narrows echo with the sounds of the hunt. Heavy breath and pumping limbs and shoes. .h.i.tting hard against the concrete, his as he flees, mine as I chase.
And I"m catching up.
The kid loses a stride when he looks back, and then another when he takes a corner too fast and slides into the wall. Harker springs off, keeps going. I cut the corner sharp, too, shoes skidding a fraction on the slick ground of the Narrows, but I know these halls, these walls, these floors, and I"m off again, closing the gap.
He"s between one sprinting step and the next when my hand finally tangles in his collar, catching him off balance. I pull hard, and Harker goes sprawling backward to the floor, a few feet from the nearest Returns door, marked by a white chalk circle shaded in. He starts to scramble away, but I haul him to his feet and pin him back against the wall as I get my key into the lock and turn. The door opens, showering us both in glaring white light.
I get a good look at his eyes as they go wide-the pupils wavering, about to slip-right before I shove him into the glaring white, but it"s not until after he"s through the door, the light is gone, and I"m left alone in the dark with my slamming pulse that I process the look he gave me and realize what it was.
Fear.
Not of the Narrows or of the glaring Returns, but of me.
It"s like being doused with cold water, that thought, and it leaves me feeling breathless and dizzy. I bring a hand up to the wall for balance. A shallow pain draws my eyes to my arm, and for the first time I see the scratches there, raked across my skin, and a sick feeling spreads through me.
When did this happen?
When did Harker fight back?
I rack my brain, trying to rewind my own mind, trying to remember when he scratched me, or what made him run in the first place, or how we met, and panic coils around me as I realize that I can"t.
I remember stepping through the door and into the Narrows. I remember the sound of humming, and then...nothing. Nothing until halfway through the chase. The time between is just missing. I squeeze my eyes shut, scrambling for the memories and finding only a blur. I sink down to the floor and rest my forehead against my knees, forcing air into my lungs.
One of Da"s lessons plays in my head, his voice low and steady and smooth: Keep your head on, Kenzie. Can"t think straight when you"re all worked up. Histories panic. Look at all the good it does them.
I take another breath and try to calm down. What was I doing? I was reading the walls...I was about to read the walls when I heard the humming, and then...and then I lick my lips and taste blood, and just like that, the memories rush back.
Someone was humming.
Just like Owen used to do. My heart started to race as I followed the melody through the halls. It sounded so much like humming at first, but then it didn"t-the Narrows does distort things-growing louder and harsher until it wasn"t anything like humming, wasn"t music at all, but a hard and steady thud thud thud.
Harker kicking a door halfway down the hall, so loud he didn"t hear me coming until I was there behind him, head pounding, and then he spun and, before I could even lie my way into his good graces, caught me off guard with his fist.
It comes back like still frames, glimpses in a strobe.
My hand tangled in his shirt.
Shoving him back.
A mess of thrashing limbs.
His shoe coming up against my stomach.
His hands clawing his way free.
Both of us running.
I feel sick with relief. The memory"s shaky, but it"s there.
As I pull the list from my pocket and watch Harker"s name bleed off the page, one question claws its way through my spinning thoughts: why did I black out in the first place?
If I had to guess, I"d say sleep. Or rather, the lack of it.
This-blacking out, losing time, whatever it is-happened once before. A few days after Owen. Last time-which was the first time, and I"d hoped the only time-I hadn"t been sleeping, either. I was so tired, I could barely see straight. One moment I was trying to talk down a History, a teenage girl, and the next I was alone in the hall and my knuckles were raw and her name was gone from my list. When I finally calmed down, the memories came back, blurry and stilted, but there. She"d already slipped, thought I was someone else. Called me M (probably Em, like Emily or Emma). That"s all it had taken to make my hands shake and my heart race and my mind skip. A sliver of Owen.
I told myself then it wasn"t a big deal. It only happened once-unlike the nightmares that came every night like clockwork-so I didn"t tell Roland. I didn"t want him to worry. Da used to say you had to see patterns, but not go looking for them, and I didn"t want to make something out of nothing. But Da also used to say that one mistake was an accident, but two was a problem.
As I look down at the scratches on my arms, I know.
This is officially a problem.
I will myself to get back to my feet. I consider the door beside the one I just sent Harker through, the one marked with the hollow white circle I use to denote the Archive. I should tell Roland. And I will-later. Right now, I have to get home. Last time I lost a minute, maybe two, but now I can tell I"ve lost more than that. I dig my nails into my palms, hoping the sting will keep me awake as I head back for the numbered doors.
The key dangles from its cord around my wrist, and I swing it up into my grip and slide the teeth into the lock on the door that leads back to the third floor. It opens, the hall beyond nothing but shadow from this side, and my shoe is halfway through when I hear a familiar voice on the other side and jerk back sharply, heart hammering in my chest.
Stupid, stupid mistake.
The doorway isn"t visible to normal people. If I"d pa.s.sed through into the Coronado, I would have walked straight through the wall itself-at least it would have appeared that way-and into my mother.
"It"s going well, I think...." The Coronado may be lost from sight, but her voice reaches through the veiled s.p.a.ce, m.u.f.fled, yet audible. "Right, it takes time, I know."
I can hear her coming down the hall, nearing the Narrows door as she talks, the long pauses making it clear she"s on the phone. And then her footsteps stop right in front of me. Maybe she"s looking in the mirror across from the invisible door. I think of the schoolbag stashed behind the table under the mirror, and hope she hasn"t discovered it.
"Oh, Mackenzie?"
I stiffen, until I realize she"s answering the person on the line.