Seeing him in such a pitiful situation, Lifen gently stepped forward to console him but he swatted away her hand as if it was most disgusting thing to touch in this whole world. She wasn"t able to collect anything from his words. She wanted to ask him but the way he is looking at her, filled with animosity and disgust, she wasn"t able to form the sentences.
She stood still at her position, contemplating his previous words and then looking at the lady lying on the bed. After taking a second glance of her, she somehow seemed to be familiar. She internally questioned herself, "Why does she seem to be familiar? Have I met her before?".
Something flashed in her memory, the day of the reunion party organized by Chang. Yes, she have met her before, that night of reunion party. But still there was something amiss. What was she doing with Deming? And most importantly, why is he accusing her for his pain?
She decided to voice out her questions. "Hey, can you please take it slow. I am really not getting your words. Why would I....", before she could complete her words, he again grabbed her holding her arms. For the onlookers it might look his grip on her is rough and is hurting her but in reality it was just opposite. His fingers were quite careful on her soft skin, as if they were afraid that if they hurt even a ounce of her, they would be cut off ruthlessly.
"Why would you? Really? Do you even know what you have done? No, you don"t know. I will tell you", his fingers unclasped her shoulders and grabbed her wrist.
All this while, Lifen have lost all her words, she was tongue tied and was just looking at his expressions which only has aggressiveness , contempt and accusations for her. Only she knows what pain she is feeling inside her.
He pulled her through her wrist and walked to the side of the bed where Jie was lying. "Do you remember her? You have met her before", he asked in a sharp tone.
Lifen nodded with her eyes welled up with tears. She wanted to say "yes" instead of nodding. But she knew if she speak out any single word, he would understand she is falling weak because of his words. And this is the thing she doesn"t want now. She pulled up her lips tightly and looked at the him.
"Do you know, why she is lying here like this? It"s all because of you. Because of you she is in this condition. It"s almost 3 months but she is still not moving"
Lifen snapped out, hearing his accusations. It"s because of her. The lady is lying on the bed, unconscious and maybe in the vegetative state is because of her.
He continued, "Because of you, I have lost her. Do you even know, what did she mean to me. She was the love of my life. I have loved her for 10 years. I have dreamed of her every night and now look at her. Do you know how much pain I am feeling inside me?". His each and every word was like a dagger piercing her heart continuously.
He has loved her!
Love of his life!
Loved for 10 years!
"If he has loved her all this time, then what am I to him. A toy to play with. And now, here he is accusing me for deeds which I haven"t committed. That"s enough, I can"t bore his accusations now. My silence would be treated as an acceptance", she rebuked herself under her breath.
She yanked her hand back from his grip, "Are you insane. Why would I do something like this to her. I have only met her once and that too for maximum 15 minutes. And here you are blaming me for her condition. You are totally insane."
Deming"s eyes turned fiery when looked at her, "Yeah, indeed it was for a short duration but that short was enough to lead her to this condition. She was suffering from depression and you...You have insulted her. Your insulting words has made her like this. That day after getting insulted by she was very upset. She got out of her senses and met with a deadly accident".
Lifen wasn"t able to understand her accusations. Was he really thought this was her mistake. If yes, then he was really insane. "Wait a second, that was the reason of your accusation. Huh! I can"t believe it. You are accusing of the deed I haven"t committed ", she left a laugh of disgust.
She continued, "My love....Ahh sorry I can"t refer you like that. Mr.w.a.n.g, think it carefully. Was that really my mistake. I haven"t known her, that was our first meeting. How would I know if she is suffering from depression or not. And let me tell you something, even if I known it I would have done the same thing I have done that day without giving any second thoughts".
"I know you love her. She is the love of your life", she sneered and her her lips curled up in a mocking way, "but I didn"t thought that your love for her make you blind , thoughtless and even heartless".
"I didn"t regret insulting her because what she was doing there was unacceptable. She was hara.s.sing a waitress there in a pathetic way. I didn"t regret defending that waitress, but yeah I really feel bad that she is like this but for your kind information her state doesn"t concern me. So if everything is clear, I would like to leave this place ".
With that she turned to leave, but a tough rough hand grabbed her shoulder, "You are really heartless. I didn"t thought you would be like this. Were you pretending to be soft hearted all these days?"
Lifen wasn"t able to hold her cool self anymore. All the while, she was controlling herself to be mild, not allowing herself to show her real pain but now with these words, it"s not possible to be cool.
She turned at a lightening speed, swatted the arm away which was holding her shoulder and punched the man hard enough to smash the wall behind him but it was Deming who one stumbled a few steps. All this happened in a blink of eye so he was utterly shocked.
"Heartless? Pretending to be soft hearted? Huh! Do you really know the meaning of heartless? If what I did was heartless, then what would you call yourself? Do you even know what you have done to me? No, all this while you were only thinking about your revenge. The revenge for the deed which don"t even exist. I really regret falling for such a jerk", she growled, tears rolling down her cheeks.
Deming wanted to say something but words didn"t came out his lips. He could see extreme pain in her eyes. His heart was regretting something but he was too blind and heartless to understand his heart.