"Well, how do ye think other folk mak" a fortune? Do ye think they work harder than your man does? No! It"s because our men work so hard that other folk get it aff their labor. Do they live a better life than your man or mine? They waste mair in yae day, whiles, than wad keep your family or mine for a whole year. Is it because they are honester than us? No. You ken fine your man or yoursel" wadna" hae the name o"
stealin". But they steal every day o" their lives, only they ca" it business. That"s the difference. It"s business wi" them, but it wad be dishonest on oor pairt. Awa", woman! It"s disgraceful to think aboot.
Naebody should eat wha disna work, an" I dinna care wha hears me say it," and the flashing eyes and the indignant voice gave token of her righteous wrath.
"That"s a" richt, Nellie, but it has aye been, an" I doot it"ll aye be.
We just canna help it," would come the reply.
"I tell you it"s everybody"s duty to work for better times. We"ve no richt to allow the things that gang on. There"s nae guid in poverty and disease an" ill-health, an" we should a" try to change it; and we could if only you"d get some sense into your held, an" no" stand and speak as if you felt that G.o.d meant it."
"Ay, Nellie, that"s a" richt, but it"s the Lord"s will, an" we maun put up wi" it."
At this juncture Mrs. Sinclair"s patience would become exhausted, and she would flare up, while the neighbor would suddenly break off the discussion and go off home.
Her children were taught that it was a disgrace not to resent a wrong, and Robert, though only a boy, was always st.u.r.dily standing up against the things he considered wrong at the pit-head.
Robert dreamed and built his future castles. There was great work ahead to do. He never mentioned his longings and visions to anyone, yet Mysie"s sweet, shy face was creeping into them always, and already he was conscious of something in her that thrilled him. He was awkward, and his speech did not come readily, in her presence. Whole days he dreamed, only waking up to find it was "knocking-off" time. There was an hour"s break in the middle of the day, and then he wandered out on the moor.
Its silence soothed him, and he would lie and dream among the rough yellow gra.s.s and the hard tough heather, bathing his soul in the brooding quietness of it all.
He was now twelve years of age, and longing to get at work down the pit.
It was for him the advent of manhood, and represented the beginning of his real work.
One night in the late summer, after the pit had knocked off and the "day-shift" was returning home, he and Mysie were walking as usual behind the women. He had meant to tell her the great news all day, but somehow she was so different now, and besides a man should always keep something to himself as long as possible. It showed strength, he thought.
"I"m goin" doon the pit the morn, Mysie," he said, now that he had come to the point of telling her, and speaking as casually as he could.
"Oh, are you?" said Mysie, and stopped, disappointingly, and remained silent.
"Ay. I"m twelve now, you ken, an" I can get into the pit," feeling a bit nettled that she was silent in the face of such a happening.
"Oh!" and again Mysie stopped.
"My faither has got a place a week syne that"ll fit John an" him an" me.
The three o" us are a" goin" to work thegither. If he could have gotten yin sooner, I"d hae been doon a month syne. But he"s aye been waitin" to get a place that wad suit us a"," he said, volunteering this information to see if it would loosen her tongue to express the regret he wanted her to speak.
But again Mysie did not answer. She only hung her head and did not look up with any interest in his news.
"It"s aboot time I was in the pit now, ye ken. You used to get doon the pit at ten. My faither was in it when he was nine, but you"re no"
allowed to gang doon now till you are twelve year auld. I"m going to draw aff my faither and John," and he was feeling more and more exasperated at her continued silence.
Yet still Mysie did not speak, and merely nodded to this further enlightenment.
"I"ve never telt onybody except yoursel"," he said, hurt at her seeming want of interest, and feeling that what he was going to say was less manly than he intended it to be. Indeed he was aware that it was decidedly childish of him to say it, but, like many wiser and older, he could not keep his dignity, and took pleasure in hurting her; for there is a pleasure sometimes in hurting a loved one, because they are loved, and will not speak the things one wants them to say, which if said might add to one"s vanity and sense of importance. "So ye"ll just be by yoursel" the morn, unless they put d.i.c.ky Tamson owre aside you," he added viciously.
"I dinna want d.i.c.ky Tamson aside me," she said with some heat, and a hint of anxiety in her voice, which pleased him a little. "He"s an impudent thing," and again she relapsed into silence, just when he thought his pleasure was going to be complete.
"Oh, they"ll maybe put Aggie Lowrieson on your side o" the table," he volunteered, glad that at last she had shown some feeling.
"They can keep Aggie Lowrieson too," she said shortly. "I dinna" want her. I"ll get on fine mysel"," and she said no more.
He talked of his new venture all the way home, and he felt more and more hurt because she did not reply as eagerly and volubly as he wished.
"It"ll be great goin" doon the pit," he said, again feeling that he was going to be priggish. "Pickin" stanes is a" guid enough for a laddie for a wee while, an" for women, but you"re the better to gang into the pit when you"re the age. You get mair money for it. Of course, it"s hard work, but I"ll be earnin" as much as twa shillin"s a day in the pit, and that"ll be twelve shillin"s a week."
But Mysie could not be drawn to look at his rosy prospects, and still kept silent, so that the last few hundred yards were covered in silence.
At the end of the row where they always parted, he could not resist adding a thrust to his usual "good-night."
"Guid nicht then, Mysie. I thocht may be ye"d be vexed, seem" that d.i.c.kie Tamson can torment you as muckle as he likes now." And so he went home feeling that Mysie didn"t care much.
But Mysie had a sore heart that night. She knew only too well that d.i.c.k Tamson would torment her, and would be egged on by the other women to kiss and tease her, and they would laugh at it all. Robert had always been her champion, and kept d.i.c.k, who was a mischievous boy, at a distance. She was sorry that Robert was going down the pit, and it seemed to her that she"d rather go to service now. The harsh clamor and the dirty disagreeable work were bearable before, but it would not be the same with Robert away. She knew that she would miss him very much.
She thought long of it when she lay down in her bed that night. He had no right to think that she was not vexed, and she cried quietly beneath the blankets.
"Here"s Mysie greetin"," cried her little brother, who lay beside her.
"Mither, Mysie"s greetin"."
"What"s wrang wi" her?" called the mother anxiously from the other bed.
"I dinna" ken," answered the boy, "she"ll no" tell me."
"What is"t that"s wrang with you, Mysie?" again called the mother more sharply.
"I"ve a sore tooth," she answered, glad to get any excuse, and lying with prompt.i.tude.
"Well, hap the blankets owre your head," the mother advised, "and it"ll soon be better. Dinna" greet, like a woman."
But Mysie still continued to cry softly, choking back the sobs, and keeping her face to the wall, so as not to disturb the other sleeper beside her--cried for a long hour, until exhaustion overcame her, and at last she fell asleep, her last thought being that Robert had no right to misjudge her so.
Robert, on the other hand, as is the prerogative of the man, soon forgot all about his disappointment at Mysie"s seeming want of interest in his affairs, and was busy with his preparations for the next day.
He had a lamp to buy, for Lowwood was an open-light pit, and was soon busy on the instructions of his father learning the art of "putting in a wick" to the exact thickness, testing his tea flask, and doing all the little things that count in preparing for the first descent into a coal mine. He was very much excited over it all, and babbled all the evening, asking questions regarding the work he would be called upon to do, and generally boring his father with his talk.
But his father understood it all, and was patient with him, answering his enquiries and advising him on many things, until latterly he pleaded for a "wink o" peace," and told the boy "for any sake" to be quiet.
Geordie Sinclair knew that this enthusiasm would soon evaporate. Only too well he knew the stages of disappointment which the boy would experience, and for this reason he was kindly with him.
He was now looking forward with better prospects. Robert was the second boy now started, and already matters were somewhat easier; but he shuddered to think of the lot of the man who was battling away unaided, with four or five children to support, and depending on a meager three and sixpence or four shillings of a daily wage to keep the house together. For himself the prospect was now better, and in looking back he realized what a terrible time it had been--especially for his wife; for hers was the more difficult task in laying out the scanty wages he earned.
It never had seemed to strike him with such force before, even when matters were at their worst, what it had meant to her; and as he looked at her, sitting knitting at the opposite side of the fire, he was filled with compa.s.sion for her, and a new beauty seemed to be upon her lined face, and in the firm set of her mouth.
Thus he sat reviewing all the terrible struggle, when she had slaved to keep him and the children, during the time he was injured, and a pang shot through, as the conviction came to him, that perhaps he had not been as helpful as he might have been to her, when a little praise even might have made it easier for her.
Impulsively he rose to his feet and crossed to where she sat, taking her in his arms and kissing her.
"Losh, Geordie, what"s wrong with you!" she enquired, looking up with a pleased sparkle in her eyes, for he was usually very undemonstrative.
"Oh, just this, Nellie," he said with embarra.s.sment in every feature of his face, "I"ve been thinking over things, and I feel that I havena"
given you encouragement as I should have done, for all that you have done for me and the bairns."
"You fair took my breath away," said Nellie with a pleased little laugh; then, as she looked at his glowing face, something came into her throat, and the tears started.