The imperious command met with no resistance. Felicitas, half-fearful, half-curious, drew nearer and felt her hand seized by one as if in fever.
"Why do you tremble?" asked Johanna. "You ought to be glad, for now I am in your power, as much as you are in mine. You are afraid to meet the eyes of the Crucified, but look well. Do you know who has eyes like those?"
"No," said Felicitas.
"And you pretend to love him! Oh, you dissembler! Now, listen, either your mind is pure and clear as gold, like the blood that flows from those wounds, and I have been deceived in you; or it is an abysmal sink of iniquity beyond my capacity to measure in this life."
"The truth is about halfway between the two," thought Felicitas.
"But we will leave that. If you desire that our enmity shall be over from this hour, you will not refuse to take the oath I require of you."
"It won"t be so awful," thought Felicitas, and with downcast eyes she replied--
"I am not afraid of any oath."
"Then kneel down."
"Why, where?" asked Felicitas, nervously.
"Here, on my stool."
"Very well, even that I will do," said Felicitas, and knelt as she was bidden, carefully drawing aside her festive skirts as she did so.
"Place your hands on the Saviour"s feet."
Felicitas dared not refuse. When the tips of her fingers came in contact with the cold marble, she cowered and shivered. She felt as if an icy stream ran over her from those white feet, which threatened to freeze the blood in her veins, but she held out bravely. And then in a low, slightly tremulous voice, she repeated the words Johanna dictated to her, like a confirmation candidate kneeling in white muslin at the altar, stammering forth her confession of faith.
"I swear to Thee, merciful Lord, I confess and protest in Thy name, that I am filled with penitence for my sin, and shall be penitent till my life"s end."
"If nothing further occurs," she thought meanwhile.
"I will cherish no other thought, no other wish than to repent what has happened. Ulrich"s happiness and honour shall be my expiation, and my only object in life till he dies."
"Amen," added Felicitas, with a sigh of relief, and was going to get up hastily, but Johanna held her down on the stool.
"We haven"t done yet," she said, and laughed between her clenched teeth.
Felicitas thought, "I don"t care," and prepared herself to repeat further what was poured into her ear in broken whispers mingled with hot gasping waves of breath.
"If my heart is not pure, if I take this oath, as a blind. ..."
Felicitas hesitated a little to test herself.... No it was no blind.
She really meant what she was promising.
"If in future I set my desires on vain pleasure, or nourish sinful wishes, so shalt Thou punish me through the dearest I possess. Thou shalt shame me in the sight of all men."
"Thou shalt shame me in the sight of all men," repeated Felicitas, and looked timidly round her.
"The child Thou hast given me shall die," was whispered in her ear.
A cold shiver ran along her spine, and then she repeated even this.
"And I shall be his murderess."
Felicitas was silent and trembled.
"Well ... why do you hesitate?"
"Johanna, it is so awful, what you want me to say."
"It is, but only thus can I be sure of you. Say it or not. You have your choice."
"And ... I ... shall ... be ... his ... murderess."
"Right, now say Amen."
"Amen."
Then she sank with her forehead on the edge of the desk. She glanced at her fingers, which had relaxed their grasp on the feet of the Crucified, as if she expected there must be traces on them of the blood which Johanna saw streaming from the wounds. It seemed to her as if she had sworn away her life, as if with those last words the sun had gone down, never to rise again.
Then she slowly raised herself. The next moment, she felt Johanna"s arms round her, and the feverish lips, struggling against repulsion pressed to her own.
She returned the pressure mechanically, thinking with a shudder--
"And this too is a kiss."
Johanna seized her hand. "Now you can return to your place which you have occupied as undisputed mistress till to-day," said she. "You also shall have your way, and may count me your friend from henceforth; and now, let us go over to them. Ulrich must know that we are reconciled."
"And Leo too," thought Felicitas, smoothing out the folds of her dress which were crumpled from kneeling.
As she walked into the open air by Johanna"s side and saw the sun shining, in spite of all that had happened, greenish-gold through the leaves, she took comfort for the first time. The new position of affairs seemed already more familiar.
"The oath may do good," she said to herself. "It will, at least keep me from doing silly things."
Frau von Sellenthin and Ulrich Kletzingk sat together on the terrace, keeping up a somewhat constrained conversation, because both were awaiting, full of impatience, Lizzie"s return. A mounted messenger had been sent out to the fields to summon Leo home. Elly, irradiating placid rosy innocence, st.i.tched at her embroidery, which was spread out on her knees; while Hertha, with idle fingers, was on the _qui vive_ for coming events. Even the presence of Ulrich, to whom she had felt drawn long ago in the bonds of a glowing friendship, could not dissipate the panic which the mysterious meeting between the two women had awakened in her. She was the first to become aware of their approach. Walking close to each other, they loomed against the background of the park--the one in her black, flapping weeds resembling a gliding shadow, and the other like a white summer cloudlet.
Now grandmamma saw them coming.
"Thank G.o.d!" she murmured, rolling up her crochet, and giving Ulrich a sign to look round.
"Thank G.o.d," he repeated, as he kissed the old lady"s hand. "Now at last we are at peace."
Every one had got up and looked towards the two women as they ascended the steps of the terrace.
"Well, I don"t think it seems altogether like peace," thought Hertha, observing the expression of bitter chagrin which made her mother"s features appear more severe and sour than ever before. Her eyes were searching Ulrich"s face. "She looks at him as if she would like to swallow him," thought Hertha.
And then she came under the spell of Felicitas"s charms, which held her close captive.