She felt his tension, the desire for action of some sort. Hopefully she"d be able to provide him the opportunity. She released his arm and stepped to the side.
"All right," she told him, falling into the comfortable patter she adopted with most of her clients-erasing the odd intimacy that had sprung up between them. "I know the girl on your brother"s phone-her name used to be Molly, but I think she goes by something like Spearmint or Peppermint, something -mint. I"m going to call for things that belong to her-a hair, a cigarette-anything will do. You"ll have to do the looking. Whatever it is will glow, but it might be very small, easy to overlook."
"What if I don"t see anything?"
"Then they didn"t leave anything behind and I"ll figure out something else to try."
She set aside her worries, shedding them like a duck would shed the cool Seattle rain. Closing her senses to the outside world, she reached into her well of power and drew out a bucketful and threw it out in a circle around her as she called to the essence that was Molly. She hadn"t done this spell since she could see out of both eyes-but there was no reason she couldn"t do it now. Once learned, spells came to her hand like trained spaniels and this one was no exception.
"What do you see?" she asked. The vibration of power warmed her against the cold fall drizzle that began to fall. There was something here, she could feel it.
"Nothing." His voice told her that he"d put a lot of hope into this working.
"There"s something," she said, sensations crawling up her arms and over her shoulders. She held out her right hand, her left being otherwise occupied with the workings of her spell. "Touching me might help you see."
Warm flooded her as his hand touched hers...and she could see the faint traces Molly had left behind. She froze.
"Moira?"
She couldn"t see anything else. Just bright bits of pink light sparkling from the ground, giving her a little bit of idea what the landscape looked like. She let go of his hand and the light disappeared, leaving her in darkness again.
"Did you see anything?" she asked, her voice hoa.r.s.e. The oddity of seeing anything...she craved it too much and it made her wary because she didn"t know how it worked.
"No."
He wanted his brother and she wanted to see. Just for a moment. She held her hand out. "Touch me, again."
...and the sparkles returned like glitter scattered in front of her. Small bits of skin and hair, too small for what she needed. But there was something...
She followed the glittering trail and, as if it had been hidden, a small wad of something blazed like a bonfire.
"Is there a wall just to our right?" she asked.
"A building and an alley." His voice was tight, but she ignored it. She had other business first.
They"d waited for Tom"s brother in the alley. Maybe Jon came to the payphone here often.
She led Tom to the blaze and bent to pick up it up: soft and sticky, gum. Better, she thought, better than she could have hoped. Saliva would make a stronger guide than hair or fingernails. She released his hand reluctantly.
"What did you find?"
"Molly"s gum." She allowed her magic to loosen the last spell and slide back to her, hissing as the power warmed her skin almost to the point of burning. The next spell would be easier, even if it might eventually need more power. Sympathetic magic-which used the connections between like things-was one of those affinities that ran through her father"s bloodlines into her.
But before she tried any more magic, she needed to figure out what he"d done to her spell. How touching him allowed her to see.
She looked unearthly. A violent wind he had not felt, not even when she"d fastened on to his hand with fierce strength, had blown her hair away from her face. The skin on her hands was reddened, as if she held them too close to a fire. He wanted to soothe them-but he firmly intended never to touch her again.
He had no idea what she"d done to him while she held on to him and made his body burn and tremble. He didn"t like surprises and she"d told him that he would have to look, not that she"d use him to see. He especially didn"t like it that as long as she was touching him, he hadn"t wanted her to let him go.
Witches gather more power from hurting those with magic, she"d said... more or less. People just like him-but it hadn"t hurt, not that he"d noticed.
He wasn"t afraid of her, not really. Witch or not she was no match for him. Even in human form it would be only a matter of moments before he broke her human-fragile body. But if she was using him...
"Why are you helping me?" he asked as he had earlier, but the question seemed more important now. He"d known what she was, but witch meant something different to him now. He knew enough about witches not to ask the obvious question though, like what it was she"d done to him. Witches, in his experience, were secretive about their spells-like junkyard dogs are secretive about their bones.
She"d taken something from him by using him that way...broken the trust he"d felt building between them. He needed to reestablish what he could expect out of her. Needed to know exactly what she was getting him into, beyond rescuing his brother. Witches are not altruistic. "What do you want out of this? Revenge for your blindness?"
She watched him...appeared to watch him anyway as she considered his question. There hadn"t been many people who could lie to Tom before he Changed-cops learn all about lying the first year on the job. Afterwards...he could smell a lie a mile away an hour before it was spoken.
"Andy Choo sent you," she said finally. "That"s one. Your brother"s a policeman, and an investigation into his death might be awkward. That"s two. He takes risks to help people he doesn"t know, it"s only right someone return the favor. That"s three."
They weren"t lies, but they weren"t everything either. Her face was very still, as if the magic she"d worked had changed her view of him, too.
Then she tilted her head sideways and said in a totally different voice, hesitant and raw. "Sins of the fathers."
Here was absolute truth. Obscure as h.e.l.l, but truth. "Sins of the fathers?"
"Kouros"s real name is Lin Keller, though he hasn"t used it in twenty years or more."
"He"s your father." And then he added two and two. "Your father is running Samhain"s Coven?" Her father had ruined her eye and-Tom could read between the lines-caused her to ruin the other? Her own father?
She drew in a deep breath-and for a moment he was afraid she was going to cry or something. But a stray gust of air brought the scent of her to him and he realized she was angry. It tasted like a werewolf"s rage, wild and biting.
"I am not a part of it," she said, her voice a half octave lower than it had been. "I"m not bringing you to his lair so he can dine upon werewolf, too. I am here because some jerk made me feel sorry for him. I am here because I want both he and his brother out of my hair and safely out of the hands of my rat-b.a.s.t.a.r.d father so I won"t have their deaths on my conscience, too."
Someone else might have been scared of her, she being a witch and all. Tom wanted to apologize-and he couldn"t remember the last time that impulse had touched him. It was even more amazing because he wasn"t at fault: she"d misunderstood him. Maybe she"d picked up on how appalled he was that her own father had maimed her-he hadn"t been implying she was one of them.
He didn"t apologize, though, or explain himself. People said things when they were mad that they wouldn"t tell you otherwise.
"What was it you did to me?"
"Did to you?" Arctic ice might be warmer.
"When you were looking for the gum. It felt like you hit me with a bolt of lightning." He was d.a.m.ned if he"d tell her everything he felt.
Her right eyebrow peaked out above her sungla.s.ses. Interest replaced coldness. "You felt like I was doing something to you?" And then she held out her left hand. "Take my hand."
He looked at it.
After a moment she smiled. He didn"t know she had a smile like that in her. Bright and cheerful and sudden. Knowing. As if she had gained every thought that pa.s.sed through his head. Her anger, the misunderstanding between them was gone as if it had never been.
"I don"t know what happened," she told him gently. "Let me try re-creating it and maybe I can tell you."
He gave her his hand. Instead of taking it, she put only two fingers on his palm. She stepped closer to him, dropped her head so he could see her scalp gleaming pale underneath her dark hair. The magic that touched him this time was gentler, sparklers instead of fireworks-and she jerked her fingers away as if his hand were a hot potato.
"What the heck..." She rubbed her hands on her arms with nervous speed.
"What?"
"You weren"t acting as my focus, I can tell you that much."
"So what was going on?"
She shook her head, clearly uncomfortable. "I think I was using you to see. I shouldn"t be able to do that."
He found himself smiling grimly. "So I"m your seeing-eye wolf?"
"I don"t know."
He recognized her panic, having seen it in his own mirror upon occasion. It was always frightening when something you thought was firmly under control broke free to run where it would. With him it was the wolf.
Something resettled in his gut. She hadn"t done it on purpose, she wasn"t using him.
"Is it harmful to me?"
She frowned. "Did it hurt?"
"No."
"Either time?"
"Neither time."
"Then it didn"t harm you."
"All right," he said. "Where do we go from here?"
She opened her right hand, the one with the gum in it. "Not us. Me. This is going to show us where Molly is-and Molly will know where your brother is."
She closed her fingers, turned her hand palm down, then turned in a slow circle. She hit a break in the pavement and he grabbed her before she could do more than stumble. His hand touched her wrist and she turned her hand to grab him, as the kick of power flowed through his body once more.
"They"re in a boat," she told him, and went limp in his arms.
She awoke with the familiar headache that usually accompanied the overuse of magic, and absolutely no idea of where she was. It smelled wrong to be her apartment, but she was lying on a couch with a blanket covering her.
Panic rose in her chest-sometimes she hated being blind.
"Back in the land of the living?"
"Tom?"
He must have heard the distress in her voice because when he spoke again, he was much closer and his voice was softer. "You"re on a couch in my apartment. We were as close to mine as we were to yours, and I knew I could get us into my apartment. Yours is probably sealed with hocus-pocus. Are you all right?"
She sat up and put her feet on the floor and her erstwhile bed proved itself to be a couch. "Do you have something with sugar in it? Sweet tea or fruit juice?"
"Hot cocoa or tea," he told her.
"Tea."
He must have had water already hot because he was quickly back with a hot cup. She drank the sweet stuff down as fast as she could and the heat did as much as the sugar to clear her headache.
"Sorry," she said.
"For what, exactly," he said.
"For using you. I think you don"t have any barriers," she told him slowly. "We all have safeguards, walls that keep out intruders. It"s what keeps us safe."
In his silence she heard him consider that.
"So, I"m vulnerable to witches?"
She didn"t know what to do with her empty cup, so she set it on the couch beside her. Then she used her left hand, her seeking hand, to look at him again.
"No, I don"t think so. Your barriers seem solid...even stronger than usual as I"d expect from a wolf as far up the command structure as you are. I think you are only vulnerable to me."
"Which means?"
"Which means when I touch you I can see magic through your eyes...with practice I might even be able just to see. It means that you can feed my magic with your skin." She swallowed. "You"re not going to like this."
"Tell me."
"You are acting like my familiar." She couldn"t feel a thing from him. "If I had a familiar."
Floor boards creaked under his feet as his weight shifted. His shoulder brushed her as he picked up the empty cup. She heard him walk away from her and set the cup on a hard surface. "Do you need more tea?"
"No," she said, needing, suddenly to be in a familiar place. Somewhere she wasn"t so dependent upon him. "I"m fine. If you would call me a taxi, I"d appreciate it." She stood up, too. Then realized she had no idea where the door was or what obstacles might be hiding on the floor. In her own apartment, redolent with her magic, she was never so vulnerable.
"Can you find my brother?"
She hadn"t heard him move, not a creak, not a breath, but his voice told her he was no more than a few inches from her. Disoriented and vulnerable, she was afraid of him for the first time.
He took a big step away from her. "I"m not going to hurt you."
"Sorry," she told him. "You startled me. Do we still have the gum?"
"Yes. You said she was on a boat."
She"d forgotten, but as soon as he said it, she could picture it in her head. That hadn"t been the way the spell was supposed to work. It was more of a "hot and cold" spell, but she could still see the boat in her mind"s eye.
Nothing had really changed, except that she"d used someone without asking. There was still a policeman to be saved and her father to kill.
"If we still have the gum, I can find Molly-the girl on your brother"s phone call."
"I have a buddy whose boat we can borrow."
"All right," she told him after a moment. "Do you have some aspirin?"
She hated boating. The rocking motion disrupted her sense of direction, the engine"s roar obscured softer sounds, and the scent of the ocean covered the subtler scents she used to negotiate everyday life. Worse than all of that, though, was the thought of trying to swim without knowing where she was going. The damp air chilled her already cold skin.