Her lapses of consciousness continued. The strangest thing she did while in such condition was on Sandy Beach. There she discovered herself, one windy afternoon, lying in a hole she had dug, with sacks for blankets.
She had even roofed the hole in rough fashion by means of drift wood and marsh gra.s.s. On top of the gra.s.s she had piled sand.
Another time she came to herself walking across the marshes, a bundle of driftwood, tied with bale-rope, on her shoulder. Charley Long was walking beside her. She could see his face in the starlight. She wondered dully how long he had been talking, what he had said. Then she was curious to hear what he was saying. She was not afraid, despite his strength, his wicked nature, and the loneliness and darkness of the marsh.
"It"s a shame for a girl like you to have to do this," he was saying, apparently in repet.i.tion of what he had already urged. "Come on an" say the word, Saxon. Come on an" say the word."
Saxon stopped and quietly faced him.
"Listen, Charley Long. Billy"s only doing thirty days, and his time is almost up. When he gets out your life won"t be worth a pinch of salt if I tell him you"ve been bothering me. Now listen. If you go right now away from here, and stay away, I won"t tell him. That"s all I"ve got to say."
The big blacksmith stood in scowling indecision, his face pathetic in its fierce yearning, his hands making unconscious, clutching contractions.
"Why, you little, small thing," he said desperately, "I could break you in one hand. I could--why, I could do anything I wanted. I don"t want to hurt you, Saxon. You know that. Just say the word--"
"I"ve said the only word I"m going to say."
"G.o.d!" he muttered in involuntary admiration. "You ain"t afraid. You ain"t afraid."
They faced each other for long silent minutes.
"Why ain"t you afraid?" he demanded at last, after peering into the surrounding darkness as if searching for her hidden allies.
"Because I married a man," Saxon said briefly. "And now you"d better go."
When he had gone she shifted the load of wood to her other shoulder and started on, in her breast a quiet thrill of pride in Billy. Though behind prison bars, still she leaned against his strength. The mere naming of him was sufficient to drive away a brute like Charley Long.
On the day that Otto Frank was hanged she remained indoors. The evening papers published the account. There had been no reprieve. In Sacramento was a railroad Governor who might reprieve or even pardon bank-wreckers and grafters, but who dared not lift his finger for a workingman. All this was the talk of the neighborhood. It had been Billy"s talk. It had been Bert"s talk.
The next day Saxon started out the Rock Wall, and the specter of Otto Frank walked by her side. And with him was a dimmer, mistier specter that she recognized as Billy. Was he, too, destined to tread his way to Otto Frank"s dark end? Surely so, if the blood and strike continued. He was a fighter. He felt he was right in fighting. It was easy to kill a man. Even if he did not intend it, some time, when he was slugging a scab, the scab would fracture his skull on a stone curbing or a cement sidewalk. And then Billy would hang. That was why Otto Frank hanged.
He had not intended to kill Henderson. It was only by accident that Henderson"s skull was fractured. Yet Otto Frank had been hanged for it just the same.
She wrung her hands and wept loudly as she stumbled among the windy rocks. The hours pa.s.sed, and she was lost to herself and her grief. When she came to she found herself on the far end of the wall where it jutted into the bay between the Oakland and Alameda Moles. But she could see no wall. It was the time of the full moon, and the unusual high tide covered the rocks. She was knee deep in the water, and about her knees swam scores of big rock rats, squeaking and fighting, scrambling to climb upon her out of the flood. She screamed with fright and horror, and kicked at them. Some dived and swam away under water; others circled about her warily at a distance; and one big fellow laid his teeth into her shoe. Him she stepped on and crushed with her free foot. By this time, though still trembling, she was able coolly to consider the situation. She waded to a stout stick of driftwood a few feet away, and with this quickly cleared a s.p.a.ce about herself.
A grinning small boy, in a small, bright-painted and half-decked skiff, sailed close in to the wall and let go his sheet to spill the wind.
"Want to get aboard?" he called.
"Yes," she answered. "There are thousands of big rats here. I"m afraid of them."
He nodded, ran close in, spilled the wind from his sail, the boat"s way carrying it gently to her.
"Shove out its bow," he commanded. "That"s right. I don"t want to break my centerboard.... An" then jump aboard in the stern--quick!--alongside of me."
She obeyed, stepping in lightly beside him. He held the tiller up with his elbow, pulled in on the sheet, and as the sail filled the boat sprang away over the rippling water.
"You know boats," the boy said approvingly.
He was a slender, almost frail lad, of twelve or thirteen years, though healthy enough, with sunburned freckled face and large gray eyes that were clear and wistful.
Despite his possession of the pretty boat, Saxon was quick to sense that he was one of them, a child of the people.
"First boat I was ever in, except ferryboats," Saxon laughed.
He looked at her keenly. "Well, you take to it like a duck to water is all I can say about it. Where d"ye want me to land you?"
"Anywhere."
He opened his mouth to speak, gave her another long look, considered for a s.p.a.ce, then asked suddenly: "Got plenty of time?"
She nodded.
"All day?"
Again she nodded.
"Say--I"ll tell you, I"m goin" out on this ebb to Goat Island for rockcod, an" I"ll come in on the flood this evening. I got plenty of lines an" bait. Want to come along? We can both fish. And what you catch you can have."
Saxon hesitated. The freedom and motion of the small boat appealed to her. Like the ships she had envied, it was outbound.
"Maybe you"ll drown me," she parleyed.
The boy threw back his head with pride.
"I guess I"ve been sailin" many a long day by myself, an" I ain"t drowned yet."
"All right," she consented. "Though remember, I don"t know anything about boats."
"Aw, that"s all right.--Now I"m goin" to go about. When I say "Hard a-lee!" like that, you duck your head so the boom don"t hit you, an"
shift over to the other side."
He executed the maneuver, Saxon obeyed, and found herself sitting beside him on the opposite side of the boat, while the boat itself, on the other tack, was heading toward Long Wharf where the coal bunkers were.
She was aglow with admiration, the more so because the mechanics of boat-sailing was to her a complex and mysterious thing.
"Where did you learn it all?" she inquired.
"Taught myself, just naturally taught myself. I liked it, you see, an"
what a fellow likes he"s likeliest to do. This is my second boat. My first didn"t have a centerboard. I bought it for two dollars an" learned a lot, though it never stopped leaking. What d "ye think I paid for this one? It"s worth twenty-five dollars right now. What d "ye think I paid for it?"
"I give up," Saxon said. "How much?"
"Six dollars. Think of it! A boat like this! Of course I done a lot of work, an" the sail cost two dollars, the oars one forty, an" the paint one seventy-five. But just the same eleven dollars and fifteen cents is a real bargain. It took me a long time saving for it, though. I carry papers morning and evening--there"s a boy taking my route for me this afternoon--I give "m ten cents, an" all the extras he sells is his; and I"d a-got the boat sooner only I had to pay for my shorthand lessons. My mother wants me to become a court reporter. They get sometimes as much as twenty dollars a day. Gee! But I don"t want it. It"s a shame to waste the money on the lessons."
"What do you want?" she asked, partly from idleness, and yet with genuine curiosity; for she felt drawn to this boy in knee pants who was so confident and at the same time so wistful.
"What do I want?" he repeated after her.
Turning his head slowly, he followed the sky-line, pausing especially when his eyes rested landward on the brown Contra Costa hills, and seaward, past Alcatraz, on the Golden Gate. The wistfulness in his eyes was overwhelming and went to her heart.
"That," he said, sweeping the circle of the world with a wave of his arm.