I nibbled absently at that spot over my eye. "Okay, it"s got to do with reproduction..."
"You mean I could get pregnant?" That possibility alarmed her.
"No, I mean you could get like me. My taking from you is one thing, but if you should take any of my blood, there"s a remote chance you could be like me after you died."
"Would it kill me?"
"No, of course not."
"How remote a chance?"
"I don"t know. As I understand it, it almost never works because nearly everyone is immune. They"d have to be or there"d be more people like me around."
"Maybe there are and you just haven"t noticed them. You don"t exactly look like a vampire, you know."
"Not the Hollywood kind, anyway."
"I mean you don"t stand out in a crowd."
"Oh, thank you very much."
She swatted my shoulder.
"Okay, okay, I know what you meant."
She settled in again. "This kind of reproduction... is that why we don"t make love the usual way?"
"Yes," I said shortly.
"Hey, don"t clam up on me, I was just asking.""I know, honey."
I tried to relax and succeeded to some extent. She"d hit a sore spot, but it wasn"t an unexpected blow. I wasn"t-to put it delicately-fertile in the way that men are usually fertile with women. The pleasure centers and how they operated had drastically shifted. Oddly enough, I did not feel deprived, physically or mentally; I just felt that I should feel deprived, or that maybe Bobbi was losing out on things.
There was no justification for it, so far our relationship was as mutually satisfying as anyone could wish for.
She snuggled closer under my arm. "If you want to know, I really prefer it your way."
"You mean that?"
She lifted my hand and pressed it against the soft, warm skin of her throat.
"When you do it this way, it just goes on and on..."
That was how it felt to me. As a breathing man, I"d had some great experiences, but they were hardly an adequate comparison to what I now enjoyed.
"Sometimes I think I"ll go crazy from it," she murmured, kissing my hand.
My lips lightly brushed her temple, the small vein pulsed beneath them. Of their own will, my hands began to undo her b.u.t.tons. "You sure you like it this way?"
"Yes, and for another good reason: I don"t have to worry about getting pregnant."
"Hmmm."
She sat up straight, her top open almost to the waist and her perfect red lips curled into a sleepy, roguish smile. She nodded her head once toward the bedroom.
"Come on, let"s go get more comfortable."
Bobbi made a contented growl in the back of her throat, turned on her side, and burrowed close with her back to me, out bodies fitting together like two spoons. I draped an arm over her, and if my hand happened to end up cupping her left breast, n.o.body minded. We were in a lazy post-lovemaking afterglow and life was good.
"It"s funny how you can get used to things," she said.
"I"m boring you?"
"I didn"t mean it that way, and no, I"m anything but bored with you."
"Thanks for the rea.s.surance. What is it you"re used to?"
"I was remembering the time when I first noticed you didn"t always breathe. It bothered me and now it doesn"t. I just thought it was a funny thing to think of as normal.""For me it is normal."
"Oh, I know that now."
"What else are you used to?"
"Umm... the no-heartbeat thing. But if you live on blood, how does it get through your body?"
"Beats me. Charles is speculating it"s some kind of osmosis."
"What"s that?"
I"d asked Escott the same question and tried to repeat his answer to her. It must have been garbled-laboratory biology and chemistry had never been my best studies-but she took in enough to understand.
"It sounds like the way a root draws water up into a plant," she suggested.
"Maybe so, just as long as it works."
"What about mirrors? Have you figured out why you don"t show up?"
"Nope."
"Let me know when you do, "cause I"m not used to that, yet."
"If it"s any comfort, neither am I."
"You mean you can"t even see yourself?"
"Nope."
"Do you know you need a haircut?"
"Hum a few bars."
She groaned. "That stunk."
"It"s old enough. Anything else?"
"That"s it for now."
"Until you can think of something else to a.n.a.lyze?"
"If you want deep intellect, go to bed with a philosopher."
"Thank you, no."
"I thought you"d say that." She was quiet for a while, resting her head comfortably on my extended arm. I nosed into the platinum silk she had for hair and began kissing the nape of her neck. She squirmed. "You want to go again?""It might not be good for you. Your body has to adjust gradually, even to a small blood loss. Too often..."
"But you don"t take much."
"Neither did those doctors who killed a king from too much bloodletting."
"I heard of that, I think he was English. But this is different and I"m very healthy."
She twisted up on one elbow to look at me. The satin sheet slipped down quite a bit.
"Yes... I can see that."
She made a face. "I"m serious. I"ve been eating liver like crazy, and I hate liver."
"I had no idea."
"So do you want to go again?"
"It"s very tempting, but better for you if we wait."
She thought about it, decided not to push the issue, and wiggled back into my arms again. "Who taught you all this restraint?"
I pretended it was a rhetorical question and resumed nuzzling her hair. It smelled lightly of roses.
She went on. "I can"t help but be curious about her. I won"t ask anymore if you don"t want me to."
"But you"ll still wonder."
"Uh-huh."
"Her name was Maureen." The words dropped out like lead, as always when I talked of her in the past tense.
"I can tell you loved her a lot. It"s the way you look when you think about her."
"It"s that obvious?"
"Sometimes. You"ll be looking at me and then I"m not there for you, and I know you"re seeing her instead."
"Sorry."
"It"s all right. Are we much alike?"
"Her hair was dark and she was shorter."
"I didn"t mean like that.""She needed love," I said lamely.
"Everyone does."
"She needed it like... I don"t know. It was all that mattered to her."
"And you loved each other a lot."
"G.o.d, yes. But I didn"t realize how much until-we were both happy, a long time ago."
"I"m glad you were, that you had something like that. I never did-until now." Her voice was soft, I thought she was drifting off to sleep.
I tried to remember Maureen"s face, but it was like recalling a dream. The harder I tried, the farther it slipped away.
"I hope you believe me," she said.
"About what?"
"About liking your style better."
"Thanks. Are you sure you don"t miss the old way, though?"
She shrugged. "Not much. It"s apples and oranges; I like "em both when it"s done right."
My hands began wandering again. She rolled on her back and we did some serious kissing. Her breath came faster and her heart rate went up.
"I thought you weren"t going to take any more from me tonight."
"I"m not, but maybe you"d like some oranges?"
"What?"
I kissed her again, one hand pa.s.sing over her smooth flank, dipping at the waist and pausing briefly just below her navel.
"Oranges," she murmured. "Handpicked, of course."
Asleep, she looked younger than her twenty-four years. Sleep lent vulnerability and vulnerability brought youth. I watched her protectively, feeling a fierce, quiet joy at the sight of her relaxed features. A little makeup clung to the pale skin, a trace of powder high on one cheek and the faint line of drawn-on brows. Her own had been carefully plucked away to follow the current fashion. I had seen many pretty faces, but few cla.s.sic beauties, and fewer still with brains and personality. She was beautiful, at least as I perceived it, with the kind of looks that artists sometimes capture, if they have the talent.
Her blond head turned on the pillow, the lips parting slightly then closing. They were light pink now; all the lip rouge had been kissed away quite awhile ago. From previous experience I could guess that if any were left it would be on me. I didn"t mind a bit.
It was a hard ch.o.r.e to leave, but necessary-the sunrise was coming and with it my daytime oblivion. I eased out of bed. got dressed, and kissed her forehead in farewell.