"Oh, not about this. I only mean Edith said once, "Don"t have a secret from Eleanor.""
"She was right," Edith"s mother said, getting her breath.
Then they were silent again. A distant measure of ragtime floated up from the lobby; once, as a heavy team pa.s.sed down in the street, the chandelier swayed, and little lights flickered among the faintly clicking prisms. Mrs. Houghton looked at him--and looked away. Maurice was thirty-one; his face was patient and melancholy; the old crinkling laughter rarely made gay wrinkles about his eyes, yet wrinkles were there, and his lips were cynical. Suddenly, he turned and struck his hand on hers:
"I"ll do it," he said....
Late that night Henry Houghton, listening to his Mary"s story of this talk, looked almost frightened. "Mary, it"s an awful risk--Eleanor will never stand up to it!"
"I think she will."
"My dear, when it comes to children, you--with your stars!--get down to the elemental straighter than I do; I know that! And I admit that it is terrible for Maurice"s child to be sc.r.a.pped, as he will be if he is brought up by this impossible person. But as for Eleanor"s helping Maurice to save him from the sc.r.a.p heap, you overlook the fact that to tell a jealous woman that she has cause for jealousy is about as safe as to take a lighted match into a powder magazine. There"ll be an explosion."
"Well," she said, "suppose there is?"
"Good heavens, Mary! Do you realize what that means? She"ll leave him!"
"I don"t believe she will," his wife said, "but if she does, he can at least see all he wants of the boy. He seems to be an unusually bright child."
Her husband nodded. "Yes; Nature isn"t shocked at illegitimacy; and G.o.d doesn"t penalize it."
"But _you_ do," she said, quickly, "when you won"t admit that Jacky is the crux of the whole thing! It isn"t poor Maurice who ought to be considered, nor that sad, tragic old Eleanor; nor the dreadful person in Medfield. But just that little child--_whom Maurice has brought into the world_."
"Do you mean," her husband said, aghast, "that if Eleanor saw fit to divorce him, you think he should marry this "Lily," so that he could get the child?"
She did shrink at that. "Well--" she hesitated.
He saw his advantage, and followed it: "He couldn"t get complete possession in any other way! Unless he were legally the father, the woman could, at any minute, carry off this--what did you say his name was?--Jacky?--to Kamchatka, if she wanted to! Or she might very well marry somebody else; that kind do. Then Maurice wouldn"t have any finger in the pie! No; really to get control of the child, he"d have to marry her, which, as you yourself admit, is impossible."
"I don"t admit it."
"_Mary!_ You must be reasonable; you know it would be shocking! So why not keep things as they are? Why run the risk of an explosion, by confessing to Eleanor?"
Mary Houghton pondered, silently.
"Kit," he said, "this is a "condition and not a theory"; the woman was--was common, you know. Maurice doesn"t owe her anything; he has paid the piper ten times over! Any further payment, like ruining his career by "making an honest woman" of her,--granting an explosion and then Eleanor"s divorcing him,--would be not only wrong, but ridiculous; which is worse! Maurice is an able fellow; I rather expect to see him go in for politics one of these days. Imagine this "Lily" at the head of his table! Or even imagine her as a fireside companion!"
"It would be terrible," she admitted--her voice trembled--"but Jacky"s life is more important than Maurice"s dinner table. And fireside happiness is less important than the meeting of an obligation! Henry, Maurice made a bad woman Jacky"s mother; he owes _her_ nothing. But do you mean to say that you don"t think he owes the child a decent father?"
"My darling," Henry Houghton said, tenderly, "you are really a little crazy. You are like your stars, you so "steadfastly pursue your shining," that you fail to see that, in this dark world of men, there has to be compromise. If this impossible situation should arise--which G.o.d forbid!--if the explosion should come, and Eleanor should leave him, of course Maurice wouldn"t marry the woman! I should consider him a candidate for an insane asylum if he thought of such a thing. He would simply do what he could for the boy, and that would be the end of it."
"Oh," she said, "don"t you see? It would be the _beginning_ of it!--The beginning of an evil influence in the world; a bad little boy, growing into a bad man--and his own father permitting it! But," she ended, with a sudden uplifted look, "the "situation," as you call it, won"t arise; Eleanor will prevent it! Eleanor will save Jacky."
CHAPTER XXVII
Walking home that night, with Mrs. Houghton"s "tell Eleanor" ringing in his ears, Maurice imagined a "confession," and he, too, used Mr.
Houghton"s words, ""there will be an explosion!" But I"ll gamble on it; I"ll tell her. I promised Mrs. Houghton I would," Then, very anxiously, he tried to decide how he should do it; "I must choose just the right moment," he thought.
When, three months later, the moment came, he hardly recognized it. He had been playing squash and had given his knee a nasty wrench; the ensuing synovitis meant an irritable fortnight of sitting at home near the telephone, with his leg up, fussing about office work. And when he was not fussing he would look at Eleanor and say to himself, "How can I tell her?" Then he would think of his boy developing into a little joyous liar--and thief! The five cents that purchased the jew"s-harp, instead of going into the missionary box, was intensely annoying to him.
"But the lying is the worst. I can stand anything but lying!" the poor lying father thought. It was then that Eleanor caught his eye, a half-scared, appraising, entreating eye--and stood still, looking down at him.
"Maurice, you want something? What is it?"
"Oh, Nelly!" he said; "I want--" And the thing tumbled from his lips in six words: "I want you to forgive me."
Eleanor put her hand to her throat; then she said, "I know, Maurice."
Silence tingled between them. Maurice said, "You _know_?"
She nodded. He was too stunned to ask how she knew; he only said, "I"ve been a hound."
Instantly, as though some locked and bolted door had been forced, her heart was open to him. "Maurice! I can bear it--if only you don"t lie to me!"
"I have lied," he said; "but I can"t go on lying any more! It"s been h.e.l.l. Of course you"ll never forgive me."
Instantly she was on her knees beside him, and her lips trembled against his cheek; but she was silent. She was agonizing, not for herself, but for him; _he had suffered_. And when that thought came, Love rose like a wave and swept jealousy away! It was impossible for her to speak. Over in his basket old Bingo growled.
"It was years ago," he said, very low; "I haven"t--had anything to do with her since; but--"
She said, gasping, "Do you ... love her still?"
"Good G.o.d! no; I never loved her."
"Then," she said, "I don"t mind."
His arms went about her, his head dropped on her shoulder. The little dog, unnoticed, barked angrily. For a few minutes neither of them could speak. To him, the unexpectedness of forgiveness was an absolute shock.
Eleanor, her cheek against his hair, wept. Happy tears! Then she whispered:
"There is ... a child?"
He nodded speechlessly.
"Maurice, I will love it--"
He was too overcome to speak. Here she was, this irritating, foolish, faithful woman, coming, with outstretched, forgiving arms--to rescue him from his long deceit!
"I have known it," she said, "for nearly two years."
"And you never spoke of it!"
"I couldn"t."
"I want to tell you everything, Eleanor. It was--that Dale woman."
She pressed very close to him: "I know."