"I"m afraid my womanliness is only skin deep," he returned, "but I wouldn"t give one honest man for all the women since Eve."
"Behold our far-famed gallantry!" exclaimed Sally.
Eugenia looked up, laughing. She had seized upon the child, and he saw her dark eyes above the solemn blue ones.
"I"m afraid you aren"t much of a politician, Governor Burr, if you tell the truth so roundly," she said. "The first lesson in politics is to lie and love it; the second lesson is to lie and live it. Oh, we"ve been in Congress, Dudley and I."
She moved restlessly, and her colour came and went like a flame that flickers and revives. He wondered vaguely at her nervous animation--she had not possessed a nerve in her girlhood--nor had he seen this shifting restlessness the other night. It did not occur to him that the meeting with himself was the cause--he knew her too well--but had his presence, or some greater thing, aroused within, her painful memories of the past?
As he walked down Franklin Street a little later he contrasted boldly the two Eugenias he had known--the Eugenia who was his and the Eugenia who was Dudley Webb"s. After fifteen years the rapture and the agony of his youth showed grotesque to his later vision; men did not love like that at forty years. He could see Eugenia now without the quiver of a pulse; he could sit across from her, knowing that she was the wife of another, and could eat his dinner. His pa.s.sion was dead, but where it had bloomed something else drew life and helped him to live. He had loved one woman and he loved her still, though with a love which in his youth he would have held to be as ashes beside his flame. There were months--even years--when he did not think of her; when he thought profoundly of other things; but in these years the thrill of no woman"s skirts had disturbed his calm. And again, there were winter evenings--evenings when he sat beside the hearth, and there came to him the thought of a home and children--of a woman"s presence and a child"s laugh. He could have loved the woman well had she been Eugenia, and he could have loved the child had it been hers; but beyond her went neither his vision nor his desire.
Now he swung on, large, forceful, a man young enough to feel, yet old enough to know. He entered his door quickly, as was his custom, impatient for his work and his fireside. On his desk lay the papers that had been brought over by his secretary, and he ran his fingers carelessly through them, gleaning indifferently the drift of their contents. As he did so a light flashed suddenly upon him, and the meaning of Eugenia"s restlessness was made clear, for upon his desk was an application for the pardon of Bernard Battle.
VII
The paper was still in his hand when the door behind him opened.
"A lady to see you, suh."
"A lady?" He turned impatiently to find himself facing Eugenia Webb. She had come so swiftly, with a silence so apparitional, that he fell back as from a blow between the eyes. For a moment he doubted her reality, and then the glow in her face, the mist on her furs, the fog of her breath, proclaimed that she had followed closely upon his footsteps. She must have been almost beside him when he hurried through the frost.
"You wish to speak to me?" he asked blankly, as he drew a chair to the hearth rug. "Will you not sit down?"
There was an unfriendly question in his eyes, and she met it boldly with the old dash of impulse.
"They told me that to-morrow would be too late," she said. "I went to Ben Galt"s to ask him to come to you in my place, but he is out of town.
I found you there instead. It is a matter of life and death to me, so I came."
She sat down in the chair he had drawn up for her, her m.u.f.f fell to the floor, and he placed it upon the desk where the pet.i.tion lay unrolled.
As he did so he saw the list of names that presented the appeal--judge, jury, prosecuting attorney, all were there.
She followed his gaze and moved slightly towards him. "It can"t be true that you--that you will not--" she said.
He was stirring the fire into flame, but as she broke off he turned squarely upon her.
"I have not looked into the case," he answered harshly.
He was standing beside his own hearthstone and he was at ease. There was no awkwardness about him now; his height endowed him with majesty, and in his inflexible face there was no suggestion of heaviness. He looked a man with a sublime self-confidence.
Her colour beat quickly back, warming her eyes.
"Oh, I am so glad," she said. "When you know all you will do as we ask you, because it is right and just. If he did not serve that two years"
sentence he has served six years of poverty and sickness. He is a wreck--we should not know him, they say--and he has not seen his wife and children for--"
He raised his hand and stopped her. A rising anger clouded his face, and, as she met his eyes, she slowly whitened.
"And you ask me--me of all men--to show mercy to Bernard Battle? Was there not a governor of Virginia before me?"
She shook her head.
"Oh, it was different then--he did not know, and we did not know, everything. For years we had not heard from him--"
"So my predecessor refused?" he asked.
She bowed her head. "But it is so different now--every one is with us."
He was looking her over grimly in an anger that seemed an emotional reversion to the past--as he felt himself reverting with all his strength to the original savage of the race. The hour for which he had starved sixteen years ago was unfolding for him at last. He gloated over it with a pa.s.sion that would sicken him when it was done.
"When you came to me," he said slowly, "did you remember--"
She had risen and was standing before him, her hands hidden in the fur upon her bosom. She was pleading now with startled eyes and cold lips--she who had turned from him when the first lie was spoken--she was pleading for the man who had blackened his friend"s honour that he might shield his own--she was pleading though she knew his baseness. The very n.o.bility of her posture--the n.o.bility that he had found outwardly in no other woman--hardened the man before her. The cold brow, the fervent mouth, the fearless eyes, the lines with which Time had chastened into womanliness her girlish figure--these had become the expression of an invincible regret. As he faced her the iron of his nature held him as in a vise, for life, which had made him a just man, had not made him a gentle one.
But her spirit had risen to match with his. "He wronged you once," she said; "let it pa.s.s--we have all been young and very ignorant; but we do not make our lives, thank G.o.d."
He looked at her in silence.
Then, as he stood there, the walls of the room pa.s.sed from before his eyes, and the gray light from the western window was falling upon the white road beyond the cedars. The vague pasture swept to the far-off horizon where hung the solitary star above the sunset. From the west a light wind blew, and into their faces dead leaves whirled from denuded trees far distant. But surest of all was this--he hated now as he hated then. "As for him--may G.o.d, in His mercy, d.a.m.n him," he had said.
"Because he wronged you do not wrong yourself," she spoke fearlessly, but she fell back with an upward movement of her hands. The man was before her as the memory had been for years--she knew the distorted features, the convulsed, closed mouth, the furrow that cleft the forehead like a scar. She saw the savage as she had seen it once before, and she braved it now as she had braved it then.
"You are hard--as hard as life," she said.
"Life is as we make it," he retorted. He lifted her m.u.f.f from the desk and she took it from him, turning towards the door. As he followed her into the hall he spoke slowly: "I shall read the papers that relate to the case," he said. "I shall do my duty. You were mistaken if you supposed that your coming to me would influence my decision. Personal appeal rarely avails and is often painful."
He unlatched the outer door and she pa.s.sed out and descended the steps.
When he returned to the fire he was shivering from the draught let in by the opening doors, and, lifting the fallen poker, he attacked almost fiercely the slumbering coals. The physical shock had not tempered the rage within; he felt it gnawing upon his entrails like a beast of prey.
Once only in his life had he found himself so powerless before a devouring pa.s.sion, and then, as now, he had glutted it with wounded love. Then, as now, he had hated with a terrible desire.
The application lay upon his desk, and he pushed it out of sight. He could not read it now--he wondered if the time would ever come when he could read it. The thought smote him with the lash of fear--the fear of himself. He who an hour ago had held his a.s.surance to be beyond a.s.sault was now watching for the death of his hate as he might have watched for the death of a wolf whose fangs he had felt.
Lifting his head, he could see through the curtained window the chill slopes of the square and the circular drive beneath the great bronze Washington. Beyond the distant gates rose the church spires of the city, suffused with the pink flush of sunset. The atmosphere glowed like a blush upon the perspective, which was shading through variations of violet remoteness. All was frozen save the winter sunset and the advancing twilight.
He turned from the window and faced the painting of the Confederate soldier. For a moment he regarded it blankly, then, pushing aside Eugenia"s chair he threw himself into one across from it. He was thinking of Bernard Battle, and he remembered suddenly that he must have hated him always--that he had hated him long ago in his childhood when the weak-faced boy had headed a school faction against him. True, Dudley Webb had incited the attempt at social ostracism, but he bore no resentment against Dudley--on the contrary, he was convinced that he liked him in spite of all--in spite, even, of Eugenia. With the inflexible fairness that he never lost, he knew that, with Eugenia, Dudley had not wronged him. It had been a fight in open field, and Dudley had won. He had even liked the vigour of his wooing, and some years later, when they had met, he had given the victor a hearty handshake. He distrusted him as a politician, but he liked him as a man.
And Bernard Battle. That was an honest hate, and he hugged it to him.
Before him still, so vivid that it seemed but yesterday, hovered the memory of that wild evening in the road, and the unforgotten sunset faced him as he hurried through the wood. In the acuteness of his remembered senses he could hear the dead leaves rustle in his pathway and could smell the vague scents of autumn drifting on the wind. Through all the years of public life and pa.s.sionate endeavour he had not lost one colour of the painted clouds or missed one note from the sharp tangle of autumn odours. To this day the going down of the sun in red and gold awoke within him the impulse of revenge, and the effluvium of rotting flowers or the tang of pines revived the duller ache of his senseless rage.
On that evening he had buried his youth with his youthful pa.s.sion. The hours between the twilight and the dawn had seen his emotions consumed and his softer side laid waste. Since then he had not played saint or martyr; he had gone his way among women, and he had liked some good ones and some bad ones--but the turn of Eugenia"s head or the trick of her voice had haunted him in one and all. He had followed the resemblance and had found the vacancy; he had been from first to last a man of one ideal. His nature had broadened, hardened, rung metallic to the senses; but it had not yielded to the shock of fresh emotions. He had loved one woman from her childhood up.
And again she rose before him as in that Indian summer when he knew her best--her beauty flaming against the autumn landscape, "clear as the sun, and terrible as an army with banners." He saw her red or pale, quivering or cold, always pa.s.sing from him in a splendour of colours that was like the clash of music.
That was sixteen years ago and it seemed but yesterday. He had lost her, and yet he had not been unhappy, for he had learned that it is not gain that makes happiness nor loss that kills it. Life had long since taught him the lesson all great men learn--that happiness is but one result of the adjustment of the individual needs to the Eternal Laws. A man had once said of him, "Burr must think a lot of life; he bears it so blamed well. He"s the happiest man I know," and Burr, overhearing him, had laughed aloud: