"What will you do now?" she asked when he had ended.
"I don"t know. Foley says he has me down and out--if you know what that means."
She nodded.
"I guess he"s about right. Not many people want to hire men who blow up buildings. I had thought I"d work at whatever I could till October--our next election"s then--and run against Foley again. But if he wins the strike he may be too strong to beat."
"But do you think he"ll win the strike?"
"He"ll be certain to win, though this explosion will injure us a lot.
He"s in for the strike for all he"s worth, and when he fights his best he"s hard to beat. The bosses can"t get enough iron-men to keep their jobs going. That"s already been proved. And in a little while all the other trades will catch up to where we left off; they"ll have to stop then, for they can"t do anything till our work"s been done. That"ll be equivalent to a general strike in all the building trades. We"ll be losing money, of course, but so"ll the bosses. The side"ll win that can hold out longest, and we"re fixed to hold out."
"According to all the talk I hear the victory is bound to go the opposite way."
"Well, you know some people then who"ll be mighty disappointed!" Tom returned.
She did not take him up, and silence fell between them. Thus far their talk had been of the facts of their daily lives, and though it had been unnatural in that it was far from the matter in both their hearts, yet by help of its moderate distraction they had managed to keep their feelings under control. But now, that distraction ended, Tom"s fever began to burn back upon him. He sat rigidly upright, his eyes avoiding her face, and the fever flamed higher and higher. Ruth gazed whitely at him, hands gripped in her lap, her faculties slipping from her, waiting she hardly knew what. Minutes pa.s.sed, and the silence between them grew intenser and more intense.
Amid her throbbing dizziness Ruth"s mind held steadily to just two thoughts: she was again certain of Tom"s love, and certain that his pride would never allow him to speak. These two thoughts pointed her the one thing there was for her to do; the one thing that must be done for both their sakes--and finally she forced herself to say: "It has been a long time since you have been to see me. I had thought you had quite forgotten me."
"I have thought of you often?" he managed to return, eyes still fixed above her, his self-control tottering.
"But in a friendly way?--No.--Or you would not have been silent through two months."
His eyes came down and fastened upon that n.o.ble face, and the words escaped by the guard he tried to keep at his lips: "I have never had a friend like you."
She waited.
"You are my best friend," the words continued.
She waited again, but he said nothing more.
She drove herself on. "And yet you could--stay away two months?--till I sent for you?"
He stood up, and walked to the window and stood as if looking through it--though the shade was drawn. She saw the fingers at his back writhing and knotting themselves. She waited, unwinking, hardly breathing, all her life in the tumultuous beating of her heart.
He turned about. His face was almost wild. "I stayed away--because I love you----" His last word was a gasp, and he did not have the strength to say the rest.
It had come! Her great strain over, she fairly collapsed in a swooning happiness. Her head drooped, and she swayed forward till her elbows were on her knees. For a moment she existed only in her great, vague, reeling joy. Then she heard a spasmodic gasp, and heard his hoa.r.s.e words add:
"And because--I am married."
Her head uprose slowly, and she looked at him, looked at him, with a deadly stupefaction in her eyes. A sickening minute pa.s.sed. "Married?"
she whispered.
"Yes--married."
A terrified pallor overspread her face, but the face held fixedly to his own. He stood rigid, looking at her. Her strange silence began to alarm him.
"What is it?" he cried.
Her face did not change, and seconds pa.s.sed. Suddenly a gasp, then a little groan, broke from her.
"Married!" she cried.
For a moment he was astounded; then he began dimly to understand. "What, you don"t mean----" he commenced, with dry lips. He moved, with uncertain steps, up before her. "You don"t--care for me?"
The head bowed a trifle.
"Oh, my G.o.d!" He half staggered backward into a chair, and his face fell into his hands. He saw, in an agonizing vision, what might have been his, and what never could be his; and he saw the wide desert of his future.
"You!" He heard her voice, and he looked up.
She was on her feet, and was standing directly in front of him. Her hands were clenched upon folds of her skirt. Her breath was coming rapidly. Her eyes were flashing.
"You! How could you come to see me as you have, and you married?" She spoke tremulously, fiercely, and at the last her voice broke into a sob.
Tears ran down her cheeks, but she did not heed them.
Tom"s face dropped back into his hands; he could not stand the awful accusation of that gaze. She was another victim of his tragedy, an innocent victim--and _his_ victim. He saw in a flash the whole ghastly part he, in ignorance, had played. A groan burst from his lips, and he writhed in his self-abas.e.m.e.nt.
"How could you do it?" he heard her fiercely demand again. "Oh, you!
you!" He heard her sweep across the little room, and then sweep back; and he knew she was standing before him, gazing down at him in anguish, anger, contempt.
He groaned again. "What can I say to you--what?"
There was silence. He could feel her eyes, unchanging, still on him.
Presently he began to speak into his hands, in a low, broken voice. "I can make no excuse. I don"t know that I can explain. But I never intended to do this. Never! Never!
"You know how we met, how we came to be together the first two or three times. Afterwards ... I said awhile ago that you were my best friend. I have had few real friends--none but you who sympathized with me, who seemed to understand me. Well, afterwards I came because--I never stopped to think why I came. I guess because you understood, and I liked you. And so I came. As a man might come to see a good man friend. And I never once thought I was doing wrong. And I never thought of my wife--that is, you understand, that she made it wrong for me to see you.
I never thought----If you believe in me at all, you must believe this.
You must! And then--one day--I saw you with another man, and I knew I loved you. I awoke. I saw what I ought to do. I tried to do it--but it was very hard--and I came to see you again--the last time. I said once more I would not see you again. It was still hard, very hard--but I did not. And then--your letter--came----"
His words dwindled away. Then, after a moment, he said very humbly: "Perhaps I don"t just understand how to be a gentleman."
Again silence. Presently he felt a light touch on his shoulder. He raised his eyes. She was still gazing at him, her face very white, but no anger in it.
"I understand," she said.
He rose--weak. "I can"t ask that you forgive me."
"No. Not now."
"Of course. I have meant to you only grief--pain. And can mean only that to you, always."
She did not deny his words.
"Of course," he agreed. Then he stood, without words, unmoving.
"You had better go," she said at length.