"Yes, Sir; and as much as will acquire all I myself owe to others."
"What is the reason, then, that they don"t pay you?"
"The want of knowing, Sir, the value of a little to the self-supported and distressed! The want, in short, of consideration."
"Bad! bad!--that i"n"t right!" cried he: "I"ll put an end to it, however;" rising hastily: "I"ll make my cousin go to every one of them.
They must be taught what they should do. They mean very well; but that"s of no use if they don"t act well too. And if my cousin don"t go to them, I"ll go myself."
He then quitted the house, in the greatest haste; leaving behind him his parcel and his stick, which were not perceived till his departure.
Ellis knew not whether to lament or to rejoice at this promised interference; but, wholly overset by these new and unexpected obstacles to providing for her immediate subsistence, she had no resource but to await with patience the effect of his efforts.
The following day, while anxiously expecting him, she was surprised by another visit from Miss Arbe; who, with an air as sprightly as her own was dejected, cried, "Well, I hope this new plan will make an end of all our difficulties. You have had time enough, now, to consider of it; for I have such a little minute always to stay, that I can never pretend to discuss an hundred _pros_ and _cons_. Though, indeed, I flatter myself, "tis impossible your scruples should still hold out. But where in the world have you hid your harp? I have been peeping about for it ever since I came in. And my music? Have you looked it over? Is it not delightful? I long to play it with you. I tried it twenty times by myself, but I could not manage it. But every thing"s so much easier when one tries it together, that I dare say we shall conquer all those horrid hard pa.s.sages at once. But where"s your harp?--Tell me, however, first, what you decide about our plan; for when once we begin playing, there"s no thinking of any thing else."
"If it be the concert you mean, Madam, I can only repeat my thanks; and that I can never, except to those ladies who are, or who would venture to become my pupils, consent to be a performer."
"What a thousand pities, my dear Miss Ellis, to throw away your charming talents, through that terrible diffidence! However, I can"t give you up so easily. I must positively bring you round;--only if we stop now, we shan"t have a moment for those horrid hard pa.s.sages. So where"s my music? And where have you conjured your harp?"
The music, she answered, she had neither seen nor heard of; the harp, useless since no longer necessary, she had sent home.
The smiles and sprightly airs of Miss Arbe now instantly vanished, and were succeeded by undisguised displeasure. To send back, without consulting her, an instrument that could never have been obtained but through her recommendation, she called an action the most extraordinary: she was too much hurried, however, to enter into any discussion; and must drive home immediately, to enquire what that eternal blunderer, her cousin Giles, had done, not only with her note, but with her music; which was of so much consequence, that his whole life could not make her amends, if it had met with any accident.
Ellis had been so far from purporting to cast herself into any dependence upon Miss Arbe, that, upon this unjust resentment, she suffered her to run down stairs, without offering any apology.
Conceiving, however, that the parcel, left by Mr Giles, might possibly contain the music in question, she followed her with it into the shop; where she had the mortification of hearing her say, "Miss Matson, as to your debts, you must judge for yourself. I can"t pretend to be responsible for the credit of every body that solicits my patronage."
With the silent displeasure of contempt, Ellis put the parcel into her hands, and retreated.
"Why how"s this? here is my note unopened," cried Miss Arbe.
Ellis, returning, said that she had not seen any note.
Miss Arbe declared that she had placed it, herself, within the pack-thread that was tied round the music; but it appeared that Mr Giles had squeezed it under the brown paper cover, whence it had not been visible.
"And I wrote it," cried Miss Arbe, "purposely that you might be ready with your answer; and to beg that you would not fail to study the pa.s.sages I marked with a pencil, that we might know how to finger them when we met. However, I shall certainly never trust that monstrous tiresome creature with another commission."
She then, accompanied by Miss Bydel, who now entered the shop, and invited herself to be of the party, followed Ellis up stairs, to read the note, and talk the subject over.
From this note, Ellis discovered that the plan was entirely altered: the professor was wholly omitted, and she was placed herself at the head of a new enterprize. It was to be conducted under the immediate and avowed patronage of Miss Arbe, upon a scheme of that lady"s own suggestion and arrangement, which had long been projecting.
A subscription was to be raised amongst all the ladies of any fashion, or consequence, in or near Brighthelmstone, who, whether as mothers, aunts, guardians, or friends, had the care of any young ladies possessing musical talents. Lady Kendover had consented that her name should be placed at the head of the list, as soon as any other lady, of sufficient distinction to be named immediately after her ladyship, should come forward. The concert was to be held, alternately, at the houses of the princ.i.p.al subscribers, whose apartments, and inclinations, should best be suited to the purpose. The young ladies were to perform, by rotation or selection, according as the lady directress of the night, aided by Miss Arbe"s counsel, should settle. A small band was to be engaged, that the concert might be opened with the dignity of an overture; that the concertos might be accompanied; and that the whole might conclude with the _eclat_ of a full piece. Ellis, for whose advancement, and in whose name, the money was to be raised, that was to pay herself, the other artists, and all the concomitant expences, was to play upon the harp, and to sing an air, in the course of every act.
This plan was far less painful to her feelings than that which had preceded it, since the concert was to be held in private houses, and young ladies of fashion were themselves to be performers; but, though her thanks were grateful and sincere, her determination was immoveable.
"It is not," she said, "believe me, Madam, from false notions of pride, that, because I, alone, am to be paid, I decline so honourable a method of extricating myself from my present difficulties: my pride, on the contrary, urges me to every exertion that may lead to self-dependence: but who is permitted to act by the sole guidance of their own perceptions and notions? who is so free,--I might better, perhaps, say so desolate,--as to consider themselves clear of all responsibility to the opinions of others?"
"Of others? Why do you belong, then, really, to any body, Mrs Ellis?"
cried Miss Bydel.
"They must be pretty extraordinary people," said Miss Arbe, contemptuously dropping her eyes, "if they can disapprove a scheme that will shew your talents to so much advantage; besides bringing you into the notice of so many people of distinction." Then, rising, she would forbear, she said, to trouble her any more; inform Lady Kendover of her refusal; and let Lady Aurora know that her farther interference would be unacceptable.
At the name of Lady Aurora, Ellis entreated some explanation; but Miss Arbe, without deigning to make any, hurried to her carriage.
Miss Bydel, pouring forth a volley of interrogatories upon the intentions of Ellis, her expectations, and her means, would have remained; but she reaped so little satisfaction that, tired, at length, herself, she retreated; though not till she had fully caught the attention of Ellis, by the following words: "I have been very ready, Mrs Ellis, to serve you in your distress; but I hope you won"t forget that I always intended to be disbursed by your music teaching: so, if you don"t do that any more, I can"t see why you won"t do this; that you may pay me."
She then took leave.
Ellis was far more grieved than offended by this reprimand, which, however gross, did not seem unjust. To judge me, she cried, by my present appearance, my resisting this offer must be attributed to impertinence, ingrat.i.tude, or folly. And how can I expect to be judged but by what is seen, what is known? Who is willing to be so generous, who is capable to be so n.o.ble, as to believe, or even to conceive, that lonely distress, like mine, may call for respect and forbearance, as well as for pity and a.s.sistance?--Oh Lady Aurora!--sole charm, sole softener of my sufferings!--Oh liberal, high-minded Harleigh!--why are there so few to resemble you? And why must your virtues and your kindness, for me, be null? Why am I doomed to seek--so hardly--the support that flies me,--yet to fly the consolation that offers?
CHAPTER x.x.xI
The sole hope of Ellis for extrication from these difficulties hung now upon Mr Giles Arbe; whom she had begun to apprehend had forgotten his promise, when, to her great relief, he appeared.
Nothing could be less exhilarating than his air and manner. He looked vexed and disconcerted; sat down without answering the civilities of her reception; sucked, for some minutes, the head of his stick; and then began talking to himself; from time to time e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.i.n.g. little broken phrases aloud, such as: "It i"n"t right!--It can"t be right!--I wish they would not do such things.--Fair young creatures, too, some of them--Fie! fie!--They"ve no thought;--that"s it!--they"ve no thought.--Mighty good hearts,--and very pretty faces, too, some of "em;--but sad little empty heads,--except for their own pleasures;--no want of flappers[1] there!--Fie! fie!"
[Footnote 1: Swift"s Laputa.]
Then letting fall two guineas and a half upon the table, "There, my dear," he cried, in a tone of chagrin, "there"s all I have been able to gather amongst all your scholars put together! What they do with their money I don"t know; but they are all very poor, they tell me: except Lady Arramede; and she"s so rich, that she can"t possibly attend, she says, to such pitiful claims: though I said to her, If the sum, Ma"am, is too small for your ladyship"s notice, the best way to shew your magnificence, is to make it greater; which will also be very acceptable to this young person. But she did not mind me. She only said that you might apply to her steward at Christmas, which was the time, she believed, when he settled her affairs; but as to herself, she never meddled with such insignificant matters."
"Christmas?" repeated Ellis; "and "tis now but the beginning of April!"
"I went next to the Miss Crawleys; but they only fell a laughing. All I could say, and all I could do, and all I could represent, only set "em a laughing. I never knew what at. Nor they, neither. But they did not laugh the less for that. One of them stretched her mouth so wide, that I was afraid she would have cut her cheeks through to her ears: and t"other frightened me still more, for she giggled herself so black in the face, that I thought she must have expired in a fit. And not one among us knew what it was all for! But the more I stared at them, the louder they laughed. They never stopt till they were so weak that they could not stand; and then they held their sides, and were quiet enough; till I happened to ask them, if they had done? and that set them off again. They are merry little souls; not very heavy, I believe, in the head: I don"t suppose they have a thought above once in a twelve-month."
He had then applied to their brother. Sir Marmaduke professed himself extremely shocked, at the circ.u.mstances which had prevented his sisters from profiting longer by the instructions of so fine a virtuosa as The Ellis; but he hoped that something might yet be adjusted for the future, as he was utterly ashamed to offer such a trifle as this account, to so accomplished a young person as The Ellis. "I told him, then," continued Mr Giles, "that it was no trifle to you, for you were so very poor that you could not pay for your clothes; but I could never obtain any other answer from him, than that he had too much consideration for you, to think of offering you a sum so unworthy your merit."
"This, indeed, is rather singular," cried Ellis, half smiling, "that the smallness of my demands should make one person decline paying me from contempt, and another, from respect!"
Next, he related, he went to Miss Brinville, who, with great displeasure, denied, at first, having ever been a scholar of Miss Ellis.
The young woman had been with her, indeed, she said, to chose her a harp, or tune it, or something of that sort; but she had found her so entirely unequal to giving any lessons; and the professor, her present master, had so completely convinced her of the poor young woman"s ignorance, that it was quite ridiculous to suppose having seen any body, once or twice, for an odd hour or two, was sufficient for being considered as their scholar. "Upon this," continued Mr Giles, "I told her that if she were not amongst your pupils, she must be amongst your friends; and, in that case, I doubted not, from your great good nature, you would dispense with her payment."
"Well, Sir?" cried Ellis laughing, "and what said my friend?"
"Good me! all was changed in a minute! she had never, she said, had such a thought as receiving you but as her music-mistress. So then, again, I demanded the money; for if she is not your friend, said I, you can"t expect her to teach you for nothing. But she told me she was just quitting Brighthelmstone, and could not pay you till she got to London.
I really can"t find out what makes them all so poor; but they are prodigiously out of cash. Those operas and gauzes, I believe, ruin them.
They dress themselves so prettily, and go to hear those tunes so often, that they have not a shilling left for other expences. It i"n"t right!
It can"t be right! And so I told her. I gave her some advice. "There"s a great concert to-night, Miss Brinville," said I; "if you take my counsel, you won"t go to it; nor to ever another for a week or two to come: and then you can pay this young lady what you owe her, without putting yourself to any difficulty." But she made me no reply. She only eyed me askance, as if she would have liked prodigiously to order me out of the room. I thought I never saw her nose look so thick! I never took so much notice of it before: but it spoils her beauty sadly. After this, I went to Miss Sycamore, and I surprized her playing upon her harp.
"This is lucky enough," said I, "Miss Sycamore! I find you in the act of reaping advantage from the very person who wants to reap advantage from you." So then I demanded your money. But she told me that she had none to spare, and that she could not pay you yet. "Why then," said I, "Miss Sycamore, you must give her back her instructions!" I thought this would have piqued her; but she won"t easily be put out of her way. So she threw her arms round her harp, with the prettiest languishment you can imagine, making herself look just like a picture; and then she played me a whole set of airs and graces; quite ravishing, I protest. And when she had done, "There!" she cried, "there, Mr Arbe, those were her instructions: carry them back!"--I declare I don"t know how I could be angry with her, she did it with such an elegant toss! But it was not right; it could not be right; so I was angry enough, after the first moment. "Pray, Miss Sycamore," said I, "what have you done for this young lady, to expect that she should do all this for you? Have you got her any place?--Have you procured her any emolument?--Have you given her any pleasure?--Have you done her any honour?"--She had not a word to answer: so she twirled her fingers upon her harp, and sung and played till I was almost ravished again. But I would not give way; so I said, "Miss Sycamore, if she owes you neither place, nor profit; neither pleasure, nor honour, I should be glad to know upon what pretence you lay claim to her Time, her Trouble, her Talents, and her Patience?""
"O could such a question," cried Ellis, "be put more at large for all the hara.s.sed industrious, to all the unfeeling indolent!--what reflections might it not excite! what injustice might it not obviate!"
"Why I"ll say it any where, my dear, if you think it will do any good. I always give my opinion; for I never see what a man has one for, if he must not utter it. However, I could make nothing of Miss Sycamore. Those young ladies who play and sing in public, at those private rooms, of four or five hundred people, have their poor little heads so taken up, between the compliments of the company when they are in the world, and their own when they are by themselves, that there i"n"t a moment left them for a little thought."
His next visit was to Lady Kendover; by whom he was received, he said, with such politeness, and by whom Ellis was mentioned with so much consideration, that he thought he should quite oblige her ladyship, by giving her an opportunity to serve a young person of whom she spoke with so much civility. "Upon which," continued he, "I told her about your debts, and how much you would thank her to be as quick as possible in helping you to pay them. But then she put on quite a new face. She was surprised, she said, that you should begin your new career by running into debt; and much more at my supposing that she should sanctify such imprudence, by her name and encouragement. Still, however, she talked about her concern, and her admiration, in such elegant sentences, that, thinking she was coming round, "Madam," said I, "as your ladyship honours this young lady with so generous a regard, I hold it but my duty to tell you how you may shew it the most to her benefit. Send for all her creditors, and let them know your ladyship"s good opinion of her; and then, I don"t doubt, they"ll wait her own convenience for being paid." Well! All at once her face turned of a deep brick red, as if I had offered her an affront in only naming such a thing! So then I grew very angry indeed; for, as she is neither young nor pretty, there is no one thing to excuse her. If she had been young, one might have hoped she would mend; and if she were pretty, one might suppose she was only thinking of her looking-gla.s.s. But her ladyship is plain enough, as well as old; so I felt no scruple to reprimand her. But I gained no ground; for just as I was beginning to cry down the uselessness of that complimentary language, if it meant nothing; she said that she was very sorry to have the honour to leave me, but that she must go and dress for dinner. But then, just as I was coming away, and upon the point of being in a pa.s.sion, I was stopt by little Lady Barbara; that sweet fine child; who asked me a hundred kind questions about you, without paying any regard to the winking or blinking of her aunt Kendover. She is a mighty agreeable little soul. I have taken a great kindness to her. She let out all their secrets to me; and I should like nothing better than to tell them all to you; only Lady Kendover charged me to hold my tongue. The ladies are very fond of giving that recommendation to us men! I don"t know (smiling) whether they are as fond of giving the example! In particular, she enjoined me not to mention Lady Aurora"s being your banker."
"Lady Aurora?"
"Yes, because my cousin would be quite affronted; for she arranges things, Lady Kendover says, so extremely well, that she deserves to have her own way. She likes to have it too, I believe, very well."