He, too, felt merged with his own background. In his soul he knew the trouble and tumult of the Wave--gathering for a surging rise to follow. . . .
For some minutes the sense of his own ident.i.ty pa.s.sed from him, and he wondered who he was. "Who am I?" would have been a quite natural question. "Let me see; I"m Kelverdon, Tom Kelverdon." Of course! Yet he felt that he was another person too. He lost his grip upon his normal modern self a moment, lost hold of the steady, confident personality that was familiar. . . . The voice of Mohammed broke the singular spell.
"Shicago, vair" good donkey. Yis, bes" donkey in Luxor--" and Tom remembered that he had a ride of an hour or so before he could reach the Temple of Deir El-Bahri where his friends were bivouacking. He tipped Mohammed as he landed, mounted "Chicago," and started off impatiently, then ran against little Mohammed coming back for a forgotten--kettle!
He laughed. Every third Arab seemed called Mohammed. But he learned exactly where the party was. He sent his own donkey-boy home, and rode on alone across the moon-lit plain.
The wonder of the exquisite night took hold of him, searching his heart beyond all power of language--the strange Egyptian beauty. The ancient wilderness, so calm beneath the stars; the mournful hills that leaped to touch the smoking moon; the perfumed air, the deep old river--each, and all together, exhaled their innermost, essential magic. Over every separate boulder spilt the flood of silver. There were troops of shadows.
Among these shadows, beyond the boulders, Isis herself, it seemed, went by with audible footfall on the sand, secretly guiding his advance; Horus, dignified and solemn, with hawk-wings hovering, and fierce, deathless eyes--Horus, too, watched him lest he stumble. . . .
On all sides he seemed aware of the powerful Egyptian G.o.ds, their protective help, their familiar guidance. The deeps within him opened.
He had done this thing before. . . . Even the little details brought the same lost message back to him, as the hoofs of his donkey shuffled through the sand or struck a loose stone aside with metallic clatter. He heard the lizards whistling. . . .
There were other vaster emblems too, quite close. To the south, a little, the shoulders of the Colossi domed awfully above the flat expanse, and soon he pa.s.sed the Ramesseum, the moon just entering the stupendous aisles. He saw the silvery shafts beneath the huge square pylons.
On all sides lay the welter of prodigious ruins, steeped in a power and beauty that seemed borrowed from the scale of the immeasurable heavens.
Egypt laid a great hand upon him, her cold wind brushed his cheeks.
He was aware of awfulness, of splendour, of all the immensities.
He was in Eternity; life was continuous throughout the ages; there was no death. . . .
He felt huge wings, and a hawk, disturbed by his pa.s.sing, flapped silently away to another broken pillar just beyond. He seemed swept forward, the plaything of greater forces than he knew. There was no question of direction, of resistance: the Wave rushed on and he rushed with it.
His normal simplicity disappeared in a complexity that bewildered him.
Very clear, however, was one thing--courage; that courage due to abandonment of self. He would face whatever came. He needed it.
It was inevitable. Yes--this time he would face it without shuffling or disaster. . . . For he recognised disaster--and was aware of blood. . . .
Questions asked themselves in long, long whispers, but found no answers.
They emerged from that mothering background and returned into it again. . . . Sometimes he rode alone, but sometimes Lettice rode beside him: Tony joined them. . . . He felt them driven forward, all three together, obedient to the lift of the same rising wave, urged onwards towards a climax that was lost to sight, and yet familiar. He knew both joy and shrinking, a delicious welcome that it was going to happen, yet a dread of searing pain involved. A great fact lay everywhere about him in the night, but a fact he could not seize completely. All his faculties settled on it, but in vain--they settled on a fragment, while the rest lay free, beyond his reach. Pain, which was a pain at nothing, filled his heart; joy, which was joy without a reason, sang in him. The Wave rose higher, higher . . . the breath came with difficulty . . . the wind was icy . . . there was choking in his throat. . . .
He noticed the same high excitement in him he had experienced a few nights ago beneath the Karnak pylons--it ended later, he remembered, in the menace of an unutterable loneliness. This excitement was wild with an irresponsible hilarity that had no justification. He felt _exalte_.
The wave, he swinging in the crest of it, was going to break, and he knew the awful thrill upon him before the dizzy, smothering plunge.
The complex of emotions made clear thought impossible. To put two and two together was beyond him. He felt the power that bore him along immensely greater than himself. And one of the smaller, self-asking questions issued from it: "Was this what _she_ felt? Was Tony also feeling this?
Were all three of them being swept along towards an inevitable climax?"
. . . This singular notion that none of them could help themselves pa.s.sed into him. . . .
And then he realised from the slower pace of the animal beneath him that the path was going uphill. He collected his thoughts and looked about him. The forbidding cliffs that guard the grim Valley of the Kings, the haunted Theban hills, stood up pale yellow against the stars. The big moon, no longer smoking in the earthbound haze, had risen into the clear dominion of the upper sky. And he saw the terraces and columns of the Deir El-Bahri Temple facing him at the level of his eyes.
Nothing bore clearer testimony to the half-unconscious method by which the drama developed itself, to the deliberate yet uncalculated att.i.tude of the actors towards some inevitable fulfilment, than the little scene which Tom"s surprise arrival then discovered. According to the mood of the beholder it could mean much or little, everything or nothing. It was so nicely contrived between concealment and disclosure, and, like much else that happened, seemed balanced exquisitely, if painfully, between guilt and innocence. The point of view of the onlooker could alone decide.
At the same time it provided a perfect frame for another picture that later took the stage. The stage seemed set for it exactly. The later picture broke in and used it too. That is to say, two separate pictures, distinct yet interfused, occupied the stage at once.
For Tom, dismounting, and leaving his animal with the donkey-boys some hundred yards away, approached stealthily over the sand and came upon the picnic group before he knew it. He watched them a moment before he announced himself. The scene was some feet below him. He looked down.
Two minutes sooner, he might conceivably have found the party quite differently grouped. Instead, however, his moment of arrival was exactly timed as though to witness a scene set cleverly by the invisible Stage Manager to frame two similar and yet different incidents.
Tom leaned against a broken column, staring.
Young de Lorne and Lady Sybil, he saw, were carefully admiring the moonlight on the yellow cliffs. Miss de Lorne stooped busily over rugs and basket packages. Her back was turned to Tony and Madame Jaretzka, who were intimately engaged, their faces very close together, in the half-prosaic, half-poetic act of blowing up a gipsy fire of scanty sticks and crumpled paper. The entire picture seemed arranged as though intended to convey a "situation." And to Tom a situation most certainly was conveyed successfully, though a situation of which the two chief actors-- who shall say otherwise?--were possibly unconscious. For in that first moment as he leaned against the column, gazing fixedly, the smoking sticks between them burst into a flare of sudden flame, setting the two faces in a frame of bright red light, and Tom, gazing upon them from a distance of perhaps some twenty yards saw them clearly, yet somehow did not--recognise them. Another picture thrust itself between: he watched a scene that lay deep below him. Through the soft blaze of that Egyptian moonlight, across the silence of that pale Egyptian desert, beneath those old Egyptian stars, there stole upon him some magic which is deathless, though its outer covenants have vanished from the world. . . . Down, down he sank into the forgotten scenes whence it arose. Smothered in sand, it seemed, he heard the centuries roar past him. . . .
He saw two other persons kneeling above that fire on the desert floor, two persons familiar to him, yet whom he could not wholly recognise. In that amazing second, while his heart stopped beating, it seemed as if thought in anguish cried aloud: "So, there you are! I have the proof!" while yet all verification of the tragic "you" remained just out of reach and undisclosed.
He did not recognise two persons whom he knew, while yet some portion of him keenly, fiercely searching, dived back into the limbo of unremembered time. . . . A thin blue smoke rose before his face, and to his nostrils stole a delicate perfume as of ambra. It was a picnic fire no longer.
It was an Eastern woman he saw lean forward across the gleam of a golden brazier and yield a kiss to the lips of a man who claimed it pa.s.sionately.
He saw her small hands folded and clinging about his neck. The face of the man he could not see, the head and shoulders being turned away, but hers he saw clearly--the dark, l.u.s.trous eyes that shone between half-closed eyelids. They were highly placed in life, these two, for their aspect as their garments told it; the man, indeed, had gold about him somewhere and the woman, in her mien, wore royalty. Yet, though he but saw their hands and heads alone, he knew instinctively that, if not regal, they were semi-regal, and set beyond his reach in power natural to them both. They were high-born, the favoured of the world. Inferiority was his who watched them, the helpless inferiority of subordinate position. That, too, he knew . . . for a gasp of terror, though quickly smothered terror, rose vividly behind an anger that could gladly--kill.
There was a flash of fiery and intolerable pain within him. . . .
The next second he saw merely--Lettice!--blowing the smoke from her face and eyes, with an impatient little gesture of both hands, while in front of her knelt Tony--fanning a reluctant fire of sticks and paper with his old felt hat.
He had been gazing at a coloured bubble, the bubble had burst into air and vanished, the entire mood and picture vanished with it--so swiftly, so instantaneously, moreover, that Tom was ready to deny the entire experience.
Indeed, he did deny it. He refused to credit it. It had been, surely, a feeling rather than a sight. But the feeling having utterly vanished, he discredited the sight as well. The fiery pain had vanished too. He found himself watching the semi-comical picture of de Lorne and Lady Sybil flirting in dumb action, and Tony and Lettice trying to make a fire without the instinct or ability to succeed. And, incontinently, he burst out laughing audibly.
Yet, apparently, his laughter was not heard; he had made no actual sound.
There was, instead, a little scream, a sudden movement, a scurrying of feet among the sand and stones, and Lettice and Tony rose upon one single impulse, as once before he had seen them rise in Karnak weeks ago.
They stood up like one person. They looked about them into the surrounding shadows, disturbed, afflicted, yet as though they were not certain they had heard . . . and then, abruptly, the figure of Tony went out . . . it disappeared. How, precisely, was not clear, but it was gone into the darkness. . . .
And another picture--or another aspect of the first--dropped into place.
There was an outline of a shadowy tent. The flap was stirring lightly, as though behind it some one hid--and watched. He could not tell. A deep confusion, as of two pictures interfused, was in him. For somehow he transferred his own self--was it physical desire? was it spiritual yearning? was it love?--projected his own self into the figure that had kissed her, taking her own pa.s.sionate kiss in return. He actually experienced it. He did this thing. He had done it--once before!
Knowing himself beside her, he both did it and saw himself doing it.
He was both actor and onlooker. . . .
There poured back upon him then, sweet and poignant, his love of an Egyptian woman, the fragrance of remembered tresses, the perfume of fair limbs that clung and of arms that lingered round his neck--yet that in the last moment slipped from his full possession. He was on his knees before her; he gazed up into her ardent eyes, set in a glowing face above his own; the face bent lower; he raised two slender hands, the fingers henna-stained, and pressed them to his lips. He felt their silken texture, the fragile pressure, her breath upon his face--yet all sharply withdrawn again before he captured them completely. There was the odour of long-forgotten unguents, sweet with a tang that sharpened them towards desire in days that knew a fiercer sunlight. . . . His brain went reeling. The effort to keep one picture separate from the other broke them both. He could not disentangle, could not distinguish.
They intermingled. He was both the figure hidden behind the tent and the figure who held the woman in his arms. What his heart desired became, it seemed, that which happened. . . .
And then the flap of the tent flung open, and out rushed a violent, leaping outline--the figure of a man. Another--it seemed himself--rushed to meet him. There was a gleam, a long deep cry. . . . A woman, with arms outstretched, knelt close beside the struggling figures on the sand.
He saw two huge, dark, muscular hands about a bent and yielding neck, blood oozing thickly between the gripping fingers, staining them . . .
then sudden darkness that blacked out the entire scene, and a choking effort to find breath. . . . But it was his own breath that failed, choked as by blood and fire that broke into his own throat. . . .
Smothered in sand, the centuries roared past him, died away into the distance, sank back into the interminable desert. . . . He found his voice this time. He shouted.
He saw again--Lettice, blowing the smoke from her face and eyes with an impatient little gesture of both hands, while Tony knelt in front of her and fanned a reluctant fire with his old felt hat. The picture--the second picture--had been instantaneous. It had not lasted a fraction of a second even.
He shouted. And this time his voice was audible. Lettice and Tony stood up, as though a single person rose. Both turned in the direction of the sound. Then Tony moved off quickly. Tom"s vision had interpenetrated this very action even while it was actually taking place--the first time.
"Why--I do declare--if it isn"t--Tom!" he heard in a startled woman"s voice.
He came down towards her slowly. Something of the "pictures" still swam in between what was next said and done. It seemed in the atmosphere, pervading the three of them. But it was weakening, pa.s.sing away quickly.
For one moment, however, before it pa.s.sed, it became overpowering again.
"But, Tom--is this a joke, or what? You frightened me,"--she gave a horrid gasp--"nearly to death! You"ve come back----!"
"It"s a surprise," he cried, trying to laugh, though his lips were dry and refused the effort. "I have surprised you. I"ve come back!"
He heard the gasp prolonged. Breathing seemed difficult. Some deep distress was in her. Yet, in place of pity, exultation caught him oddly.
The next instant he felt suddenly afraid. There was confusion in his soul. For it was _he and she_, it seemed, who had been "surprised and caught." And her voice called shrilly:
"Tony! Tony . . .!"
There was amazement in the sound of it--terror, relief, and pa.s.sion too.
The thin note of fear and anguish broke through the natural call.
Then, as Tony came running up, a few sticks in his big hands--she screamed, yet with failing breath: