"No, I know," she answered, pressing his arm. "It wouldn"t make any difference to you. You are too great. And it was always a little bit against my will. But the breaking with him was terrible--terrible. He was so angry. I almost thought he would have killed me."
"My dear," Blake said, "you shouldn"t dwell on these things. They are better forgotten."
"I know, I know," she answered. "But they are just the very hardest of all things to forget. You must help me, Blake. Will you?"
"I will help you," he answered steadily.
And the resolution with which he spoke was an unspeakable comfort to her. Once more there darted across her mind the wonder at her father"s choice for her. How was it--how was it--that he had pa.s.sed over this man and chosen Nick?
Blake"s own explanation of the mystery seemed to her suddenly weak and inadequate. She simply could not bring herself to believe that in a supreme moment he could be found wanting. It was unthinkable that the giant frame and mighty sinews could belong to a personality that was lacking in a corresponding greatness.
So she clung to her illusion, finding comfort therein, wholly blind to those failings in her protector which to the woman who had loved him from her earliest girlhood were as obvious and well-nigh as precious as his virtues.
CHAPTER XXIX
OLD FRIENDS MEET
"I must be getting back," said Nick.
He was sprawling at ease on the sofa in Jim"s study, blinking comfortably at the ceiling, as he made this remark.
Jim himself had just entered the room. He drew up a chair to Nick"s side.
"You will be doing nothing of the sort to-night," he returned, with a certain grimness. "The motor has gone back to Redlands for your things. I saw to that an hour ago."
"The deuce you did!" said Nick. He turned slightly to send a shifting glance over his brother. "That was very officious of you, Jimmy," he remarked.
"Very likely," conceded the doctor. "I have to be officious occasionally. And if you think that I mean to let you out of my sight in your present state of health, you make a big mistake. No, lie still, I tell you! You"re like a monkey on wires. Lie still! Do you hear me, Nick?"
Nick"s feet were already on the ground, but he did not rise. He sat motionless, as if weighing some matter in his mind.
"I can"t stay with you, Jimmy," he said at last. "I"ll spend to-night of course with all the pleasure in the world. But I"m going back to Redlands to-morrow. I have a fancy for sleeping in my own crib just now. Come over and see me as often as you feel inclined, the oftener the better. And if you care to bring your science to bear upon all that is left of this infernally troublesome member of mine, I shall be charmed to let you. You may vivisect me to your heart"s content. But don"t ask me to be an in-patient, for it can"t be done. There are reasons."
Jim frowned at him. "Do you know what will happen if you don"t take care of yourself?" he said brusquely. "You"ll die."
Nick burst into a laugh, and lay back on the cushions. "I was driven out of India by that threat," he said. "It"s getting a bit stale.
You needn"t be afraid. I"m not going to die at present. I"ll take reasonable precautions to prevent it. But I won"t stay here, that"s flat. I tell you, man, I can"t."
He glanced again at Jim, and, finding the latter closely watching him, abruptly shut his eyes.
"I"m going to open Redlands," he said, "and I will have Olga to come and keep house for me. It"ll be good practice for her. I"ll take her back with me to-morrow, if you have no objection."
"Fine mischief you"ll get up to, the pair of you," grumbled Jim.
"Very likely," said Nick cheerily. "But we shan"t come to any harm, either of us. To begin with, I shall make her wait on me, hand and foot. She"ll like that, and so shall I."
"Yes, you"ll spoil her thoroughly." said Jim. "And I shall have the pleasure of breaking her in afterwards."
Nick laughed again. "What an old tyrant you are! But you needn"t be afraid of that. I"ll make her do as she"s told. I"m particularly good at that. Ask Muriel Roscoe."
Jim"s frown deepened. "You know of that girl"s engagement to Grange, I suppose?"
Nick did not trouble to open his eyes. "Oh, rather! She took care that I should. I gave her my blessing."
"Well, I don"t like it," said Jim plainly.
"What"s the matter with him?" questioned Nick.
"Nothing that I know of. But she isn"t in love with him."
Nick"s eyelids parted a little, showing a glint between. "You funny old a.s.s!" he murmured affectionately.
Jim leaned forward and looked at him hard.
"Quite so," said Nick in answer, closing his eyes again. "But you don"t by any chance imagine she"s in love with me, do you? You know how a woman looks at a worm she has chopped in half by mistake? That"s how Muriel Roscoe looked at me to-day when she expressed her regret for my mishap."
"She wouldn"t do that for nothing," observed Jim, with a hint of sternness.
"She wouldn"t," Nick conceded placidly.
"Then why the devil did you ever give her reason?" Jim spoke with unusual warmth. Muriel was a favourite of his.
But he obtained scant satisfaction notwithstanding.
"Ask the devil," said Nick flippantly. "I never was good at definitions."
It was a tacit refusal to discuss the matter, and as such Jim accepted it.
He turned from the subject with a grunt of discontent. "Well, if I am to undertake your case, you had better let me look at you. But we"ll have a clean understanding first, mind, that you obey my orders. I won"t be responsible otherwise."
Nick opened his eyes with a chuckle. "I"ll do anything under the sun to please you, Jimmy," he said generously. "When did you ever find me hard to manage?"
"You"ve given me plenty of trouble at one time and another," Jim said bluntly.
"And shall again before I die," laughed Nick, as he submitted to his brother"s professional handling. "There"s plenty of kick left in me.
By the way, tell me what you think about Daisy. I must call on her to-morrow before I leave."
This intention, however, was not fulfilled, for Daisy herself came early to the doctor"s house to visit him. Far from well though she was, she made the effort as a matter of course. Nick was too near a friend to neglect. Blake did not accompany her. He was riding with Muriel.
She found Nick stretched out in luxurious idleness on a couch in the sunshine. He made a movement to spring to meet her, but checked himself with a laugh.
"This is awfully good of you, Daisy. I was coming to see you later, but I"m nailed to this confounded sofa for the next two hours, having solemnly sworn to Jim that nothing short of battle, murder or sudden death should induce me to move. I"m afraid I can"t reasonably describe your coming as any of these, so I must remain a fixture. It"s Jimmy"s rest cure."
He reached out his hand to Daisy, who took it in both her own. "My poor dear Nick!" she said, and stooping impulsively kissed him on the forehead.