Krantz was babbling uncontrollably. "We"re still here, Gilson, we"re still here, we still exist, everything seems the same. Maybe he didn"t change things much, maybe the future is fixed and he didn"t change anything at all. I was afraid of this, of something like this. Ever since you came out here, he"s been "
Gilson did not hear him. He was staring with shock and disbelief at the child in the window, trying to comprehend what he saw and did not believe he was seeing. Her behavior was wrong, it was very, very wrong. A man had materialized on her lawn, suddenly, out of thin air, on a sunny morning, and she had evinced no surprise or amazement or fear. Instead she had smiled instantly, spontaneously, a smile that broadened and broadened until it seemed to split the lower half of her face, a smile that showed too many teeth, a smile fixed and incongruous and terrible below her bright blue eyes. Gilson felt his stomach knot; he realized that he was dreadfully afraid.
The face abruptly disappeared from the window; a few seconds later the front door flew open and the little girl rushed through the doorway, making for Reeves with furious speed, moving in a curious, scuttling run. When she was a few feet away, she leaped at him, with the agility and eye-dazzling quickness of a flea. Reeves" eyes had just begun to take on a puzzled look when the powerful little teeth tore out his throat.
She dropped away from him and sprang back. A geyser of bright blood erupted from the ragged hole in his neck. He looked at it in stupefaction for a long moment, then brought up his hands to cover the wound; the blood boiled through his fingers and ran down his forearms. He sank gently to his knees, staring at the little girl with wide astonishment. He rocked, shivered, and pitched forward on his face.
She watched with eyes as cold as a reptile"s, the terrible smile still on her face. She was naked, and it seemed to Gilson that there was something wrong with her torso, as well as with her mouth. She turned and appeared to shout toward the house.
In a moment they all came rushing out, mother, father, little boy, and granny, all naked, all undergoing that hideous transformation of the mouth. Without pause or diminution of speed they scuttled to the body, crouched around it, and frenziedly tore off its clothes. Then, squatting on the lawn in the morning sunshine, the fine little family began horribly to feed.
Krantz"s babbling had changed its tenor: "Holy Mary, Mother of G.o.d, pray for us..." The soldier with the stopwatch was noisily sick. Someone emptied a clip of a machine pistol into the interface, and the colonel cursed luridly. When Gilson could no longer bear to watch the grisly feast, he looked away and found himself staring at the dog, which sat happily on the porch, thumping its tail.
"By G.o.d, it just can"t be!" Krantz burst out. "It would be in the histories, in the newspapers, if there"d been people like that here. My G.o.d, something like that couldn"t be forgotten!"
"Oh, don"t talk like a fool!" Gilson said angrily. "That"s not the past. I don"t know what it is, but it"s not the past. Can"t be. It"s I don"t know someplace else. Some other dimension? Universe? One of those theories. Alternate worlds, worlds of If, probability worlds, whatever you call "em. They"re in the present time, all right, that filth over there. Culvergast"s d.a.m.n spell holed through to one of those parallels. Got to be something like that. And, my G.o.d, what the h.e.l.l was its history to produce those? They"re not human, Krantz, no way human, whatever they look like. "Jolly bicycle tours." How wrong can you be?"
It ended at last. The family lay on the gra.s.s with distended bellies, covered with blood and grease, their eyelids heavy in repletion. The two little ones fell asleep. The large male appeared to be deep in thought. After a time he rose, gathered up Reeves" clothes, and examined them carefully. Then he woke the small female and apparently questioned her at some length. She gestured, pointed, and pantomimed Reeves" headlong arrival. He stared thoughtfully at the place where Reeves had materialized, and for a moment it seemed to Gilson that the pitiless eyes were glaring directly into his. He turned, walked slowly and reflectively to the house, and went inside.
It was silent in the clearing except for the thump of the machine. Krantz began to weep, and the colonel to swear in a monotone. The soldiers seemed dazed. And we"re all afraid, Gilson thought. Scared to death.
On the lawn they were enacting a grotesque parody of making things tidy after a picnic. The small ones had brought a basket and, under the meticulous supervision of the adult females, went about gathering up the debris of their feeding. One of them tossed a bone to the dog, and the timekeeper vomited again. When the lawn was once again immaculate, they carried off the basket to the rear, and the adults returned to the house. A moment later the male emerged, now dressed in a white linen suit. He carried a book.
"A Bible," said Krantz in amazement. "It"s a Bible."
"Not a Bible," Gilson said. "There"s no way those things could have Bibles. Something else. Got to be."
It looked like a Bible; its binding was limp black leather, and when the male began to leaf through it, evidently in search of a particular pa.s.sage, they could see that the paper was the thin, tough paper Bibles are printed on. He found his page and began, as it appeared to Gilson, to read aloud in a declamatory manner, mouthing the words.
"What the h.e.l.l do you suppose he"s up to?" Gilson said. He was still speaking when the window ceased to exist.
House and lawn and white-suited declaimer vanished. Gilson caught a swift glimpse of trees across the clearing, hidden until now by the window, and of a broad pit between him and the trees. Then he was knocked off his feet by a blast of wind, and the air was full of dust and flying trash and the wind"s howl. The wind stopped, as suddenly as it had come, and there was a patter of falling small objects that had momentarily been wind-borne. The site of the house was entirely obscured by an eddying cloud of dust.
The dust settled slowly. Where the window had been there was a great hole in the ground, a perfectly square hole a hundred feet across and perhaps ten feet deep, its bottom as flat as a table. Gilson"s glimpse of it before the wind had rushed in to fill the vacuum had shown the sides to be as smooth and straight as if sliced through cheese with a sharp knife; but now small landslides were occurring all around the perimeter, as topsoil and gravel caved and slid to the bottom, and the edges were becoming ragged and irregular.
Gilson and Krantz slowly rose to their feet. "And that seems to be that," Gilson said. "It was here and now it"s gone. But where"s the prefab? Where"s Culvergast?"
"G.o.d knows," Krantz said. He was not being irreverent. "But I think he"s gone for good. And at least he"s not where those things are."
"What are they, do you think?"
"As you said, certainly not human. Less human than a spider or an oyster. But, Gilson, the way they look and dress, that house"
"If there"s an infinite number of possible worlds, then every possible sort of world will exist."
Krantz looked doubtful. "Yes, well, perhaps. We don"t know anything, do we?" He was silent for a moment. "Those things were pretty frightening, Gilson. It didn"t take even a fraction of a second for her to react to Reeves. She knew instantly that he was alien, and she moved instantly to destroy him. And that"s a baby one. I think maybe we can feel safer with the window gone."
"Amen to that. What do you think happened to it?"
"It"s obvious, isn"t it? They know how to use the energies Culvergast was blundering around with. The book it has to be a book of spells. They must have a science of it tried-and-true stuff, part of their received wisdom. That thing used the book like a routine everyday tool. After it got over the excitement of its big feed, it didn"t need more than twenty minutes to figure out how Reeves got there, and what to do about it. It just got its book of spells, picked the one it needed (I"d like to see the index of that book) and said the words. Poof! Window gone and Culvergast stranded, G.o.d knows where."
"It"s possible, I guess. h.e.l.l, maybe even likely. You"re right, we don"t really know a thing about all this."
Krantz suddenly looked frightened. "Gilson, what if look. If it was that easy for him to cancel out the window, if he has that kind of control of telekinetic power, what"s to prevent him from getting a window on us? Maybe they"re watching us now, the way we were watching them. They know we"re here, now. What kind of ideas might they get? Maybe they need meat. Maybe they my G.o.d."
"No," Gilson said. "Impossible. It was pure, blind chance that located the window in that world. Culvergast had no more idea what he was doing than a chimp at a computer console does. If the Possible-Worlds Theory is the explanation of this thing, then the world he hit is one of an infinite number. Even if the things over there do know how to make these windows, the odds are infinite against their finding us. That is to say, it"s impossible."
"Yes, yes, of course," Krantz said, gratefully. "Of course. They could try forever and never find us. Even if they wanted to." He thought for a moment. "And I think they do want to. It was pure reflex, their destroying Reeves, as involuntary as a knee jerk, by the look of it. Now that they know we"re here, they"ll have to try to get at us; if I"ve sized them up right, it wouldn"t be possible for them to do anything else."
Gilson remembered the eyes. "I wouldn"t be a bit surprised," he said. "But now we both better"
"Dr. Krantz!" someone screamed. "Dr. Krantz!" There was absolute terror in the voice.
The two men spun around. The soldier with the stopwatch was pointing with a trembling hand. As they looked, something white materialized in the air above the rim of the pit and sailed out and downward to land beside a similar object already lying on the ground. Another came; then another, and another. Five in all, scattered over an area perhaps a yard square.
"It"s bones!" Krantz said. "Oh, my G.o.d, Gilson, it"s bones!" His voice shuddered on the edge of hysteria. Gilson said, "Stop it, now. Stop it! Come on!" They ran to the spot. The soldier was already there, squatting, his face made strange by nausea and terror. "That one," he said, pointing. "That one there. That"s the one they threw to the dog. You can see the teeth marks. Oh, Jesus. It"s the one they threw to the dog."
They"ve already made a window, then, Gilson thought. They must know a lot about these matters, to have done it so quickly. And they"re watching us now. But why the bones? To warn us off? Or just a test? But if a test, then still why the bones? Why not a pebble or an ice cube? To gauge our reactions, perhaps. To see what we"ll do.
And what will we do? How do we protect ourselves against this? If it is in the nature of these creatures to cooperate among themselves, the fine little family will no doubt lose no time in spreading the word over their whole world, so that one of these days we"ll find that a million million of them have leaped simultaneously through such windows all over the earth, suddenly materializing like a cloud of huge, carnivorous locusts, swarming in to feed with that insensate voracity of theirs until they have left the planet a desert of bones. Is there any protection against that?
Krantz had been thinking along the same track. He said, shakily, "We"re in a spot, Gilson, but we"ve got one little thing on our side. We know when the d.a.m.n thing opens up, we"ve got it timed exactly. Washington will have to go all out, warn the whole world, do it through the U.N. or something. We know right down to the second when the window can be penetrated. We set up a warning system, every community on earth blows a whistle or rings a bell when it"s time. Bell rings, everybody grabs a weapon and stands ready. If the things haven"t come in five seconds, bell rings again, and everybody goes about his business until time for the next opening. It could work, Gilson, but we"ve got to work fast. In fifteen hours and, uh, a couple of minutes it"ll be open again."
Fifteen hours and a couple of minutes, Gilson thought, then five seconds of awful vulnerability, and then fifteen hours and twenty minutes of safety before terror arrives again. And so on for how long? Presumably until the things come, which might be never (who knew how their minds worked?), or until Culvergast"s accident could be duplicated, which, again, might be never. He questioned whether human beings could exist under those conditions without going mad; it was doubtful if the psyche could cohere when its sole foreseeable future was an interminable roller coaster down into long valleys of terror and suspense and thence violently up to brief peaks of relief. Will a mind continue to function when its only alternatives are ghastly death or unbearable tension endlessly protracted? Is there any way, Gilson asked himself, that the race can live with the knowledge that it has no a.s.sured future beyond the next fifteen hours and twenty minutes?
And then he saw, hopelessly and with despair, that it was not fifteen hours and twenty minutes, that it was not even one hour, that it was no time at all. This window was not, it seemed, intermittent. Materializing out of the air was a confusion of bones, and rent clothing, a flurry of contemptuously flung garbage that clattered to the ground and lay there in an untidy heap, noisome and foreboding.
The Brood.
Ramsey Campbell.
Ramsey Campbell (1946) is an award-winning horror-fiction author from Liverpool, England, mentored by Lovecraft protege August Derleth. In his stories, largely evoking working- or middle-cla.s.s settings, Campbell manages to update the weird tale and apply his keen ability to evoke both subtle supernatural horror and portraits of modern life in England. One of the preeminent writers of his generation, Campbell has also edited influential supernatural fiction anthologies; three of his top ten favorite stories are reprinted in The Weird ("The Willows" by Blackwood, "Smoke Ghost" by Leiber and "The Hospice" by Aickman). "The Brood" (1980), as noted by the anthologist when first published, "has the c.u.mulative effect of a nightmare from which one cannot awake".
He"d had an almost unbearable day. As he walked home his self-control still oppressed him, like rusty armour. Climbing the stairs, he tore open his mail: a glossy pamphlet from a binoculars firm, a humbler folder from the Wild Life Preservation Society. Irritably he threw them on the bed and sat by the window, to relax.
It was autumn. Night had begun to cramp the days. Beneath golden trees, a procession of cars advanced along Princes Avenue, as though to a funeral; crowds hurried home. The incessant anonymous parade, dwarfed by three stories, depressed him. Faces like these vague twilit miniatures selfishly ingrown, convinced that nothing was their fault brought their pets to his office.
But where were all the local characters? He enjoyed watching them, they fascinated him. Where was the man who ran about the avenue, chasing b.u.t.terflies of litter and stuffing them into his satchel? Or the man who strode violently, head down in no gale, shouting at the air? Or the Rainbow Man, who appeared on the hottest days obese with sweaters, each of a different garish colour? Blackband hadn"t seen any of these people for weeks.
The crowds thinned; cars straggled. Groups of streetlamps lit, tinting leaves sodium, unnaturally gold. Often that lighting had meant Why, there she was, emerging from the side street almost on cue: the Lady of the Lamp.
Her gait was elderly. Her face was withered as an old blanched apple; the rest of her head was wrapped in a tattered grey scarf. Her voluminous ankle-length coat, patched with remnants of colour, swayed as she walked. She reached the central reservation of the avenue, and stood beneath a lamp.
Though there was a pedestrian crossing beside her, people deliberately crossed elsewhere. They would, Blackband thought sourly: just as they ignored the packs of stray dogs that were always someone else"s responsibility ignored them, or hoped someone would put them to sleep. Perhaps they felt the human strays should be put to sleep, perhaps that was where the Rainbow Man and the rest had gone!
The woman was pacing restlessly. She circled the lamp, as though the blurred disc of light at its foot were a stage. Her shadow resembled the elaborate hand of a clock.
Surely she was too old to be a prost.i.tute. Might she have been one, who was now compelled to enact her memories? His binoculars drew her face closer: intent as a sleepwalker"s, introverted as a foetus. Her head bobbed against gravel, foreshortened by the false perspective of the lenses. She moved offscreen.
Three months ago, when he"d moved to this flat, there had been two old women. One night he had seen them, circling adjacent lamps. The other woman had been slower, more sleepy. At last the Lady of the Lamp had led her home; they"d moved slowly as exhausted sleepers. For days he"d thought of the two women in their long faded coats, trudging around the lamps in the deserted avenue, as though afraid to go home in the growing dark.
The sight of the lone woman still unnerved him, a little. Darkness was crowding his flat. He drew the curtains, which the lamps stained orange. Watching had relaxed him somewhat. Time to make a salad.
The kitchen overlooked the old women"s house. See The World from the Attics of Princes Avenue. All Human Life Is Here. Backyards penned in rubble and crumbling toilet sheds; on the far side of the back street, houses were lidless boxes of smoke. The house directly beneath his window was dark, as always. How could the two women if both were still alive survive in there? But at least they could look after themselves, or call for aid; they were human, after all. It was their pets that bothered him.
He had never seen the torpid woman again. Since she had vanished, her companion had begun to take animals home; he"d seen her coaxing them toward the house. No doubt they were company for her friend; but what life could animals enjoy in the lightless, probably condemnable house? And why so many? Did they escape to their homes, or stray again? He shook his head: the women"s loneliness was no excuse. They cared as little for their pets as did those owners who came, whining like their dogs, to his office.
Perhaps the woman was waiting beneath the lamps for cats to drop from the trees, like fruit.
He meant the thought as a joke. But when he"d finished preparing dinner, the idea troubled him sufficiently that he switched off the light in the main room and peered through the curtains.
The bright gravel was bare. Parting the curtains, he saw the woman hurrying unsteadily toward her street. She was carrying a kitten: her head bowed over the fur cradled in her arms; her whole body seemed to enfold it. As he emerged from the kitchen again, carrying plates, he heard her door creak open and shut. Another one, he thought uneasily.
By the end of the week she"d taken in a stray dog, and Blackband was wondering what should be done.
The women would have to move eventually. The houses adjoining theirs were empty, the windows shattered targets. But how could they take their menagerie with them? They"d set them loose to roam or, weeping, take them to be put to sleep.
Something ought to be done, but not by him. He came home to rest. He was used to removing chicken bones from throats; it was suffering the excuses that exhausted him Fido always had his bit of chicken, it had never happened before, they couldn"t understand. He would nod curtly, with a slight pained smile. "Oh yes?" he would repeat tonelessly. "Oh yes?"
Not that that would work with the Lady of the Lamp. But then, he didn"t intend to confront her: what on earth could he have said? That he"d take all the animals off her hands? Hardly. Besides, the thought of confronting her made him uncomfortable.
She was growing more eccentric. Each day she appeared a little earlier. Often she would move away into the dark, then hurry back into the flat bright pool. It was as though light were her drug.
People stared at her, and fled. They disliked her because she was odd. All she had to do to please them, Blackband thought, was be normal: over-feed her pets until their stomachs sc.r.a.ped the ground, lock them in cars to suffocate in the heat, leave them alone in the house all day then beat them for chewing. Compared to most of the owners he met, she was Saint Francis.
He watched television. Insects were courting and mating. Their ritual dances engrossed and moved him: the play of colours, the elaborate racial patterns of the life-force which they instinctively decoded and enacted. Microphotography presented them to him. If only people were as beautiful and fascinating!
Even his fascination with the Lady of the Lamp was no longer unalloyed; he resented that. Was she falling ill? She walked painfully slowly, stooped over, and looked shrunken. Nevertheless, each night she kept her vigil, wandering sluggishly in the pools of light like a sleepwalker.
How could she cope with her animals now? How might she be treating them? Surely there were social workers in some of the cars nosing home, someone must notice how much she needed help. Once he made for the door to the stairs, but already his throat was parched of words. The thought of speaking to her wound him tight inside. It wasn"t his job, he had enough to confront. The spring in his guts coiled tighter, until he moved away from the door.
One night an early policeman appeared. Usually the police emerged near midnight, disarming people of knives and broken gla.s.s, forcing them into the vans. Blackband watched eagerly. Surely the man must escort her home, see what the house hid. Blackband glanced back to the splash of light beneath the lamp. It was deserted.
How could she have moved so fast? He stared, baffled. A dim shape lurked at the corner of his eyes. Glancing nervously, he saw the woman standing on a bright disc several lamps away, considerably farther from the policeman than he"d thought. Why should he have been so mistaken?
Before he could ponder, a sound distracted him: a loud fluttering, as though a bird were trapped and frantic in the kitchen. But the room was empty. Any bird must have escaped through the open window. Was that a flicker of movement below, in the dark house? Perhaps the bird had flown in there.
The policeman had moved on. The woman was trudging her island of light; her coat"s hem dragged over the gravel. For a while Blackband watched, musing uneasily, trying to think what the fluttering had resembled more than the sound of a bird"s wings.
Perhaps that was why, in the early hours, he saw a man stumbling through the derelict back streets. Jagged hurdles of rubble blocked the way; the man clambered, panting dryly, gulping dust as well as breath. He seemed only exhausted and uneasy, but Blackband could see what was pursuing him: a great wide shadow-colored stain, creeping vaguely over the rooftops. The stain was alive, for its face mouthed though at first, from its color and texture, he thought the head was the moon. Its eyes gleamed hungrily. As the fluttering made the man turn and scream, the face sailed down on its stain toward him.
Next day was unusually trying: a dog with a broken leg and a suffering owner, you"ll hurt his leg, can"t you be more gentle, oh come here, baby, what did the nasty man do to you; a senile cat and its protector, isn"t the usual vet here today, he never used to do that, are you sure you know what you"re doing. But later, as he watched the woman"s obsessive trudging, the dream of the stain returned to him. Suddenly he realized he had never seen her during daylight.
So that was it! he thought, sn.i.g.g.e.ring. She"d been a vampire all the time! A difficult job to keep when you hadn"t a tooth in your head. He reeled in her face with the focusing-screw. Yes, she was toothless. Perhaps she used false fangs, or sucked through her gums. But he couldn"t sustain his joke for long. Her face peered out of the frame of her grey scarf, as though from a web. As she circled she was muttering incessantly. Her tongue worked as though her mouth were too small for it. Her eyes were fixed as the heads of grey nails impaling her skull.
He laid the binoculars aside, and was glad that she"d become more distant. But even the sight of her trudging in miniature troubled him. In her eyes he had seen that she didn"t want to do what she was doing.
She was crossing the roadway, advancing toward his gate. For a moment, unreasonably and with a sour uprush of dread, he was sure she intended to come in. But she was staring at the hedge. Her hands fluttered, warding off a fear; her eyes and her mouth were stretched wide. She stood quivering, then she stumbled toward her street, almost running.
He made himself go down. Each leaf of the hedge held an orange-sodium glow, like wet paint. But there was nothing among the leaves, and nothing could have struggled out, for the twigs were intricately bound by spiderwebs, gleaming like gold wire.
The next day was Sunday. He rode a train beneath the Mersey and went tramping the Wirral Way nature trail. Red-faced men, and women who had paralysed their hair with spray, stared as though he"d invaded their garden. A few b.u.t.terflies perched on flowers; their wings settled together delicately, then they flickered away above the banks of the abandoned railway cutting. They were too quick for him to enjoy, even with his binoculars; he kept remembering how near death their species were. His moping had slowed him, he felt barred from his surroundings by his inability to confront the old woman. He couldn"t speak to her, there were no words he could use, but meanwhile her animals might be suffering. He dreaded going home to another night of helpless watching.
Could he look into the house while she was wandering? She might leave the door unlocked. At some time he had become intuitively sure that her companion was dead. Twilight gained on him, urging him back to Liverpool.
He gazed nervously down at the lamps. Anything was preferable to his impotence. But his feelings had trapped him into committing himself before he was ready. Could he really go down when she emerged? Suppose the other woman was still alive, and screamed? Good G.o.d, he needn"t go in if he didn"t want to. On the gravel, light lay bare as a row of plates on a shelf. He found himself thinking, with a secret eagerness, that she might already have had her wander.
As he made dinner, he kept hurrying irritably to the front window. Television failed to engross him; he watched the avenue instead. Discs of light dwindled away, impaled by their lamps. Below the kitchen window stood a block of night and silence. Eventually he went to bed, but heard fluttering flights of litter in the derelict streets, no doubt. His dreams gave the litter a human face.
Throughout Monday he was on edge, anxious to hurry home and be done; he was distracted. Oh poor Chubbles, is the man hurting you! He managed to leave early. Day was trailing down the sky as he reached the avenue. Swiftly he brewed coffee and sat sipping, watching.
The caravan of cars faltered, interrupted by gaps. The last home-comers hurried away, clearing the stage. But the woman failed to take her cue. His cooking of dinner was fragmented; he hurried repeatedly back to the window. Where was the b.l.o.o.d.y woman, was she on strike? Not until the following night, when she had still not appeared, did he begin to suspect he"d seen the last of her.
His intense relief was short-lived. If she had died of whatever had been shrinking her, what would happen to her animals? Should he find out what was wrong? But there was no reason to think she"d died. Probably she, and her friend before her, had gone to stay with relatives. No doubt the animals had escaped long before he"d never seen or heard any of them since she had taken them in. Darkness stood hushed and bulky beneath his kitchen window.
For several days the back streets were quiet, except for the flapping of litter or birds. It became easier to glance at the dark house. Soon they"d demolish it; already children had shattered all the windows. Now, when he lay awaiting sleep, the thought of the vague house soothed him, weighed his mind down gently.
That night he awoke twice. He"d left the kitchen window ajar, hoping to lose some of the unseasonable heat. Drifting through the window came a man"s low moaning. Was he trying to form words? His voice was m.u.f.fled, blurred as a dying radio. He must be drunk; perhaps he had fallen, for there was a faint sc.r.a.pe of rubble. Blackband hid within his eyelids, courting sleep. At last the shapeless moaning faded. There was silence, except for the feeble, stony sc.r.a.ping. Blackband lay and grumbled, until sleep led him to a face that crept over heaps of rubble.
Some hours later he woke again. The lifelessness of four o"clock surrounded him, the dim air seemed sluggish and ponderous. Had he dreamed the new sound? It returned, and made him flinch: a chorus of thin, piteous wailing, reaching weakly upward toward the kitchen. For a moment, on the edge of dream, it sounded like babies. How could babies be crying in an abandoned house? The voices were too thin. They were kittens.
He lay in the heavy dark, hemmed in by shapes that the night deformed. He willed the sounds to cease, and eventually they did. When he awoke again, belatedly, he had time only to hurry to work.
In the evening the house was silent as a draped cage. Someone must have rescued the kittens. But in the early hours the crying woke him: fretful, bewildered, famished. He couldn"t go down now, he had no light. The crying was m.u.f.fled, as though beneath stone. Again it kept him awake, again he was late for work.
His loss of sleep nagged him. His smile sagged impatiently, his nods were contemptuous twitches. "Yes," he agreed with a woman who said she"d been careless to slam her dog"s paw in a door, and when she raised her eyebrows haughtily: "Yes, I can see that." He could see her deciding to find another vet. Let her, let someone else suffer her. He had problems of his own.
He borrowed the office flashlight, to placate his anxiety. Surely he wouldn"t need to enter the house, surely someone else He walked home, toward the darker sky. Night thickened like soot on the buildings.
He prepared dinner quickly. No need to dawdle in the kitchen, no point in staring down. He was hurrying; he dropped a spoon, which reverberated shrilly in his mind, nerve-racking. Slow down, slow down. A breeze piped incessantly outside, in the rubble. No, not a breeze. When he made himself raise the sash he heard the crying, thin as wind in crevices.
It seemed weaker now, dismal and desperate: intolerable. Could n.o.body else hear it, did n.o.body care? He gripped the windowsill; a breeze tried feebly to tug at his fingers. Suddenly, compelled by vague anger, he grabbed the flashlight and trudged reluctantly downstairs.
A pigeon hobbled on the avenue, dangling the stump of one leg, twitching clogged wings; cars brisked by. The back street was scattered with debris, as though a herd had moved on, leaving its refuse to manure the paving stones. His flashlight groped over the heaped pavement, trying to determine which house had been troubling him.
Only by standing back to align his own window with the house could he decide, and even then he was unsure. How could the old woman have clambered over the jagged pile that blocked the doorway? The front door sprawled splintered in the hall, on a heap of the fallen ceiling, amid peelings of wallpaper. He must be mistaken. But as his flashlight dodged about the hall, picking up debris then letting it drop back into the dark, he heard the crying, faint and m.u.f.fled. It was somewhere within.
He ventured forward, treading carefully. He had to drag the door into the street before he could proceed. Beyond the door the floorboards were cobbled with rubble. Plaster swayed about him, glistening. His light wobbled ahead of him, then led him toward a gaping doorway on the right. The light spread into the room, dimming.
A door lay on its back. Boards poked like exposed ribs through the plaster of the ceiling; torn paper dangled. There was no carton full of starving kittens; in fact, the room was bare. Moist stains engulfed the walls.
He groped along the hall, to the kitchen. The stove was fat with grime. The wallpaper had collapsed entirely, draping indistinguishable shapes that stirred as the flashlight glanced at them. Through the furred window, he made out the light in his own kitchen, orange-shaded, blurred. How could two women have survived here?