"That afternoon I idled about the streets, looking for her in vain. When I next saw one of the boys who had been with me at her first pa.s.sing I stealthily reminded him of the incident, and asked if he knew the riders.
""O yes," he said. "That was Colonel Targe and his daughter Elsie."
""How old do you think she is?" said I, a sense of disparity in our ages disturbing my mind.
""O--nineteen, I think they say. She"s going to be married the day after to-morrow to Captain Popp, of the 501st, and they are ordered off to India at once."
"The grief which I experienced at this intelligence was such that at dusk I went away to the edge of the harbour, intending to put an end to myself there and then. But I had been told that crabs had been found clinging to the dead faces of persons who had fallen in thereabout, leisurely eating them, and the idea of such an unpleasant contingency deterred me. I should state that the marriage of my Beloved concerned me little; it was her departure that broke my heart. I never saw her again.
"Though I had already learnt that the absence of the corporeal matter did not involve the absence of the informing spirit, I could scarce bring myself to believe that in this case it was possible for her to return to my view without the form she had last inhabited.
"But she did.
"It was not, however, till after a good s.p.a.ce of time, during which I pa.s.sed through that bearish age in boys, their early teens, when girls are their especial contempt. I was about seventeen, and was sitting one evening over a cup of tea in a confectioner"s at the very same watering-place, when opposite me a lady took her seat with a little girl. We looked at each other awhile, the child made advances, till I said: "She"s a good little thing."
"The lady a.s.sented, and made a further remark.
""She has the soft fine eyes of her mother," said I.
""Do you think her eyes are good?" asks the lady, as if she had not heard what she had heard most--the last three words of my opinion.
""Yes--for copies," said I, regarding her.
"After this we got on very well. She informed me that her husband had gone out in a yacht, and I said it was a pity he didn"t take her with him for the airing. She gradually disclosed herself in the character of a deserted young wife, and later on I met her in the street without the child. She was going to the landing-stage to meet her husband, so she told me; but she did not know the way.
"I offered to show her, and did so. I will not go into particulars, but I afterwards saw her several times, and soon discovered that the Beloved (as to whose whereabouts I had been at fault so long) lurked here.
Though why she had chosen this tantalizing situation of an inaccessible matron"s form when so many others offered, it was beyond me to discover.
The whole affair ended innocently enough, when the lady left the town with her husband and child: she seemed to regard our acquaintance as a flirtation; yet it was anything but a flirtation for me!
"Why should I tell the rest of the tantalizing tale! After this, the Well-Beloved put herself in evidence with greater and greater frequency, and it would be impossible for me to give you details of her various incarnations. She came nine times in the course of the two or three ensuing years. Four times she masqueraded as a brunette, twice as a pale-haired creature, and two or three times under a complexion neither light nor dark. Sometimes she was a tall, fine girl, but more often, I think, she preferred to slip into the skin of a lithe airy being, of no great stature. I grew so accustomed to these exits and entrances that I resigned myself to them quite pa.s.sively, talked to her, kissed her, corresponded with her, ached for her, in each of her several guises. So it went on until a month ago. And then for the first time I was puzzled.
She either had, or she had not, entered the person of Avice Caro, a young girl I had known from infancy. Upon the whole, I have decided that, after all, she did not enter the form of Avice Caro, because I retain so great a respect for her still."
Pierston here gave in brief the history of his revived comradeship with Avice, the verge of the engagement to which they had reached, and its unexpected rupture by him, merely through his meeting with a woman into whom the Well-Beloved unmistakably moved under his very eyes--by name Miss Marcia Bencomb. He described their spontaneous decision to marry offhand; and then he put it to Somers whether he ought to marry or not--her or anybody else--in such circ.u.mstances.
"Certainly not," said Somers. "Though, if anybody, little Avice. But not even her. You are like other men, only rather worse. Essentially, all men are fickle, like you; but not with such perceptiveness."
"Surely fickle is not the word? Fickleness means getting weary of a thing while the thing remains the same. But I have always been faithful to the elusive creature whom I have never been able to get a firm hold of, unless I have done so now. And let me tell you that her flitting from each to each individual has been anything but a pleasure for me--certainly not a wanton game of my instigation. To see the creature who has. .h.i.therto been perfect, divine, lose under your very gaze the divinity which has informed her, grow commonplace, turn from flame to ashes, from a radiant vitality to a relic, is anything but a pleasure for any man, and has been nothing less than a racking spectacle to my sight. Each mournful emptied shape stands ever after like the nest of some beautiful bird from which the inhabitant has departed and left it to fill with snow. I have been absolutely miserable when I have looked in a face for her I used to see there, and could see her there no more."
"You ought not to marry," repeated Somers.
"Perhaps I oughtn"t to! Though poor Marcia will be compromised, I"m afraid, if I don"t.... Was I not right in saying I am accursed in this thing? Fortunately n.o.body but myself has suffered on account of it till now. Knowing what to expect, I have seldom ventured on a close acquaintance with any woman, in fear of prematurely driving away the dear one in her; who, however, has in time gone off just the same."
Pierston soon after took his leave. A friend"s advice on such a subject weighs little. He quickly returned to Miss Bencomb.
She was different now. Anxiety had visibly brought her down a notch or two, undone a few degrees of that haughty curl which her lip could occasionally a.s.sume. "How long you have been away!" she said with a show of impatience.
"Never mind, darling. It is all arranged," said he. "We shall be able to marry in a few days."
"Not to-morrow?"
"We can"t to-morrow. We have not been here quite long enough."
"But how did the people at Doctors" Commons know that?"
"Well--I forgot that residence, real or a.s.sumed, was necessary, and unfortunately admitted that we had only just arrived."
"O how stupid! But it can"t be helped now. I think, dear, I should have known better, however!"
1. VIII. "TOO LIKE THE LIGHTNING"
They lived on at the hotel some days longer, eyed curiously by the chambermaids, and burst in upon every now and then by the waiters as if accidentally. When they were walking together, mostly in back streets for fear of being recognized, Marcia was often silent, and her imperious face looked gloomy.
"Dummy!" he said playfully, on one of these occasions.
"I am vexed that by your admissions at Doctors" Commons you prevented them giving you the licence at once! It is not nice, my living on with you like this!"
"But we are going to marry, dear!"
"Yes," she murmured, and fell into reverie again. "What a sudden resolve it was of ours!" she continued. "I wish I could get my father and mother"s consent to our marriage.... As we can"t complete it for another day or two, a letter might be sent to them and their answer received? I have a mind to write."
Pierston expressed his doubts of the wisdom of this course, which seemed to make her desire it the more, and the result was a tiff between them.
"Since we are obliged to delay it, I won"t marry without their consent!"
she cried at last pa.s.sionately.
"Very well then, dear. Write," he said.
When they were again indoors, she sat down to a note, but after a while threw aside her pen despairingly. "No: I cannot do it!" she said. "I can"t bend my pride to such a job. Will YOU write for me, Jocelyn?"
"I? I don"t see why I should be the one, particularly as I think it premature."
"But you have not quarrelled with my father as I have done."
"Well no. But there is a long-standing antagonism, which would make it odd in me to be the writer. Wait till we are married, and then I will write. Not till then."
"Then I suppose I must. You don"t know my father. He might forgive me marrying into any other family without his knowledge, but he thinks yours such a mean one, and so resents the trade rivalry, that he would never pardon till the day of his death my becoming a Pierston secretly.
I didn"t see it at first."
This remark caused an unpleasant jar on the mind of Pierston. Despite his independent artistic position in London, he was staunch to the simple old parent who had stubbornly held out for so many years against Bencomb"s encroaching trade, and whose money had educated and maintained Jocelyn as an art-student in the best schools. So he begged her to say no more about his mean family, and she silently resumed her letter, giving an address at a post-office that their quarters might not be discovered, at least just yet.
No reply came by return of post; but, rather ominously, some letters for Marcia that had arrived at her father"s since her departure were sent on in silence to the address given. She opened them one by one, till on reading the last, she exclaimed, "Good gracious!" and burst into laughter.
"What is it?" asked Pierston.