A night--since, as the last words he should hear from her lips, she had said: "Maid or wife, G.o.d knows I am all thine own. Thine, and none other"s, forever."
Of all the memories connected with this chamber, the clearest to-night was of the hungry ache at her heart, when Hugh had gone. It had seemed to her then that never could that ache be stilled, until she could once again clasp his head to her breast. She knew now that it never had been stilled. Dulled, ignored, denied; called by other names; but stilled--never.
On this night it was as sweetly poignant as on that other night eight years ago, when she had slowly descended to this very room, from the moonlit battlements.
Yet to-night she was maid _and_ wife. Moreover Hugh was here, under this very roof. Yet had he bidden her a grave good-night, without so much as touching her hand. Yet his dark eyes had said: "I love thee."
Kneeling at the cas.e.m.e.nt, Mora reviewed the days since they rode forth from Warwick.
It had been a wondrous experience for her--she, who had been Prioress of the White Ladies--thus to ride out into the radiant, sunny world.
Hugh was ever beside her, watchful, tender, shielding her from any possible pain or danger, yet claiming nothing, asking nothing, for himself.
One night, not being a.s.sured of the safety of the place where they lodged, she found afterwards that he had lain all night across the threshold of the chamber within which she and Debbie slept.
Another night she saw him pacing softly up and down beneath her window.
Yet when each morning came, and they began a new day together, he greeted her gaily, with clear eye and unclouded brow; not as one chilled or disappointed, or vexed to be kept from his due.
And oh, the wonder of each new day! The glory of those rides over the mossy softness of the woodland paths, where the sunlight fell, in dancing patches, through the thick, moving foliage, and shy deer peeped from the bracken, with soft eyes and gentle movements; out on to the wild liberty of the moors, where Icon, snuffing the fresher air, would stretch his neck and gallop for pure joy at having left cobbled streets and paved courtyards far behind him. And ever they rode northward, and home drew nearer. Looking back upon those long hours spent alone together, Mora realised how simply and easily she had grown used to being with Hugh, and how entirely this was due to his unselfishness and tact. He talked with her constantly; yet never of his own feelings regarding her.
He told her of his adventures in Eastern lands; of the happenings in England during the past eight years, so far as he had been able to learn them; of his home and property; of hers, and of the welcome which awaited her from her people.
He never spoke of the Convent, nor of the eventful days through which he and she had so recently pa.s.sed.
So successfully did he dominate her mind in this, that almost it seemed to her she too was returning home after a long absence in a foreign land.
Her mind awoke to unrestrained enjoyment of each hour, and to the keen antic.i.p.ation of the traveller homeward bound.
Each day spent in Hugh"s company seemed to wipe out one, or more, of the intervening years, so that when, toward evening, on the seventh day, the grey turrets of her old home came in sight, it might have been but yesterday they had parted, on those same battlements, and she had watched him ride away, until the firwood from which they were now emerging, had hidden him from view.
Kneeling at her cas.e.m.e.nt, her mind seemed lost in a whirlpool of emotion, as she reviewed the hour of their arrival. The road up to the big gates--every tree and hillock, every stock and stone, loved and familiar, recalling childish joys and sorrows, adventure and enterprise. Then the pa.s.sing in through the gates, the familiar faces, the glad greetings; Zachary--white-haired, but still rosy and stalwart--at the foot of the steps; and, in the doorway, just where loneliness might have gripped her, old Debbie, looking as if she had never been away, waiting with open arms. So this was the moment foreseen by Hugh when he had planned an early start, that morning, for Mistress Deborah, and a more roundabout ride for her.
She turned, with an impulsive gesture, holding out to him her left hand, that he might cross the threshold with her. But the Knight was stooping to examine the right forehoof of her palfrey, she having fancied Icon had trod tenderly upon it during the last half-mile; so she pa.s.sed in alone.
Afterwards she overheard old Debbie say, in her most scolding tones: "She did stretch out her hand to you, Sir Hugh, and you saw it not!"
But the Knight"s deep voice made courteous answer: "There is no look or gesture of hers, however slight, good Mistress Deborah, which doth escape me." And at this her heart thrilled far more than if he had met her hand, responsive; knowing that thus he did faithfully keep his pledge to her, and that he could so keep it, only by never relaxing his stern hold upon himself.
Yet almost she began to wish him less stern and less faithful, so much did she long to feel for one instant the strong clasp of his arms about her. By his rigid adherence to his promise, she felt herself punished for having shuddered. Why had she shuddered? . . . Would she shudder now? This wonderful first evening had quickly pa.s.sed, in going from chamber to chamber, walking in the gardens, and supping with Hugh in the dining-hall, waited on by Mark and Beaumont, with Zachary to supervise, pour the wine, and stand behind her chair.
Then a final walk on the terrace; a grave good-night upon the stairs; and, at last, this time of quiet thought, in her own chamber.
She could not realise that she was wedded to Hugh; but her heart awoke to the fact that truly she was betrothed to him. And she was happy--deeply happy.
Leaving the cas.e.m.e.nt, she kneeled before the shrine of the Virgin--there where she had put up so many impa.s.sioned prayers for the safe return of her lover.
"Blessed Virgin," she said, "I thank thee for sending me home."
Years seemed to roll from her. She felt herself a child again. She longed for her mother"s understanding tenderness. Failing that, she turned to the sweet Mother of G.o.d.
The image before which she knelt, shewed our Lady standing, tall and fair and gracious, the Infant Saviour, seated upon her left hand, her right hand holding Him leaning against her, His baby arms outstretched.
Neither the Babe nor His Mother smiled. Each looked grave and somewhat sad.
"Home," whispered Mora. "Blessed Virgin I thank thee for sending me home."
"Nay," answered a voice within her. "I sent thee not home. I gave thee to him to whom thou didst belong. He hath brought thee home.
What said the vision? "Take her. She is thine own. I have but kept her for thee.""
Yet Hugh knew naught of this gracious message--knew naught of the vision which had given her to him. Until to-night she had felt it impossible to tell him of it. Now she longed that he should share with her the wonder.
She sought her couch, but sleep would not come. The moonlight was too bright; the room too sweetly familiar. Moreover it seemed but yesterday that she had parted from Hugh, in such an ecstasy of love and sorrow, up on the battlements.
A great desire seized her to mount to those battlements, and to stand again just where she had stood when she bade him farewell.
She rose.
Among the garments put ready for her use, chanced to be the robe of sapphire velvet which she had worn on that night.
She put it on; with jewels at her breast and girdle. Then, with the mantle of ermine falling from her shoulders, and her beautiful hair covering her as a veil, she left her chamber, pa.s.sed softly along the pa.s.sage, found the winding stair, and mounted to the ramparts.
As she stepped out from the turret stairway, she exclaimed at the sublime beauty of the scene before her; the sleeping world at midnight, bathed in the silvery light of the moon; the shadows of the firs, lying like black bars across the road to the Castle gate.
"There I watched him ride away," she said, with a sweep of her arm toward the road, "watched, until the dark woods swallowed him. And here"--with a sweep toward the turret--"here, we parted."
She turned; then caught her breath.
Leaning against the wall with folded arms, stood Hugh.
CHAPTER XLIV
"I LOVE THEE"
Mora stood, for some moments, speechless; and Hugh did not stir. They faced one another, in the weird, white light.
At last: "Did you make me come?" she whispered.
"Nay, my beloved," he answered at once; "unless constant thought of thee, could bring thee to me. I pictured thee peacefully sleeping."
"I could not sleep," she said. "It seemed to me our Lady was not pleased, because, dear Knight, I have failed, in all these days, to tell you of her wondrous and especial grace which sent me to you."
"I have wondered," said the Knight; "but I knew there would come a time when I should hear what caused thy mind to change. That it was a thing of much import, I felt sure. The Bishop counselled me to give up hope.
But I had besought our Lady to send thee to me, and I could not lose my trust in prayer."
"It was indeed our blessed Lady who sent me," said Mora, very softly.
"Hugh, dare I stay and tell you the whole story, here and now? What if we are discovered, alone upon the ramparts, at this hour of the night?"