He looked distressed, and the young girl at once suspected some new trouble; and she was not mistaken, for her advice had begun to bear fruit already, and the inevitable was closing in upon them both.
He told the story in a few words. It had been decided in the War Office for some time that a small exploring and surveying expedition should be sent up the country from the Italian colony at Ma.s.sowah with the idea of planning some permanent means of inland communication with the British possessions. Giovanni"s father had seen a chance for him to distinguish himself and to obtain more rapid promotion, and by using all the considerable influence he possessed in high quarters he had got him appointed to be the engineering officer of the party. The young man had already been two years in Africa, before being appointed to the Staff, and had done exceptionally good service, which was an excellent reason for using him again; and chance further favoured the plan, because the officer who had first been selected for the place, and who was an older man, was much needed in the War Office, to his own exceeding disgust. The expedition might be attended with considerable danger and would certainly be full of adventure, for there had recently been trouble with the tribes in that very region; but to send a strong force was out of the question, for political reasons, though the work to be done was so urgently necessary that it could not be put off much longer.
Old General Severi sincerely hoped Angela might yet marry his son, and was convinced that the best thing possible would be to secure for the latter the first opportunity for quick promotion, instead of allowing him to leave the army in order to find more lucrative employment. The expedition would be gone five or six months, perhaps, and there were many reasons why it would be better to keep the young people apart for a time. Any one would understand that, he was sure. While Angela was living obscurely with a former governess, a brilliant young officer of some distinction, like Giovanni, could not see her regularly without seriously compromising her. It was the way of the world and could not be helped, yet if Giovanni stayed in Rome it would be too much to expect that he should stay away from the little apartment in Trastevere. So the matter was settled, and when he came to see Angela that afternoon he had just had an interview with his chief, who had informed him of his appointment, and at the same time of his promotion to be captain. The expedition was to leave Italy in a few days, and he would have barely time to provide himself with what was strictly necessary for the climate. He explained all this to Angela and Madame Bernard.
"If you had only let me resign the other day," he said ruefully, when he had finished his account, "n.o.body could have found fault then! But now, I must face the laugh of every man I know!"
Angela looked up quickly, in evident surprise.
"Why?" she asked. "I see nothing to laugh at in such an expedition."
"I am not going to accept the appointment," Giovanni answered with decision. "I asked for twenty-four hours to consider it, though the General seemed very much surprised."
"But you cannot refuse!" Angela cried. "They will say you are afraid!"
"They may say whatever occurs to them, for I will not go, and I shall resign at once, as I said I would. My mind is made up."
"You cannot refuse this," Angela repeated confidently. "If you are obliged to admit that there is some danger in it, though you wish there were none, because you safely could refuse to go, it must be very dangerous indeed. Tell me the truth, as far as you know it."
"It would depend on circ.u.mstances----" Giovanni hesitated.
"You have told me that if the Government dared, it would send a large force to protect the expedition. The larger that force would be, the greater the danger if there is no protection at all. Is that true, or not?"
"It is true, in one way, but----"
"There is no condition!" Angela interrupted him energetically. "It is enough that it is going to be dangerous in one way, as you say!"
"No one can say that I ever avoided danger before," he objected.
"They will say many things if you refuse to go. They will shrug their shoulders and say that you have lost your nerve, perhaps! That is a favourite expression, and you know how people say it. Or if you make money soon after you resign, they will say that you preferred a fortune to risking your life for your country. Or else they will say that a woman has made a coward of you, and that I am she!"
"Coward!" yelled the parrot in a tone of withering contempt, and the creature actually spat in disgust.
Giovanni started violently, for he had not noticed the bird in the room. Then he tried to laugh at his own surprise.
"I do not wonder that you are surprised, Monsieur," said Madame Bernard with a pleasant smile. "Oh, Coco has exactly my poor husband"s voice!"
"I can brave a parrot"s opinion," Giovanni said, attempting to speak gaily.
"Will you brave mine?" Angela asked.
"You certainly do not think I am afraid to go," he answered, "for you know why I mean to refuse. My first duty is to you. As I am placed, it would be cowardly to be afraid to face public opinion in doing that duty, and to keep you waiting six months or a year longer than necessary, when I have promised to provide means for us to marry within a year. That would deserve to be called cowardice!"
"Sale Prussien! "cre nom d"une pipe!" yelled Coco in a tone of disgust.
"Really!" exclaimed Giovanni, with some annoyance. "Does the thing take me for an hereditary enemy, Madame?"
Madame Bernard rose with a little laugh and went to the parrot"s perch, holding out her hand.
"Come, Coco!" she said, coaxing him. "It is peace now, and we can go home to Paris again."
"Paris" meant her bedroom in bird language; it also meant being bribed to be quiet with good things, and Coco strutted from his perch to her finger.
"Marche!" he commanded in a sharp tone, and as she moved he began to whistle the Ma.r.s.eillaise with great spirit.
She marched off, laughing and keeping step to the tune till she disappeared into her room, shutting the door behind her. As it closed Giovanni caught Angela"s left hand and drew it to him. She laid her right on his, quietly and affectionately.
"Am I never to see you alone?" he asked, almost in a whisper.
"When you come to say good-bye before starting," Angela answered. "I will ask her to leave us quite alone then. But now it will only be for a minute or two."
Thereupon, with the most natural movement in the world, she lifted her hands, brought his face close to hers and kissed him, drew back a little, looked gravely into his astonished eyes for some seconds, and then kissed him again.
"I love you much more than you love me," she said with great seriousness. "I am sure of it."
It was all very different from what he had expected. He had vaguely fancied that for a long time every kiss would have to be won from her by a little struggle, and that every admission of her love would be the reward of his own eloquence; instead, she took the lead herself with a simplicity that touched him more than anything else could have done.
"You see!" she cried, with the intonation of a laugh not far away. "I took you by surprise, because I am right about it! What have you to say?"
He said nothing, but his lips hurt hers a little in the silence. She shivered slightly, for she had not yet dreamed that a kiss could hurt and yet be too short. The sound of Madame Bernard"s voice came from the next room, still talking to the parrot. Angela laid her hand on Giovanni"s gold-laced sleeve and nestled beside him, with her head in the hollow of his shoulder.
"I have always wanted to do this," she said in a drowsy little voice, as if she wished she could go to sleep where she was. "It is my place.
When you are away in Africa, at night, under the stars, you will dream that I am just here, resting in my very own place."
She felt his warm breath in her hair as he answered.
"I will not go; I will not leave you."
"But you must," she said, quickly straightening herself and looking into his face. "I should not love you as I do, if I could bear to think of your staying here, to let men laugh at you, as you say they would!"
"It is not like resigning on the day after war is declared!" he retorted, trying to speak lightly.
"It is!" she cried, with a sort of eager anxiety in her voice. "There is only a difference in the degree--and perhaps it is worse! If there were war, you would be one man in a hundred thousand, but now you will be one in ten or twenty, or as many as are to go. Think what it would be if you were the only man in Italy, the one, single, only officer who could certainly accomplish something very dangerous to help your country--and if you refused to do it!"
"There are hundreds of better men than I for the work," objected Giovanni.
"I doubt it. Are there hundreds of engineer officers on the General Staff?"
"No, but there are plenty----"
"A score, perhaps, and you have been chosen, no matter why, and there is danger, and there is a great thing to be done, perhaps a great good, which in the end will save the lives, or help the lives, of many Italians! And you want to refuse to do it--for what? For a woman, for a girl you love! Do you think she will love you the more, or less, for keeping out of danger, if she is a true Italian as she thinks you are?
Why is it that our Italy, which no one thought much of a few years ago, is coming to the front in so many ways now? It was not by staying at home for women"s sake that our sailors have got nearer the North Pole than all the others who have tried! It is not by avoiding danger that our officers are learning to astonish everybody with their riding----"
"That is different," objected Giovanni. "It is one thing to do daring things----"
"Yes," interrupted Angela, not letting him speak, "it is the one and only thing, when it is good daring and can bring good, and helps the world to see that Italy is not dead yet, in spite of all that has been said and written against us and our unity. No, no, I say! Go, do your duty, do and dare, wherever and howsoever your country needs you, and I will wait for you, and be glad to wait for that one reason, which is the best of all. If you love me half as dearly as I love you, go back at once and tell your chief that you are ready, and are proud to be used wherever you can be of any use! And if there is danger to be faced, think that you are to face it for my sake as well as for Italy"s, and not in spite of me, for I would ten thousand times rather that you should die in doing your duty--ever so obscurely--than stay here to be called a coward in order that we may be rich when we marry!"
Giovanni listened, more and more surprised at her energy and quick flow of words, but glad at heart that she was urging him to do what was right and honourable.