A memory of epithets p.r.i.c.ked him. "You must forgive--a certain touch of--rhetoric."
He turned about as if to dismiss the board altogether, but she remained with her brows very faintly knit, surveying the cause of his offence.
"It isn"t a _pretty_ board," she said. "I"ve wondered at times.... It isn"t."
"I implore you to forget that outbreak--mere petulance--because, I suppose, of a peculiar liking for that particular view. There are--a.s.sociations----"
"I"ve wondered lately," she continued, holding on to her own thoughts, "what people _did_ think of them. And it"s curious--to hear----"
For a moment neither spoke, she surveyed the board and he the tall ease of her pose. And he was thinking she must surely be the most beautiful woman he had ever encountered. The whole country might be covered with boards if it gave us such women as this. He felt the urgent need of some phrase, to pull the situation out of this pit into which it had fallen.
He was a little unready, his faculties all as it were neglecting his needs and crowding to the windows to stare, and meanwhile she spoke again, with something of the frankness of one who thinks aloud.
"You see," she said, "one _doesn"t_ hear. One thinks perhaps----And there it is. When one marries very young one is apt to take so much for granted. And afterwards----"
She was wonderfully expressive in her inexpressiveness, he thought, but found as yet no saving phrase. Her thought continued to drop from her.
"One sees them so much that at last one doesn"t see them."
She turned away to survey the little house again; it was visible in bright strips between the red-scarred pine stems. She looked at it chin up, with a still approval--but she was the slenderest loveliness, and with such a dignity!--and she spoke at length as though the board had never existed. "It"s like a little piece of another world; so bright and so--perfect."
There was the phantom of a sigh in her voice.
"I think you"ll be charmed by our rockery," he said. "It was one of our particular efforts. Every time we two went abroad we came back with something, stonecrop or Alpine or some little bulb from the wayside."
"How can you leave it!"
He was leaving it because it bored him to death. But so intricate is the human mind that it was with perfect sincerity he answered: "It will be a tremendous wrench.... I have to go."
"And you"ve written most of your books here and lived here!"
The note of sympathy in her voice gave him a sudden suspicion that she imagined his departure due to poverty. Now to be poor as an author is to be unpopular, and he valued his popularity--with the better sort of people. He hastened to explain. "I have to go, because here, you see, here, neither for me nor my little son, is it Life. It"s a place of memories, a place of accomplished beauty. My son already breaks away,--a preparatory school at Margate. Healthier, better, for us to break altogether I feel, wrench though it may. It"s full for us at least--a new tenant would be different of course--but for _us_ it"s full of a.s.sociations we can"t alter, can"t for the life of us change. Nothing you see goes on. And life you know _is_ change--change and going on."
He paused impressively on his generalization.
"But you will want----You will want to hand it over to--to sympathetic people of course. People," she faltered, "who will understand."
Mr. Brumley took an immense stride--conversationally. "I am certain there is no one I would more readily see in that house than yourself,"
he said.
"But----" she protested. "And besides, you don"t know me!"
"One knows some things at once, and I am as sure you would--understand--as if I had known you twenty years. It may seem absurd to you, but when I looked up just now and saw you for the first time, I thought--this, this is the tenant. This is her house.... Not a doubt. That is why I did not go for my walk--came round with you."
"You really think you would like us to have that house?" she said.
"_Still?_"
"No one better," said Mr. Brumley.
"After the board?"
"After a hundred boards, I let the house to you...."
"My husband of course will be the tenant," reflected Lady Harman.
She seemed to brighten again by an effort: "I have always wanted something like this, that wasn"t gorgeous, that wasn"t mean. I can"t _make_ things. It isn"t every one--can _make_ a place...."
--2
Mr. Brumley found their subsequent conversation the fullest realization of his extremest hopes. Behind his amiable speeches, which soon grew altogether easy and confident again, a hundred imps of vanity were patting his back for the intuition, the swift decision that had abandoned his walk so promptly. In some extraordinary way the incident of the board became impossible; it hadn"t happened, he felt, or it had happened differently. Anyhow there was no time to think that over now.
He guided the lady to the two little greenhouses, made her note the opening glow of the great autumnal border and brought her to the rock garden. She stooped and loved and almost kissed the soft healthy cushions of pampered saxifrage: she appreciated the cleverness of the moss-bed--where there were droseras; she knelt to the gentians; she had a kindly word for that bank-holiday corner where London Pride still belatedly rejoiced; she cried out at the delicate Iceland poppies that thrust up between the stones of the rough pavement; and so in the most amiable accord they came to the raised seat in the heart of it all, and sat down and took in the whole effect of the place, and backing of woods, the lush borders, the neat lawn, the still neater orchard, the pergola, the nearer delicacies among the stones, and the gable, the shining white rough-cast of the walls, the cas.e.m.e.nt windows, the projecting upper story, the carefully sought-out old tiles of the roof.
And everything bathed in that caressing sunshine which does not scorch nor burn but gilds and warms deliciously, that summer sunshine which only northward islands know.
Recovering from his first astonishment and his first misadventure, Mr.
Brumley was soon himself again, talkative, interesting, subtly and gently aggressive. For once one may use a hackneyed phrase without the slightest exaggeration; he was charmed...
He was one of those very natural-minded men with active imaginations who find women the most interesting things in a full and interesting universe. He was an entirely good man and almost professionally on the side of goodness, his pen was a pillar of the home and he was hostile and even actively hostile to all those influences that would undermine and change--anything; but he did find women attractive. He watched them and thought about them, he loved to be with them, he would take great pains to please and interest them, and his mind was frequently dreaming quite actively of them, of championing them, saying wonderful and impressive things to them, having great friendships with them, adoring them and being adored by them. At times he had to ride this interest on the curb. At times the vigour of its urgencies made him inconsistent and secretive.... Comparatively his own s.e.x was a matter of indifference to him. Indeed he was a very normal man. Even such abstractions as Goodness and Justice had rich feminine figures in his mind, and when he sat down to write criticism at his desk, that pretty little s.l.u.t of a Delphic Sibyl presided over his activities.
So that it was a cultivated as well as an attentive eye that studied the movements of Lady Harman and an experienced ear that weighed the words and cadences of her entirely inadequate and extremely expressive share in their conversation. He had enjoyed the social advantages of a popular and presentable man of letters, and he had met a variety of ladies; but he had never yet met anyone at all like Lady Harman. She was pretty and quite young and fresh; he doubted if she was as much as four-and-twenty; she was as simple-mannered as though she was ever so much younger than that, and dignified as though she was ever so much older; and she had a sort of l.u.s.tre of wealth about her----. One met it sometimes in young richly married Jewesses, but though she was very dark she wasn"t at all of that type; he was inclined to think she must be Welsh. This manifest spending of great lots of money on the richest, finest and fluffiest things was the only aspect of her that sustained the parvenu idea; and it wasn"t in any way carried out by her manners, which were as modest and silent and inaggressive as the very best can be. Personally he liked opulence, he responded to countless-guinea furs....
Soon there was a neat little history in his mind that was reasonably near the truth, of a hard-up professional family, fatherless perhaps, of a mercenary marriage at seventeen or so--and this....
And while Mr. Brumley"s observant and speculative faculties were thus active, his voice was busily engaged. With the acc.u.mulated artistry of years he was developing his pose. He did it almost subconsciously. He flung out hint and impulsive confidence and casual statement with the careless a.s.surance of the accustomed performer, until by nearly imperceptible degrees that finished picture of the two young lovers, happy, artistic, a little Bohemian and one of them doomed to die, making their home together in an atmosphere of sunny gaiety, came into being in her mind....
"It must have been beautiful to have begun life like that," she said in a voice that was a sigh, and it flashed joyfully across Mr. Brumley"s mind that this wonderful person could envy his Euphemia.
"Yes," he said, "at least we had our Spring."
"To be together," said the lady, "and--so beautifully poor...."
There is a phase in every relationship when one must generalize if one is to go further. A certain practice in this kind of talk with ladies blunted the finer sensibilities of Mr. Brumley. At any rate he was able to produce this sentence without a qualm. "Life," he said, "is sometimes a very extraordinary thing."
Lady Harman reflected upon this statement and then responded with an air of remembered moments: "Isn"t it."
"One loses the most precious things," said Mr. Brumley, "and one loses them and it seems as though one couldn"t go on. And one goes on."
"And one finds oneself," said Lady Harman, "without all sorts of precious things----" And she stopped, transparently realizing that she was saying too much.
"There is a sort of vitality about life," said Mr. Brumley, and stopped as if on the verge of profundities.
"I suppose one hopes," said Lady Harman. "And one doesn"t think. And things happen."
"Things happen," a.s.sented Mr. Brumley.
For a little while their minds rested upon this thought, as chasing b.u.t.terflies might rest together on a flower.
"And so I am going to leave this," Mr. Brumley resumed. "I am going up there to London for a time with my boy. Then perhaps we may travel-Germany, Italy, perhaps-in his holidays. It is beginning again, I feel with him. But then even we two must drift apart. I can"t deny him a public school sooner or later. His own road...."
"It will be lonely for you," sympathized the lady. "I have my work,"
said Mr. Brumley with a sort of valiant sadness.