As these facts shaped themselves in answer to the blanched inquiries of Mr. Brumley his amazement grew. He began to realize that there must have been a correspondence during her incarceration, that all sorts of things had been happening while he had been dreaming, and when he went round to Lady Beach-Mandarin, who was just packing up to be the life and soul of a winter-sports party at a nice non-Lunnite hotel at Lenzerheide, he learnt particulars that chilled him to the marrow. "They"ve made it up,"
said Lady Beach-Mandarin.
"But how?" gasped Mr. Brumley, with his soul in infinite distress. "But how?"
"The Ogre, it seems, has come to see that bullying won"t do. He"s given in tremendously. He"s let her have her way with the waitress strike and she"s going to have an allowance of her own and all kinds of things.
It"s settled. It"s his mother and that man Charterson talked him over.
You know--his mother came to me--as her friend. For advice. Wanted to find out what sort of things we might have been putting in her head. She said so. A curious old thing--vulgar but--_wise_. I liked her. He"s her darling--and she just knows what he is.... He doesn"t like it but he"s taken his dose. The thought of her going to prison again----! He"s let her do anything rather than that...."
"And she"s gone to him!"
"Naturally," said Lady Beach-Mandarin with what he felt to be deliberate brutality. Surely she must have understood----
"But the waitress strike--what has it got to do with the waitress strike?"
"She cared--tremendously."
"_Did_ she?"
"Tremendously. And they all go back and the system of inspection is being altered, and he"s even forgiven Babs Wheeler. It made him ill to do it but he did."
"And she"s gone back to him."
"Like G.o.diva," said Lady Beach-Mandarin with that sweeping allusiveness that was part of her complicated charm.
--5
For three days Mr. Brumley was so staggered by these things that it did not occur to him that it was quite possible for him to see Lady Harman for himself and find out just how things stood. He remained in London with an imagination dazed. And as it was the Christmas season and as George Edmund in a rather expectant holiday state had now come up from Margate, Mr. Brumley went in succession to the Hippodrome, to Peter Pan and to an exhibition at Olympia, a.s.sisted at an afternoon display of the kinemacolor at La Scala Theatre, visited Hamley"s and lunched George Edmund once at the Criterion and twice at the Climax Club, while thinking of nothing in all the world but the incalculable strangeness of women. George Edmund thought him a very pa.s.sive leadable parent indeed, less querulous about money matters and altogether much improved. The glitter and colour of these various entertainments reflected themselves upon the surface of that deep flood of meditation, hook-armed wooden-legged pirates, intelligent elephants, ingenious but extremely expensive toys, flickering processions, comic turns, s.n.a.t.c.hes of popular music and George Edmund"s way of eating an orange, pictured themselves on his mind confusedly without in any way deflecting its course. Then on the fourth day he roused himself, gave George Edmund ten shillings to get himself a cutlet at the Cafe Royal and do the cinematographs round and about the West End, and so released reached Aleham in time for a temperate lunch. He chartered the Aleham car to take him to Black Strand and arrived there about a quarter past three, in a great effort to feel himself a matter-of-course visitor.
It ought to be possible to record that Mr. Brumley"s mind was full of the intensest sense of Lady Harman during that journey and of nothing else, but as a matter of fact his mind was now curiously detached and reflective, the tensions and expectation of the past month and the astonishment of the last few days had worked themselves out and left him as it were the pa.s.sive instrument of the purpose of his more impa.s.sioned moods. This distressed lover approached Black Strand in a condition of philosophical la.s.situde.
The road from Aleham to Black Strand is a picturesque old English road, needlessly winding and badly graded, wriggling across a healthy wilderness with occasional pine-woods. Something in that familiar landscape--for his life had run through it since first he and Euphemia on a tandem bicycle and altogether very young had sought their ideal home in the South of England--set his mind swinging and generalizing.
How freshly youthful he and Euphemia had been when first he came along that road, how crude, how full of happy expectations of success; it had been as bright and it was now as completely gone as the sunsets they had seen together.
How great a thing life is! How much greater than any single romance, or any individual affection! Since those days he had grown, he had succeeded, he had suffered in a reasonable way of course, still he could recall with a kind of satisfaction tears and deep week-long moods of hopeless melancholy--and he had changed. And now dominating this landscape, filling him with new emotions and desires and perplexing intimations of ignorance and limitations he had never suspected in his youth, was this second figure of a woman. She was different from Euphemia. With Euphemia everything had been so simple and easy; until that slight fading, that fatigue of entire success and satisfaction, of the concluding years. He and Euphemia had always kept it up that they had no thought in the world except for one another.... Yet if that had been true, why hadn"t he died when she did. He hadn"t died--with remarkable elasticity. Clearly in his case there had been these unexplored, unsuspected hinterlands of possibility towards which Lady Harman seemed now to be directing him. It came to him that afternoon as an entirely fresh thought that there might also have been something in Euphemia beyond their simple, so charmingly treated relationship. He began to recall moments when Euphemia had said perplexing little things, had looked at him with an expression that was unexpected, had been--difficult....
I write of Mr. Brumley to tell you things about him and not to explain him. It may be that the appet.i.te for thorough good talks with people grows upon one, but at any rate it did occur to Mr. Brumley on his way to talk to Lady Harman, it occurred to him as a thing distressingly irrevocable that he could now never have a thorough good talk with Euphemia about certain neglected things between them. It would have helped him so much....
His eyes rested as he thought of these things upon the familiar purple hill crests, patched that afternoon with the lingering traces of a recent snowstorm, the heather slopes, the dark mysterious woods, the patches of vivid green where a damp and marshy meadow or so broke the moorland surface. To-day in spite of the sun there was a bright blue-white line of frost to the northward of every hedge and bank, the trees were dripping down the white edgings of the morning into the pine-needle mud at their feet; he had seen it so like this before; years hence he might see it all like this again; all this great breezy countryside had taken upon itself a quality of endurance, as though it would still be real and essential in his mind when Lady Harman had altogether pa.s.sed again. It would be real when he himself had pa.s.sed away, and in other costumes and other vehicles fresh Euphemias and new crude George Brumleys would come along, feeling in the ultimate bright new wisdom of youth that it was all for them--a subservient scenery, when really it was entirely indifferent in its careless permanence to all their hopes and fancies....
--6
Mr. Brumley"s thoughts on the permanence of landscape and the mutability of human affairs were more than a little dashed when he came within sight of Black Strand and perceived that once cosily beautiful little home clipped and extended, its shrubbery wrecked and the old barn now pierced with windows and adorned--for its new chimneys were not working very well--by several efficient novelties in chimney cowls. Up the slopes behind Sir Isaac had extended his boundaries, and had been felling trees and levelling a couple of tennis courts for next summer.
Something was being done to the porch, and the jasmine had been cleared away altogether. Mr. Brumley could not quite understand what was in progress; Sir Isaac he learnt afterwards had found a wonderful bargain in a real genuine Georgian portal of great dignity and simplicity in Aleham, and he was going to improve Black Strand by transferring it thither--with the utmost precaution and every piece numbered--from its original situation. Mr. Brumley stood among the preparatory debris of this and rang a quietly resolute electric bell, which was answered no longer by Mrs. Rabbit but by the ample presence of Snagsby.
Snagsby in that doorway had something of the preposterous effect of a very large face beneath a very small hat. He had to Mr. Brumley"s eyes a restored look, as though his self-confidence had been thoroughly done up since their last encounter. Bygones were bygones. Mr. Brumley was admitted as one is admitted to any normal home. He was shown into the little study-drawing-room with the stepped floor, which had been so largely the scene of his life with Euphemia, and he was left there for the better part of a quarter of an hour before his hostess appeared.
The room had been changed very little. Euphemia"s solitary rose had gone, and instead there were several bowls of beaten silver scattered about, each filled with great chrysanthemums from London. Sir Isaac"s jackdaw acquisitiveness had also overcrowded the corner beyond the fireplace with a very fine and genuine Queen Anne cabinet; there were a novel by Elizabeth Robins and two or three feminist and socialist works lying on the table which would certainly not have been visible, though they might have been in the house, during the Brumley regime. Otherwise things were very much as they always had been.
A room like this, thought Mr. Brumley among much other mental driftage, is like a heart,--so long as it exists it must be furnished and tenanted. No matter what has been, however bright and sweet and tender, the s.p.a.ces still cry aloud to be filled again. The very essence of life is its insatiability. How complete all this had seemed in the moment when first he and Euphemia had arranged it. And indeed how complete life had seemed altogether at seven-and-twenty. Every year since then he had been learning--or at any rate unlearning. Until at last he was beginning to realize he had still everything to learn....
The door opened and the tall dark figure of Lady Harman stood for a moment in the doorway before she stepped down into the room.
She had always the same effect upon him, the effect of being suddenly remembered. When he was away from her he was always sure that she was a beautiful woman, and when he saw her again he was always astonished to see how little he had borne her beauty in mind. For a moment they regarded one another silently. Then she closed the door behind her and came towards him.
All Mr. Brumley"s philosophizing had vanished at the sight of her. His spirit was reborn within him. He thought of her and of his effect upon her, vividly, and of nothing else in the world.
She was paler he thought beneath her dusky hair, a little thinner and graver....
There was something in her manner as she advanced towards him that told him he mattered to her, that his coming there was something that moved her imagination as well as his own. With an almost impulsive movement she held out both her hands to him, and with an inspiration as sudden he took them and kissed them. When he had done so he was ashamed of his temerity; he looked up to meet in her dark eyes the scared shyness of a fallow deer. She suddenly remembered to withdraw her hands, and it became manifest to both of them that the incident must never have happened. She went to the window, stood almost awkwardly for a moment looking out of it, then turned. She put her hands on the back of the chair and stood holding it.
"I knew you would come to see me," she said.
"I"ve been very anxious about you," he said, and on that their minds rested through a little silence.
"You see," he explained, "I didn"t know what was happening to you. Or what you were doing."
"After asking your advice," she said.
"Exactly."
"I don"t know why I broke that window. Except I think that I wanted to get away."
"But why didn"t you come to me?"
"I didn"t know where you were. And besides--I didn"t somehow want to come to you."
"But wasn"t it wretched in prison? Wasn"t it miserably cold? I used to think of you of nights in some wretched ill-aired cell.... You...."
"It _was_ cold," she admitted. "But it was very good for me. It was quiet. The first few days seemed endless; then they began to go by quickly. Quite quickly at last. And I came to think. In the day there was a little stool where one sat. I used to sit on that and brood and try to think things out--all sorts of things I"ve never had the chance to think about before."
"Yes," said Mr. Brumley.
"All this," she said.
"And it has brought you back here!" he said, with something of the tone of one who has a right to enquire, with some flavour too of reproach.
"You see," she said after a little pause, "during that time it was possible to come to understandings. Neither I nor my husband had understood the other. In that interval it was possible--to explain.
"Yes. You see, Mr. Brumley, we--we both misunderstood. It was just because of that and because I had no one who seemed able to advise me that I turned to you. A novelist always seems so wise in these things.
He seems to know so many lives. One can talk to you as one can scarcely talk to anyone; you are a sort of doctor--in these matters. And it was necessary--that my husband should realize that I had grown up and that I should have time to think just how one"s duty and one"s--freedom have to be fitted together.... And my husband is ill. He has been ill, rather short of breath--the doctor thinks it is asthma--for some time, and all the agitation of this business has upset him and made him worse. He is upstairs now--asleep. Of course if I had thought I should make him ill I could never have done any of this. But it"s done now and here I am, Mr.
Brumley, back in my place. With all sorts of things changed. Put right...."
"I see," said Mr. Brumley stupidly.
Her speech was like the falling of an opaque curtain upon some romantic spectacle. She stood there, almost defensively behind her chair as she made it. There was a quality of premeditation in her words, yet something in her voice and bearing made him feel that she knew just how it covered up and extinguished his dreams and impulses. He heard her out and then suddenly his spirit rebelled against her decision. "No!" he cried.