Nevertheless, all had changed. In a woman"s life half a dozen years is a long time, for she may develop from girl to matron in that s.p.a.ce. The worst aspect of the affair presented itself to me. I had, in all probability, left her without uttering a word of farewell, and she--on her part--had, no doubt, accepted some other suitor. What more natural, indeed, than she should have married?
That thought held me rigid.
Again, as I strolled on beneath the rustling elms which led straight away in a wide old avenue towards where a distant village church stood, a prominent figure in the landscape, there recurred to me vivid recollections of that last night of my old self--of the astounding discovery I had made in the drawing-room at The Boltons.
How was I to account for that?
I paused and glanced around upon the view. All was quiet and peaceful there in the mid-day sunlight. Behind me stood the great white facade of Denbury; before, a little to the right, lay a small village with its white cottages--the villages of Littleham, I afterwards discovered--and to the left white cliffs and the blue stretch of the English Channel gleaming through the greenery.
From the avenue I turned and wandered down a by-path to a stile, and there I rested, in full uninterrupted view of the open sea. Deep below was a cove--Littleham Cove, it proved to be--and there, under shelter of the cliffs, a couple of yachts were riding gaily at anchor, while far away upon the clear horizon a dark smoke-trail showed the track of a steamer outward bound.
The day was brilliant. It was July in Devonshire, that fairest of all counties--and July there is always a superb month. The air, warm and balmy, was laden with the scent of roses and honeysuckle, the only sounds that broke the quiet were the songs of the birds and the soft rustling of the trees.
I sat there trying to decide how to act.
For the first time it occurred to me that my position was one of a certain peril, for if I did not act with tact and caution, that woman who called herself my wife, aided by that idiot Britten, might declare that I was mad, and cause me to be placed beneath restraint. Therefore, to gain my freedom, it was evidently necessary that I should act with discretion and keep my own counsel.
I looked around upon the fair panorama of nature spread before me. The world was six years older than when I had known it. What national events had, I wondered, happened in that time? Place yourself in my position, and picture to yourself the feeling of bewilderment that overcame me when I reflected upon what might or might not have transpired.
There crept over me a longing to escape from that place, the habitation of that awful woman with the powdered cheeks, and to return to London.
All my life and pleasure had been centred in the giant capital, and to it I intended now to go back and seek, if possible, the broken thread of my history, which might lead me to an elucidation of the marvellous mystery.
The world around me, the calm blue sea, the cloudless sky, the green gra.s.s-lands, the soft whispering of the foliage seemed so peaceful that I could scarce believe that so much evil, so much of human malice, could exist. The tranquillity of my surroundings induced within me a quieter frame of mind, and I set to planning carefully how I might escape and return to London.
To endeavour to do so openly would, I saw, be to draw upon me the spies of my hideous wife. Was I not believed by all to be insane? Then certainly I should not be allowed to go at large without some one at my side.
I wanted to be alone. The presence of a second person entertaining suspicions as to my sanity would seriously hamper me, and prevent me prosecuting the inquiries I intended to inst.i.tute regarding my past.
No. To escape successfully I should be compelled to fly to London, and once there alter my appearance and a.s.sume another name. Search would undoubtedly be made for me, but once in London I felt confident in being able to foil any efforts of my wife"s agents.
Therefore I sat upon the stile and calmly matured my plans.
The chiming of a clock, apparently in the turret upon my own stables at Denbury, fell upon my ears. It struck one. Then the sharp ringing of a bell--the luncheon-bell--followed.
Gedge had told me that the place was near Budleigh-Salterton. Was it near enough, I wondered, for me to walk there, and was there a station?
There might, I reflected, be a map in the library. I would be compelled to trace it out and seek my route, for I was absolutely ignorant of that corner of Devonshire.
Yes, my best policy, I decided, was to return to the house, act as indifferently as possible, and meanwhile complete my plans for escape.
I retraced my steps to the house by the path I had traversed, and upon the lawn was met by the man Gill, who announced--
"The luncheon-bell has rung, sir. I hope you feel a little better, sir."
"Oh, much better," I answered airily, and with an effort at self-possession followed him into the imitation old-oak dining-room, which Gedge had shown me during our tour of the place.
The woman with the powdered cheeks was already seated at the head of the table, erect and stately, with an expression of _hauteur_ which ill became her.
"I hope you feel better after your walk," she said, as I seated myself.
"Oh, much better," I responded in a tone of irony. "The pain has practically pa.s.sed."
"You should really rest," she said, in that squeaky, artificial tone which so jarred upon my nerves. "Do take the doctor"s advice."
It was on the tip of my tongue to make a further unwriteable remark regarding the doctor, but I managed to control myself and reply--
"Yes, I think after luncheon I shall lie down for a little time. I have, however, some pressing letters to write first."
"Let Gedge attend to your correspondence for to-day," she urged, with that mock juvenility which rendered her so hideously ridiculous.
"No," I responded. "I have, unfortunately, to attend to several pressing matters personally. Afterwards I will rest."
"Do, there"s a dear," she said.
I bit my lip. She nauseated me when she used that affectionate term.
The only woman I loved was Mabel Anson, but whether she were still alive, or whether married, I knew not. The very thought that I was bound in matrimony to this woman sitting in the high-backed chair of carved oak was disgusting. I loathed her.
How I continued to eat the dishes Gill handed me I know not, nor do I remember what conversation pa.s.sed between my pseudo-wife and myself as we sat there. Many were the abrupt and painful silences which fell between us.
She struck me as an ascetic, strong-minded woman, who, before others, fawned upon me with an affected devotion which in one of her age was ludicrous; yet when we were alone she was rigid and overbearing, with the positive air of one who believed me far beneath her alike in social station and in intellect. When Gill was absent she spoke in a hard, patronising tone, which so angered me that with great difficulty I retained my temper.
Yet it was my policy, I knew, to conceal my thoughts, and to lead her to believe that the words I had uttered, and my failure to recognise her, were owing to the blow I accidentally received, and that I was now, just as I had been before, her husband.
What a hollow sham that meal was! Now that I think of it I cannot refrain from smiling at my extraordinary position, and how I showed her delicate attention in order to the more impress her of my solicitude for her welfare.
When at last she rose it was with a hope that I would go to my room and rest.
I seized that opportunity.
"I shall," I answered. "But don"t let them call me for dinner. I will have something when I awake. Britten has ordered perfect quiet."
"Very well," she answered. Then, turning to Gill, she said, "You hear.
Mr Heaton is not to be aroused at dinner."
"Yes, madam," answered the man, bowing as we both pa.s.sed out.
At once I walked along to the library, shut the door, and locked it.
I had much to do to prepare for my flight.
Yes, as I had expected, there was an ordnance map of the Teignmouth district tacked to the wall; and searching, I quickly found Denbury marked upon it, standing on the Exmouth road over the High Land of Orcombe, halfway between that place and Budleigh-Salterton. The South-Western Railway ran; I saw, from Exmouth to London, by way of Exeter, and my first impulse was to walk into Exmouth, and take train thence. The fact that I was probably known at that station occurred to me, therefore I made up my mind to avoid the terminus and join the train at Lympston, a small station further towards Exeter.
Taking up my pen I made a rough sketch-plan of my route, which pa.s.sed Littleham church, then by the left-hand road struck across country, crossing the high-road to Exmouth at right angles, continuing through the village of Withycombe Raleigh, and keeping straight on until it joined the main road to Exeter. At the commencement of the village of Lympston it was necessary, I saw, to turn sharp to the left, and at the end of the road I should find the station, close to the river Exe.
In order to avoid mistaking the road and entering the town of Exmouth, I made a full and careful plan, which when completed I placed in my pocket. The distance, I calculated roughly, was between five and six miles over a road rather difficult to find without a map.
Among the books on the table I found a Bradshaw, with the page of local trains turned down, and from it learned that a train with connexion from London stopped at Lympston at 7:55 p.m., while the train in connexion with the up-mail from Exeter stopped there at 8:20. The latter I decided upon taking.
The fact that I had expressed my desire to sleep would prevent Gill coming to call me at the dinner hour, and by the time I was missed I should be well on my way to London.
The question of money occurred to me. I had noticed some loose gold and a couple of five-pound notes in one of the drawers which Gedge had opened, and having a duplicate set of keys in my pocket, I transferred the whole--a little under fourteen pounds--to my pocket.