"Oh I have it here."
"And you"ve brought it to show me?"
"I"ve brought it to show you."
So he said with a distinctness that had, among his other oddities, almost a sound of cheer, yet making no movement that matched his words.
She could accordingly but offer again her expectant face, while his own, to her impatience, seemed perversely to fill with another thought.
"But now that you"ve done so you feel you don"t want to."
"I want to immensely," he said. "Only you tell me nothing."
She smiled at him, with this, finally, as if he were an unreasonable child. "It seems to me I tell you quite as much as you tell me. You haven"t yet even told me how it is that such explanations as you require don"t come from your doc.u.ment itself." Then as he answered nothing she had a flash. "You mean you haven"t read it?"
"I haven"t read it."
She stared. "Then how am I to help you with it?"
Again leaving her while she never budged he paced five strides, and again he was before her. "By telling me _this_. It"s something, you know, that you wouldn"t tell me the other day."
She was vague. "The other day?"
"The first time after my return--the Sunday I came to you. What"s he doing," Densher went on, "at that hour of the morning with her? What does his having been with her there mean?"
"Of whom are you talking?"
"Of that man--Lord Mark of course. What does it represent?"
"Oh with Aunt Maud?"
"Yes, my dear--and with you. It comes more or less to the same thing; and it"s what you didn"t tell me the other day when I put you the question."
Kate tried to remember the other day. "You asked me nothing about any hour."
"I asked you when it was you last saw him--previous, I mean, to his second descent at Venice. You wouldn"t say, and as we were talking of a matter comparatively more important I let it pa.s.s. But the fact remains, you know, my dear, that you haven"t told me."
Two things in this speech appeared to have reached Kate more distinctly than the others. "I "wouldn"t say"?--and you "let it pa.s.s"?" She looked just coldly blank. "You really speak as if I were keeping something back."
"Well, you see," Densher persisted, "you"re not even telling me now.
All I want to know," he nevertheless explained, "is whether there was a connexion between that proceeding on his part, which was practically--oh beyond all doubt!--the shock precipitating for her what has now happened, and anything that had occurred with him previously for yourself. How in the world did he know we"re engaged?"
V
Kate slowly rose; it was, since she had lighted the candles and sat down, the first movement she had made. "Are you trying to fix it on me that I must have told him?"
She spoke not so much in resentment as in pale dismay--which he showed he immediately took in. "My dear child, I"m not trying to "fix"
anything; but I"m extremely tormented and I seem not to understand.
What has the brute to do with us anyway?"
"What has he indeed?" Kate asked.
She shook her head as if in recovery, within the minute, of some mild allowance for his unreason. There was in it--and for his reason really--one of those half-inconsequent sweetnesses by which she had often before made, over some point of difference, her own terms with him. Practically she was making them now, and essentially he was knowing it; yet inevitably, all the same, he was accepting it. She stood there close to him, with something in her patience that suggested her having supposed, when he spoke more appealingly, that he was going to kiss her. He hadn"t been, it appeared; but his continued appeal was none the less the quieter. "What"s he doing, from ten o"clock on Christmas morning, with Mrs. Lowder?"
Kate looked surprised. "Didn"t she tell you he"s staying there?"
"At Lancaster Gate?" Densher"s surprise met it. ""Staying"?--since when?"
"Since day before yesterday. He was there before I came away." And then she explained--confessing it in fact anomalous. "It"s an accident--like Aunt Maud"s having herself remained in town for Christmas, but it isn"t after all so monstrous. _We_ stayed--and, with my having come here, she"s sorry now--because we neither of us, waiting from day to day for the news you brought, seemed to want to be with a lot of people."
"You stayed for thinking of--Venice?"
"Of course we did. For what else? And even a little," Kate wonderfully added--"it"s true at least of Aunt Maud--for thinking of you."
He appreciated. "I see. Nice of you every way. But whom," he enquired, "has Lord Mark stayed for thinking of?"
"His being in London, I believe, is a very commonplace matter. He has some rooms which he has had suddenly some rather advantageous chance to let--such as, with his confessed, his decidedly proclaimed want of money, he hasn"t had it in him, in spite of everything, not to jump at."
Densher"s attention was entire. "In spite of everything? In spite of what?"
"Well, I don"t know. In spite, say, of his being scarcely supposed to do that sort of thing."
"To try to get money?"
"To try at any rate in little thrifty ways. Apparently however he has had for some reason to do what he can. He turned at a couple of days"
notice out of his place, making it over to his tenant; and Aunt Maud, who"s deeply in his confidence about all such matters, said: "Come then to Lancaster Gate--to sleep at least--till, like all the world, you go to the country." He was to have gone to the country--I think to Matcham--yesterday afternoon: Aunt Maud, that is, told me he was."
Kate had been somehow, for her companion, through this statement, beautifully, quite soothingly, suggestive. "Told you, you mean, so that you needn"t leave the house?"
"Yes--so far as she had taken it into her head that his being there was part of my reason."
"And _was_ it part of your reason?"
"A little if you like. Yet there"s plenty here--as I knew there would be--without it. So that," she said candidly, "doesn"t matter. I"m glad I am here: even if for all the good I do--!" She implied however that that didn"t matter either. "He didn"t, as you tell me, get off then to Matcham; though he may possibly, if it is possible, be going this afternoon. But what strikes me as most probable--and it"s really, I"m bound to say, quite amiable of him--is that he has declined to leave Aunt Maud, as I"ve been so ready to do, to spend her Christmas alone.
If moreover he has given up Matcham for her it"s a _procede_ that won"t please her less. It"s small wonder therefore that she insists, on a dull day, in driving him about. I don"t pretend to know," she wound up, "what may happen between them; but that"s all I see in it."
"You see in everything, and you always did," Densher returned, "something that, while I"m with you at least, I always take from you as the truth itself."
She looked at him as if consciously and even carefully extracting the sting of his reservation; then she spoke with a quiet gravity that seemed to show how fine she found it. "Thank you." It had for him, like everything else, its effect. They were still closely face to face, and, yielding to the impulse to which he hadn"t yielded just before, he laid his hands on her shoulders, held her hard a minute and shook her a little, far from untenderly, as if in expression of more mingled things, all difficult, than he could speak. Then bending his head he applied his lips to her cheek. He fell, after this, away for an instant, resuming his unrest, while she kept the position in which, all pa.s.sive and as a statue, she had taken his demonstration. It didn"t prevent her, however, from offering him, as if what she had had was enough for the moment, a further indulgence. She made a quiet lucid connexion and as she made it sat down again. "I"ve been trying to place exactly, as to its date, something that did happen to me while you were in Venice. I mean a talk with him. He spoke to me--spoke out."
"Ah there you are!" said Densher who had wheeled round.
"Well, if I"m "there," as you so gracefully call it, by having refused to meet him as he wanted--as he pressed--I plead guilty to being so.
Would you have liked me," she went on, "to give him an answer that would have kept him from going?"
It made him a little awkwardly think. "Did you know he was going?"
"Never for a moment; but I"m afraid that--even if it doesn"t fit your strange suppositions--I should have given him just the same answer if I had known. If it"s a matter I haven"t, since your return, thrust upon you, that"s simply because it"s not a matter in the memory of which I find a particular joy. I hope that if I"ve satisfied you about it," she continued, "it"s not too much to ask of you to let it rest."
"Certainly," said Densher kindly, "I"ll let it rest." But the next moment he pursued: "He saw something. He guessed."