He muttered this so fiercely that Harry said no more, and the white beard shone in the light of the fire, and his blind eye opened and shut like a box, and his wrinkled hand shook on his knee. The fishing had been bad of late, and here again they spoke as if some personal power had been at work. There were few there who had not lost some one during the years that they had served her, and the memory of what this had been and the foreshadowing of the dangerous future hung over them in the room. Songs were sung, jokes were made, but they were the songs and laughter of men on guard, with the enemy to be encountered, perhaps, in the morning.
Harry sat in his corner of the great seat, watching the leaping of the flames, his hand on Newsome"s shoulder, listening to the murmuring voices at his side. He scarcely knew whether he were awake or sleeping; their laughter came to him dimly, and it seemed that he was alone there with only Newsome by his side and the dog sleeping at his feet. The tobacco smoke hung in grey-blue wreaths above his head and the gold light of the two lamps shone mistily, without shape or form.
Perhaps it was really a dream. The old man with the white beard and the blind eye was sleeping, his head on his breast. A man with a vacant expression was telling a tale, heavily, slowly, gazing at the fire. The others were not listening--or at any rate not obviously so.
They, too, gazed at the fire--it had, as it were, become personal and mesmerised the room. Perhaps it was a dream. He would wake and find himself at "The Flutes." There would be Clare and Garrett and--Robin!
He would put all that away now; he would forget it for a moment, at least. He had failed them; they had not wanted him and had told him so,--but here they had known him and loved him; they had welcomed him back as though there had been no intervening s.p.a.ce of years. They at least had known what life was. They had not played with it, like those others. They had not surrounded themselves with barricades of artificiality, and glanced through distorting mirrors at their own exaggerated reflection; they had seen life simply, fearlessly, accepting their peril like men and enjoying their fate with the greatness of soul that simplicity had given them. They were not like those others; those on the hill had invaded the sea with noisy clamour, had greeted her familiarly and offered her bathing-machines and boarding-houses; these others had reverenced her and learnt to know her, alone on the downs in the first grey of the dawn, or secretly, when the breakers had rolled in over the sand, carrying with them the red and gold of some gorgeous sunset.
He contrasted them in his mind--the Trojans and the Greeks. He turned round a little in his seat and listened to the story: "It were a man--a strange man with horns and hoofs, so he said--and a merry, deceiving eye; but he couldn"t see him clear because of the mist that hung there, with the moon pushing through like a candle, he said. The man was laughing to himself and playing with leaves that danced at his feet under the wind. It can"t have been far from the town, because Joe heard St. Elmo"s bell ringin" and he could hear the sea quite plain.
He ..."
The voice seemed to trail off again into the distance; Harry"s thoughts were with his future. What was he to do? It seemed to him that his crisis had come and was now facing him. Should he stay or should he flee? Why should he not escape--away into the country, where he could live his life without fear, where there would be no contempt, no hampering family traditions? Should he stay and wait while Robin learnt to hate him? At the thought his face grew white and he clenched his hands. Robin ... Robin ... Robin ... it always came back to that--and there seemed no answer. That dream of love between father and son, the dream that he had cherished for twenty years, was shattered, and the bubble had burst....
"So Joe said he didn"t know but he thought it was to the left and down through the Cove--to the old church he meant; and the man laughed and danced with the leaves through the mist; and once Joe thought he was gone, and there he was back again, laughin"."
No, he would face it. He would take his place as he had intended--he would show them of what stuff he was made--and Robin would see, at last. The boy was young, it would of course take time----
The door of the inn opened and some one came in. The lamps flared in the wind, and there was a cry from the fireplace. "Mr. Bethel! Well, I"m right glad!"
Harry started. Bethel--that had been the name of his friend--the girl who had come to tea. The new-comer was a large man, over six feet in height, and correspondingly broad. His head was bare, and his hair was a little long and curly. His eyes were blue and twinkled, and his face was pleasantly humorous and, in the mouth and chin, strong and determined. He wore a grey flannel suit with a flannel collar, and he was smoking a pipe of great size. Newsome, starting to his feet, went forward to meet him. Bethel came to the fire and talked to them all; there was obviously a free companionship between them that told of long acquaintance. He was introduced to Harry.
"I"ve heard of you, Mr. Trojan," he said, "and have been expecting to meet you. I think that we have interests in common--at least an affection for Cornwall."
Harry liked him. He looked at him frankly between the eyes--there was no hesitation or disguise; there had been no barrier or division; and Harry was grateful.
Bethel sat down by the fire, and a discussion followed about matters of which Harry knew nothing. There was talk of the fishing prospects, which were bad; a gloom fell upon them all, and they cursed the new Pendragon--the race had grown too fast for them and compet.i.tion was too keen. But Harry noticed that they did not yet seem to have heard of the proposed destruction of the Cove. Then he got up to go. They asked him to come again, and he promised that he would. Bethel rose too.
"If you don"t object, Mr. Trojan," he said, "I"ll make one with you. I had only looked in for a moment and had never intended to stay. I was on my way back to the town."
They went out into the street together, and Harry shivered for a moment as the wind from the sea met them.
"Ah, that"s good," Bethel said; "your fires are well enough, but that wind is worth a bag of gold."
They walked for a little in silence, and then Harry said: "Those are a fine lot of men. They know what life really is."
Bethel laughed. "I know what you feel about them. You are glad that there"s no change. Twenty years has made little difference there. It is twenty years, isn"t it?"
"Yes," said Harry. "One thinks that it is nothing until one comes back, and then one thinks that it"s more than it really is."
"Yes, you"re disappointed," Bethel said. "I know. Pendragon has become popular, and to your mind that has destroyed its beauty--or, at any rate, some of it."
"Well, I hate it," Harry said fiercely, "all this noise and show. Why couldn"t they have left Pendragon alone? I don"t hate it for big places that are, as it were, in the line of march. I suppose that they must move with the day. That is inevitable. But Pendragon! Why--when I was a boy, it was simply a little town by the sea. No one thought about it or worried about it: it was a place wonderfully quiet and simple. It was too quiet for me then; I should worship it now. But I have come back and it has no room for me."
"I haven"t known it as long as you," Bethel answered, "but I confess that the very charm of it lies in its contrast. It is invasion, if you like, but for that very reason exciting--two forces at work and a battle in progress."
"With no doubt as to the ultimate victory," said Harry gloomily. "Yes, I see what you mean by the contrast. But I cannot stand there and see them dispa.s.sionately--you see I am bound up with so much of it. Those men to-night were my friends when I was a boy. Newsome is the best man that I have ever known, and there is the place; I love every stone of it, and they would pull it down."
They had left the Cove and were pressing up a steep path to the moor.
The moon was struggling through a bank of clouds; the wind was whistling over their heads.
Bethel suddenly stopped and turned towards Harry. "Mr. Trojan," he said, "I"m going to be impulsive and perhaps imprudent. There"s nothing an Englishman fears so much as impulse, and he is terribly ashamed of imprudence. But, after all, there is no time to waste, and if you think me impertinent you have only to say so, and the matter ends."
Harry laughed. "I am delighted," he began, but the other stopped him.
"No, wait a moment. You don"t know. I"m afraid you"ll think that I"m absurd--most people will tell you that I am worse. I want you to try to be a friend of mine, at any rate to give me a chance. I scarcely know you--you don"t know me at all--but; one goes on first impressions, and I believe that you would understand a little better than most of these people here--for one thing you have gone farther and seen more----"
There was a little pause. Harry was surprised. Here was what he had been wanting--friendship; a week ago he would have seized it with both hands; now he was a little distrustful; a week ago it would have been natural, delightful; now it was unusual, even a little absurd.
"I should be very glad," he said gravely. "I--scarcely----"
"Oh," Bethel broke in, "we shall come together naturally--there"s no fear of that. I could see at once that you know the mysteries of this place just as I do. Those others here are blind. I"ve been waiting for some one who would understand. But I don"t want you to listen to those other people about me; they will tell you a good deal--and most of it"s true. I don"t blame "em, but I"m curiously anxious for you not to think with them. It"s ridiculous, I know, when I had never seen you before. If you only knew how long I"d been waiting--to talk to some one--about--all this."
He waved his hand and they stopped. They were standing on the moor.
Above their head mighty grey clouds were driving like fleets before the wind, and the moon, a cold, lifeless thing, a moon of chiselled marble, appeared, and then, as though frightened at the wild flight of the clouds, vanished. The sea, pearl grey, lay like mist on the horizon, and its voice was gentle and tired, as though it were slowly dying into sleep. They were near the Four Stones--gaunt, grey, and old. The dog had followed Harry from the inn and now ran, a white shadow, in front of him.
"Let me tell you," Bethel said, "about myself. You know I was born in London--the son of a doctor with a very considerable practice. I received an excellent education, Rugby and Cambridge, and was trained for the law. I was, I believe, a rather ordinary person with a rather more than ordinary power of concentration, and I got on. I built up a business and was extremely and very conventionally happy. I married and we had a little girl. And then, one summer, we came down to Cornwall for our holiday. It was St. Ives. I remember that first morning as though it were yesterday. It was grey with the sea flinging great breakers. There was a smell of clover and cornflowers in the air, and great sheets of flaming poppies in the cornfields. But there was more than that. It was Cornwall, something magical, and that strange sense of old history and customs that you get nowhere else in quite the same way. Ah! but why a.n.a.lyse it?--you know as well as I do what I mean. A new man was born in me that day. I had been sociable and fond of little quite ordinary pleasures that came my way, now I wanted to be alone. Their conversation worried me; it seemed to be pointless and concerned with things that did not matter at all. I had done things like other men--now it was all to no purpose. I used to lie for hours on the cliffs watching the sea. I was often out all day, and I met all sorts of people, tramps, wasters, vagabonds, and they seemed the only people worth talking to. I met some strange fellows but excellent company--and they knew, all of them, the things that I knew; they had been out all night and seen the moon and the stars change and the first light of the dawn, and the little breeze that comes in those early hours from the sea, bringing the winds of other countries with it. And they were merry, they had a philosophy--they knew Cornwall and believed in her.
"Well--the holiday came to an end, and I had to go back! London. My G.o.d! After that I struggled--I went to my work every day with the sound of that sea in my ears and the vision of those moors always there with me. And the freedom! If you have tasted that once, if you have ever got really close so that you can hear strange voices and see beauties of which you had never dreamt, well, you will never get back to your old routine again. I don"t care how strong you are--you can"t do it, man. Once she"s got hold of you, nothing counts. That was eighteen years ago. I kept my work for a year, but it was killing me.
I got ill--I nearly died; once I ran away at night and tried to get to the sea. But I came back--there were my wife and girl. We had a little money, and I gave it all up and we came to live down here. I have done nothing since; rather shameful, isn"t it, for a strong man?
They have thought that here; they think that I am a waster--by their lights I am. But the things I have learnt! I didn"t know what living was until I came here! I knew nothing, I did nothing, I was a dead man. What do I care for their thoughts of me! They are in the dark!"
He had spoken eagerly, almost breathlessly. He was defending his position, and Harry knew that he had been waiting for years to say these things to some one of his own kind who would understand. And he understood only too well! Had he not himself that very evening been tempted to escape, to flee his duty? He had resisted, but the temptation had been very strong--that very voice of Cornwall of which Bethel had spoken--and if it were to return he did not know what answer he might give. But he was not thinking of Bethel; his thoughts were with the wife and daughter. That poor pathetic little woman--and the girl----
"And your wife and daughter?" he said. "What of them?"
"They are happy," Bethel said eagerly. "They are indeed. I don"t see them very often, but they have their own interests--and friends. My wife and I never had very much in common--Ah! you"re going to scold,"
he said, laughing, "and say just what all these other horrid people say. But I know. I grant it you all. I"m a waster--through and through; it"s d.a.m.nably selfish--worst of all, in this energetic and pushing age, it"s idle. Oh! I know and I"m sorry--but, do you know, I"m not ashamed. I can"t see it seriously. I wouldn"t harm a fly.
Why can"t they let me alone? At least I am happy."
They had reached the outskirts of the town by this time and Bethel stopped before a little dark house with red shutters and a tiny strip of garden.
"Here we are!" said he. "This is my place. Come in and smoke! It must be past your dinner hour up at "The Flutes." Come and have something with me."
Harry laughed. "They have already ceased wondering at my erratic habits," he said. "New Zealand is a bad place for method."
He followed Bethel in. It was a tiny hall, and on entering he stumbled over an umbrella-stand that lounged forward in a rickety position.
Bethel apologised. "We"re in a bit of a mess," he said. "In fact, to tell the truth, we always are!" He hung his coat in the hall and led the way into the dining-room. Mrs. Bethel and her daughter came forward. The little woman was amazing in a dress of bright red silk and an absurd little yellow lace cap. Only half the table was laid; for the rest a shabby green cloth, spotted with ink, formed a background for an incoherent litter of papers and needlework. The walls were lined with books and there were some piled on the floor.
A cold shoulder of mutton, baked potatoes in their skins, a melancholy gla.s.s dish containing celery, and a salad bowl startlingly empty, lay waiting on the table.
"Anne," said Bethel, "I"ve brought a guest--up with the family port and let"s be festive."
His great body seemed to fill the room, and he brought with him the breath of the sea and the wind. He began to carve the mutton like Siegfried making battle with Fafner, and indeed again and again during the evening he reminded Harry of Siegfried"s impetuous humour and rejoicing animal spirits.
Mrs. Bethel was delighted. Her little eyes twinkled with excitement, her yellow cap was pushed awry, and her hands trembled with pleasure.
It was obvious that a visitor was an unusual event. Miss Bethel had said very little, but she had given Harry that same smile that he had seen before. She busied herself now with the salad, and he watched her white fingers shine under the lamplight and the white curve of her neck as she bent over the bowl. She was dressed in some dark stuff--quite simple and una.s.suming, but he thought that he had never seen anything so beautiful.
He said very little, but he was quietly happy. Bethel did not talk very much; he was eating furiously--not greedily, but with great pleasure and satisfaction. Mrs. Bethel talked continuously. Her eyes shone and her cap bobbed on her head like a live thing.
"I said, Mr. Trojan, after our meeting the other day, that you would be a friend. I said so to Mary coming back. I felt sure that first day.