Oh! I tell you, the dreamer has his philosophy and creed like the rest of you!"
"That"s all very well," cried Harry. "But it"s a case of bread and b.u.t.ter. You will be bankrupt if you go on as you are!"
"Oh no!" Bethel laughed. "Providence looks after the dreamers.
Something always happens--I know something will happen now. We are on the edge of some good fortune. I can feel it."
The man was incorrigible--there was no doubt of it--but Harry had something further to say.
"Well, I want you to let me take a deeper interest in your affairs.
May I ask your daughter to marry me?"
"What? Mary?" Bethel stopped and shouted--"Why! That"s splendid! Of course, that"s what Providence has been intending all this time. The very thing, my dear fellow----" and he put his arm on Harry"s shoulder--"there"s no one I"d rather give my girl to. But it"s nothing to do with me, really. She"ll know her mind and tell you what she feels about it. Dear me! Just to think of it!"
He broke out into continuous chuckles all the way home, and seemed to regard the whole affair as a great joke. Harry left him shouting at the moon. He had scarcely meant to speak of it so soon, but the thought of her struggle and the knowledge of her father"s utter indifference decided matters. He went back to the house, determining on an interview in the morning.
Mary meanwhile had been spending an evening that was anything but pleasant--she had been going through her accounts and was horrified at what she saw. They were badly overdrawn, most of the shops had refused them further credit, and the little income that came to them could not hope to cover one-half of their expenses. What was to be done? Ruin and disgrace stared them in the face. They might borrow, but there was no one to whom she could go. They must, of course, give up their little house and go into rooms, but that would make very little difference. She looked at it from every point of view and could think of no easier alternative. She puzzled until her head ached, and the room, misty with figures, seemed to swim round her. She felt cruelly lonely, and her whole soul cried out for Harry--he would help her, he would tell her what to do. She knew now that she loved him with all the strength that was in her, that she had always loved him, from the first moment that she had known him. She remembered her promise to him that she would come and ask for his help if she really needed it--well, perhaps she would, in the end, but now, at least, she must fight it out alone. The first obvious thing was that her parents must know; that they would be of any use was not to be expected, but at least they must realise on what quicksands their house was built. They were like two children, with no sense whatever of serious consequences and penalties, and they would not, of course, realise that they were face to face with a brick wall of debts and difficulties and that there was no way over--but they must be told.
On the next morning, after breakfast, Mary penned her mother into the little drawing-room and broached the subject. Mrs. Bethel knew that something serious was to follow, and sat on the edge of her chair, looking exactly like a naughty child convicted of a fault. She was wearing a rather faded dress of bright yellow silk and little yellow shoes, which she poked out from under her dress every now and again and regarded with a complacent air.
"They are really not so shabby, Mary, my dear--not nearly so shabby as the blue ones, and a good deal more handsome--don"t you think so, my dear? But you say you want to talk about something, so I"ll be quiet--only if you wouldn"t mind being just a little quick because there are, really, so many things to be done this morning, that it puzzles me how----"
"Yes, mother, I know. But there is something I want to say. I won"t be long, only it"s rather important."
"Yes, dear--only don"t scold. You look as if you were going to scold.
I can always tell by that horrid line you have, dear, in your forehead.
I know I"ve done something I oughtn"t to, but what it is unless it"s those red silks I bought at Dixon"s on Friday, and they were so cheap, only----"
"No, mother, it"s nothing you"ve done. It"s rather what I"ve done, or all of us. We are all in the same boat. It"s my managing, I suppose; anyhow, I"ve made a mess of it and we"re very near the end of the rope.
There doesn"t seem any outlook anywhere. We"re overdrawn at the bank; they won"t give us credit in the town, and I don"t see where any"s to come from."
"Oh, it"s money! Well, my dear, of course it is provoking--such a horrid thing to have to worry about; but really I"m quite relieved. I thought it was something I"d done. You quite frightened me; and I"m glad you don"t mind about the red silks, because it really was tempting with----"
"No, dear, that"s all right. But this is serious. I"ve come to the end and I want you to help me. Will you just go through the books with me and see if anything can be done? I"m so tired and worried. I"ve been going at them so long that I daresay I"ve muddled it. It mayn"t be quite so hopeless as I"ve made out."
"The books! My dear Mary----" Mrs. Bethel looked at her daughter pathetically. "You know that I"ve no head for figures. Why, when mother died at home--we were in Chertsey then, Frank and Doris and I--and I tried to manage things, you know, it was really too absurd. I used to make the most ridiculous mistakes and Frank said that the village people did just what they liked with me, and I remember old Mrs. Blenkinsop charging me for eggs after the first month at quite an outrageous rate because----"
"Yes, mother, I know. But two heads are better than one, and I am really hopelessly puzzled to know what to do." Mary got up and went over to her mother and put her arm round her. "You see, dear, it is serious. There"s no money at all--less than none; and I don"t know where we are to turn. There"s no outlook at all. I"m afraid that it"s no use appealing to father--no use--and so it"s simply left for us two to do what we can. It"s frightening always doing it alone, and I thought you would help me."
"Well, of course, Mary dear, I"ll do what I can. No, I"m afraid that it would be no good appealing to your father. It"s strange how very little sense he"s ever had of money--of the value of it. I remember in the first week that we were married he bought some book or other and we had to go without quite a lot of things. I was angry then, but I"ve learnt since. It was our first quarrel."
She sighed. It was always Mrs. Bethel"s method of dealing with any present problem to flee into the happy land of reminiscence and to stay there until the matter had, comfortably or otherwise, settled itself.
"But I shouldn"t worry," she said, looking up at her daughter. "Things always turn up, and besides," she added, "you might marry, dear."
"Marry!" Mary looked up at her mother sharply. Mrs. Bethel looked a little frightened.
"Well, you will, you know, dear, probably--and perhaps--well, if he had money----"
"Mother!" She sprang up from her chair and faced her with flaming cheeks. "Do you mean to say that they are talking about it?"
"They? Who? It was only Mrs. Morrison the other day, at tea-time, said--that she thought----"
"Mrs. Morrison? That hateful woman discussing me? Mother, how could you let her? What did she say?"
"Why, only--I wish you wouldn"t look so cross, dear. It was nothing really--only that Mr. Trojan obviously cared a good deal--and it would be so nice if----"
"How dare she?" Mary cried again. "And you think it too, mother--that I would go on my knees to him to take us out of our trouble--that I would sweep his floors if he would help the family! Oh! It"s hateful!
Hateful!"
She flung herself into a chair by the window and burst into tears.
Mrs. Bethel stared at her in amazement. "Well, upon my word, my dear, one never knows how to take you! Why, it wasn"t as if she"d said anything, only that it would be rather nice." She paused in utter bewilderment and seemed herself a little inclined to cry.
At this moment the door opened--Mary sprang up. "Who is it?" she asked.
"Mr. Henry Trojan, miss, would like to come up if it wouldn"t----"
"No. Tell him, Jane, that----"
But he had followed the servant and appeared in the doorway smiling.
"I knew you wouldn"t mind my coming unconventionally like this," he said; "it"s a terrible hour in the morning--but I felt sure that I would catch you."
He had seen at once that there was something wrong, and he stopped confusedly in the doorway.
But Mrs. Bethel came forward, smiling nervously.
"Oh, please, Mr. Trojan, do come in. We always love to see you--you know we do--you"re one of our real friends--one of our best--and it"s only too good of you to spare time to come round and see us. But I am busy--it"s quite true--one is, you know, in the morning; but I don"t think that Mary has anything very important immediately. I think she might stop and talk to you," and in a confusion of t.i.ttered apologies she vanished away.
But he stood in the doorway, waiting for Mary to speak. She sat with her head turned to the window and struggled to regain her self-command; they had been talked about in the town. She could imagine how it had gone. "Oh! the Bethel girl! Yes, after the Trojan money and doing it cleverly too; she"ll hook him all right--he"s just the kind of man."
Oh! the hatefulness of it!
"What"s up?" He came forward a little, twisting his hat in his hands.
"Nothing!" She turned round and tried to smile. Indeed she almost laughed, for he looked so ridiculous standing there--like a great schoolboy before the headmaster, his hat turning in his hands; or rather, like a collie plunging out of the water and ready to shake himself on all and sundry. As she looked at him she knew that she loved him and that she could never marry him because Pendragon thought that she had hooked him for his money.
"Yes--there is something. What is it?" He had come forward and taken her hands.
But she drew them away slowly and sat down on the sofa. "I"m tired,"
she said a little defiantly, "that"s all--you know if you will come and call at such dreadfully unconventional hours you mustn"t expect to find people with all the paint on. I never put mine on till lunch----"
"No--it"s no good," he answered gravely. "You"re worried, and it"s wrong of you not to tell me. You are breaking your promise----"
"I made no promise," she said quickly.
"You did--that day on the moor. We were to tell each other always if anything went wrong. It was a bargain."
"Well, nothing"s wrong. I"m tired--bothered a bit--the old thing--there"s more to be bought than we"re able to pay for."
"I"ve come with a proposition," he answered gravely. "Just a suggestion, which I don"t suppose you"ll consider--but you might--it is that you should marry me."