And he began, in a tired voice, interrupted by frequent fits of coughing.
"Schopenhauer had just died, and it was arranged that we should watch, in turn, two by two, till morning.
"He was lying in a large apartment, very simple, vast, and gloomy. Two wax candles were burning on the bedside stand.
"It was midnight when I took up my task of watching along with one of our comrades. The two friends whom we replaced had left the apartment, and we came and sat down at the foot of the bed.
"The face was not changed. It was laughing. That pucker which we knew so well lingered still around the corners of the lips, and it seemed to us that he was about to open his eyes, to move, and to speak. His thought, or rather his thoughts, enveloped us. We felt ourselves more than ever in the atmosphere of his genius, absorbed, possessed by him.
His domination seemed to be even more sovereign now that he was dead.
A sense of mystery was blended with the power of this incomparable spirit.
"The bodies of these men disappear, but they remain themselves; and in the night which follows the stoppage of their heart"s beatings, I a.s.sure you, monsieur, they are terrifying.
"And in hushed tones we talked about him, recalling to mind certain sayings, certain formulas of his, those startling maxims which are like jets of flame flung, by means of some words, into the darkness of the Unknown Life.
""It seems to me that he is going to speak," said my comrade. And we stared with uneasiness bordering on fear at the motionless face with its eternal laugh. Gradually, we began to feel ill at ease, oppressed, on the point of fainting. I faltered:
""I don"t know what is the matter with me, but, I a.s.sure you, I am not well."
"And at that moment we noticed that there was an unpleasant odor from the corpse.
"Then, my comrade suggested that we should go into the adjoining room, and leave the door open; and I a.s.sented to his proposal.
"I took one of the wax candles which burned on the bedside stand, and I left the second behind. Then we went and sat down at the other end of the adjoining apartment, so as to be able to see from where we were the bed and the corpse, clearly revealed by the light.
"But he still held possession of us. One would have said that his immaterial essence, liberated, free, all-powerful and dominating, was flitting around us. And sometimes, too, the dreadful smell of the decomposed body came towards us and penetrated us, sickening and indefinable.
"Suddenly a shiver pa.s.sed through our bones: a sound, a slight sound, came from the death-chamber. Immediately we fixed our glances on him, and we saw, yes, monsieur, we saw distinctly, both of us, something white flying over the bed, falling on the carpet, and vanishing under an armchair.
"We were on our feet before we had time to think of anything, distracted by stupefying terror, ready to run away. Then we stared at each other. We were horribly pale. Our hearts throbbed so fiercely that our clothes swelled over our chests. I was the first to speak.
""You saw?"
""Yes, I saw."
""Can it be that he is not dead?"
""Why not, when the body is putrefying?"
""What are we to do?"
"My companion said in a hesitating tone:
""We must go and look."
"I took our wax candle and I entered first, searching with my eye through all the large apartment with its dark corners. There was not the least movement now, and I approached the bed. But I stood transfixed with stupor and fright: Schopenhauer was no longer laughing! He was grinning in a horrible fashion, with his lips pressed together and deep hollows in his cheeks. I stammered out:
""He is not dead!"
"But the terrible odor rose up to my nose and stifled me. And I no longer moved, but kept staring fixedly at him, scared as if in the presence of the apparition.
"Then my companion, having seized the other wax candle, bent forward.
Then, he touched my arm without uttering a word. I followed his glance, and I saw on the ground, under the armchair by the side of the bed, all white on the dark carpet, open as if to bite, Schopenhauer"s set of artificial teeth.
"The work of decomposition, loosening the jaws, had made it jump out of his mouth.
"I was really frightened that day, monsieur."
And as the sun was sinking towards the glittering sea, the consumptive German rose from his seat, gave me a parting bow, and retired into the hotel.
AFTER
"My darlings," said the Comtesse, "you must go to bed."
The three children, two girls and a boy, rose up, and went to kiss their grandmother.
Then, they came to say "Good night" to M. le Cure, who had dined at the chateau, as he did every Thursday.
The Abbe Mauduit put two of the young ones sitting on his knees, pa.s.sing his long arms clad in black behind the children"s necks; and, drawing their heads towards him with a paternal movement, he kissed each of them on the forehead with a long, tender kiss.
Then, he again set them down on the ground, and the little beings went off, the boy in front, and the girls behind.
"You are fond of children, M. le Cure," said the Comtesse.
"Very fond, Madame."
The old woman raised her bright eyes towards the priest.
"And--has your solitude never weighed too heavily on you?"
"Yes, sometimes."
He became silent, hesitated, and then added: "But I was never made for ordinary life."
"What do you know about it?"
"Oh! I know very well. I was made to be a priest: I followed my own path."
The Comtesse kept staring at him:
"Look here, M. le Cure, tell me this--tell me how it was you resolved to renounce for ever what makes us love life--the rest of us--all that consoles and sustains us? What is it that drove you, impelled you, to separate yourself from the great natural path of marriage and the family. You are neither an enthusiast nor a fanatic, neither a gloomy person nor a sad person. Was it some strange occurrence, some sorrow, that led you to take life-long vows?"
The Abbe Mauduit rose up and advanced towards the fire, then drew towards the flames the big shoes such as country priests generally wear. He seemed still hesitating as to what reply he should make.
He was a tall old man with white hair, and for the last twenty years he had been the pastor of the parish of Sainte-Antoine-du-Rocher. The peasants said of him: "There"s a good man for you!" And indeed he was a good man, benevolent, friendly to all, gentle, and, to crown all, generous. Like Saint Martin, he had cut his cloak in two. He freely laughed, and wept too for very little, just like a woman,--a thing that prejudiced him more or less in the hard minds of the country people.