She sate, but not alone; I know not well How this same interview had taken place, And even if I knew, I should not tell-- People should hold their tongues in any case; No matter how or why the thing befell, But there were she and Juan, face to face-- When two such faces are so, "t would be wise, But very difficult, to shut their eyes.
CVI.
How beautiful she looked! her conscious heart Glowed in her cheek, and yet she felt no wrong: Oh Love! how perfect is thy mystic art, Strengthening the weak, and trampling on the strong!
How self-deceitful is the sagest part Of mortals whom thy lure hath led along!-- The precipice she stood on was immense, So was her creed in her own innocence.[s]
CVII.
She thought of her own strength, and Juan"s youth, And of the folly of all prudish fears, Victorious Virtue, and domestic Truth, And then of Don Alfonso"s fifty years: I wish these last had not occurred, in sooth, Because that number rarely much endears, And through all climes, the snowy and the sunny, Sounds ill in love, whate"er it may in money.
CVIII.
When people say, "I"ve told you _fifty_ times,"
They mean to scold, and very often do; When poets say, "I"ve written _fifty_ rhymes,"
They make you dread that they "ll recite them too; In gangs of _fifty_, thieves commit their crimes; At _fifty_ love for love is rare, "t is true, But then, no doubt, it equally as true is, A good deal may be bought for _fifty_ Louis.
CIX.
Julia had honour, virtue, truth, and love For Don Alfonso; and she inly swore, By all the vows below to Powers above, She never would disgrace the ring she wore, Nor leave a wish which wisdom might reprove; And while she pondered this, besides much more, One hand on Juan"s carelessly was thrown, Quite by mistake--she thought it was her own;
CX.
Unconsciously she leaned upon the other, Which played within the tangles of her hair; And to contend with thoughts she could not smother She seemed by the distraction of her air.
"T was surely very wrong in Juan"s mother To leave together this imprudent pair,[t]
She who for many years had watched her son so-- I"m very certain _mine_ would not have done so.
CXI.
The hand which still held Juan"s, by degrees Gently, but palpably confirmed its grasp, As if it said, "Detain me, if you please;"
Yet there"s no doubt she only meant to clasp His fingers with a pure Platonic squeeze; She would have shrunk as from a toad, or asp, Had she imagined such a thing could rouse A feeling dangerous to a prudent spouse.
CXII.
I cannot know what Juan thought of this, But what he did, is much what you would do; His young lip thanked it with a grateful kiss, And then, abashed at its own joy, withdrew In deep despair, lest he had done amiss,-- Love is so very timid when "t is new: She blushed, and frowned not, but she strove to speak, And held her tongue, her voice was grown so weak.
CXIII.
The sun set, and up rose the yellow moon: The Devil"s in the moon for mischief; they Who called her CHASTE, methinks, began too soon Their nomenclature; there is not a day, The longest, not the twenty-first of June, Sees half the business in a wicked way, On which three single hours of moonshine smile-- And then she looks so modest all the while!
CXIV.
There is a dangerous silence in that hour, A stillness, which leaves room for the full soul To open all itself, without the power Of calling wholly back its self-control; The silver light which, hallowing tree and tower, Sheds beauty and deep softness o"er the whole, Breathes also to the heart, and o"er it throws A loving languor, which is not repose.
CXV.
And Julia sate with Juan, half embraced And half retiring from the glowing arm, Which trembled like the bosom where "t was placed; Yet still she must have thought there was no harm, Or else "t were easy to withdraw her waist; But then the situation had its charm, And then--G.o.d knows what next--I can"t go on; I"m almost sorry that I e"er begun.
CXVI.
Oh Plato! Plato! you have paved the way, With your confounded fantasies, to more Immoral conduct by the fancied sway Your system feigns o"er the controlless core Of human hearts, than all the long array Of poets and romancers:--You"re a bore, A charlatan, a c.o.xcomb--and have been, At best, no better than a go-between.
CXVII.
And Julia"s voice was lost, except in sighs, Until too late for useful conversation; The tears were gushing from her gentle eyes, I wish, indeed, they had not had occasion; But who, alas! can love, and then be wise?
Not that Remorse did not oppose Temptation; A little still she strove, and much repented, And whispering "I will ne"er consent"--consented.
CXVIII.
"T is said that Xerxes offered a reward[58]
To those who could invent him a new pleasure: Methinks the requisition"s rather hard, And must have cost his Majesty a treasure: For my part, I"m a moderate-minded bard, Fond of a little love (which I call leisure); I care not for new pleasures, as the old Are quite enough for me, so they but hold.
CXIX.
Oh Pleasure! you"re indeed a pleasant thing,[59]
Although one must be d.a.m.ned for you, no doubt: I make a resolution every spring Of reformation, ere the year run out, But somehow, this my vestal vow takes wing, Yet still, I trust, it may be kept throughout: I"m very sorry, very much ashamed, And mean, next winter, to be quite reclaimed.
CXX.
Here my chaste Muse a liberty must take-- Start not! still chaster reader--she"ll be nice hence- Forward, and there is no great cause to quake; This liberty is a poetic licence, Which some irregularity may make In the design, and as I have a high sense Of Aristotle and the Rules, "t is fit To beg his pardon when I err a bit.
CXXI.
This licence is to hope the reader will Suppose from June the sixth (the fatal day, Without whose epoch my poetic skill For want of facts would all be thrown away), But keeping Julia and Don Juan still In sight, that several months have pa.s.sed; we"ll say "T was in November, but I"m not so sure About the day--the era"s more obscure.
CXXII.
We"ll talk of that anon.--"T is sweet to hear At midnight on the blue and moonlit deep The song and oar of Adria"s gondolier,[60]
By distance mellowed, o"er the waters sweep; "T is sweet to see the evening star appear; "T is sweet to listen as the night-winds creep From leaf to leaf; "t is sweet to view on high The rainbow, based on ocean, span the sky.
CXXIII.
"T is sweet to hear the watch-dog"s honest bark Bay deep-mouthed welcome as we draw near home; "T is sweet to know there is an eye will mark Our coming, and look brighter when we come;[u]
"T is sweet to be awakened by the lark, Or lulled by falling waters; sweet the hum Of bees, the voice of girls, the song of birds, The lisp of children, and their earliest words.
CXXIV.
Sweet is the vintage, when the showering grapes In Baccha.n.a.l profusion reel to earth, Purple and gushing: sweet are our escapes From civic revelry to rural mirth; Sweet to the miser are his glittering heaps, Sweet to the father is his first-born"s birth, Sweet is revenge--especially to women-- Pillage to soldiers, prize-money to seamen.
CXXV.
Sweet is a legacy, and pa.s.sing sweet[v]
The unexpected death of some old lady, Or gentleman of seventy years complete, Who"ve made "us youth"[61] wait too--too long already, For an estate, or cash, or country seat, Still breaking, but with stamina so steady, That all the Israelites are fit to mob its Next owner for their double-d.a.m.ned post-obits.[w]
CXXVI.
"T is sweet to win, no matter how, one"s laurels, By blood or ink; "t is sweet to put an end To strife; "t is sometimes sweet to have our quarrels, Particularly with a tiresome friend: Sweet is old wine in bottles, ale in barrels; Dear is the helpless creature we defend Against the world; and dear the schoolboy spot[62]
We ne"er forget, though there we are forgot.