However this might be, the race went on Improving still through every generation, Until it centred in an only son, Who left an only daughter; my narration May have suggested that this single one Could be but Julia (whom on this occasion I shall have much to speak about), and she Was married, charming, chaste, and twenty-three.
LX.
Her eye (I"m very fond of handsome eyes) Was large and dark, suppressing half its fire Until she spoke, then through its soft disguise Flashed an expression more of pride than ire, And love than either; and there would arise A something in them which was not desire, But would have been, perhaps, but for the soul Which struggled through and chastened down the whole.
LXI.
Her glossy hair was cl.u.s.tered o"er a brow Bright with intelligence, and fair, and smooth; Her eyebrow"s shape was like the aerial bow, Her cheek all purple with the beam of youth, Mounting, at times, to a transparent glow, As if her veins ran lightning; she, in sooth, Possessed an air and grace by no means common: Her stature tall--I hate a dumpy woman.
LXII.
Wedded she was some years, and to a man Of fifty, and such husbands are in plenty; And yet, I think, instead of such a ONE "T were better to have TWO of five-and-twenty, Especially in countries near the sun: And now I think on "t, "_mi vien in mente_", Ladies even of the most uneasy virtue Prefer a spouse whose age is short of thirty.[m]
LXIII.
"T is a sad thing, I cannot choose but say, And all the fault of that indecent sun, Who cannot leave alone our helpless clay, But will keep baking, broiling, burning on, That howsoever people fast and pray, The flesh is frail, and so the soul undone: What men call gallantry, and G.o.ds adultery, Is much more common where the climate"s sultry,
LXIV.
Happy the nations of the moral North!
Where all is virtue, and the winter season Sends sin, without a rag on, shivering forth ("T was snow that brought St. Anthony[47] to reason); Where juries cast up what a wife is worth, By laying whate"er sum, in mulct, they please on The lover, who must pay a handsome price, Because it is a marketable vice.
LXV.
Alfonso was the name of Julia"s lord, A man well looking for his years, and who Was neither much beloved nor yet abhorred: They lived together as most people do, Suffering each other"s foibles by accord, And not exactly either _one_ or _two_; Yet he was jealous, though he did not show it, For Jealousy dislikes the world to know it.
LXVI.
Julia was--yet I never could see why-- With Donna Inez quite a favourite friend; Between their tastes there was small sympathy, For not a line had Julia ever penned: Some people whisper (but, no doubt, they lie, For Malice still imputes some private end) That Inez had, ere Don Alfonso"s marriage, Forgot with him her very prudent carriage;
LXVII.
And that still keeping up the old connection, Which Time had lately rendered much more chaste, She took his lady also in affection, And certainly this course was much the best: She flattered Julia with her sage protection, And complimented Don Alfonso"s taste; And if she could not (who can?) silence scandal, At least she left it a more slender handle.
LXVIII.
I can"t tell whether Julia saw the affair With other people"s eyes, or if her own Discoveries made, but none could be aware Of this, at least no symptom e"er was shown; Perhaps she did not know, or did not care, Indifferent from the first, or callous grown: I"m really puzzled what to think or say, She kept her counsel in so close a way.
LXIX.
Juan she saw, and, as a pretty child, Caressed him often--such a thing might be Quite innocently done, and harmless styled, When she had twenty years, and thirteen he; But I am not so sure I should have smiled When he was sixteen, Julia twenty-three; These few short years make wondrous alterations, Particularly amongst sun-burnt nations.
LXX.
Whate"er the cause might be, they had become Changed; for the dame grew distant, the youth shy, Their looks cast down, their greetings almost dumb, And much embarra.s.sment in either eye; There surely will be little doubt with some That Donna Julia knew the reason why, But as for Juan, he had no more notion Than he who never saw the sea of Ocean.
LXXI.
Yet Julia"s very coldness still was kind, And tremulously gentle her small hand Withdrew itself from his, but left behind A little pressure, thrilling, and so bland And slight, so very slight, that to the mind "T was but a doubt; but ne"er magician"s wand Wrought change with all Armida"s[48] fairy art Like what this light touch left on Juan"s heart.
LXXII.
And if she met him, though she smiled no more, She looked a sadness sweeter than her smile, As if her heart had deeper thoughts in store She must not own, but cherished more the while For that compression in its burning core; Even Innocence itself has many a wile, And will not dare to trust itself with truth, And Love is taught hypocrisy from youth.
LXXIII.
But Pa.s.sion most dissembles, yet betrays Even by its darkness; as the blackest sky Foretells the heaviest tempest, it displays Its workings through the vainly guarded eye, And in whatever aspect it arrays Itself, "t is still the same hypocrisy; Coldness or Anger, even Disdain or Hate, Are masks it often wears, and still too late.
LXXIV.
Then there were sighs, the deeper for suppression, And stolen glances, sweeter for the theft, And burning blushes, though for no transgression, Tremblings when met, and restlessness when left; All these are little preludes to possession, Of which young Pa.s.sion cannot be bereft, And merely tend to show how greatly Love is Embarra.s.sed at first starting with a novice.
LXXV.
Poor Julia"s heart was in an awkward state; She felt it going, and resolved to make The n.o.blest efforts for herself and mate, For Honour"s, Pride"s, Religion"s, Virtue"s sake: Her resolutions were most truly great, And almost might have made a Tarquin quake: She prayed the Virgin Mary for her grace, As being the best judge of a lady"s case.[49]
LXXVI.
She vowed she never would see Juan more, And next day paid a visit to his mother, And looked extremely at the opening door, Which, by the Virgin"s grace, let in another; Grateful she was, and yet a little sore-- Again it opens, it can be no other, "T is surely Juan now--No! I"m afraid That night the Virgin was no further prayed.[50]
LXXVII.
She now determined that a virtuous woman Should rather face and overcome temptation, That flight was base and dastardly, and no man Should ever give her heart the least sensation, That is to say, a thought beyond the common Preference, that we must feel, upon occasion, For people who are pleasanter than others, But then they only seem so many brothers.
LXXVIII.
And even if by chance--and who can tell?
The Devil"s so very sly--she should discover That all within was not so very well, And, if still free, that such or such a lover Might please perhaps, a virtuous wife can quell Such thoughts, and be the better when they"re over; And if the man should ask, "t is but denial: I recommend young ladies to make trial.
LXXIX.
And, then, there are such things as Love divine, Bright and immaculate, unmixed and pure, Such as the angels think so very fine, And matrons, who would be no less secure, Platonic, perfect, "just such love as mine;"
Thus Julia said--and thought so, to be sure; And so I"d have her think, were _I_ the man On whom her reveries celestial ran.
Lx.x.x.
Such love is innocent, and may exist Between young persons without any danger.
A hand may first, and then a lip be kissed; For my part, to such doings I"m a stranger, But _hear_ these freedoms form the utmost list Of all o"er which such love may be a ranger: If people go beyond, "t is quite a crime, But not my fault--I tell them all in time.
Lx.x.xI.
Love, then, but Love within its proper limits, Was Julia"s innocent determination In young Don Juan"s favour, and to him its Exertion might be useful on occasion; And, lighted at too pure a shrine to dim its Ethereal l.u.s.tre, with what sweet persuasion He might be taught, by Love and her together-- I really don"t know what, nor Julia either.
Lx.x.xII.
Fraught with this fine intention, and well fenced In mail of proof--her purity of soul[51]-- She, for the future, of her strength convinced, And that her honour was a rock, or mole,[n]
Exceeding sagely from that hour dispensed With any kind of troublesome control; But whether Julia to the task was equal Is that which must be mentioned in the sequel.