After a long time his father spoke again, more gently this time. "It"s been your ambition for a long time to be a scientist, hasn"t it?"
"You know it has."
"I"ve been very pleased, too. I"ve watched you and encouraged your interests and, as far as I can see, you"ve been developing in the right direction."
"I"m glad you think so," Ken said.
"But you"ve wanted to be a _great_ scientist. You"ve had an ambition to emulate men like Newton, Faraday, Davy, and the modern giants such as Einstein, Planck, de Broglie, Oppenheimer."
"Maybe I haven"t got the brains, but I can try."
His father snorted impatiently. "Do you think any one of them tried deliberately to be great, or to copy anyone else?"
Ken understood his meaning now. "I guess they didn"t. You can"t really do a thing like that."
"No, you can"t. You take the brains G.o.d has given you and apply them to the universe as you see it. The results take care of themselves.
"Some of us have enough insight to achieve greatness. Most of us lack the cleverness to cope effectively with such a wily opponent as the natural universe. Greatness and mediocrity have no meaning to a man who is absorbed in his study. You do what you have to do. You do what the best and highest impulses of your brain tell you to do. Expect nothing more than this of yourself. Nothing more is possible."
"I think I see what you mean," Ken said.
"I doubt it. Most of the men I know have never learned it. They struggle to write more papers, to get their names in more journals than their colleagues. They go out of their way to be patted on the back.
"They are the failures as scientists. For an example of success I recommend that you observe Dr. La.r.s.en closely. He is a man who has done a great deal to advance our knowledge of physical chemistry."
Professor Maddox paused. Then he said finally, "There is just one other thing."
"What"s that?" Ken asked.
"Up to now, you and all your friends have only played at science."
"Played!" Ken cried. "We"ve built our observatory, a 1000-watt radio transmitter--"
"Play; these things are toys. Educational toys, it is true, but toys, nevertheless."
"I don"t understand."
"Toys are fine for children. You and your friends, however, are no longer children. You haven"t got a chance now to grow up and gain an education in a normal manner. You can"t finish your childhood, playing with your toys. You can"t take all the time you need to find out what your capacities and apt.i.tudes are. You will never know a world that will allow you that luxury.
"Every available brain is needed on this problem. You"ve got to make a decision today, this very minute, whether you want to give a hand to its solution."
"You know I want to be in on it!"
"Do you? Then you"ve got to decide that you are no longer concerned about being a scientist. Forget the word. What you are does not matter.
You are simply a man with a problem to solve.
"You have to decide whether or not you can abandon your compa.s.sion for the millions who are going to die; whether you can reject all pressure from personal danger, and from the threat to everything and everyone that is of any importance to you.
"You"ve got to decide whether or not this problem of the destruction of surface tension of metals is the most absorbing thing in the whole world. It needs solving, not because the fate of the world hinges on it, but because it"s a problem that consumes you utterly. This is what drives you, not fear, not danger, not the opinion of anyone else.
"When he can function this way, the scientist is capable of solving important problems. By outward heartlessness he can achieve works of compa.s.sion greater than any of his critics. He knows that the greatest pleasure a man can know lies in taking a stand against those forces that bend ordinary men."
For the first time in his life Ken suddenly felt that he knew his father. "I wish you had talked to me like this a long time ago," he said.
Professor Maddox shook his head. "It would have been far better for you to find out these things for yourself. My telling you does not convince you they are true. That conviction must still come from within."
"Do you want me to become a scientist?" Ken asked.
"It doesn"t make any difference what I want," his father answered almost roughly. He was looking away from Ken and then his eyes found his son"s and his glance softened. He reached across the desk and grasped Ken"s hand.
"Yes, I want it more than anything else in the world," he said earnestly. "But it"s got to be what you want, too, or it"s no good at all. Don"t try to be anything for my sake. Determine your own goals clearly, and take as straight a path as you can to reach them. Just remember, if you do choose science the standards are severe."
"It"s what I want," said Ken evenly. "You said you needed me here. What do you want me to do?"
"Empty trash cans if we ask it," Professor Maddox said. "Forget about whose show it is. Professor La.r.s.en and I will be directing the research, and we"ll need every pair of hands and every brain that"s got an ounce of intelligence in this field. You do whatever you are asked to do and think of every possible answer to the questions that come before you. Is that good enough?"
"More than enough." Ken felt a sudden stinging sensation behind his eyes and turned to rub their corners roughly. "What about the other fellows in the club? Can you use them, too?"
"As many as have the ounce of intelligence I spoke of. The rest of them don"t need to know the things I have told you, but with you it was different. I had to know you understood just a little of what it means to be a scientist."
"I"ll be one. I"ll show you I can be one!"
Chapter 7. _Dust from the Stars_
Ken felt he had grown 3 inches taller after his father"s discussion. As if he had pa.s.sed some ancient ritual, he could be admitted to the company of adults and his opinions would be heard.
This proved to be true. His father rapidly organized the facilities of the college laboratories and recruited every possible science student in the chemistry and physics departments, as well as many from the high school. As these plans were outlined, Ken made a proposal of his own.
"I believe our first move," he said, "should be to set up a network of amateur radio stations operating in cities where there are other laboratories. If you could be in touch with them, ideas could be exchanged and duplication of work avoided."
"An excellent idea," said Professor Maddox. "You can work it out as we go along."
"No. It ought to be done immediately," Ken said. "If not, it may be almost impossible to find anyone on the air later. There may not be many amateurs who will bother to convert their rigs to battery operation.
There may not be many who can get the batteries together."
"Good enough!" his father said. "Let that have priority over everything else until you get it organized. Probably you should find at least two contacts in each of the university centers. Put at the top of your list Berkeley, Pasadena, Chicago, New York, and Washington, D.C.
"See if you can get relay contacts that will put us in touch with Stockholm, Paris, London, Berlin, and Tokyo. If so, we can have contact with the majority of the workers capable of contributing most to this problem."
"I"ll do my best," Ken promised.
Someone would be needed to operate the station and spend a good many hours a week listening and recording. He didn"t want to spend the time necessary doing that, and he knew none of the other club members would, either. At once he thought of Maria La.r.s.en. She would undoubtedly be happy to take over the job and feel she was doing something useful. On the way home he stopped at her house and told her what he had in mind.
She readily agreed.
"I don"t know anything about radio," she said. "You"ll have to show me what to do."