"Come, if possible. His heart is set upon it, though he does not realize his condition, and I cannot bear to tell him. Only the utmost care can save him. I am doing my best for him, but my nursing is as left-handed as my writing.
"Ever yours, "F.F."
His wife"s look of horror was Mr. Kendal"s preparation for this emphatic summons, perhaps a shock less sudden to him than to her, for he had not been without misgivings ever since he had heard of the situation of the injury. He read and spoke not, till the silence became intolerable, and she burst out almost with a scream, "Oh! Edmund, I knew not what I did when I took grandmamma into this house!"
"This is very perplexing," he said, his feelings so intense that he dared only speak of acting; "I must set out to-night."
"Order me to come with you," she said breathlessly. "That will cancel everything else."
"Would Mrs. Drury take charge of her aunt?" said he, with a moment"s hesitation; and Albinia felt it implied his impression that they were bound by her repeated promises never to quit the invalid, but she only spoke the more vehemently--
"Mrs Drury? She might--she would, under the circ.u.mstances. She could not refuse. If you desire me to come, I should not be doing wrong; and grandmamma might never even miss me. Surely--oh surely, a young life, full of hope and promise, that may yet be saved, is not to be set against what cannot be prolonged more than a few weeks."
"As to that," said Mr. Kendal, in the deliberate tone which denoted dissatisfaction, "though of course it would be the greatest blessing to have you with us, I think you may trust Gilbert to my care. And we must consider poor Sophia."
"She could not bear to be considered."
"No; but it would be leaving her in a most distressing position, when she is far from well, and with most uncongenial a.s.sistants. You see, poor Gilbert reckons on Lucy being here, which would make it very different. But think of poor Sophia in the event of Mrs. Meadows not surviving till our return!"
"You are right! It would half kill her! My promise was sacred; I was a wretch to think of breaking it. But when I think of my boy--my Gilbert pining for me, and I deserting him--"
"For the sake of duty," said her husband. "Let us do right, and trust that all will be overruled for the best. I shall go with an easier mind if I leave you with the other children, and I can be the sooner with him."
"I could travel as fast."
"I may soon bring him home to you. Or you might bring the others to join us in the south of France. You will all need change."
The decision was made, and her judgment acquiesced, though she could hardly have cast the balance for herself. She urged no more, even when relentings came over her husband at the thought of the trials to which he was leaving her, and of those which he should meet in solitude; yet not without a certain secret desire to make himself sufficient for the care and contentment of his own son. He cast about for all possible helpers for her, but could devise nothing except a note entreating her brother to be with her as much as possible, and commending her to the Dusautoys. It was a less decided kindness that he ordered Maurice"s pony to be turned out to gra.s.s, so as to prevent rides in solitude, thinking the boy too young to be trusted, and warned by the example of Gilbert"s temptations.
Going up to the bank to obtain a supply of gold, he found young O"More there without his uncle. The tidings of Gilbert"s danger had spread throughout the town, and one heart at least was softened. Ulick wrung the hand that lately he would not touch, and Mr. Kendal forgot his wrath as he replied to the warm-hearted inquiry for particulars.
"Then Mrs. Kendal cannot go with you?"
"No, it is impossible. There is no one able to take charge of Mrs.
Meadows."
"Ah! and Mrs. Cavendish Dusautoy is gone! I grieve for the hour when my pen got the better of me. Mr. Kendal, this is worse than I thought.
Your son will never forgive me when he knows I"m at the bottom of his disappointment."
"There is something to forgive on all hands," said Mr. Kendal. "That meddlesome boy of mine has caused worse results than we could have contemplated. I believe it has been a lesson to him."
"I know it has to some one else," said Ulick. "I wish I could do anything! It would be the greatest comfort you could give me to tell me of a thing I could do for Gilbert or any of you. If you"d send me to find Mr. Cavendish Dusautoy, and tell him "twas all my fault, and bring them back--"
"Rather too wild a project, thank you," said Mr. Kendal, smiling. "No; the only thing you could do, would be--if that boy of mine have not completely forfeited your kindness--"
"Maurice! Ah! how I have missed the rogue."
"Poor little fellow, I am afraid he may be a burthen to himself and every one else. It would be a great relief if you could be kind enough now and then to give him the pleasure of a walk."
Maurice did not attend greatly to papa"s permission to go out with Mr.
O"More. Either it was clogged with too many conditions of discretion, and too many reminiscences of the past; or Maurice"s mind was too much bent on the thought of his brother. Both children haunted the packing up, entreating to send out impossible presents. Maurice could hardly be persuaded out of contributing a perilous-looking boomerang, which he argued had some sense in it; while he scoffed at the little Awk, who stood kissing and almost crying over the china countenance of her favourite doll, entreating that papa would take dear Miss Jenny because Gibbie loved her the best of all, and always put her to sleep on his knees. At last matters were compromised by Sophy, who roused herself to do one of the few things for which she had strength, engrossing them by cutting out in paper an interminable hunt with horses and dogs adhering together by the noses and tails, which, when brilliantly painted according to their united taste, they might safely imagine giving pleasure to Gilbert, while, at any rate, it would do no harm in papa"s pocket-book.
CHAPTER XXVI.
The day after Mr. Kendal"s departure, Mrs. Meadows had another attack, but a fortnight still pa.s.sed before the long long task was over and the weary spirit set free. There had been no real consciousness and no one could speak of regret; of anything but relief and thankfulness that release had come at last, when Albinia had redeemed her pledge and knew she should no more hear of the dreary "very bad night," nor be greeted by the low, restless moan. The long good-night was come, and, on the whole, there was peace and absence of self-condemnation in looking back on the past connexion. Forbearance and unselfishness were recompensed by the calm tenderness with which she could regard one who at the outset had appeared likely to cause nothing but frets and misunderstandings.
Had she and Sophy been left to themselves, there would have been nothing to break upon this frame of mind, but early the next day arrived Mr. and Mrs. Drury, upsetting all her arrangements, implying that it had been presumptuous to exert any authority without relationship. It did seem hard that the claims of kindred should be only recollected in order to unsettle her plans, and offend her unostentatious tastes.
Averse both to the proposals, and to the discussion, she felt unprotected and forlorn, but her spirit revived as she heard her brother"s voice in the hall, and she hastened to put herself in his hands. He declined doing battle, he said it would be better to yield than to argue, and leave a grudge for ever. "It will not vex Edmund,"
he said, "and though you and Sophy may be pained by incongruities, they will hurt you less than disputing."
She felt that he was right, and by yielding the main points he contrived amicably to persuade Mr. Drury out of the numerous invitations and grand luncheon as well as to adhere to the day that she had originally fixed for the funeral, after which he hoped to take her and the young ones home with him and give her the thorough change and rest of which the over-energy of her manner betrayed the need.
Not that she consented. She could not bear not to meet her letters at once; or suppose Edmund and Gilbert should return to an empty, unaired house, and she thought herself selfish, when it might do so much good to Sophy, &c., &c., &c.--till Mr. Ferrars, going home for a night, agreed with Winifred, that domineering would be the only way to deal with her.
On his return he found Albinia on the stairs, and boxes and trunks carried down after her. Running to him, she exclaimed, abruptly, "I am going to Malta, Maurice, to-morrow evening!"
"Has Edmund sent for you?"
"Not exactly--he did not know--but Gilbert is dying, and wretched at my not coming. I never wished him good-by--he thinks I did not forgive him.
Don"t say a word--I shall go."
He held her trembling hands, and said, "This is not the way to be able to go. Come in here, sit down and tell me."
"It is no use to argue. It is my duty now," said Albinia; but she let him lead her into the room, where Sophy was changing the bright border of a travelling-cloak to c.r.a.pe, and Maurice stood watching, as if stunned.
"It is settled," continued she, rapidly. "Sophy and the children go to the vicarage. Yes, I know, you are very kind, but Maurice would be troublesome, and Winifred is not well enough, and the Dusautoys wish it."
"Yes, that may be the best plan, as I shall be absent."
She turned round, startled.
"I cannot let you go alone."
"Nonsense--Winifred--Sunday--Lent--I don"t want any one. Nothing could happen to me."
Mr. Ferrars caught Sophy"s eye beaming with sudden relief and grat.i.tude, and repeated, "If you go, I must take you."
"I can"t wait for Sunday," she said.
"What have you heard?"
She produced the letter, and read parts of it. The whole stood thus:--